Chapter 21:

A/N: Sorry this is so late. I had no motivation at all to finish typing this, then reread it, fix any mistakes, reread it again, and fix anymore mistakes I find. I don't think it helps that this chapter is kind of boring at the beginning so I do apologize for that. Also the restaurant is not a real restaurant to my knowledge. I got the name from a name generator from here: http:/www(dot)fakenamegenerator(dot)com/gen-random-fr-us(dot)php

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Now onto the overdue chapter…

"He was so mad that I thought he wouldn't even let me explain." Dean's annoyed voice comes from the phone. He decided to call me later that night.

"What did you say?" I'm lying on my back staring at the ceiling, trying to imagine the look on Dean's face.

"I told him I got into a fight with Lisa and he kicked me off the team because he doesn't want the other guys to think its okay to 'yell at a female'." Dean says.

"I see." I say. "You make him sound like a sexist."

"No, instead he's a homophobic dick." I'm sure Dean is rolling his eyes.

"So is your dad." I add.

I hear Dean sigh. "Oh yeah and that's just great. His son is fucking gay and he's homophobic."

"He'll understand eventually, I'm sure." I try to reassure him but I'm also trying to reassure myself. "Let's plan our date shall we?" I try to cheer Dean up by changing subjects.

"I already have the time and place picked." Dean immediately cheers up.

I smile at how happy he all of a sudden has gotten. "Okay I'm listening."

"Valentine's Day is a time for love Cas and it is going to be the day our love blossoms even more than it already has, if that's even possible." He pauses and I just smile into the phone. "We are going to go to this fancy restaurant, I'm going to surprise you with the place, but we're going to have wear monkey suits unfortunately."

I get confused. "Why would we need to dress up as monkeys?"

There's a pause from Dean's end then there is laughter. "No Cas, not real monkey costumes, formal suits."

"Why didn't you just say that in the first place?" I ask even more confused than before.

Dean sighs. "Never mind Cas." He chuckles. "I'll take care of getting a suit."

"What are you going to tell your dad?" I ask.

"I'll just tell him I'm going with a girl from school." He tells me.

I smile from the excitement of going on a date with Dean Winchester, the school stud. I look to our picture. "Okay, it's a date."

"I'm not done." Again I become confused. "After dinner we're going to go see a movie."

"I'm guessing it'll be a scary movie or action movie or else you'll explode with chick flick overflow." I tease.

"Haha very funny. Yes it is going to be a scary movie because I want you to get scared and grab my hand or possibly sit on my lap." I roll my eyes. "Hey don't roll your eyes at me." Dean says knowingly.

I smile. "Okay but if anyone is going to be in anybody's lap, it is going to be you in mine."

"Yeah right my cute little fallen angel." I can tell he has a wide grin spread across his face.

I smile too. "Fallen, yes, little, I don't think so."

Dean chuckles. "Is that supposed to be a come on?"

"Maybe." I simply say.

"Well aren't you a dirty little boy." He chuckles again.

"I said, not little Dean." I say as seductively as possible.

I hear Dean snigger slightly. "You don't know how badly you're turning me on Cas."

"Then let me please you." I'm also getting really turned on but for now it's about Dean and only Dean.

I next hear Dean's breath hitch and he swallows. "Are you suggesting phone sex?"

"Well sort of." I begin. "Except you're the only one that will be pleased. Let's begin shall we?" I start before he can say no. "Now I'm kissing you Dean, not hard but passionately. You understand Dean?"

He moans into the phone. "Damn Cas, how come I hadn't realizes you are so damn hot before I fell in love with you?"

I growl deep in my throat just to turn him on more. "I'm getting lower Dean. After devouring your neck I'm kissing your chest. That feel good Dean?"

He lets out a breath. "Yes." He drags the word out,

"Now I'm sucking and nipping at your nipple." I'm getting hard now; I just hope I can hold out.

"Damn Cas." He's starting to become breathless.

I smirk. "Lower Dean but… don't touch yourself yet Dean."

"Cas." He whines.

"Quiet Dean wouldn't want John to hear. I get to your belly button, circling my tongue around the naval. Then I stick my tongue into the hole." I can hear Dean straining with the effort to not touch and relieve himself. "I kiss and lick the inside of your thigh but I don't touch your throbbing dick yet."

"You evil son of a bitch." Dean manages to breath out with strained effort.

