-Let's Make Things Right Part 4-
Her fingertips trembled and the ink scribbled everywhere on the paper, yet, she remained focused. Francine, you can do this… it's not that hard, is it? Except, well, ruining and making someone's life miserable and trying to apologize to them. The teenager sighed and crumbled the paper into a small ball before throwing it in the small bucket sitting in the corner. How could this work? How can this work? She's trying her best to make this work without really facing Lance, but… it's definitely easier said then done. Francine had wracked in her brain for decent apologies, and scribbled down a few sentences of forgiveness… but… it might not work. Luckily she have some free time to write endless of notes here in this dingy library.
Hey… um… I wanted to say that I'm really sorry and… I know you hate me, but I want to explain to you that it have to be this way… you know? And that I can't be around-
''Gah! It's just too stupid.'' Another sheet crumbled and tossed into the trash. This was becoming tiresome, after a full hour of brainstorming and drafting, it's already sending bringing her to insanity. What's worth this idiot? Why is she doing all these things that not even worth her time?!
Remember who held you while alone.
Damn… never before had the guilt eaten her away like this. Francine sighed sadly and placed her head on the desk. Screw her family, her snooty friends… why does she have to be like this and not be herself? It makes her feel terrible inside out, 24/7. The dullness seeped through her conscious, giving her tranquility and relaxed her throbbing headache…- no… s-she have to finish this important letter.
Actually, what makes this letter important? Hell, even she doesn't entirely know.
Without realizing, Francine pulled herself into unknown sleep.
…
The dreams were enticing, luring, and cinematic that made her beg for more. Francine didn't have many dreams these days… usually nightmares, and it terrified her. ''S-s…o… sor…y.'' In her dreams, she can be herself and genuinely express her feelings instead of the real world.
''How could you Francine?'' She knew what she'd done was cruel and wrong, but what other way is it? She thought it was for the best, for the better good… to make him hate her for Francine won't deal with terrible outcomes from her family, friends, and basically her life. It had to be this way…
''Sorry…. So…rry.'' Those words had pierce Francine like a knife, a sword. She didn't want to do it! But… but daddy says if he catches her with people he disapproves of he'll make them disappear! It was for the best. ''Francine, how could you?'' That's why you take friendship for granted! Duh!
''…Stop…'' Francine murmured. ''Francine?''
''Stop.''
''…Fran-'' ''STOP!'' Francine jolted await with a yelp, blinking rapidly from her dream. Eyes darted everywhere only to meet… FANBOY?! ''Eeek!'' She fell out of her chair with a thud. Scrambling away from the unexpected person, Francine stared at Fanboy with shock, ''w-w-what the heck are you doing here?'' Gotta keep it together Francine, gotta act like Francine, must act like herself. She stood up and dusted herself off, glaring at Fanboy with a huff, ''whadda want?''
''Um… well… I just wanted to… errm, apologize?'' Francine blinked in confusion. ''What for?'' She questioned. It should be her to apologize… ''for being forceful and…''
''Look, I gotta go, okay?'' She went towards the desk to grab her letter, and then Fanboy's hand were on top of hers.