Lost Then Found.
He didn't know how long he'd been sat there like that with her curled up his side but he knew it had been a few hours because it was now 4:30am. Olivia finally cried herself into a restless sleep 20 minutes ago but Elliot never stopped rocking with her, never stopped running his hand up and down her back and never stop whispering in her ear, that everything would be okay, they would find her and bring her home, that he loved her with all his heart.
He did this until he felt her finally relax in his arms, and fall to sleep. When she finally loosened her death grip on his shirt he carefully laid her down on the bed.
Feeling the sudden change Olivia grabbed his shirt again. "Please don't leave me. stay please." she whispered through her exhaustion.
" I'm not going anywhere baby. I promise. I'm just laying you down I'm getting in to bed right by side you." He whispered back kissing her on the forehead.
"You promise."
Hearing her ask that broke his heart that she would ever think that he would up and leave her. Especially now, like this. Instead of answering straight away he pulled off his shirt, pushed down his work pants and crawled into bed next to her.
Wrapping her back up in his arms he whispered. " I promise baby. Ill always be here right by your side. Forever and always." he dropped a kiss to the back of her head before she turned in his arms and buried her head in-between his neck and his pillow.
"It hurts so much El. I just want it to stop." she whispered through her silent tears, that Elliot could feel hit his bare chest. With every tear that hit his chest a felt like a thousand knife penetrating through his skin, muscle, his veins straight into his heart.
He could hear the pain in her voice, he could hear the sadness there too. The woman he loved, the woman he had sworn to protect, Love, keep happy and safe was breaking down in front of his eyes hurt him a lot because he had no quick fix for it.
"I know Baby, I'm sorry. I wish I could just take it all away for you." he said trying to swallow the growing lump in his throat.
He felt so lost, and right now he couldn't see a light to guide his way out of the darkness they were now all living in. all he wanted to do was cry. But he wouldn't. he would stay strong for him, for Olivia, for his Three kids who were in no better place then them right now, and for Maureen. He would stay strong so that when the time came… if the time came when Olivia felt like all hope was lost, and she would fall and not pick herself back up, he would be there to do it for her. For him, their family, for there unborn baby.
"I know you do. So do I." She whispered.
"I promise you, I don't know how but we're gunna make through this. Together." he declared to her.
" I'm so tiered." she whispered already half asleep.
"Get some sleep baby, ill be right here when you wake up." he kissed her head and kept running his fingers through her hair. Until he knew her breathing had evened out and she was snoring softly.
With Olivia still safely tucked I to his body he drifted in to sleep, filled with dreams and memories of his to lost girls.
M.E's Office…
Melinda was stood with Fin as he Told her what Carrie had said to himself and Munch. Hoping it would be enough.
"So what do you think? Will you be able to do it? He asked after he finished tell her what was said.
" Yeah. But ill need Olivia's permission to have the grave re-opened."
"well can't Elliot do that Mel. I don't think Olivia would be able to handle it."
"No its got to be Olivia, she's her mother. I know Elliot saw her as his daughter, but legally he has no rights to her, or to this, its got to be Olivia's permission I get. I'm sorry Fin."
"No it's okay. don't worry about it Mel." he smiled.
" how is she? Really?"
"I don't know Mel, I honestly don't know how much more she can take. She cracking and it's hard watching her. Its tearing Elliot apart watching her like this, he's been so strong for them all. But Olivia she's not handling any of this well at all. And now with Mo, I think it might be the straw that breaks the camels back. But who knows." he said honestly.
"Well ill go by tomorrow, and ill talk to her. Is she eating and sleeping enough, with her been almost 5 months pregnant its important that she does. "
"I know and from what Elliot's told us she's not sleeping more than an hour at a time, and for eating she does but she's got so many knots right now whatever she eats she just throws back up."
"okay… ill take a look at her tomorrow. See what I think maybe I can get her doctor to give her something to help settle her stomach. But honestly I think the only think that will do that is getting to the end of all this, and finding Mo."
" I think your right. Anyway ill see you tomorrow."
"yeah okay. Cya Mel."
At about 9am Elliot woke up cold and alone in bed. He laid there for a moment while all the memories of last night make crashing back into his mind like a high speed bus, until he heard the sound of Olivia been sick in their bathroom. Just as he got out of bed their was a knock on the door and when it opened the twins and Kathleen were stood there.
"Dad." Kathleen said softly
"Yeah sweetie."
"we started breakfast it will be ready in about 5 minutes. Are you And mom joining us?"