I continue. "I kiss painfully slow down both your legs until I reach your toes. I kiss and suck all ten of them then make my way back up your sweet, long legs." Dean moans again.

"W-why are you doing this?" Dean struggles to ask.

I'm quiet for a long time having to think of the answer. I finally decide on something. "To make up for all I've done."

"Like what?" He still sounds constricted.

"For everything. Cutting myself, over dosing, jumping from a fourth story window, then trying to bleed to death." I tell him.

He lets out a snort. "If anyone needs to make up for past mistakes then it's me. I hurt you so much Cas. That's why I want to be the best boyfriend I can." He pauses for a short time, short enough so I don't have enough time to respond. "You don't need to make up for it. It's not your fault and I understand."

"You don't need to either Dean." I tell him. "Personally I think I do though. What I did was horrible and it hurt you a lot."

"Do you think it's horrible because you hurt me or because it was wrong?" He asks through the phone.

"I start licking and sucking you balls." I say not wanting to answer the question.

"Hey don't try and avoid the question." He says.

I give up. "Because I hurt you."

There's silence from the phone. "Okay." Dean finally speaks up.

"I'm sorry." I try but Dean doesn't allow me to finish.

"You know Cas I still have a boner so if you wouldn't mind." He says not so subtly.

Once again I roll my eyes. "Okay sorry to deprive you of pleasure." I smirk. "I start at the base-"

"Hold up." Dean interrupts. "Shit my Dad is coming. I got to go Cas. See you on Valentine's Day. Bye, love you."

"Okay, bye, love-" click and dial tone. "you too." I sigh before I hit end on the wireless phone.

I lie on my bed for about an hour until Lucifer walks into the room and I sit up. "Hey Angel."

"Hi." I greet him in a disappointed tone.

Lucifer looks at me closely, studying my face. "What's got you so down?"

I snort and shake my head. "How do you know something's wrong?"

"I've been your roommate for how long now? I know your looks." He says.

I look at him for a long time, just not saying anything. "Dean and I are going on a date on Valentine's Day."

"Okay." Lucifer comes and sits on the edge of my bed. I lie back down onto my back, hands under my head. "But that's not what's wrong so what is?"

"I don't want you to think I'm a hypocrite." I say staring at the ceiling.

"I won't judge." Lucifer rubs my leg for reassurance.

I still think twice about telling him but in the end I do anyway. "It's the whole deal with keeping mine and Dean's relationship a secret from his dad." He opens his mouth to respond but I don't give him the chance. "I know I'm being a big hypocrite considering how long it took me too…" I pause. "Actually I didn't even really come out myself. I came out to Dean and Lisa found out and told it to the whole school… great that makes me an even bigger hypocrite." I cover my face with my hands in shame and embarrassment.

Lucifer pries my hands from my face to look me in the eyes. "I understand though. Now that you are out-"

I cut him off. "I don't want to go back to hiding it."

"Exactly." Lucifer agrees.

"I didn't even get to finish my 'I love you too' because his father was coming, and he is going to tell his ass of a father that he's going out with a girl on Valentine's Day instead of the forbidden Castiel Novak, a guy." I say exasperated.

"Why don't you tell Dean that it's bothering you to keep it a secret and I'm sure that way Dean will tell his father soon?" Lucifer half asks and states.

I huff. "Yeah and then John will kill me with his rifle for 'corrupting' his precious little son."

Lucifer looks worried. "You don't think he'd actually do that do you?"

"No." I sigh and shake my head. "John Winchester I don't think is capable of murder, no matter what."

"Yeah you're probably right after all you know him better than I do." Lucifer agrees. "Does he really have a rifle?"

"Yeah he does, a double barrel. He goes hunting with Dean and Sam sometimes." I inform.

Lucifer rolls his eyes and goes and sits on his own bed. "So he's a good aim, great."

"He's not going to shoot me when he finds out about me and Dean, don't worry." I smile to put his mind at rest.

"I hope you're right for your sake." He says then lies down on his back.

Me too Lucifer, me too. I think as I close my eyes, ready for sleep.

…

"Here you go Castiel and Lucifer." Chuck is standing in front of me and Lucifer holding out two roses. One for each of us.

"Thank you Chuck." I grab the rose.

"Thank you Chuckles." Lucifer says.

Chuck blushes a deep red at Lucifer's comment. "Y-you're w-w-welcome Lucifer and Castiel."

I smile at Chuck's blush and Lucifer ruffles his hair. He looks like he is going to explode with embarrassment so I save him by saying, "Where'd you get the rose? I would like to get Dean one before he gets here in a few minutes."

