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Italics - dreaming
Jacob has been trying relentlessly to get in touch with me. Now he will know how Bella feels when he doesn't pick up the phone. Speaking of Bella she has become a lot darker in her personality, or maybe I just didn't notice it much before. She seems to be getting more smug and become Miss Know It All. She gloats that she was the first one that Jacob explained all of the wolf stuff too, forgetting that I was having the same conversation with the rest of the pack. She also thinks and has said to me that the reason why Jacob didn't stay alone with me that long was because he detests me. Even though I was the first one to arrive back at Emily's I have told her that but she just waves it off and insists that is because I got too upset and ran away.
So my plan is to ignore the both of them. I am succeeding better at ignoring Jacob than Bella as she for one lives in the same house as me and two she comes into my room to talk about her and the pack. Doesn't she see that I am hurting? Of course she does, that is why she is doing it to rub salt into my wound. I try to make everyone happy, but it's not working and I am just hurting myself in trying. But I just can't stop; it's a part of me.
I haven't seen or talked to Jacob in a week and I was getting chest pains and headaches as well as dizziness. I think I was coming down with a bug. Dad let me stay off even though I insisted that I was fine, but he ordered bed rest for me as I did not look healthy enough to be out of my room let alone out of the house and in school. So I just lay in bed and slept as that is all I could really do.
I was in the woods in a long white nightgown that looked as if it came from the Victorian era. It was cold and eerie in the woods where I woke up. I felt as if something was watching me. I turned and saw a flash of bright red hair. I heard a howl in the distance that sounded as if it were in pain. I felt my heartbeat rising as each second past, it was painful. So painful that I just wanted to rip it out of my chest just so that the pain would leave. I was clawing at my chest now, sweat forming on my forehead, tears running down my cheeks. I felt as if my heart was going to combust. I wanted to scream from the pain but nothing came out. Then something flashed in front of me, I looked up and saw red eyes, marble skin and fiery red hair. Victoria.
The wolves howl grew louder and frantic. Getting closer. Victoria looked at me and smiled. "Do you want the pain to stop?" she asked sweetly tilting her head slightly to the side as her lips twisted to form a sadistic smile. But the pain was too much to bear. Too much to care much of the motive behind Victoria's words. I heard thuds of paws pounding heavily towards us. I nodded at her, the pain of rejection and betrayal consumed me. Just as the wolf came into view, I saw it's russet fur. I looked into those big brown eyes with golden flecks that shone more brightly and were more prominent in his wolf form. It was Jacob, he looked terrified. "I will end your pain. No need to worry" Victoria whispered in my ear as she plunged her heart into my chest. I looked into a blood red eyes as she pulled out my heart and held it up in front of me. I heard Jacob howl in agony and as I fell to the ground my sight lost Victoria and caught sight of Jacob. I looked into those big brown and golden eyes as my sight faded and darkness consumed me.