I go ballistic!!Yeah you make me a crazy chick.

21. What else could go wrong?

"I already texted Sam" I threatened, even though I hadn't. But the crazyness had to stop. Jared was too busy packing up my clothes again. I sighed and started putting back the clothes he had discarded and thrown on the bed.

"Why can't you take this seriously?" He said as he left the suitcase to scan the vanity table and pack my products. I had to give it to him. He was really good when it came to folding clothes and using space. This would definitely come in handy later on. I used this as an opportunity to unpack as much clothes as I could.

"Why can't you?" I countered "You're acting like a spoiled brat" Tha gained me an indignant huff, but he kept packing.

"Just stop." I said stomping my feet. But apparently that didn't do it either. So I resorted to physical violence, and since I had learned from my previous experience that punching him was a no, no. I threw a portrait at his head. Maybe he was too distracted to sense the flying object or he thought it was harmless, either way he didn't move his head, and the portrait met it's destiny. Shards of glass clinked against the floor, but it was when he brought his hand to the back of his head that I gasped, his fingers were stained in red. A deep red. He was bleeding.

"Fuck"I hissedd grabbing the first clean t shirt I could and pressing it to his head. Jared only smiled fondly at me.

"It's nothing"He assured but it was not enough. I was already running upstairs, gettin a towel and water to make sre the wound was thoroughly cleaned.

"It's going to heal" Jared insisted. And he was right, the blood was already dry, however that didn't stop me from cleaning his head to make sure no trace of the damage was visible. "I'm sorry you just wouldn't stop" I said without being able to hide the teasing tone from my voice. "You are aware that we are not going anywhere. Right?"

"Yes" He said sullen "I know. It's just I can't afford to lose you. This past week has been hell"

"See stop being such a girl" I said trying to shake off his words, and avoiding my own fears.I tried to rub small circles on his back, as if that would ebb all our problems. My parents had gone ballistic, they were overreacting as I had suspected they would. I was to go to school and come home. My mother was droppinng me off, and picking me up. Contact with Sam's crew was out of the question, especially Jared. "We'll see plenty of each other at school, and then you sneak into my room when you're off patrol."

"School is almost over. And you'll leave"He continued to sulk.

"You could come and visit" I said for the first time. I had been lucky enough to gain an internship for the summer. It was a great opportunity, and it was going to help me a lot with my college application next year. But he was right I was going to leave for the whole summer and we would barely get to see each other. Sometimes my decision regarding the internship would waver due to Jared, but I knew I had to keep my eyes on the prize, things were going to get really tough next year when I had to leave for college.

"Yeah I'll try he said finally turning to face me." It made my heart swell when he looked at me like that. Like I was the single most important thing in his world.

"Jared"I said trying to keep my voice light, but it was too much, and seeing him break was breaking me too.

"This feels like Romeo and Juliet. Doesn't it?" He asked joking. I shook my head vehemently.

"Have you even read romeo and Juliet?" I gave a teary laugh "This is nothing like Romeo and Juliet. "

"I always thought girls found that romantic" Jared said confused.

"Well not me pal. I'm not the pining and crying type of girl." I set out straight. Even if I had sort of pined for him when I had my crush, how I felt then to how I felt now made my past feelings silly ones. There was no comparison.

"No you're not" He conceded lowering his face to kiss the corner of my mouth. Little pecks like this and tiny details still made me blush like a little girl.

"You should get going, my mom will be back anytime soon"We needed to be extracareful, I was sure that if mom ever saw him in my room I would fet shipped off to a convent. And then I would be forced to consider Jared's idea. And I wasn't ready for that yet.

We kissed good bye, and despite what I had sad, I pined for him the moment he set foot out the window. Alone I sunk back into my own thoughts. I had kept repeating everything was going to be okay, giving reassuring words to Jared and trying to convince myself in the process. Because the truth of the matter was that I was just as crazy in love as he was, and for the first time forever with Jared seemed more like a fact, an irrefutable truth rather than a crazy teen girl's dream.

"I sort of owed you"Leah said as I snuck into her car.

"I was a total bitch when we met" Leah admitted quietly as she started the engine. It was the last day of school, and we were skipping class, without the fear of getting detention or a call to my parent's home. Leah had taken care of it. Jared and Paul had not even bothered to come, since they were busy planning a party for the four of us. Sam was feeling pretty guilty about the fiasco with my parents so he was cutting some slack on them until summer was here. Then it was wolf camp all the way and they were supposed to patrol 24/7, in hopes of getting disciplined.

"I can't blame you" I said not being intimidated by her anymore "I mean you got a pretty crappy deal out of imprinting"

"Yes I did" She gave an empty laugh

"Would it have made ay difference if it had been someone else other tha Emily?"I couldn't help but ask

"Imagine if Jared had not imrpinted on you, and you were a couple, and out of the blue he tells you he's fallen madly in love with Madison" I gulped, it hurt to imagine it. Certainly experiencing would probably kill me.

"I forgave Emily after Sam attacked her" Leah said before I asked. "A permanent disfigured face is a pretty high price to pay for the man you love. I loved Sam, but I'm not sure I would trade places with Emily now. "

"Jared said something about you applying to Washington State" I snorted.

"You'd think he's the one going for all the bragging he does" I couldn't ignore the little bubble of pride that surged within me, knowing Jared was screaming to the four winds how much he loved me.

