Hi. So now before we start this fest I'd like to explain what I've been up to cooking in the kitchen. In order to explain this I unfortunately have to expose myself and my own genius stupidity. For a while now I've been looking for the bridge I needed to unlock something in the future of this story. Like i was getting upset cuz I thought I was going to have to scrap that idea and find a new one... But it only took for me to come home like a kite and start reading this story for me to find the bridge I needed. After almost a whole year of writing this fucking story I fucking realized that Sasha and Becky totally have a dominate/submissive like relationship. And now ur either like yeah no shit Joz, or holy shit really? Yeah man this hints are in the writing, I mean at one point Sasha even says that and I never picked up on it until last week sometime. what kind of fuckery right? Anywhore I figured I'd use that to my advantage this chapter and dig a little deeper into it. Since I've yet to really elaborate on it yet I figured it'd be best to keep it to one chapter and this is that chapter. this whole chapter is the bridge we needa cross to get to the good shit so suck it up and get over the bridge.. see you on the other side bro.
Sasha's POV
"Good girl." I cooed slowing my hip movements to let Becks ride out her orgasm. She deserves it because I've been rough with her all day long. I know she doesn't mind the pain but I still don't like the idea of hurting her while in lust then later on looking at my markings. "You know I love it when you cum for me, your eyes roll back in your head and it's so hot." I smiled looking down at her being she is lying on her back with her hands tied behind her back. Yeah like I said I've been rather rough with her today because she's going back to Florida to check in on the company tomorrow, and I won't see her for a couple days. If I could I'd go with her but I'm still on tour and can't so I'm giving her what she needs now to hopefully hold her over until the next time I get my hands on her. Mainly I want to replenish her endorphins so that way it'll buy us some time before she starts to crash. "Turn on your side, doesn't matter which." As I said that I pulled out of her causing her to let out a small moan. "I know baby just relax and let me clean you up and then we'll talk okay?" She simply nodded. Oh right and I forgot I forbid her from making a sound this session. For the most part she was quiet but I know exactly what spots to hit to make her scream so she failed at that request. However I love how obedient she is and that fact that she listens to my commands... You know or at least tried to. It was around here that she turned on her left side allowing me access at her bindings. I made sure to be gentle as possible when I undid the belt holding her wrist together because it's so tight I'm worried that I might have given her a bruise or fabric burn. Loosening the belt it wasn't entirely as bad as I thought it was gonna be. Her wrist are red and you can definitely see where the belt buckle was digging into them and on her lower back. "You may speak now love." I murmured as she turned back to lay on her back.
"Thank you." She spoke softly rubbing her wrist. I quickly grabbed her hands stopping her movements.
"Don't rub them I think I might have something for it. I don't think it cut you or anything this time so we're good." Inspecting her wrist further there isn't too much damage here. It's mostly just red from the belt being so tight.
"It didn't hurt too bad. You made me forget about it until now. I'm fine really." She reassured me using one hand to caress my cheek. This is also another thing I like about our relationship, after we finish one of our sessions I choose not to really continue to be dominant to her. I enjoy bossing her around during sex that's fine, but I don't believe in hitting women outside the bedroom. In my eyes it's abuse and I'm not a supporter of that. It's something that goes way back to my childhood but that's a story for another day. There's just a very fine very thin line between dominating someone and abuse. "I asked for it and you simply gave me what I wanted."
"I know it's just I like knowing that you're okay and feel comfortable." That got her to smile and kiss me.
"You're my girlfriend soon to be wifey, of course I feel comfortable with you. I trust you, I don't really have a choice but too." That's especially true right there. In order for our relationship to have even began Becky had to put all her trust in me. She has to trust that I'll take care of her needs physically and mentally. But most of her trust goes into when she submits to me and let's me have my way with her. Without trust our relationship would be nothing.
"Well I don't want it to have to be a choice. I want you to never have a doubt in your mind that you can trust me for anything. You're my doll and I will always take care of you." I cooed before kissing her. I made this one a long one because when I get in my dominant mood I rarely kiss her until we're done, so she's kiss deprived and I gotta fix that. Really I'm helping coax her into her state of relief to help keep her from falling into a drop so quickly. Whenever we get done a session this intense my next couple moves are especially crucial. I have to take care of her and be there to let her know that she did a good job and that I care about her. If I neglect that step she could easily slip into a subdrop and cause a bunch of bad side effects and I don't know what to expect from her. Becks hardly ever really crashes but I noticed that since I've been on tour she hasn't really been herself. No I don't mean that in a she's losing interest way because it was her idea to have me tie her up, but in a way that I feel like she's pulling away from me because we don't spend as much time together as we usually do. Yes we do still hang out together but never for long because I have shows, or meet and greets to do. And when I'm not doing something tour related I'm sleep. I knew this would be challenging trying to keep her satisfied while on the road traveling, but I'm confident I can handle it. She probably doesn't know it but she relies on me for a lot more than she thinks. Since our relationship first started over a year ago we've been basically having sex almost every single day. To an outsider that's probably insane but for us it's vital. It's vital for me to keep playing with her so she doesn't slip on me. Even though she's older than me I have to view her as a baby almost. As her reigning dom it's important for me to pick up when I sense a drop coming on for her. Like I said before we played very often so she's never experienced a subdrop because before it could start I was back inside her again. So I never really cared for making sure she was okay because I'd just be with her again the next day. Then again we usually don't always have sex on the level we just did so I never needed to worry about her dropping as much as I am now.
"I know you tell me all the time. I will always trust you no matter what." That got me to smile and kiss her.
"Good. Anyway come on let's get you a shower and ready for bed. You stay there first and keep warm." I spoke kissing her forehead before getting off of the bed. From here I just started cleaning up the mess we made in our hotel room. Yes we could have just did this on the bus, but there's a time and place for everything. I knew from the start this morning that I needed to get a room tonight. I knew because Becks was clinging to me all night and the day before when she found out that there was some problem down at our office. She's usually never that clingy so I think it was a sign of her dropping. Whatever it was I solved it now because she isn't whining wanting me to come back to cuddle her. Anyway once I finished cleaning up the mess and putting away all our clothes leading me to have to pick out our pajamas. "What do you want to wear to bed my love?" I asked looking back at her being I'm going through our suitcase.
