Six weeks later and I am standing at the door of our house with Draco, the girls are all behind me in the living room, chattering loudly and pouring champagne.
"I'm going to miss you," I smile
"It's only for one night baby," he laughs, "And tomorrow we will be married and I will take you to our bed and we will never have to be apart again," I smile at him as he pulls me into his arms and kisses me deeply.
"Put her down Drake we have a crate of butter beer and fire whiskey over here," Harry shouts and we both laugh before kissing quickly again,
"Go on then handsome best be on your way, I'll see you in the morning," and with that he backs away not letting go of my hand until the last second and I stand in the doorway watching him run to join the boys before I shut the door and join my own party.
The evening passes in a happy daze of chatting, giggling, drinking and crying over silly things. By the time I fall into my bed with Hermione and Ginny beside me and Lavender in the guest room next door, mum down the hall and the other girls of our family in the guest room downstairs, I am utterly exhausted and fall asleep within minutes.
Waking up the next morning and finding the bed empty I wonder downstairs to find a hive of activity, witches are all over the place doing hair and makeup and fixing breakfast.
"Oh JJ dear you awake, good, we need to get started we only have three hours before it starts," I pale slightly as she says this and run up to shower. But I needn't have worried as three hours later I have had my makeup done, my hair done, my dress put on, as have all my bridesmaids, photos have been taken and we are ready. I can tell it will be an emotional day, everyone has been overwhelmed by my dress already. The butterflies on my dress are nothing compared to the ones in my stomach as I wait by the door ready to leave.
"Okay, dear you ready everyone is here, they're in the marquee, and ah here's Harry now," I look up and see him walking quickly up the path as Hermione opens the door he stops short when he sees me and I swear he wells up which makes me want to start crying all over again.
"You… you look incredible," he stutters making me blush deeply as I take his arm and we head towards the entrance of the marquee stopping in front of it I watch as Hermione, Ginny and Lavender head down the aisle, Hermione with Fred, Ginny with George and Lavender with Ron, Harry turns to me, "You ready sis?" he asks and I nod as he kisses me gently on the cheek and pulls my veil down and as the music starts we enter and begin our walk down the aisle. I can hear the gasps and comments about my dress and the fact that I have a white glow surrounding me as I still haven't quite got a hang of controlling the power, and the snapping of photographers all over the place but all I can see is Draco waiting for me, as I reach him his mouth is practically hanging open and tears are glistening on his cheeks. He opens and closes his mouth a few times before I smile gently at him and the ceremony begins.
"I do," he says smiling his dazzling smile that weakens my knees, and then the priest turns to me,
"I do," I say in a choked voice in response to the question he asks and as we slip wedding bands onto each other's fingers, each had magic woven into it, protecting the wearer and letting the other one know if either were in danger.
"You may kiss the bride," and with that Draco lifts my veil and pulling me towards him kisses me deeply pouring all his love into that kiss.
Later as we are dancing with each other people around us cheering and clapping and then dancing with each other too I rest my head on Draco's shoulder and sigh happily,
"I love you Mr Malfoy," I whisper,
"I love you Mrs Malfoy," he smiles back at me kissing me again,
Three hours later and the party is finally over, our guests have left, the clean-up crew have arrived and after saying goodnight to the family I am wrapped in Draco's arms as he leads me home.
"I'm so tired," I yawn as we reach the front door,
"Well it's a good thing we're headed to bed," he chuckles as he pushes open the door and tries to lift me failing as he gets tangled in all the layers of my dress which makes me laugh, eventually we stumble through the door and into the living room as he frees himself. Still laughing I grab my wand and use it to help undo the back of the dress and step out of it, much like I had done after Christmas all that time ago.
"This easier," I smirk standing before him in a white corset, white French knickers with a white suspender belt and stockings ending in ivory stilettos,
"Much," he almost growls as he pulls me to him and sweeps my legs from under me as he holds me and carries me up the stairs. I giggle into his neck and we both laugh as we land in a heap on the bed moments later.
"Can you believe we finally made it?" I ask after I have calmed down,
"I have waited for this day, prayed for this day and wished that this day could be possible since second year," he admits quietly and I stare at him in shock.
