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EPOV

"Hey, dinner is here," Bella said as she rubbed my stomach. All I did was sit up and take the ear buds out of my ears. "Are you okay?" she asked.

"No not really," I told her honestly.

"Talk to me," she pleaded.

"There is to much that I want to say right now," I told her, feeling my anger starting to surface. "I do want to talk later on, before I blow up. I can't keep it in any more. I feel like I'm losing it," I told her.

All she did was nod her head. I knew she did that when she didn't know what to say. This talk was a long time coming. It probably wouldn't of happened so soon, but Renee put the cherry on top and I couldn't take it any more. We walked down stairs and I saw that everyone was sitting around the kitchen table. This family brought a whole new meaning to dysfunctional. With what I have seen of the outside world, I I didn't know if I wanted to stay. All of the stress that I was feeling was bringing me down.

"So, Edward, Bella tells me that you are Amish. Are you enjoying being here?" Renee asked me. I really didn't want to answer her, but I knew I could never be out right rude to her.

"Yes, I'm enjoying my time, I've learned a lot," I told her as she nodded her head.

"So, are you becoming Amish, Bella, or are you staying in the English world?" Phil asked, throwing me for a loop. Who would of thought that he knew about the Amish.

"We are seeing where it goes," I said as Bella kicked me under the table, Charlie about choked on his food, and Renee looked like she was going to blow up.

"You didn't tell anyone, did you?" I asked Bella as I stood up and she looked at her plate. "I can't believe you! Then again, I don't know why it is such a surprise," I said as I walked out of the kitchen and headed up the stairs.

"So were you going to tell anyone?" Charlie asked. I stopped half way up the stairs and sat down while I listened to how she was going to talk herself out of this one.

"I did," she said with a pause, "I talked with Leah."

"And what did I tell you to do?" I heard Leah say.

"Fine, I'm thinking of becoming Amish to be with Edward. If he likes the outside world, then he is going stay. There is nothing to tell right now," she said. "We are still trying to figure it all out, he has only been here for a little over a week," she said.

"Bella, you aren't becoming Amish," I heard Renee say.

"Yes, that may happen," she said, getting defensive.

"Bella, you do understand that if you become Amish you will never see any of us again," Phil said. I was starting to wonder where his knowledge was coming form.

"I understand that, look this is a lose, lose, situation. Either I don't see you or he doesn't see his family. Either way it sucks," she said and I couldn't agree more. The whole situation did suck.

"What about school?" Charlie asked.

"I have more of an education than most Amish people," Bella said.

"She is right, most Amish people don't go to high school. Bella, this is something that you really need to think about. You have to learn their bible, their language, you will have to learn a lot before you will be accepted," Phil said. That wasn't all true, but she would have to learn a lot. She was already accepted.

"I know alright? I know everything that you all are telling me. Mrs. Cullen explained everything to me..."

"Who is Mrs. Cullen?" Renee asked, sounding like a snot.

"That's Edward's mother," Bella said. "Look, we are just seeing where it all goes. We are both undecided," she said, sounding defeated. I knew I couldn't let her face this alone. I was mad at her, but I still loved her.

"Bella's right, we are both undecided," I said walking back into the kitchen. "Who's to say that this will even work out," I added as I sat back down next to her.

"What do you mean?" Bella asked me.

"I'm just being honest. Who's to say that either one of us can leave our families," I said to her as she looked back down.

"Well enough of this for right now, but we will talk about this later," Charlie said as every one grew quiet. We all ate in silence for quite a while.

"Is it because of me?" Renee asked. All I did was roll my eyes.

"This has nothing to do with you Renee," I said before Bella could respond.

"I just know I wasn't the best mother. I don't know what I would do if I was never able to see you again," she said, and I did understand that.

"Mom, nothing is set in stone. We don't know what we are doing yet," Bella said in a quite voice. The tension was think through out dinner. After dinner we all sat in the living room and had a talk.

"Do you two love each other?" Renee asked.

"Very much so," I said without missing a beat.

"I don't know what I would do with him," Bella said, and that made me smile.

"You're both so young, can't you wait a couple of years to see what you want?" Charlie said with a pained voice.

"Charlie, in the Amish world I am a man. After Rumspringa, I am expected to get married and start a family. I don't have a couple of years," I said, trying to explain to him my predicament.

"You guys are only seventeen years old," Charlie said, and then was lost for words.

"We would never see our grand babies?" Renee asked, and Charlie looked like he was going to cry.

"If she became Amish, no," I told them. Why lie?

"I don't know if I can deal with all of this!" Renee said as she started to cry.

"Mom, we have until the end of the summer. Like we have both said, we don't know what is going to happen. Everything can change in a matter of months," Bella told her mother.

I understood what they were feeling, I was having the same feelings. I didn't want to never see my family again. I wanted to go back. I didn't know if the outside world was for me anymore.

"It's late, just get some sleep. We don't have to talk about this until we know what is going on," Bella said as she stood up still holding tight to my hand. "We are going to hang out in my room," Bella said as we made our way up the stairs. I went to my room and changed and grabbed the stuff I would need for the night.

"Why didn't you tell anyone?" I asked as soon as the door was closed.