"Just a hoodie would be nice." Nodding I turned back to our suitcase and searched for a hoodie for her after our shower. Finding one I laid it out and laid my pajamas next to it.
"Kay. Come on my love." I spoke softly holding out my hand for her to take. She took it and followed me into the bathroom. There I started the shower and sat her on the toilet seat lid. "What do you want to eat in the morning?"
"I don't know."
"Well we're in France baby you can literally have anything you want for breakfast tomorrow." She simply reached forward grabbing me around the waist and hugged me.
"I don't want to go tomorrow." She mumbled.
"I know baby I don't want you going either. Quite frankly I'm scared to let you go all by yourself because I'm scared you'll start to drop and I don't know how you're going to handle it."
"That why you haven't left my side?"
"Yes."
"Is that why I'm dreading tomorrow?"
"Yes. And that's why whenever you feel alone I want you to call me." As I said that I opened the shower curtain so we can get in. "But we'll discuss those details tomorrow. Right now I wanna shower and go to bed."
"Please don't make me let you go." She pouted looking up at me with dough eyes.
"Well how are we supposed to shower if you don't let me do so?" She put on a thinking face before nodding a little.
"Okay. Promise me you won't go far?" I couldn't help but smile because the shower is only but so big so I can't imagine where I'd go. But if that's what she wants she can have it.
"I promise, now get in." That got her to smile and place a small kiss on my abdomen. Then without any other words she got in and I followed. From there I bathed her and washed her hair before washing myself. After drying off I helped her put on her pajamas and tucked us into bed, not without giving her a chocolate bar first. I made especially sure to cuddle her close to remind her of what she means to me. I know she knows her worth and what she means to me but I want to reassure her. Just like how she takes care of me I have to take care of her.
Three days later
"Okay guys I'm going to bed now. I wanna talk to Becks" I spoke putting down my hand of cards back on top of the deck. Right now where on the bus traveling to wherever. Can't tell you where because I don't know. I just know we're not in the United States where I want to be with my girlfriend. It's just me and my main dancers on this bus so we were playing UNO to pass time. We just got done a show not too long ago so we're all pretty tired anyway.
"Okay good night."
"Night guys." Making my way to where our bunks are I climbed in mine and put in my earbuds that way I can hear her clearly. Opening my phone I FaceTime called Becky. It wasn't until the third ring that she picked up. "Hello beautiful."
"Hi baby."
"You know, no matter how stressful my days are, seeing you at the end always makes it so much better." I grinned because she's so beautiful to me.
"Well I can say the same to you. I miss your face."
"I miss you too this bunk is so empty without you. What are you doing?"
"I'm working."
"Really what time is it, it looks dark?"
"It's only five in the evening and I have the blinds closed." I found that odd because if it's five that means the sun should be setting any time now and she usually loves watching the sunset. She especially loves watching it set at the house down in Florida.
"Awe how come? I thought you liked watching the sunset." She shrugged and let out a sigh.
"I do I'm just not in the mood today is all." I don't like the way she said that.
"What happened?" I asked because something must be wrong for her to not be in the mood to watch the sunset like always.
"Nothing I'm just feeling a bit tired." She mumbled running a hand through her bright orange hair.
"Why don't you take a nap then?"
"I tried. I couldn't go to sleep. Hell I barely slept at all since being home."
"Really?" It could be jet lag, but she's so well traveled that jet lag usually last for a day for her. It's been three days now since she's been home. Something isn't right and I think I might know why.
"Yeah I'll lay down and snuggle up, and as soon as I get comfy I don't feel tired anymore."
"Did you eat anything today?" Just from the few minutes of talking to her I can tell she's having withdrawals and it sucks because she's all the way on the other side of the ocean.
"Had like half a sandwich and some coffee but that was it." Yeah she's dropping and I have to find a way to her. That being said I pulled out my tablet and began looking for the next fastest ticket to Florida.
"Can you do me a favor?" I asked because this is going to be the final nail in the coffin letting me know what my next move is. Her answer determines if I'm leaving here within the hour or if I still have time. "I have a question and I want an answer."
"Okay."
"Since you got home how many times have you left the house?" It was here her face went blank. And then suddenly her eyes started to fill with tears.
"I-" Fuck! Well at least her high lasted for a few days, but I need more time. At least a days worth or less. When we first started to ever fool around Becky was hesitant about this whole dominate and submissive thing. But over time I managed to slowly ease her into it, yet also balancing it out with just regular sex making it so that I can dominate her whenever I please, but at the same time I didn't always take charge. Some days I'd have her on her knees begging me to touch her, other days I'd let her have everything her way. It was and still is almost like an even balance between the two. That might not make sense but it works for us. So being that the last time we were together I was dominate and now I'm facing the consequences. I got her in this state and it's time to bring her out of it.
"Answer my question." I stated sternly.
"I got the mail yesterday." She murmured under light tears. That somewhat upsets me because she told me she was going to the office today.
"Why did you lie to me Rebecca?"
"It wasn't a lie. I did go to the office the same day I got back."
"Two days ago?"
"I just don't want to burden you is all. With the tour and everything I-"
"Becks are you dropping?" I asked straight up because I don't want to hear any of that being a burden on me bullshit. She didn't do anything but stare at me so it let me know the answer and I was right. "You know sometimes I think that your little business smart woman thing you have going for you is a facade. Like sometimes I'm convinced you're truly an idiot." I spoke simply because she's being a ditz. She knows better than that. "I tell you one thing then you turn and do the opposite. Like talking to a bag in the wind when I talk to you. What did I tell you to do when you felt a drop coming or did you forget that too?"
"To tell you." She spoke sheepishly because she knows I'm upset with her.
"So then why am I asking you if you are?"
"I di-"
"Shut up!" I snapped. "You listen here and you listen closely because if I ever have to repeat this to you again you'll be bound and gagged the next time I see you and every time after that." Being gagged is one of the few things Becks doesn't like so I see it fit as punishment.
"Yes ma'am."
"You are not a burden on me. I made you my girlfriend for a reason and that simply was because I love you. You are and always will be at the top of the list of who gets most of my attention. You're my sub and it's my job to take care of you. I bring you up and then when you fall down it's my job to bring you back. How am I supposed to do my duties to you if you won't let me help you? If this is going to work you have to talk to me babe. You have to let me know if you think you're dropping that way we can fix it together. I hate seeing you cry and add to that I have to watch you be sad when there's nothing I can do about it. I love you and I don't like seeing you hurting over something that was my fault. Let me help you."