"He was going to"Leah said and I nodded, his father had mentioned it. If Jared was sacrificing his whole future for the good of the tribe, did it seem petty for me to no want to do the same.

"Do you think I should stay?"I asked knowing she was probably the only person that could answer that question as honestly and objectively possible. She deliberated for a moent and after two left turns, and four blocks she shook her head.

"No. You shouldn't. If Jared loves you he can wait" She said a first "What you should be asking yourself if will you want to come back after you leave" I didn't answe right away, eve if my first instinct was to portest, why wouldn't I want to come back.

"The imrprint goes both ways" It came out more like a question rather than a statement. Leah laughed softly.

"It does, but ultimately if what Sam, Jared and Paul say it's true. Imprinting is the wolf's strongest bidding. At the end of the day it will be you deciding your and his fate" The finality and the fact that we had arrived to our destination ended the conversation. I tried to shake off the weight of her words. There was still much time ahead of us, and I had more urgent matters to attend to, regarding our relationship than life changing decisions.

"What now??"Jared asked as I broke away from our kiss. We were smashed again, well at least I was big surprise there. But both of us were horny as hell, we were in a secluded part of the beach making out, gettin hot and ready to live out the idolized fantasy of making love on the beach.

"I have sand all over my body"I said trying to rub it off "It's itchy" I whined.

"Try not to think about it" He said crushing my lips again. I followed the movements of his tongue eagerly, my hand delving into his swimming trunks to explore. He moaned into my mouth as soon as I had grabbed him. Everything was okay, until he couldn't unclasp my top and ripped it apart.

"Jared!!"I whined, pushing him away angered he had ruined my ensemble. "Bathing suits don't grow in trees, neither do panties or bras. At the rate you're destroying my uderwear, I'm going to have to start going commando pretty soon"

"I wouldn't mind that" He said ignoring me and nibbling on my ear.

"Pevert" I giggled unable to stay mad at him when he was doig marvelous things to my in the bubbling feeling on my body I relented control, letting myself be worshipped by his mouth, his hands and his body. The buzz of the drinking paired with the heat of being pressed againts his muscular framed and the sizzling his touch left made me almost feel light headed.

It wasn't so bad, after all. Listening to the chirping birds, and the waves crashing, the insects on the nearby forest, they all creayed a lovely atmosphere romantic and perfect enough to spend the last day of school, being loved by your soulmate.

Finally resting with my head on his chest, listening to the pounding of hi heart and enjoying the afterglow that hot love making gave you I smiled as I hadn't being able in days.

"That was different"Jared said reading my mind "A good different"

"Again" I agreed "I'm really going to miss you"

"I'll miss you even more"Jared said.

"But we'll have a weekend for ourselves. I'm supposed to go with Maddie and my cousin camping, and they are covering for us"

"Really?"I suspect Jared was surprised Ade was willing to help our blossoming love.

"Maddie convinced him. Besides Kyle will be long gone"

"I was meaning to ask what was he doing last night at your house" Jared dropped casually.

"Mom invited him for dinner. Colin and her get along pretty well with him, which is annoying. Good thing is,Dad doesn't tolerate him either. That kept the visit short."

"At least your Dad and I are on the same page on something" He laughed "We don't like men who like you"

"With the exception that Dad hates you too"

"I hate myself sometimes. So we could bond over our hate for men who are nterested in you"

"Sure that'd be a great conversation opener" I laughed. This was strong, if Leah was right and it was up to me. I was going to do everything in my power to make this work.

I was almost done packing. I had made a list where I could check out the items I had already packed. Even though I was sad about leaving I was excited and really looking forward to my internship. Maybe things would get better when I returned. I was confident it would get better, I mea they couldn't exactly worsen, could they? I was feuding with one of my best friends ,grounded until next year, and with an impending future looming above me, what else could go wrong.

The answer came in the shape of rectangle my mother dropped in my bed. She delivered a package of feminine pads, lecturing me on how I had to bre prepared for everything. I didn't get to listen much after that because of the stupid understanding creeping its way to the surface. Eight weeks had gone by since the last time I had my period. I was practically two months late. Two fucking months late. I was never late. And in those two fuckig months I had lost my virginity, I had had sex without protection more than once, and the whole point of imprinting was making babies right?? So there was no hopig Jared was sterile or me.,The odds were completely against me.

I didn't need headaches or nausea to suspect pregnancy. It was laughing right in my face. Mockig my irresponsability ad carelessness.I felt faint, a hole in my stomach, and my dinner rising to the tip of my tongue to get thrown out of my system. I was leaving tomorrow, what could I do. I needed a test, a home test would do. But how could I leave home at this hour without raising suspicion. Not to add Jared was spending the night with me. What was I going to tell him.

What if I was pregnant? No that was not even a question. I couldn't have a baby. I was not having a baby at seventeen. Even if I was, I was not having it.

Baby wolves would have to wait. Because no I couldn't. No.

"Kim?" And just in cue Jared had arrived. I wasn't sure if I wanted to scream or cry "What's wrong?"

"What happened?"I couldn't scream or cry without risking my mother or my father bursting into my I opted for neither and just blurted out.

"I might be pregnant Jared" I said, my heart breaking at the same time his expressio changed.

a/N:thanks for reviewing.

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