He smiled at them, he couldn't believe how lucky he and Olivia were to have kids like them. " Yeah we'll be down soon. I'm just going to check on Liv."
"okay." she smiled then walk away to finish the breakfast. Followed by Dickie.
Lizzie just stood there looking at her father. " Is mom gunna be okay daddy?"
He looked at his younger daughter and could see how scared she was. He walked over to her kissed the top of her head before whispering honestly. " I don't know princess, but I hope so. We're gunna have to work together to help her along the way."
"of course daddy. We just want to find Mo, and Libby."
"I know baby girl but we don't even know if Libby is still out there, not until Melinda Does some tests on her body."
"but even then she could still be dead couldn't she daddy?"
"yeah baby she could be,, but we just got to have faith that if that's not her in that grave then she is still alive. Okay?"
"yeah daddy."
"okay go down stairs, we'll be down soon."
"okay. I love you daddy. Tell Olivia I love her too." she smiled up at him.
He kissed her forehead and smiled back." I love you too baby girl, and I will defiantly tell Liv that, it might help make her smile."
With that Lizzie left the room to join Kathleen and Dickie in the kitchen while Elliot went to help Olivia.
When he opened the door he found Olivia sat learning against the bath tub with a damp wash cloth over her face. He smiled and walked over to her, lifted the cloth and smiled down at her.
"Watcha doing Detective Benson?"
"Not a lot just waiting here. Listening to the silence." she smiled back at him.
"Lizzie gave me stict orders to tell you that she loves you very much.. Ohh and they have made breakfast for us." he chuckled. " don't we have great kids? He said.
"that we do Stabler that we do."
"You feel better enough to go down and join them?"
"yeah I think so."
"okay lets go then." he stood up held his hand out to Olivia and helped her to her on to her feet. He learned down kissed her on her head and whispered " I love you baby. We'll make it out of this."
" I know we will and I love you too." she said standing on her tiptoes to kiss his lips.
When they got down stairs they looked into the kitchen and saw the kids sat at the table chatting and waiting for them so they could start eating.
They walked into the room and sat down with them.. " This all looks good guys thank you." Olivia said to them giving them a smile.
Kathleen got up and went and picked up to mugs. Coming back she handed one to her dad. " Coffee for you daddy." she smiled. " thank you sweetie." he replied taking the mug from her. " and this is for you Mom. It's peppermint tea. Might help settle your tummy enough to keep breakfast down." she smiled. Olivia took the mug from her and took a sip. " thank you baby I think you might be right."
With that they started to eat, all there minds on one thing and one thing only. After breakfast they all cleaned up and then got dressed. Leaving the house they all piled in to the car and made there way to the precinct, dropping the twins off at school along the way. Kathleen been on break went to the station with them so she could be close to them. And so her parents could keep her close and know she was safe.
When they walked through the doors to the squad room Kathleen went up to the lounge while Elliot and Olivia went to talk to the gang.
"Have you heard anything yet?" Olivia asked.
"Not yet we're still going through all the tapes. We got Officers out looking for witnesses."
"okay."
"Olivia…"
She turned her head to see Melinda walking towards them.
"Hey Mel, what you doing here?"
"well I've come to see you and Elliot actually."
She looked at the group who were all looking back at her then back to Olivia and Elliot asked a silent question with her eyes.
"It's okay Mel whatever it is you can say in front of them."
"shall we move this into my office." Don said looking at the other Detectives and officers walking round in the precinct.
"Erm… Yeah," Olivia said.
Once inside Dons office Olivia turned back to Melinda " So what do you need to talk to me about Mel?"
"Well after what Carrie told Munch and Fin in her interview it was enough for me to dig the grave up and exhume the body, but for me to do that I need your permission to do so."
"Okay do you need to get a court order for it though?" Olivia asked.
"No, not with your permission I don't. if you give it I can have the team I got on stand by and fetch it, I can have the results by tonight."
"tonight… that's fast." Don said
"Yeah well the guys in the lab owe me so ill put a rush on it and if I asked them very nicely which I will they will start it pretty much straight away."
"okay well do it. Melinda you have my permission."
" Okay I'm on it. Ill let you know when I get the results back."
"Okay thanks Mel."
"no problem Sweetie." and with that she left the office hoping that she would be able to give Olivia and Elliot the Answer they wanted so much.
To Be Continued…
So. Will they get the answer's they want? Well they ever see Maureen again. Will Olivia be able to pick her self up and push through it to the end, or will she give up? Find out later in the story if you want it… Peace. xox