Something I Can't Have

By InuYashaBaby1

I don't own Twilight or any of its many characters. But I do own the character Kristi!! Oh and Meghan; I own her 2!

AN: Read and review please! I kind of infused The Host into this, but not really.

Chapter 16

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Meghan POV

It didn't take long for the buzzing coming from what remained of Kristi to dissipate. She was fighting it... But I would let her have her body back in time. I just needed to see Edward... touch him, just like it was before he "died." I finished packing, and looked at myself in the mirror. When I had died, I was 30. It was good to see myself younger... the way Edward should remember me. My hair was long and down, and my eyes were a sparkling and beautiful blue. I hated that my hair was down. I looked around the room for a proper hat, only to find there was none. But, a band on my wrist made it easy to pull my hair out of my face. I looked at myself again, and noticed that my breasts were a tad bigger than they had been. I laughed at my own childish thought. But that's when I saw my wrist-Thin, white lines tainting it. Kristi had cut herself. I sighed-I was only slightly angry, until I saw the center piece: A big messy "J". For Jacob-What a joke. That child wasn't a man-but a demon. What remained of Kristi buzzed loudly. She loved him. But I would show her that loving Edward could be so much better, so much more pleasing. I continued to look at myself in the mirror, when a loud knock came at the door. I answered quickly:

"Who is it?"

"It's Edward." I squealed. But then I realized I was supposed to be sad. I walked mournfully to the door. I slid it open, and smiled weakly. He smiled back. I focused on all the sad things that happened in my life... the death of Edward, the birth of my beautiful Milo, my death. I started to cry. That's when I realized that his new "family" was behind him. This infuriated me-that he had replaced Milo and I. But I quickly let it go. "What's wrong, Kris?" I suddenly remembered that was my name.

"Jake... Jake." I let a little bit of Kristi come through, but I still overpowered her. I silently moved forward, and wrapped my arms around Edward. I looked silently at the woman beside him-Bella her name was. I smiled crookedly at her. The type of smile that said he was mine. I knew he was married to this woman... but we shared something she could never enjoy-a child, a family. She stared at me for a moment-shocked, and she got a tad angry when Edward wrapped his arms securely around me. He was colder than he used to be, but it was for sure still my Edward. I pulled myself out of his arms, and realized that the big tall one of his family had all my things. I let Kristi come up a little bit.

How can you do this? She yelled.

I can do anything I want-this is me too, you know. I replied.

You bitch! Edward isn't yours, he's Bella's!

You know we still have feelings for him.

Yes but, I love Jake more.

This isn't a democracy. You're lucky I even give you a voice. I can't stand Red bird, I spent so much time with her.

Wait, Redbirds here too?

Yes. You could have talked to her, if you weren't so keen on talking with me.

Oh. But I'm staying here.

Fine, then.

"Shall we go?" Bella said to me. I nodded-But leaned my head on Edward's shoulder. Meghan-2 Bella-0.

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Edward POV

It was surprising how attached Kristi was to me. It was really strange. She decided to drive with Bella and I in our Volvo. The more time I spent with Kristi the more memories I got of Meghan. This made me sad, because the more I remembered the more I realized how much Kristi was like Meghan. The more I remembered also made me realize that I still had feelings for Meghan. But, they weren't as strong as the deep bond Bella and I felt for each other. Kris had her head placed gently on the window beside her, her gentle breaths sounding like the fluttering of a butterfly. I had heard her thoughts back in the hotel room, and it sounded like there had been two of her inside her head. It gave me a headache. She had been arguing about me. I stiffened when I thought of it. Could it be that part of her heart still had yearnings for me... as I did for her...? Bella smiled at me, and put her hand lightly on his shoulder-as if saying, it's okay, I she was here for me. I gazed at her gentle, pale hand-Looking at the ring finger, at the diamond ring that used to be my mother's. If I had lived one more month, one more year... this ring would have belonged to Meghan. But I knew in my heart it belonged on Bella's finger. I turned my head back to the road, and listened to more of Kris's thoughts. She was dreaming of a field of flowers. She was running in it. It was strange because half of the field was white roses, but the other half of the field was red roses. She was running in-between both, but she was leaning towards the white side. I could only hypothesize what this meant. I focused on the long road ahead of us all the way up to Alaska. I got bored of this quickly and turned on the radio to the classical section. Bella and I swayed to the music gently, but Kristi woke up.

"What's going on?" She asked quietly.

"We're almost halfway there." Bella smiled back at her.

"Ummm... I hope you don't mind Edward, but... Edward now can't read my mind." She sang. (AN: bold is her singing.) I sighed.

"I don't mind, you want your privacy. Understandable." I commented.

Kristi smiled at me. Bella leaned over, and kissed me sweetly on the lips. Kristi twitched for a moment, but she recovered quickly. The rest of our car ride passed in silence, since Kristi turned on her iPod.

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Kristi POV

I was locked inside my own mind. It was like sitting in a dark room, where everything is cold. Meghan didn't talk to me-everything was quiet. I really wanted my body back. It was like that book I read a couple of weeks ago... The Host, where aliens took over the world and snatch all of the bodies of the humans, but some of them fought back. It was by this writer named Stephenie Meyer. I tried to focus on something other than Jake leaving. Well, at least he cared enough. But, I knew we shared a special bond, so he would be back soon. Maybe he would call, or make a visit. Or an email, or even possibly a letter. But, I knew that even if I tried as hard as I could, I couldn't seem to get my body back. But suddenly, it was louder, like a group of people were talking. Then, a loud voice talked to me.

Young one, why are you not in control of your body? The voice asked quietly.

I lost it. Meghan took over. I explained.

But you have the power to take it back, this is your body.

Who are you?

I am Red Bird, Kristi.

That's incredible. Could I ask you some questions?

Of course, young one,

Where did you come from?

A small village-they shunned me because of my ability.

That's terrible. How many years ago did you and Maquinna live?

456.

End of Chapter 16

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AN: Uh-oh. This isn't looking good for our heroin!! Sorry for the short chappie... -