"Dining hall, they're giving them away for free." He smiles innocently. "I would go and get one now because they're almost out."

I smile warmly at him. "Okay thank you Chuck."

"Angel I'll come with you." Lucifer says. "Chuck you come with us."

"O-okay." Chuck answers shyly.

I lead the way to the dining hall and once there the three of us go up to the woman holding the roses.

"Hi, excuse me, I would like three please." I say to her and take the three she hands me.

"I'd like two please." I stare at Lucifer in astonishment as he takes two roses. "One for you my little cherub." I roll my eyes as Lucifer turns to Chuck. "And one for you Chucky."

I watch as Chuck's face turns a bright red this time instead of the earlier dark red. "Th-thank you, L-Lucifer."

I chuckle under my breath. "Thank you Lucifer, here's one for you too and of course one for you Chuck."

Once again Chuck looks like he is going to die from embarrassment and I have to stifle a laugh. "Um… I'll… um… see you guys later."

Lucifer whistles. "Hold up Chuckles, Angel here has a date so you and I are going to be hanging out today." He places his arm around Chuck's shoulders. "Have a good time Angel." He winks and the both of them are off to do their own thing.

I chuckle and shake my head with amusement. I make my way back to the room and when I enter, there stands Dean, back to the door, dressed in a suit that is all black and holding one for me. I wolf whistle at him causing him to turn around. He has a white shirt on under the suit jacket and a blue striped tie. "Looking snazzy Dean."

"You think so? I think I look ridiculous." He says coming up to me and kissing me, short and simple.

"Oh yeah your hot." I tell him with a smirk.

He chuckles and hands me the suit. "Here get changed so we both will look snazzy."

I close the door allowing more privacy while I change and Dean goes to get my pills and sign me out.

I put on the suit. It is all black with a white shirt to put on underneath the suit jacket. The tie Dean has gotten me is blue. I struggle with putting that on so I give up leaving it crooked and messy. I pick up the tan trench coat that is set flat on my bed.

"What is this?" I ask Dean as he comes back in.

"Oh um…" He scratches the back of his neck. "That… um… I was going to get a different color, you know like black, but that was the only color they had and I really wanted to see you in a trench coat, so… put it on."

"O…kay." I put the trench coat on.

"Looking good Castiel." Dean comes up to me and puts his arms around my neck, pulling me close. "Ready?"

I nod and let him lead me out. It doesn't take us long to get to our destination, probably twenty minutes if that. I look at the restaurant. "Dean this place is expensive."

The restaurant that we drove up to isLucDe La Ronde, a French restaurant, and highly expensive.

"Don't worry Cas. Dad gave me his credit card." He begins leading me to the humungous place and into the front entryway to be greeted by an employee.

"Right this way monsieurs." He leads the way to our table and as we sit down he hands us a menu.

"Merci." Dean says back to the well dressed and might I add handsome employee.

I turn to Dean. "I didn't know you knew French."

He smirks at me. "Only some."

"Huh, well as long as I've known you I'm still learning new things about you Mr. Winchester." I say.

"Well Mr. Novak, here's hoping one day we both will know everything about each other." He says back placing his hand on mine.

I look at our hands, now being intertwined with each other, fingers lacing around one another. I glance back up to Dean and he almost looks struck by my piercing blue eyes.

"Mr. Winchester, I must ask, are you okay with PDA in a fancy restaurant?" A smile creeps up across my face.

Dean opens his mouth but nothing comes out. He then smiles, letting go of my hand and reaching up to grasp the back of neck, pulling me forward. He kiss my lips lightly at first but then deepening it quickly. It's not an open mouth kiss however and it's still elegant enough for the restaurant that we are currently sitting in.

He pulls away but keeps our face close. "Oh yeah, trust me I am." He whispers it just loud enough for me to hear.

He lets go of my neck letting us sit back in our chairs. The waiter comes over to get our drink and meal order a few minutes after that public display of affection.

Once we get our meals we eat quickly but trying to still be polite because of where we are. We make little conversations and flirts, loving it all the while.

At one point I sit there watching Dean eat and I remember thinking, wow, I really love this guy.

"So Dean, after you said goodbye on the phone…" I didn't feel like it was right to say 'after we'. "What did you do about your big problem in the pants?"

Dean almost chokes on the food that he had currently in his mouth, swallowing before answering. "I went into the shower and jerked off."

