We spent most of the day on the town, it was nice, but i couldnt stop thinking about Marrissa. Luckily Emily didn't really notice since she was in dressing rooms most of the time. Although the bathroom sex was definately a good distraction.

When we got back to the house, they're were random people all over setting things up and bringing things in. I spotted Marissa accross the room talking with some girl.

"Marissa!" i yelled over and started walking towards them. i caught the last end of the conversation she was having with the girl

"So i will see you tonight?" Marissa asked smiling, "I wouldn't miss it!" the girl said seductively smiling back, "Can't wait!" Marissa said handing the girl a piece of paper, giving her a small wave and walking towards me)

"Who the hell are all these people, and what were you just talking to that girl about?" i said severly confused.

"Well these guys are setting up the DJ booth, those guys are putting the lights in, those guys are cooking the food and bringing in the alcohol, and that girl is my date for tonight!" she said pointing at the girl she was just talking to who was helping the Dj setup everything.

"Wait...your date?" i said continuing to be confused?

"Yeah! she's fucking hot isn't she!"

"Wait..what.. well she is but.. what about..?" before i could finish she cut me off

"Gotta go Alex, got some more people to invite, and things to doo, see you tonight" she said walking away

What the fuck just happened in front of me. Still confused i just went up to my room, to get in a nap before the party. i woke up and it was 10, i could already hear the party starting down below, i looked around and didnt see emily. I got up, took a shower and Got dressed. I put on my grey flatbill backwords, my Dark blue bikini top, my matching gym shorts. i was looking good forsure. it was already 11 and figured i would go down stairs.

Where did all these people come from. Once i got down stairs people were coming from all directions, the whole island was probably here! people were dancing in the living room to the live dj, people were playing beer bong in the kitchen, others were chilling playing pool, or outside swimming in the pool, this house was packed! i walked into the living room and wspotted Marissa. That girl she was talking with earlier was on the couch and she was straddling on top of her and they were making out. What the Fuck.

"Marrissa!" i said pulling her off of her

"What!" she said

"What are you doing!"

"What does it look like im doing!"

"You dont even know that girl!" i said back with a hiny of jealousy, what was she doing with this stranger, doesnt she want me?

"Why do you care what im doing or who im doing?" she said cutting right through my bullcrap, "Would you rather it be you?" she said moving closer

"look, i..shit..you..have you seen emily?" i said trying to change the subject, she just smiled knowing she got me

"Nope" She said as i walked around looking for my girlfriend. who i found in the kitchen playing beer pong with duke.

"Hey babe!" she yelled when she saw me enter the room

"Hey"

"Weee are the chaampionss~!" Duke began singing. haha they clearly already had a couple drinks.

"Oh this is my songg!" Emily said draging me into the living room onto the dance floor. We began dancing, when i spotted marrissa and that girl a few feet away also dancing. We made eye contact. she pulled closed to the girl and began grinding her ass into her harder. i pulled Emily closer to me. The girl began rubbing her hands all over Marissa. i wanted to march over there and pull her off of her. She did not deserve to be able to do that to her. Marissa was letting her, but watching me the whole time. fuck i couldnt do it anymore, i told Emily i was going to get something to drink.

i took some shots and went back to the dance floor that was now dark with only a strobe light shining, i was looking for emily when someone grabbed me, and pulled me close to them. it was Marissa, i started to walk away, she grabbed my hand and sent tingles up my spine i knew this wasnt a good idea

"Just one dance" she said daring me to stay, she took my silence as a yes and began her assualt on my body. she began grinding her ass into me to the beat of the song, i put my hands on her hips to try and stop her but it only caused her to do it harder, she then took my hands and ran them up and down her body.

Shit if she keeps doing this i dont think i will be able to last any longer. As much self control as i am trying to have right now, for emilys sake, all i wanted to do right now was Fuck Marissa! i needed her!

i pulled her tighter and began kissing her neck, i felt her shudder under me. good to know i still have the same affect her. i turned her around, and pushed my knee up her thighs, she leaned closer, as we began moving i could feel myself getting close, and i could deffinatly feel Marissa getting close

"Alex,.. i need you.." her words brought me out of the trance i was in, fuck i was practically cheating on Emily right here on the dance floor. i frozen and then walked off

i went outside to get some air when i spotted Emily in the jacuzzi. she was talking with another girl, she wasn't just talking with her she was dam near having sex with her. That's when i saw her kiss her. She was cheating on me, not that i could really say much.

The thing that got me was i was not jealous, or angry. i felt a sense of..relief. Where as when i saw Marissa with that girl i was extremely jealous. Even though Emily is already drunk, i would never do that to her, i let her into my heart and now she was just proving to me why i never do that. Love is for fucking retards

"Emily what the fuck are you doing?" i said after i walked over there and practically dragged the girl off of MY girlfriend

"Calm down alex! its not what you think!"

"Well from what it looks like you just about fucked some random girl in MY fucking hot tub"

"Well then maybe it is what it looks like."

"how could you fucking cheat on me?!"

"Dont play fucking games alex, we both know you were never really into me. You dont look at me the way you look at her, you dont smile the way you smile around her. You gave your heart away long before i came along, i was just the idiot who thought i could steal it back "

"Who are you talking about? i was genuinely trying to make it fucking work with you! i told you everything!"

by this time i had chased Emily to the bonfire that was on the beach, there were less people there.

"Marissa, Alex! Your in love with Fucking Marissa! not me!"

"Em.." i said reaching for her hand

"Don't" she said sitting down next to the fire.

i sighed and sat down, wrapping my legs behind her. Thinking about what she said.

"You're right.I gave my love to marissa, and i gave it all.."

"Tell me about it" she said leaning back as we both stare into the fire

" she was the first girl i really liked, like really really liked..that i didnt just want to fuck and forget,,the more time we spent together as 'friends' the more i wanted more than to friends with her,,for Gods sake i began thinking about a future with her,,she made me want to be a better person, and not because she told me to because she never did, she just..i wanted to be like her. She so care free, and loving,,and God when she stares at you wit those ocean blues, and that sparkling smile, it makes me feel like im the only person that matters in that moment.."

"What happened?"

"uhm. well i told her that i wanted more, and .. she uhh shot me down pretty much.. shes got Ryan and .. i mean who would want me.."

she turned around and stared at me

"Alex! dont ever say that! Any woman would be lucky to have you! i know you really did try with us, and i saw some changes in you even before we started dating, your not as bad as you think you are! know get up!" she said pulling me off the sand and brushing the sand off me "Go get your girl!" she said pointing to the party inside

"She doesnt want me!" i said almost pouting at her

"Oh she wants you, trust me, i have seen the way she looks at you!"

i smiled, gave her one last kiss on the lips "Im sorry i put you on my path of self destruction, your a really great girl Em"

"yeah yeah i know i know" she said as i ran into the house.