"I know Sash and I'm sorry. I just didn't know what to do."
"Call me. Always call me when you don't know what to do about anything. It doesn't matter what time I'll always pick up your calls." That got her to smile a little bit.
"So I can phone you whenever I want?"
"Yes. If you don't then I'll call you. We both have phones for a reason so might as well get some use out of it. I know what's happening to you right now is new because you never had a chance to really drop because I was always there. I know you're probably confused and lonely but I'm here for you. I want you to depend on me I don't mind carrying your burdens especially when I caused some of them. I really need you to understand that you'll always be at the top of my priorities okay?"
"Okay." She murmured softly. I swear she's the cutest thing when she's being timid and shy.
"Are you just saying that or do you understand?"
"I understand. Come to you if I need you, and that I'm always your first priority."
"Good and don't forget it."
"I won't. Not really looking forward to being tied up and gagged."
"Well that's too bad because I like seeing you tied up it turns me on." I purred making her raise an eyebrow. "Mmmm yeah I think that's gonna be your punishment." Saying that slowly, I mentally began undressing her and I'm fantasizing about how hot she look tied up last time. And I'm imagining how I'll tie her up, and all the possible positions I'll be able to do corresponding to each way I can bind her next time we're together. I'm very precise when it comes to giving my girlfriend pleasure.
"If you see it fit."
"I do, and it's sexy as hell! Ugh just thinking about it has me all hot and bothered. I can't wait to get my hands on you. I might just have to go get my punishment right now."
"Well you know my location." She smiled cockily letting me to know to come get her. The best part about it is she doesn't know I'm actually planning to go get her. It's going to fuck up the rest of the tour dates but I don't care. Becky is more important than a show I can reschedule.
Later that night Becky's POV
After getting off the phone with Sasha I feel a little bit better. I still miss her terribly but I know I'll see her in no time... hopefully. Who knew that being away from someone you love could hurt so bad. I dunno I was fine the other day, but now I just feel alone. I know I have Sasha only a phone call away, with my best friends on speed dial but I don't want to really be bothered. It's weird because I want the attention but I don't want to be bothered to entertain it. I'm not use to feeling like this. I miss my Sasha and she's still on tour, far from where she can just come visit me real quick and then go back on the road. This may sound weird but I'd much rather be on the road with Sasha rather than sitting home alone all day. At least there I'll have someone to cuddle and not just the blankets. Plus she'll be there to help make me feel better. Anyway thanks to Sasha I'm sorta tired after all of that so I'm going to attempt to get some rest although it seems to be a myth that continues to evade me. It's not too late here it's maybe almost seven.
..
"Get up!" I heard but I can't decipher if it's real or if I'm still dreaming. "I said wake up!" Then there was a sharp stinging pain on the back of my thigh. "Goddamn it I said get up!" Suddenly the blankets flew off me and I'm left bare with just my hoodie to cover me.
"What the hell?!"
"Hell is about to sound like fun compared to when I'm done with you." Rubbing my eyes to see who it is, I can see a figure standing over our bed. It's dark in here being it's well past midnight. "I certainly hope you didn't think I was joking when I said I'm coming to get my punishment." Oh thank god! This whole time I didn't have a single clue who it was but now I know. I thought it was possibly a murderer trying to kill me or kidnap me but it's just my lover.
"Sasha?" I asked because now that I'm thinking about it, last I checked Sasha was still on her tour bus in Germany somewhere. It was then that she crawled on the bed and up to my face.
"You know I have to reschedule my show tomorrow night now because of you?"
"How'd-" Before I could ask another question she pressed her lips to mine. When she did that it reminded me that everything is going to be okay.
"Not only did I have to reschedule my tour dates for you but I just flew a long time by myself so I could see you. The whole time I was thinking to myself about what I wanted to do when I got to this point." She cooed caressing my cheek and straddling my hips.
"But why would you do that? That's gonna set back all the tour dates isn't it?" I asked because I know how important her fans are to her.
"My baby needed me and I had to make the decision. Either a show that can easily be rescheduled for another date, or my girlfriend who's depressed without me. Wasn't a hard decision when I remembered who means more to me."
"Who'd you choose?" That earned me a kiss.
"I'm here with you aren't I?" She whispered pulling out of our kiss. Even though I knew the answer it still made my heart flutter. "You know I'd do anything for you. You're my bae and I intend to hold true to it."
"I love you." I whispered looking at her. She must have been thinking the same because she gave me another kiss.
"I love you too Becks." Like tradition I kissed her and put everything I had into it. "Ugh you're so fucking beautiful I just don't get it." She whined out sitting up still looking down at me. "I'm thinking about every time I've ever gone to kiss you and how no matter the time of day you still manage to take my breath away."
"Well then you better get an inhaler because I'm always going to steal your breath away." I smirked because she's stuck with me for life.
"I know but what's the sense you're just going to make me blow through it in a day. Or an hour.." As she said the last part she crept her hands up underneath my hoodie.
"Knowing us.. you'll go through it in half an hour." I purred sitting up so we were level. Once there I gave her a quick peck before taking off her glasses. "You won't be needing these for a bit. Besides I'm sure the people down at Lenscrafters are tired of us coming in there because you broke your glasses again."
"Well I got the warranty for a reason so I'm going to abuse it as I see fit." She spoke folding her arms. That made me smile because I love how sassy she is sometimes. Unfolding her arms I wrapped them around my neck.
"What about me? Do I have a warranty?" I asked as innocently as possible. That got her to chuckle before giving me a kiss.
"Yeah. You have the lifetime warranty."
"Oh really?!" I asked incredulously pulling her in closer.
"Yeah that means that you can never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever... ever leave me no matter what. You have to promise me forever."
"I promise you forever." I spoke without hesitation. That earned me a nice loving kiss.
"Good, because I promised you forever the first time I met you. But do you know what else it means?"
"No. What?"
