Sorry for the Long wait this story is nearly over... i know i say that every week but it seriously is this time :)
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Chapter 21
Kim's POV
I carefully placed my books in the big cardboard box my mum had given me. I did it mechanically, taking the book and putting it in the box. Katie was on the other side of the room, wrapping my ornaments in bubble wrap and putting them in a separate box. I suddenly felt nauseas, a familiar feeling.
Since that day I had been sick more than once, even though I ate barely anything. I was so thin and pale, my hair limp and lank and my face gaunt. I didn't care.
"Kim" Katie spoke for the first time since arriving. "Are you sure this is the right thing?"
"No, I'm not but I need to get out of here" I sighed as I put my old copy of Jane Eyre in the box.
"But, what about Jared?" Katie whispered his name, he was a sensitive subject.
"He did fine before me and will be fine after me" I felt the pain start again. It was a different pain from losing my dad. That had made me numb; the only pain came from thinking about Jared. A sharp stab starting in my heart and vibrating through every atom in my body.
"Kim, I don't want you to go" her voice was soft. The usual optimistic Katie disappeared in a morose expression. I was touched by the tears in her eyes. They ran over her pale cheeks and she swept them away quickly. For the first time I felt guilt again and walked towards her. I secured her soft hands in mine and stared into her light blue eyes.
"I can't be here, everything reminds me of him. I feel like I'm going crazy just being in this house. Besides, I think me and my mum need a break from each other" I remembered the coldness between us, she more than once tried to get me to argue with her. She never got a peep out of me. This seemed to frustrate her more than any amount of arguments could.
"I will just miss you Kim" Katie smiled at me through her tears and secured her in a long hug. She pulled me close and we rocked gently. I did not cry. She helped me pack up the last box. I looked around my bare room, everything packed away. I was only taking 2 suitcases full of stuff but I wanted to put the rest away. I needed closure and this was how I got it.
Katie helped me haul my suitcases downstairs. My mum was waiting by the taxi she had called to take me to the airport. The cab driver took my suitcases and stored them in the boot.
"Be good Kim. Call me when you land" My mum said quietly as I pulled on my coat.
"Yes mum" she gave me an awkward one armed hug but stepped back quickly. That stung.
"I hope you have fun in England" Katie smiled at me as she gave me one last hug. With that I stepped into the taxi and my mum closed the door. I watched as my house slowly became a dot in the distance and the two waving figures all but disappeared. Only then did I turn around and s we sped along the coast of first beach I let my mind stray to the one thing I never wanted to leave behind.
I pictured his face in my mind. The most beautiful face I had ever seen. The most beautiful face I would probably ever see in my life. I pulled myself into a small ball and whispered so the cab driver wouldn't hear.
"Please forgive me Jared" and as the cab sped down the rain slicked roads of what used to be my home I said I final goodbye to the memories of my childhood and to my future.