This time it was my turn to choke. I should have known better than to take a bite when Dean was answering that question. "Really?" I ask after my coughing fit and swallowing whatever that was lodged in my throat.

He nods. "Yep and it felt awesome. All I had to do was pretend it was your mouth around my cock."

It is a good thing I haven't put anything into my mouth yet or else I probably would have choked again.

Dean has a seductive smirk plastered on his face.

"You tease." I accuse.

"Hey that's me." He says giving me 'the eye' that says 'come back to my place and fuck me senseless'. Although in his case it'd probably be him fucking me.

"I think you have been a little to horny lately." I scold playfully.

"Hey I can't help it if I'm attracted to you, physically and mentally." He claims.

Dean pays with his father credit card once we are finished and we make our way back to the Impala, laughing our ass off at some joke Dean said.

We are half way to the movie theater when Dean abruptly says, "Shit, I forgot to grab money for the movie. Where going to have to stop at my place quickly."

"Is that going to be safe?" I get uneasy and a bad feeling.

"Yeah just stay in the car." He continues to drive and we soon pull into his drive way. Dean's about to get out when he shifts to look at something, then his eyes get wide and you can see the nervousness settle into his face. "I think my Dad is in the window."

"What?" I turn to look but Dean stops me half way by grabbing my face.

"Don't look, he may recognize you." He continues to look out the window.

"What are we going to do?" I ask, becoming extremely uneasy.

Dean shift in the seat. "It'll be okay, just… let me handle this. I'll be back with the money before you know it." He gives me a reassuring smile but it looks very forced.

He gets out of the car and I watch him walk up to his front door. He takes out his keys to unlock the door but it opens by itself, Sam standing in the door way. They both glance to me and then John appears. He doesn't look at me but instead points into the house, directing Dean to get inside. Dean walks in without a glance back, shutting the door behind him.

I sit there in nervous anticipation, wondering what they are talking about. Different scenarios run through my brain, invading my thoughts. What's taking so long? Is Dean okay? I think after what seems like an hour sitting alone in the Impala when really it's only been twenty minutes.

Dean then appears in the doorway, walking to his beloved Impala, but instead of going to the driver's side and getting in he comes to my side, opening the door. "My Dad wants you to come in." He doesn't look me in the eyes and instead looks at his feet.

"He knows it's me?" Dean just nods.

I get out of the car, nervous as all hell, and follow Dean up the front steps and into the warm house.

John is in the living room, just standing there, and Sam is nowhere in sight. "I sent Sam to his room." John's angry voice booms.

Dean doesn't even look up at his father, just continues to look at the floor or his shoes.

"Hello Mr. Winchester." I say so quietly that I don't know if he heard me.

"Don't give me that shit." He practically yells and I, too, find myself not able to look into John's eyes.

"Sorry Mr. Winchester." I try but is shot down.

"You can be sorry once you tell me what the hell is going on between you and my son." I shift my weight from one foot to the other.

"I already told you Dad. The girl I asked out cancelled so I decided to take Cas out for a change of scenery." Dean finally looks up at his father.

"To a fancy restaurant, dressed in… in… those." He gesticulates to our get ups.

"I already paid for the damn registration Dad, what the fuck did you expect me to do?" Dean yells back.

For minute I'm afraid John is going to slap or punch Dean because he looks a lot like my mother right now, but the fist never comes. "Don't you take that tone with me boy."

Dean looks defiantly at his father but can't keep the stare for long and resorts back to his staring at anything other than sets of eyes.

"Mr. Winchester look-" I begin but John interrupts me.

"No I change my mind. I want to hear what's going on by my son because it seems that he's been lying to me for a long time." He glares dangerously at me then to Dean.

Dean looks like he is about to explode. With anger or something else I'm not sure. "Dad-"

"Tell me the damn truth Dean, now!" Dean's father yells so loudly that I'm sure the neighbors can hear.

"Okay I'll tell you, just promise me you won't hurt Cas." Dean starts. John just remains silent.

I'm shaking and I can see Dean shaking too.

Dean takes a deep breath. "Cas and I are in love and were dating."

A/N: This chapter is shorter than I have been making them but I felt like this was a good spot to end it because of the cliff hanger. I have this week off so the next chapter should be on time but I make no guarantees. Thank you for reading and anyone who reviews.

Favorite line: "Yeah right my cute little fallen angel."

"One for you my little cherub."