"That I get to abuse you any way I want!" As she said that she leaned forward putting all her weight on me causing me to fall backwards. "And my first order of rules are there's absolutely no moaning. If you moan you lose... And with the way you've been acting lately..." Saying this she also leaned her head closer and closer to me so that her mouth was to my ear. "I think it's in your best nature not to lose." She spoke in a tone that filled me with uncertainty to find out her punishment... but yet all of me wants to find out. I want to find out. I crave to find out.
"Challenge accepted. Bitch!" When I said that she let out a very satisfied groan. I don't have to see her face to know that she's making a very devious smile.
"You just fucked up!" They way she spoke those words gave me goosebumps. I just pissed her off so I pretty much just lost this game.
The next morning
Surprisingly I didn't wake up until around noontime. Before I could process why that is I felt an oh so familiar pair of legs wrapped around my left leg, just like always. And it was here that I remembered why I'm waking up late. I almost forgot she came home earlier this morning. I'm not going to lie waking up to her asleep lying on my chest brings me a lot of comfort. I feel relaxed and at home. I'm happy. I'm happy cuddled up to her like this in our own bed. For months now I haven't slept with her in our own bed and now that we're here it feels right. I'm starting to think that her coming home to see me was a bad idea because I have no plans of letting her get back on a plane to leave me again. Just thinking about her leaving again is making me sad but I guess I should enjoy her while I have her. That being said I snaked my left arm around her and held her close. This is usually the time I take to go start breakfast but I'd much rather spend that time here with her in bed until she wakes up.
Later that day Sasha's POV
"Where are we going?" Becks asked because after we woke up we cooked some food, and I told her to get in the car. I didn't tell her where we're going but I have a feeling she'll like it.
"I'm probably making a huge mistake but I can't cancel and reschedule every show every time you drop."
"Nobody said you had to do that."
"Well I couldn't let you be sad on your own. But don't you worry because we're going to pick up your wellness policy."
"My wellness policy?" I just looked over at her then back to the road. Kissing the back of her hand I smiled.
"Yes. You'll see in a bit.. just promise me you won't go overboard."
"Well that just made me really excited because that must mean.. Oh my god!"
"What?!" I asked smiling because I think she figured it out. We're driving in the direction to the part of town where we rarely go. She knows there's only one thing on this part of town that's worth visiting.
"Are we going to the animal shelter?!" She asked smiling and grabbing my arm. I just smiled and kept my eyes on the road. "What? But you said I couldn't have a dog."
"I know what I said and I still stand by it. It's just I know we haven't been spending as much time together since I've been on tour. And we still have shows left to do before everything goes back to normal. I don't want you to be home alone while I'm gone so I wanted to get you a companion for when I'm not home." That earned me a kiss on the cheek.
"This isn't a joke is it? You aren't getting my hopes up only to smash them are you?"
"No ma'am. Let's just think of this as the start of our own family. The start of the Banks family." I spoke pulling into the shelter parking lot. "But listen you got one shot. You better pray there's an animal you like in there or that's it we're not getting one. Deal?"
"Deal! Come on let's go!" She wasted no time jumping out the car and basically running inside. I didn't even get the chance to park that's how quick she was. I know I'm going to regret this decision at some point but I'll do anything for Becks. She's been pestering me for a dog so why not let her have one. The only reason I'm allowing it is because I believe it'll help keep her mind off dropping while I'm back on the road.
...
"Come here! Come here Shiloh! Come here boy!" Giggled Becks as they are playing catch in the sand. Yeah there was a cute little beagle there that when we walked in he practically jumped on Becks. It was cute because he had his toy in his mouth when he did that meaning he wanted to play. And that was all it took for him to win her heart. I couldn't blame her he is really pretty. He has one blue eye and one brown eye. He's mostly brown in color on top with some spots of black and white underneath. They said he's about three years old and he's housebroken so that's what I mostly cared about. On the ride home he would not settle down he was so excited, and so was Becks. As soon as we left the shelter we went to the nearest pet store to get food and toys for him. As much as I don't really want a dog, I love how happy he make her. "Good boy Shiloh! Good boy!" She cooed as he brought her back the ball.
"Babe?" I called out being I'm sitting on the balcony watching them play.
"Yeah?"
"Come here please."
"Coming! Come on Shiloh let's go." With that she started to jog back over to the house and up the steps to me with Shiloh close behind. "Yes?"
"Can I have a kiss?" I asked with puppy eyes. She's been playing with Shiloh for two hours now almost and I want attention.
"Of course baby." She smiled leaning down to kiss me.
"Woof!"
"No you had your time with mommy today. It's my turn now." I argued back to him.
"Woof!"
"It's okay there's enough of me to go around." Cooed Becks petting him being he's right next to us. "Thank you for the gift I love it."
"Good I just want you to be happy." I smiled tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear. "I'm happy you're happy." That earned me a kiss.
"Thank you."
"No problem." I then went in for another kiss but before I could get in close Shiloh jumped up onto me and started to lick my face.
"Haha looks like he thanks you too!" Giggled Becks petting him.
"Blah Shiloh!" I groaned pushing him down because he's licking my mouth.
"Awe say I'm sorry momma I just wanted to say thank you for letting me come live with you. I love you." She cooed in a baby voice as she pulled him into her grasp and held him.
"You're cute buddy but if you ruin my furniture it's back to the shelter my friend."
"Huh?! How dare you! She doesn't mean that bubby. She doesn't mean that no she doesn't! You get to stay right here with me."
"It's getting late are you ready for dinner?" I asked being it's almost seven.
"Okay. What do you want?"
"Whatever I guess it doesn't matter."
"Do you want pasta?"
"Sure. Can we have mac-n-cheese?" I asked because thanks to my mother Becky knows how to cook it just right.
"Of course anything for you my love." She smiled before leaning in and giving me a long kiss. I made sure to enjoy every bit of it too. "I love you."
"I love you too." Giving me a quick peck she stood up.
"Kay I'll go see if we have all the ingredients or if we gotta go to the store."
"Okay. Bye." I frowned because she's leaving me.
"Bye cutie." Giving me a kiss on the cheek she started walking in the house.
"Don't forget your dog." I called out pointing out that Shiloh is cuddled up to me.
"Awe! Babe don't move. Where's my phone?!" She smiled looking at us. Pulling out her phone she held it up and took a picture. "Huh! It's so cute I love it. This is my new screensaver."
