Olivia sat on the red leather couch for the third time this week staring at the tan carpet below her feet. Her eyes looked tired and her body language agreed. Dr. Kelsey was taking some notes in her notepad while she observed the sudden changes in Olivia. She waited patiently hoping Olivia would talk first but, when she didn't, Dr. Kelsey spoke up.

"So, Olivia, how are you feeling?"

Olivia didn't say anything. She just continued to stare with the blank look on her face.

"Olivia?" Dr. Kelsey asked again.

"Sorry," Olivia said jolting back to reality, "I'm just tired."

"Why is that?"

"The nightmares haven't gone away yet," she answered sadly, "Every night I have one, sometimes two. I'm having a hard time falling asleep at night, especially after I wake up from a nightmare."

Dr. Kelsey frowned and wrote the information down in Olivia's chart, "I can prescribe you some light sleep medication if you'd like."

"I really didn't want it to come to that," Olivia said sadly, "I want to do this on my own."

"Olivia, having help is okay. Acknowledging that you need help is what makes you so strong. The prescription will be the lightest there is and it should help with falling asleep and help with the bad dreams."

Olivia sighed and finally shifted her eyes so she was looking at Dr. Kelsey, "I guess."

"Okay." Dr. Kelsey took a prescription pad out from one of her desk drawers and wrote down the prescription and handed it to Olivia. "It will help."

"Can I go now?" Olivia asked after shoving the piece of paper into her pocket.

"You promise you will take them?"

"Yes," Olivia said and she meant it. She was so tired she would do anything to get a good nights' sleep.

"Why don't you come back tomorrow? Just so I can see how things are, okay?"

"Tomorrow's Saturday," Olivia stated, "I've already been three times this week."

"It's in your best interest Olivia," Dr. Kelsey said sincerely, "I just want to make sure that you're okay."

"Fine," Olivia sighed, "I'll come back tomorrow."

Olivia walked to the nearest pharmacy because it was only a block away and she wanted the fresh air. Plus she didn't trust cab drivers or most strangers at that moment anyways. She walked into the building and made her way to the counter where she handed a pharmacologist the crumbled piece of paper and made her way to the waiting area. The lady told her it would be about a ten minute wait to get them filled.

While Olivia was waiting she grabbed a magazine from a nearby table and flipped it open to one of the pages. She was too tired to make sense of anything it said but, she didn't want to look like a loser staring off into space. She got tired of flipping through the magazine so she sat it back down and looked out at the other customers waiting for their prescriptions to be filled. She took one look at a man and she started to panic. She could feel her throat getting tighter and she struggled to get another breath. She began shaking and she couldn't stop herself. Tears were streaming down her face when one of the men who were working came to her side.

"Ma'am," he said looking into her eyes, "I need you to take even breaths for me okay? Just do what I do. In. Out. Breathe in, breathe out." The man demonstrated the breathing for Olivia and got her to compile. Once she had caught her breath he smiled.

"You okay?" he worried.

She nodded, "I'm sorry," she said in a quiet voice. The nearby people were all staring and she felt so humiliated that she wanted to run.

"You had a panic attack," the man stated, "Maybe you should call someone to come get you."

"Yeah," she nodded, "I will. Thank you."

He flashed her another sympathetic smile and then returned back behind the counter where he finished taking other people's prescriptions.

"Hello?" Elliot answered on the other end of the phone.

"I just had a panic attack," she stated sadly.

Elliot immediately sat down the papers that were in his hand on his desk and grabbed his jacket, "Where are you?"

"The pharmacy," she answered.

"I'm on my way, okay? You're okay. Don't go anywhere; I'm coming to take you home."

Olivia hung up the phone and grabbed her bottle of pills once they were ready to be handed to her. She held them in her hand and thought about taking all of them but, she knew better. She felt like the panic attack had been five steps backwards and she wasn't expecting it at all.

"Liv," Elliot said seeing her and walking to her side, "You okay?"

She sniffed, "I saw a man that looked like Rojas. I just started to p-panic and next thing I knew…"

"It's okay," Elliot said trying to console her, "It's okay. I'm here now; we are going to get you home."

"Dr. Kelsey prescribed me sleeping pills," she stated once they were back at Elliot's house.

"I see that," Elliot said looking at the bottle in her hand.

"She wants me to visit her again tomorrow."

Elliot just nodded as he continued to cook lunch for himself and Olivia. Cragen had given him the rest of the day off so he could make sure Olivia didn't have any more sudden attacks.

When Elliot finished placing his specialty, grilled-cheese sandwiches, on their plates, he walked into the kitchen and smiled to himself at the sight he saw. Olivia had fallen asleep sitting up on the couch. He sat down the plates he was carrying on the coffee table and swooped Olivia up into his arms. He carried her back into the bedroom and gently laid her down on the bed. He pulled the covers up to under her chin and kissed her on the forehead before leaving the room and leaving the door slightly ajar.

Elliot finished his grilled-cheese while watching a movie about boxing on TV and when he was finished he took his plate to the kitchen to wash it off. He stopped in front of the refrigerator to admire the pictures that hung there.

One was of him and Olivia both sticking their tongues out when Fin surprised them by flashing his camera. Another was the both of them sharing a foot long hot dog at a street vendor they took exactly a year ago. Those were only a very few of the good times they had together and Elliot would do anything to get that Olivia back. His heart broke for the pain that she was going through but, he promised his self he would wait and he never broke a promise. He had faith that Olivia would get better with time and his faith was what helped him in his darkest of places.

Just because their relationship is moving slowly, doesn't mean there isn't a relationship. Trust me, their relationship is a huge part of the story.