"I didn't want to say anything until we knew what we were doing," she told me as I paced the length of the room. "Why should I have upset them if it was never going to happen?" she asked me. Once again I understood, but she didn't know what I was thinking.

"I don't know if I can stay here," I told her. "I don't know if I could handle never seeing my family again. I want to see the nephews and niece grow up, I'm missing everyone like crazy, and it is killing me that I can't go there just to say hi," I said, as the tears came. "I didn't think it would be this hard. I want to be with you more than anything, but I can't ask you to leave your family," I told her. All she did was stare at me with tears in her eyes.

"If this is about Jacob, I'm sorry! I wish it had never happened. I wish I could take it back! I was stupid and selfish and I know I don't deserve you. I love you Edward, only you, no one else," she told me.

"I hate what you did with him. I wanted to be the only man you ever touched. I have been sure about us from our first kiss. I hate that he is in your life," I told her as I wiped my tears away. "You know what, it was selfish, the most selfish thing you could have done!" I said as I started to raise my voice. "I'm telling you right now Bella, if I see that you have talked to him or even utter his name I swear, hand to god, that I will leave and NEVER talk to you again," I said, trying to keep my anger in. "Honestly, I don't trust you. I knew when you left last year that it was a possibility that there would be other boys, but having oral with them? Is that even part of dating? I know we come from two different worlds, but come on Bella, I'm not stupid," I said as she stood up from the bed.

"I said I was fucking sorry! I love you so much that I would leave right now with you if you said so. Jake was a mistake, I wish I could take it back. I can't though and I hate that I can't. You are the only man that I am ever going to want. If you leave me I will be alone forever because I will never feel what I feel when I am with you with any one else. When we touch or kiss, there is this warm feeling that I get all through out my body..." she said as I touched her arms.

"I know what you mean," I told her as I wrapped my arms around her waist.

"I want you to stay the summer, please. If you want to leave and you don't want me I will understand, but please give me the summer," she begged, and I cried into the crook of her neck and she cried into my shirt.

"Baby, I will always want you, but we can't always have what we want. I don't want to give you the wrong impression. I can't ask you to leave your family, not after tonight," I told her as she sobbed into my shirt.

"This isn't fair... I-I-I just find you and now I am going to lose you," she said as I tried to sooth her. "I will leave my family for you, I don't care what they think..."

"Yes you do," I said, cutting her off, "they love you. They want to see their grand babies, I don't want to deny them that. I won't take you away from here, but I honestly don't know if I can stay," I told her as she cried into my shirt more.

"Don't leave, please I beg you. Don't leave for right now. At the end of the summer if you don't want to be here then you can go back home, I won't stop you. I have known you for a year and I have spent a total of three weeks with you, please give me two months. I know I am being selfish again, but please stay the summer," she said as she looked me in the face.

"I can give you two months," I told her as she smiled through her tears.

"Thank you, I love you so much!" she said as she kissed me all over my face. "We're okay now?" she asked as we stood there in each other arms.

"Yeah for now, but I was serious about the whole Jacob thing," I told her as she nodded her head. "I know you probably think I'm being a jerk, but that is how I feel."

"Edward, I understand. I'm sure I would feel the same way," she told me as I started to feel better. We were quiet for a few minutes, then she started to speak, "I don't want to be selfish, if you want to go home to your family I understand. You have the family I always wanted," she said looking at the floor.

"I want to stay the summer, but I know I may hurt you at the end," I told her feeling torn.

"I know I could be setting myself up for a heart break, but you're worth it," she told me sincerely.

"It's not just you who will have a broken heart," I told her. I was starting to understand the way Jacob felt. I was doing the same thing. I was being selfish by staying, but I just couldn't leave.

Charlie's POV

"Charlie what are we going to do?" Renee asked me.

"I don't know if there is anything that we can do," I told her as I felt Leah rub my back.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked.

"She doesn't know what she wants, this could be young love or the true thing. No will ever know, only the two upstairs will know," Leah said. I hated when she made sense.

"I think I need to talk to Carlisle, maybe there is some way to make this work for them," I said as Leah nodded her head. "I know they love with each other, I mean just look at the way they look at one another," I said as Leah giggled.

"I don't doubt their love either," Leah said as Renee huffed.

"Well I'm glad you know my daughter so well. Who is Carlisle?" Renee asked.

"First of all, stop talking to Leah that way. She is the one that has been here. Second of all, Carlisle is Edward's father," I said. Nothing was said after that because we heard Edward and Bella getting loud with one another. I hated the thought of the two of them fighting, but I knew they need to figure things out. "I'm going to go sit at the top of the stairs, I just want to make sure it doesn't get out of hand," I said as every one followed me.

We all sat at the top of the stairs and heard every word of their argument. What I understood was that something happened between Bella and Jacob that Edward didn't like. I was happy and sad at the same time when I heard Edward say that he wasn't going to take her away from her family. My heart broke when I heard my baby girls sob. I understood that he didn't want to to leave his family. The four of us all looked at each other and we were all torn. After eavesdropping on them I knew that I indeed needed to talk to Carlisle.

Carlisle's POV

"Esme!" I yelled joyously. "I did it! I did it!"

"It's really going to happen?" she asked in shock.

"Yes, we have to tell Edward!"

Hhhmm I wonder what they have to tell him... let me know what you think? If you want check out my new story, when does it end!