"Aren't you just the happiest girl in the world right now?" I joked cockily because I love seeing her happy because of me. Nothing makes me more proud to be her girlfriend knowing that I'm the reason behind her happiness right now.
"I am babe, look it." She then came back over and showed me the photo. "My heart is melting babe." She cried out cutely.
"As long as you're happy I'm happy."
"Thank you. Thank you! Thank you!" She then pressed her lips to mine. "Thank you." She mumbled through our kiss.
"No problem. Now get to looking." I spoke pointing inside the house letting her know I'm hungry.
"Yes ma'am. Bye Shi." She whispered kissing Shiloh on his head. Then she stood up and went into the house. Not without looking back at us before going all the way in. All while it happened I couldn't stop smiling watching her. Whenever she's happy like that truly makes me happy to the core. She hasn't stopped smiling since when we first got to the shelter and I love it. I love how one dog managed to make her whole day so much more exciting. But just because he lives with us now doesn't mean he's first priority before me
"Okay buddy let's set some ground rules." I spoke petting Shiloh getting him to sit in my lap facing me. "Rule number one I'm first priority when it comes to mommy. She's mine and I get most of her attention." He just turned his head to the side staring at me. "Rule number two no making messes in the house. And if you do make one you better hope she sees it before I do. Elsewise it's bye-bye to you. You're only here to help keep mommy from dropping while I'm away working so I expect you to do that." He let out this weird low growl letting me know he's at least trying to listen to what I'm saying. The more I stare at him the cuter he gets to me. It's his eyes they're so bright and filled with happiness that it warms my heart. Plus his big floppy ears don't help none either. "Then we get to rule number three, it's your full responsibility to take care of mommy when I'm gone okay. If I can't look out for her then you have to kay?" He licked my face letting me know of his stance on all the rules.
"Yeah we gotta- Awe babe!" She cooed coming back outside. "I swear I'm so lucky to have the both of you. I got my handsome boy and my beautiful wifey together on our balcony. I can't imagine being anywhere else than right here with you two." As she said that she kissed me and pet him. "But we gotta go to the store."
"Okay."
"Shiloh you wanna go for a ride?!"
"Woof!" He followed that up by licking my face then going over to Becks and kissing her too. He's so easily excited it's cute I love it.
"Of course you do. Come on let's go!" The two then went inside to go get ready I assume. I'd go but I'm not planning to get out the car. I'm trying to lay low since I cancelled my show tonight just to hangout with Becky. I told them it was a family emergency. Then again nobody is gonna believe that because Becks has been taking nonstop pictures all day long of Shiloh so I'm sure the world knows we're parents now. Then again I should've just told them I needed to go see my girlfriend.. I mean I'm sure people wouldn't be surprised about it though. I practically have been moving mountains for that woman since the first day we met. I was moving them just to get her and I still do it to this very day. I'm not saying that just to brag but to point out that there's literally nothing I wouldn't do for her. She's my everything and she has me so whipped that I don't know what I'd do without her.
And now that I don't have to worry about Becks dropping while I'm not around that gives me more time to work. Then again I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. The good in it is that I can go away for an extended amount of time and not worry about Becky going into a drop alone because she has Shiloh to keep her company. However the bad is she won't depend on me as much as she would've had to before Shiloh... When you think about it I guess having Shiloh can be a good thing. I mean now we full on have a dog together.. Actually no that's Becky's dog, I can tell now that he's going to make messes and I'm not looking forward to it.
"Come on babe we're ready to go." Spoke Becky coming to the door with Shiloh not too far behind her. I'm also very pleased to see that the two of them get along together. Odds are he probably fell in love with her too and that's why he follows her everywhere.
"Okay let's go then." Getting up out my chair I went in the house. From there we got in the car and went to the store.
Later that night. Becky's POV
"Awe he's so fucking adorable! Hi Shiloh!" Giggled Bayley as she was kneeling down playing with Shiloh.
"So Sasha just let you get him randomly." Asked Charlotte being she's sitting at the kitchen counter. We usually don't hang out in the kitchen but I'm still cooking dinner. I decided on making steak, mac-n-cheese, candied yams, and lose corn. Nothing too fancy but enough to let Sasha know that I love her and I'm happy with everything she's done for me today. Then again it's all nothing new because I always cook like that for Sash. It's just my way of thanking her for this wonderful life she built for us.
"Yeah after breakfast yesterday she told me to get dressed to go out. I didn't question I just did and then the next thing I know we're at the animal shelter."
"Oh wow the way Sasha would shut you down so quick about getting a dog. Then she comes home off her world tour and randomly gets you a dog."
"Yeah I know I was surprised too."
"Hmm I don't know about you but that seems a bit suspect don't you think?" Questioned Charlotte.
"No. What do you mean?" I'm very interested in where she's going with this.
"For months now you've been trying to convince Sasha to let you get a dog. Literally anything you wanted she gave to you except a pet. Then she goes away on tour and randomly shows up allowing you to get a pet dog. Like what'd you do? What happened that made her change her mind?" Now is one of those times where I wish Charlotte wasn't such a nosy person. The reason Sasha let me have a dog was to help me through subdrops when Sasha can't be there to do it. Then that leads to the fact that they don't know about Sasha and I's relationship in the bedroom. They don't know that I enjoy submitting to Sasha the way that I do. They don't know that Sasha is my dominant and I her submissive. Hell nobody knows that information but me and Sasha. I want to tell them but I don't want them to make fun of me or think of me any different. I know since they're my friends that they probably wouldn't care but I do. They don't need to know every detail of our relationship.
"I dunno. I like to think it was just her feeling guilty for not spending as much time with me like we usually do with her being on tour and stuff." I spoke as effortlessly as possible. Char just shrugged but I'm not sure she's buying it.
"Well you tell her that I'm upset with her for not spending enough time with me either. And that I'd like a puppy too." Added Bayley.
"Bay we're not getting a dog and we can't get one because our apartments does not allow animals."
"But look how cute he is?!" Whined out Bay as she's sitting on the floor and Shiloh is in her lap lying there as she pets him.
"We'll get you a virtual one."
"I'll let you babysit him whenever me and Sasha are out of town." I added.
"Deal." It was also around this time that Bayley's phone rang signaling a text. "Oh Becks can you pass me my phone?" She left her phone on the counter so it's fair game.