"Well Mr Malfoy, I am yours now and forever, and will love you with all my heart until the day I die and I might even haunt you after so that I don't have to leave you," I smile as I straddle his hips and lean down to kiss him.
"And I will love you with every fibre of my being for all of eternity," he whispers as he pulls me to him and holds me close, I lay my head on his chest and listen to his heart beating, letting it lull me into a peaceful sleep.
Opening my eyes blearily I fidget uncomfortably and look over at Draco to see him sleeping seemingly peacefully one arm slung lazily over my stomach, carefully I lift his arm away from him and get up without waking him and start to slowly unlace my corset without making any noise and waking him. As I pull it away from my body after ten minutes of unlacing I can't quite contain the sigh of ecstasy at being free. Turning my head to look over my shoulder as I hear a sound I see him staring at me and I blush pulling my arms across my chest as I turn slightly towards him.
"Why do you always do that?" he whispers as I crawl back into the bed,
"Do what?" I ask my blush still burning on my cheeks,
"Get embarrassed and cover yourself up unless you've been drinking?"
"Oh… I… well… because… it's… I'm not…" I trail off not knowing what to say as I can feel myself flush further.
"JJ," I continue to stare at my hands as they fidget with the covers trying to cover more of myself up. "JJ please," the desperation in his voice makes me look up and when I meet his eyes the hurt in them makes tears rush to my own. "I need you to see you how I see you,"
"I don't understand," I say quietly as he jumps out of bed and pulls me with him, I squeak and try to get away from him and back to the safety of the covers,
"Stop," he says in such a commanding voice that I freeze as he stands behind me in front of the floor to ceiling mirror which stands in the corner of our bedroom. He grips me tightly not allowing me to move, slowly he pulls my face up so that we are staring at each other through the mirror, I am shaking and I can see the red still prominent on my cheeks and unshed tears in my eyes, my breath coming in short shaky gasps.
"I can't do this," I stutter,
"Yes you can," he whispers slowly placing his hands around my wrists and pulling my arms away from my chest and down to my sides, "look at yourself," he commands and I shake my head refusing to break eye contact with him a tear escaping from my eye and rolling down my cheek, "Nat you are beautiful, the most beautiful woman I have ever seen," he breaks off his own breath shaky as he attempts to control his emotions.
"I can't," I whimper, "I'm not… I'm so scarred and he… he told me…"
"Told you what? Who?" he says staring at me intently through the mirror,
"Him… Simon," I wince as I say the name, "the guy in the orphanage, he used to tell me how lucky I was to have him interested, how ugly I was… after… after he did it… he told me what an ugly w…whore I was," I break off tears spilling down my cheeks as he drops his hands and glancing up I can see tears falling from his eyes too and it makes me gasp. I spin round and hold him to me, "I'm so sorry, I'm sorry," I stutter, "I didn't mean to say it, I've ruined it again haven't I? I can't even get through our wedding without causing drama,"
"Stop JJ, please," his tone is so pleading that I do stop and pull back slightly to look at him, "I don't know what else to do to make you believe me, to me you are the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, it has always been you, every scar just enhances your beauty to me, I married you because I'm in love with you and I want you with me forever, I'm just lucky that I happen to be in love with someone so beautiful," I look at him for a while before making my mind up and taking a deep shuddering breath I turn back to the mirror, and standing with my arms shaking by my sides I look at myself, for the first time I really look at myself. I'm still a bit skinny but you can no longer see every rib and bone and I'm starting to fill out a bit. My breasts are well proportioned and rounded as well as being pert, my waist is small and curves out nicely to my hips. My stomach is flat and my legs long and slim.
Feeling his fingers on my waist I shiver slightly and look up to see him staring at me through the mirror as he stands behind me. "You see," he whispers bending his head to my neck and kissing it gently. "You are perfect," he kisses me again, "You are beautiful," his lips brush against my earlobe making me shudder and moan softly, "You are mine," his fingers are slowly working their way to my core, "I will cherish you forever," he finishes and I moan again. That night we make love with all the lights on exploring every inch of each other's bodies.
It's been nearly a year since our wedding day and Harry and Ginny, Ron and Lavender and Hermione and Fred have all since been married too and I've never been happier. The Burrow has become a hive of activity once again as Bill and Fleur have announced that they are having a baby and we are preparing to throw a baby shower this weekend. Although I've been feeling really sick the last few days although I've tried to keep it from people.
