New chapter
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Serena was trying to hear the conversation between Nate and sarah but she could not hear anything except the noise of sarah's laugh. It was bothering her so much, Nate was hers and because of the presence of Sarah here she realized that she could one day loose Nate, not loosing him in a way that she could loose his friendship but in a way that she would not be his the one with whom he shares everything first and that idea was not making her happy.
Serena was the one who had the right to be with Nate, in his office, laughing, the one that Nate will always defend in front of everybody, the one that, that would do everything for her... he was just the one.
Nate dated Sarah when he lived in LA so serena never really got that feeling before but now seeing them together, even if it had been just 5minutes but Serena saw Nate's eyes, his smile. A look and a smile that she thought that were only for her and she was wrong.
She took her purse and left, she needed fresh air.
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In the meantime in Nate's office
Sarah did sit on Nate's desk as she used to when they were dating. It was strange for Nate to see Sarah but he was happy. She was an amazing woman, he could have married her for sure if he was not that much in love with Serena.
« So what's bring you here, you could have call me, I would have send a driver for you. »
« I know but I did not want to bother you and I also wanted to surprise you, see how you are doing in special project. » she joked pointing the door and Serena's office.
Nate laughed
«As far as I can, she seems not that happy to see me which is a good point Nate and I am here because of her husband and the wonderful chapter he wrote that I need to make him change. » said Sarah, her smile was gone
« Oh gosh, another chapter. » sweared Nate
«Yes, we got a new deal with Vanity Fair for a lot of money, 3 chapters, one each month until december but I can't let him publish the one he sent me yesterday so I jumped on the plane and here I am. I need to fix it before our main office in Chicago got the chapter. »
« Is it that bad. » asked Nate worried. He knew Sarah and she was really annoyed.
« Yes », she took an envelop out of her bag and gave it to Nate.
« OMG, I can't believe it, what's wrong with him. » Screamed Nate just by seeing the name of the chapter
« Well Nate, he is right, the only thing is that I can't let him published that because it will be bad for you and the elecions are so closed now, I just can't let him do it. I will ask him to go for another chapter. » explained Sarah
« Why does the man always need to write about us. » sighed Nate
«Because it works Nate. But I will fix it, no worries. So how is it going with Serena. » she asked to talk about something lighter
He explained her the last things that occured, Sarah was listening with attention and made few comments.
« Wow Nate, it looks interested, too bad that she seemed to realize that you are in the picture now that she is married. »
« Do you think I should fight or what. » he asked. It was so unreal for him to be talking about this with his ex fiance who broke up with him because of Serena
« I think that the idea of Princecharming91 is a bit highschool and Cyrano de Bergerac at the same time but who knows it could help, not you but her to realize things. She might realize that what she is writting is actually what is happening to her but I do think that at some point she will understand that you are princecharming91 and that's why may be it would be good for you to do not make it last for too long. »
« Actually, I am worried to be discovered before the end of the week. And now what, after what happened, what am I supposed to write, yes she was jealous so what is the next step. » he said sarcastic
« Tell her how you feel Nate, I am pretty sure that she still loves you but she is too blind to see it or scared, for some reason I actually believed that it could be fears what stop her. »
« It is not a good moment now to tell her. » affirmed Nate
« I agree but do you think that there will be a good moment, may be you should create the perfect moment. »
« You know you are amazing Sarah, you should hate me but no, you are helping me, what would I do without you. »
he took her hands and kissed one of them. She smiled, Nate was so kind
« I want you to be happy Nate, too bad that it can't be with me but I just want happiness for you, the real one, you deserve it. »
«Someone I know told me to have faith and I am trying. But let's talk about something ok. Do you wanna go for lunch. » he asked and he got a big smile for answer.
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They met Chuck and Blair at the elevator. They were surprised but pleased to see Sarah.
« Ok, so your presence might justify why Serena was leaving the building almost running. » laughed Chuck
« I guess so » murmured Sarah
« Do you mind if we join ou for lunch or do you want to have some free time. » asked Chuck
« Oh no, it's ok, come with us. » said Sarah smiling
They left talking about LA, about her life and also Baby Bass number 2 and Henry... Sarah was a very smart woman and easy going, it was Chuck and Blair, choice number 2 as the future Mrs Archibald but the number one was Serena and she would always be.
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At the restaurant they saw Serena who was waiting for a table. Once she saw them, she sighed and decided to leave. Chuck stopped her and Blair asked why she was leaving
«You could join us. »said Sarah
Serena looked at Sarah and laughed
« I am sorry, are we friend, I don't think so. » she replied and then she turned to Nate
«You should not be seeing her, she broke your heart, she broke up with you when you were about to ask her to marry you. » she added looking at Sarah drom head to toes.
They all looked at Serena confused, except Sarah who was laughing
« I am sorry Serena, I never broke his heart, your are the specialist for this because you did what 7 times more or less and Nate never thought about proposing to me. »
« I never broke his heart and of course he told you that he was not going to propose to you because you broke up with him, I saw him when he came back from LA, how destroyed he was. » replied a now angry Serena
The fact that Sarah was still laughing was not helping Serena to calm down.
Sarah face got serious again and she looked at Serena with the same face that Serena was giving her.
« He was not destroyed because of me Serena, come on open your eyes for once in a lifetime. Nate and I broke up because it was not working and if he was destroyed it was not because of me. » affirmed Sarah
Serena was choked, was Sarah saying that she was the reason why Nate why destroyed, but it did not make sense to her. Why would Nate had been destroyed because of her. She did nothing to him, back at that time he was living in LA and she was living in NYC with Dan.
Nate came back for Christmas when Dan proposed to Serena, the Sarah broke up with Nate and he came back, she was sure that she had nothing to do with Nate sadness unless he was sad because she said yes to Dan's proposal. But still would he get mad it is not like if he was still in love with her.
Serena looked at Nate confused
« I never said I wanted to propose, it was just gossip. » finished Nate
« I am sorry I have to go. » replied Serena leaving, ashamed and confused
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On the afternoon Serena went to Columbia and went to see Cece before to go home. She did not want to pass by the Spectator. She was afraid to see Sarah and also Nate. She had been as a bitch with no valid reason. She thought about the 7 times that she broke Nate's heart, she was looking for those moments and obvioulsy she could not count 7, not even 5 which meant that she had been hurting Nate many times and she did not even knew it, she did not even think about it and it made her feel so bad.
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On the following day when Serena arrived at the office, Nate was there already. She came into his office and said how sorry she was. Nate asked for what was she sorry for
« I guess for everything Natie. I am sorry if I hurt you. I feel so bad and I am sorry I had been talking to Sarah like that but it just, just thought about you and as I was wrong about everything I said things that I should not have. »
« Serena, it is ok, Sarah took out her bitch side too. »
«Yeah but you got the collateral damages. Nate did I break your heart 7 times. »
« I did not count Serena but sure it was not only once. » said Nate with a sad look
« I am sorry Nate. I've never meant to hurt you. » she said with a broken voice