"Oh who's blowing up your phone?" I sang pressing the button to see who it is. Oddly to my surprise it's Sasha's friend Big E. "E?! I knew it! I knew you two would be perfect together."
"So you are talking to E then?" That got Bay to stand up and take her phone from me.
"Okay and I think he's funny. He makes me laugh and I like that." She shrugged defending herself.
"There's nothing to be ashamed of Bay we aren't judging you we all knew from the moment the both of you met." I replied because it's not really news to us.
"How much is he packing? From my prior experience and general information I assume he's part of the well hung community."
"I don't know." She smirked blushing. That's another thing I love about Bayley, she's a terrible liar.
"It's massive isn't it?" I asked because I want to know too.
"Stop lying Bay we know you had to have accidentally brushed up against it when you two were in the bounce house."
"Stop!" She groaned.
"Come on just tell us. Tell us and I'll show you how to take good nudes like I do." I reasoned because they've seen some of the nudes I've sent Sasha, so they know I know what I'm talking about.
"Yeah tell us and I'll help you reel him in for good. I'll show you everything I know in the bedroom so you can really trap him."
"I'm guessing a solid seven inches and some change almost eight."
"It's definitely enough to probably get me to start to call him daddy afterwards if he wanted."
"Oh?!" I asked incredulously because I've never heard her talk like that before.
"Yeah I'm over playing with these boys I need me a real man. A rich man who can take care of me so I don't have to work." Shrugged Bayley.
"Right and where does E work?"
"He's a contractor who works on building different things.
"So he's a handyman?"
"Yep and It's legit too because I looked up the company he works for and his name is on the website. Plus the company he works for pays rather well so I know he's worth it. It's not much compared to what Sasha brings home but it'll be enough to keep me happy."
"Wow look at you pulling in possible suitors. Watch out Becks she might beat you to the alter."
"No me and Sasha are in no rush to get married we're perfectly content where we are. Plus if I'm going to marry Sasha I want to wait until we have everything figured out. If we're going to settle down we're going to settle down completely. Like one house in a cute little suburb with a good education system."
"Omg you guys we should all be neighbors once we are all married!" Announced Bayley with excitement
"I'm down."
"This is awkward because I don't have plans to marry for quite some time so it might just be the two of you. I'll just live with the both of you. Switch guest rooms every night. Maybe I'll take a shit in your house in the morning then shit at yours in the evening. It sounds like a fairytale dream if you ask me."
"You'll just be the parasite that doesn't go away huh?"
"Yup. Oh and it's going to be a paradise, with the way you cook Becks. And then Bay if you marry E then that'd be a gateway to you learning how to cook like Becks so I'll always have a good hearty meal ready to go. It'll just be trying to figure out who's house I should go to for which meal.." Char mumbled looking between Bayley and myself.
"If that's gonna be the case you just better be doing some dishes when you're done." Spoke Bay.
"Looks like I'm moving in with you and Sasha."
"Nope. I don't want you snooping in on our sex life."
"No I promise I'll keep quiet."
"No that's creepy and I don't want to keep you up with all the moaning and whatnot." I shrugged. They know that me and Sasha have a very healthy sex life, they just don't know why that is.
"Hmm well then I guess I'll have to match you in volume."
"Ew. Don't do that." I can already hear Sash now wanting to be even louder than her. It also was around here that I checked my food that's in the oven. It's almost done so I better let Sasha know. "Kay guys dinner's almost ready." I mumbled grabbing plates out for everyone.
"Hmmm and you know why else I couldn't handle the married life? Always cooking dinner and breakfast everyday. I can barely cook as it is and I have no desire to care to learn." Spoke Char.
"That's why you should learn." Added Bay.
"I could but that's a commitment and I'm terribly scared of them."
"You really gotta get it together."
"I know but for now I'm chilling." It was about here that I zoned out on the conversation because I'm thinking about if Sasha will like this meal or not. She usually does enjoy my cooking so I'm excited to feed her. Taking out the food in the oven I sat it all out on top of the stove. This way it'll be easier to serve. "Damn that looks good Becks. I'm definitely coming over for dinner more often."
"That's honestly fine with me. The lesser around you the more sane I feel."
"So you're just gonna dump her on me?" I asked because that's not fair. I love Char but sometimes she can be a pain. I also took this time to take out my phone and call Sasha.
"Hi baby."
"Go wash your hands dinner is ready." I spoke simply. No sense in beating around the bush.
"Ugh finally I can smell it all from here." She's only laying down in the bedroom. She's leaving me again tomorrow and I want her to get as much rest as possible before she goes. So I want to send her off on a full stomach and fully rested.
"We'll come get it then."
"Yes ma'am. I'll see you in a sec."
"Ok." With that I hung up. "You guys go wash your hands and then we'll eat." Neither of them objected that. They know when it's time to eat, it's time to eat and they don't mind eating. While everyone did that I went in the cabinet and got out Shiloh his dog food. The people at the shelter have him on this weird food diet because somehow he managed to get a stomach infection so he can only eat certain wet foods in limited amounts. Being we just got him today I don't know what he likes and dislikes so I got him basic foods and I'll try them all out every night to see if he likes them. Today we're trying a chicken and rice combination and see if he likes it. After filling his bowl I set it down for him to eat. "Shiloh dinner!" I called out. Within seconds I heard his collar letting me know he's coming. He ran right up to his bowl and started eating it. Well I guess he likes this kind of food. After a second of watching him gobble his food I went and washed my hands. "Mkay who wants what?"
"What's that orange stuff?" Asked Bay pointing to the yams.
"They're candied yams they're really good. I think you'll like them."
"Alright bring them on."
"Same for me Ginige."
"Alright and everything else is fine?"
"Yup."
"Mkay." After that I grabbed my serving spoons out. This isn't the first time these two have been over for dinner so they know how it goes. I always serve everyone then myself, with Sasha always the one who gets first plate.
"You know I'm still confused as to why none of us can eat until after Sasha gets her food." Stated Charlotte like we haven't been over this before.
"Because she's daddy and daddy always eats first. It doesn't make sense to you because you don't do relationships. The day you do decide you want to settle down you'll understand why everything is done a certain way here." I explained.
"Well I'm not a homebody. I don't like the idea of being domestic like you."