Waking up I can feel the warmth of the summer sun on my skin and rolling over plan to fall asleep again but a sudden wave of nausea forces me to run to the toilet and be violently sick.
"Baby, what's wrong?" Draco says from behind me as he strokes my hair back for me,
"I don't know, must be something I ate," I say eventually.
"Stay home from work today, you should rest," he says looking concerned,
"I can't, I have some important interviews to do today," I say determinedly, "I'll be fine, I promise, you can drop me off if you like," I say to cajole him, I know how much he loves to walk me to my desk in the morning, to make sure I've got there safe and I think to double check that I am still doing my desk job, I'm now the assistant head of the auror's department, and not out on missions with Harry anymore.
"Okay, but promise me that you'll come straight home if you're feeling ill again," I nod in agreement, not that I can disagree because I know that he'll tell Harry as soon as we see him at breakfast anyway. We nearly always all have breakfast together in the burrow which is one of my favourite times of day, I love seeing everyone, watching them all go about their morning routines, I still have to force myself to eat and I know they all still watch me. This morning they all notice that I'm not eating and I can't help but smile at the concerned looks being passed between them.
This pattern continues for the next three or four weeks, I have managed to hide the sickness from Draco although my sudden drop in weight again has not gone unnoticed, sitting in the toilet cubicle at work I breathe deeply, in my hand is the positive pregnant test and I don't know what to think, Draco will be thrilled, I am too, I just don't know if we're still too young.
"Draco," I say quietly, finding myself at his office door before I can bottle out of it,
"Come in… baby, what are you doing here? You look pale what's wrong?" he says jumping up and moving towards me.
"I'm fine," I smile at him kissing him lightly, "I have some news though… I well… I hope you're happy about it… the sickness it hasn't really gone away…"
"How would that make me happy, have you been to see the medi wizards?" he says looking almost affronted and is about to carry on but I put my hand up and silence him,
"Because I've just found out that I've been sick because I'm pregnant," I say trailing off towards the end of the sentence,
"You're… you're… we're having a… Oh God I'm going to be a dad this is amazing," he cries picking me up in his arms and holding me to him as he lands a kiss on every bit of skin he can find.
"So you're okay with it?" I ask tentatively,
"I'm more than okay with it," he beams, and I smile back.
"Right well we'll tell the others at dinner tonight, I need to get back to work now, just don't mention anything to anyone here until we've spoken to work about it okay," and he nods kissing me again,
"I love you baby, I'll meet you by the lifts at five," he smiles kissing me again as I drag myself away from him and back towards my department.
Turning the corner however I hear shouting and rounding the last corner into my department I can see all hell has broken loose. Normally I would already have my wand out but I am somewhat distracted today and it's too late, Norvany, a dangerous death eater who had been brought in had somehow escaped his restraints and was in the middle of a battle with Harry and a couple of other members of the department.
"JJ watch out," Harry screams and I reach for my wand, but it's too late, Norvany has spotted me and is behind me with his wand to my throat.
"Get out of the way, or she's dead before she hits the ground," he growls and he begins to back towards the lifts, dragging me into one, the last thing I see is the panic on their faces and Harry rushing towards what I can only imagine is Draco's office.
"Let me go," I scream at him as soon as the doors have closed.
"I don't want to touch a filthy blood traitor like you if I can help it believe me," he spits throwing me hard against the wall where I hit the railing stomach first, a sickening pain ripping through my abdomen making panic and bile rise up in my mouth.
"You will never get out of here," I say hoarsely, and he laughs before drawing his wand but I'm quicker, spells begin flying through the small space and by the time the lift pings to a halt and the doors open the battle is almost over. We are both bleeding heavily but I won't let him win and manage to immobilise him for long enough to let Harry get in and bind him as the others rush in to take him straight to Azkaban.
"JJ…" the voice is soft and full of fear, I look up and see Harry standing in front of me, now that I've stopped I can suddenly feel again and pain pools in my womb as I scream out unable to stop myself doubling over and crumpling to the floor.
"Oh God JJ," I can hear Draco's voice as he collapses besides me, "Oh shit the baby, Harry get us to St Mungo's now," he yells and blackness engulfs me as I pass out.