"And that's why you have so much to learn."
"Oh learn what?" Asked Sash walking into the kitchen.
"How to be domestic." I answered simply before giving Sasha a small kiss.
"Oh yeah if there's anyone to learn from it's Becks. She practically invented domestication."
"Oh stop it. I just appreciate everything you do for me and I'm expressing my gratitude."
"Mm you're oh so very welcome baby. Anyway what do we have here?" She asked looking at the food.
"I made steak, mac-n-cheese, corn, and yams." I smiled because I like taking pride in saying I made all those things.
"Oh wow you really don't want me to leave again do you?" She asked wrapping her arms around my waist.
"Nope. It's a trap to keep you here for another few days."
"Well it's certainly one I wouldn't mind getting stuck in. But I'll take some of it all." When she finished that she nibbled on my neck a bit letting me know she has her eyes on me.
"Okay just let me know when enough is enough."
"Mkay." From there I constructed Sasha her plate. "Now since you weren't the main course does that mean you're for dessert?" She asked in a serious tone. I swear if she could I'm sure she'd say that in front of the entire world. As awkward as it is for me I don't mind it. It lets me know she's still interested in me and that I'm doing something right.
"Only if that's really what you want."
"I do really want it."
"Then you can have it." I smiled giving her a kiss. "You can have it all and then some."
"Well then I guess I better get a start on this plate then huh?"
"Guess so."
"Well this is awkward because I was told I can spend the night tonight and that we'd play Scrabble. Then we'd make chocolate chip pancakes in the morning." Charlotte added reminding me that her and Bayley are still here. It's the effect Sasha has on me.
"Yeah and y'all can do that right after I fuck the life out your friend here." Sasha spoke nodding towards me as she sat at the kitchen table.
"You know I'm scared that one day you guys are really gonna do that in front of us." Spoke Bayley
"No I'm down! I'm down to see that happen!"
"Of course you would you creep." I stated holding out a full plate for one of them to take.
"Yeah but you love it." Char spike taking the plate.
"I guess."
"Can I have that piece of steak right there in the corner?" Asked Bay pointing to the second biggest steak on the pan. Sasha usually always gets the biggest portion then I'll go the second biggest but I understand. It's funny because she usually wants the smallest portion because she's usually on some crazy diet and workout plan. She's just trying to maintain her curves so a certain somebody has a little something something to grab on and I respect that. I'd do the same for Sasha.
"Of course you know I got you toots. I'm sure E will appreciate it." I smirked placing the steak on her plate. "You want extra mac too?"
"E likes his girls nice and curvy." Sang Sasha from the background. I assume she already knows Bayley and E are talking. He's her friend and I'm sure Bayley has been the subject of their group chats a time or so.
"Okay I'll take it." I think that's cute because she must really like him if she's breaking her usual diet for him. I ship it though, I think they'd be cute together.
"Perfect. He's not gonna keep his hands off you next time he's in town." Sasha smirked.
"Three weeks and counting!" Chimed Bayley. Like I said I think they're going to be cute. I think it'll be fun to do double dates with them. Once I finished making her plate I handed it to her and she sat over at the table. After making my own plate I joined everyone at the table. There we talked and ate like we usually do. The only part I didn't like was Sasha purposely rubbing my thigh trying to elicit something from me but I held my own. I'm starting to think she gets a kick out of teasing me while we have guest over because she knows as soon as they leave I'll melt in her hands. Not that I'm complaining I just hope Bay and Char don't plan to stay late tonight.
The next morning Sasha's POV
"I desperately hope he helps you because if not I don't know what else to do." I spoke softly petting Shiloh being he's lying to the right of Becks. Yes I did lose the vote to keep him off our bed. Becks insisted he sleep with us on his first night here. There wasn't really much I could do because I know he'll just sleep here when I'm not here anyway. But if that's what my doll wants then she shall have it. Anything she wants to keep her from dropping. After her friends left last night I had to have Becky one more time. She's my obsession and I don't want to be separated from her. That's the reason I'm up before she is, I couldn't sleep. I'm too worried about how she's going to react to when she starts to drop again. I know she has Shiloh to help her but what if he isn't enough? What if he doesn't help much and she needs me? I don't know what I'll do but I'll find something. I'll find some way to her. I love touring and performing for all my fans but I'm starting to wish we didn't schedule such a big tour. It's taking its toll on our relationship and it's worrying me. The more I'm away from her the more I worry that she'll slip on me and I don't know what she'll do. I've handled some bad cases of subdrop and I've handled good ones.. well technically there is no really good kind of subdrop. It all depends on the person. Like before Becky I had a sub who didn't want anything to do with me once we finished until the next time we got together. Then there was a different female who had required a lot of attention afterwards. And if they didn't endure a drop it's because they weren't into it. These kinds of relationships are very hit or miss. Sometimes you strike out others you score a homerun. Those were all old flings that never lasted long because none of them were able to catch and hold my attention the way Becky has. She made me work for it before she gave it up and I loved the chase. It made for a much bigger payoff and made me want her to be mine even more. Now that she is mine it opened a world of possibilities because there's so much I can do with her that we could spend the whole day in bed just playing. Take last night for example, we stayed up all night talking and making love. It was great I couldn't have imagined a better night.
But unfortunately all the best things have to come to an end. My flight is a late morning one so we have a bit of time before we have to leave. I hate waking her but I want to spend every last second with her that I can before I leave. That being said I began placing small kisses on her neck.
"Mmm you're up early." She smiled eventually still not opening her eyes.
"Well I'm taking all of you in before I gotta get back to work." I mumbled still kissing her neck.
"Well then take as you need." As she said that she opened her eyes allowing me to gaze into her beautiful brown eyes.
"Good lord you are so fucking beautiful." That got her to blush and smile at me. "I'm sorry I thought I was thinking that." I have to kiss her now for that. "Then again it's true so it's good I said it."
"Well I think you're just as beautiful if not even more. I feel like I'm looking at the true definition of beauty."
"Thank you." I cooed kissing her. "Anyway let's get up I want brecky with my Becky."
"Okay if you insist." Giving me another kiss she sat up. In doing that caused Shiloh to get up and start stretching. "Good morning handsome!" She cooed petting him. He returned the favor by licking her, getting her to giggle.
"You know I don't mind our future waking up like this." That got his attention and he ran up to me and licked me too. "Glad to know you like it too bud." He is very easy to excite especially for just waking up.
"I wouldn't mind it either." As she said that she was looking directly at me.
"Well then I guess it's my job to help keep it this way."
"But first you gotta finish touring."
"Ugh stop reminding me. You're going to make me fuck around and just cancel the rest of the tour."
"Oh everyone would hate me. They'd think I told you to do it. No don't do that. We'll be right here waiting for you to come home." She smiled hugging Shiloh and they both are giving me the cutest look. They're definitely faces I'll remember when I'm on the road and thinking of home.
"Can you both like not be so cute? Like it's not time to go yet but I know I don't want to go."
"Woof!"
"I know buddy. I'm gone the day after we bring you home. Don't worry I'll be home soon enough." I cooed petting Shiloh. "Damn his eyes Becks!"
"I know they're so pretty. He's definitely destined to be a star just like momma." That made me smile. "Imagine that right? Sasha and Shiloh Banks, I love it. The singer songwriter and her model dog. Can't imagine how much more perfect that'd be."
"I can. You forgot about my girlfriend. The singer songwriter, with her beautiful girlfriend and their model dog. Now that's a perfect title right there."
"Mmm touché can't argue that." That earned her a kiss.
"No you can't." And here we sorta fell into a comfortable silence looking at each other. I don't want her to leave me. I want her on the tourbus with me. I know she has Shiloh but I'm not ready to find out if he'll help her or not. She's my wife and I want her on the road with me.
"Baby how long do you think it'll take you to pack your bags again?"
"Pack my bags for where?"
"Ummm like the next couple months until I'm done touring. I don't want to leave you guys here. I can't take anymore going to sleep in an empty bed. I don't want you to have to sleep in an empty bed either. I need you to come with me back on the road. The both of you. Shi can come too, we can get our own bus just for the three of us. We'll be like a little gypsy family for the next couple months. Please baby." I begged because the more I look at her the heavier my heart feels. The thought of having to leave her again is absolutely ruining me right now. That made her smirk and lean over to give me a loving kiss.
"That's a wonderful idea Sash."
"I know so let's start packing."
"We can't unfortunately. Shiloh has his first vet visit later today and we can't miss it. He has to get his shots so that eventually we will be able to go with you. And plus I can't go because I have to stay here.. away from you." She murmured softly caressing my cheek. "You know I hate being away from you but I think we should take this opportunity to-"
"You aren't breaking up with me are you?" I interrupted because that's what it sounds like.
"No baby I don't even know how you could even think that. No I want to take this time to see for myself how I'll do without you always by my side. I want to try and see if I can survive a drop without having you solve it for me. I wanna see if Shiloh is what I need to be able to cope until you come back home." That got me to grab her hand and kiss her palm before bringing it down to cover my heart.
"God babe it feels like you're breaking up with me." I mumbled being just the thought of her leaving me makes my heart beat uncontrollably and I want her to feel it.
"I'm not ever so stop it baby. You're making me feel like you want me to."
"No I don't want you to. I just don't want to go back on the road without you." That made her pull me into her embrace and hold me.
"You know I'm starting to think you're the one who's gonna drop before I do. I promise you everything is going to be alright. Me and Shiloh aren't going anywhere, we'll be right here until you come back. I think this is a great opportunity for us to be apart that way when we reunite it'll be a party. We've already started to plan your welcome home party. You're looking at the local party committee team." I thought this was kinda cute because when Becky smiled Shiloh kinda smiled too. I don't like the idea of being away from her for so long. She barely went three days without me last time, what if it's not as long next time? If it doesn't last longer what is she gonna do? Shit I guess that'd be the point of her wanting me to go. That way she can figure out what needs to be done. And I did let her get Shi to help get her through a drop. So then I guess that means I should listen to her.
"Is there at least going to be a mime?"
"We will go out our way to find one. There will even be an Elvis impersonator how about that?"
"I like Elvis."
"I know you do. And that why you have to go back on tour. To give us time to get you your Elvis." She then pressed her lips to mine in a loving way. "I promise we'll be fine. You have my heart and I'll be here when you come back I promise you. I want you to get back to your fans because they need their hero. Go love them then come home and love me because we'll be waiting. I'll be waiting and craving you. Missing you more by every second that passes that way I can really attack you. I missed you sex is my favorite sex and that's what I want."
"So then I guess I gotta make you miss me."
"Bingo. And I the same." She's right. We did have awesome sex the other night when I came home. Damn! Why can't I say no to her?
"Okay. But hold me a bit longer I wanna remember the way you hold me before I'm forced to do without it." She simply tightened her grip around me and kissed my neck.
"As long as you need." I have to stop always giving her what she wants because I don't want to leave her. It's what she wants so I have to give it to her. I have no doubt in my mind that she'll stay loyal to me. I'm just scared of her not being as okay as she thinks she'll be. You know what though, fuck it. It's my tour I can cancel and reschedule as many shows as I want to fit Becky's needs. However I'd rather not have to if I don't have to. I dunno I guess I gotta leave and see what happens. It'll be a set further in our relationship and progression on our cure for Becky.
So I hope you're not upset after this. I mean I had to its what is best for business. Yes it was necessary for mr to not include any smut this chapter because we all need a break from it for a second to gather our wits and drinks some water. I hope you got through this okay because Shiloh is now the new star here. Why a beagle? idk I think they're cute and have cute floppy ears. Umm just know lots of chaos is cuming your way. So Ebay is a thing and I ship that, I might dig deeper into that with a cute double date who knows. Shit I want to talk some more to you but i forgot what eled happens this chapter and I'm too lazy to go look. so instead im gonna say what im thinking about. Right now I'm thinking about how weird sleeping is. Like we have special mats we havt to sleep on and attire we wear to sleep on said mat. i dunno Im enjoying a Snickers nar rn, I love Snickers. Does anybody else sing the Snickers Song of Satisfaction when they eat a Snickers bar too? or is it just me? I mean its catchy af and I know the whole song. Happy peanut soy is the key to life. Im gonna go now because I wanna lay chapter goes out to the World. ~Joz I want pancakes and waffles #upitfuck (Happy 420 Stay High friend)