Ah reviews and encouragement, love it! So, yeah I know a flashback now? Seriously how mean can I be? Well, I was going to do two, one with Travis and Spock, but decided to combine them into two. It's important to show Amelia always was loved and supported, though in two drastically different ways.

As mentioned before Amelia did lose the first baby, the first flashback is about 16 months after Khan and Mr. Ear Worm

Future of Non-Existence

Chapter 21

Travis got up and picked up the baby, hoping not to disturb his wife. "Shh little one, mommy is asleep, she had a pretty bad night."

"Mommy's awake, just not opening up her eyes. Bring her over, and lay back down," Amelia instructed.

"Oh that silly mommy, making me thinks she finally fell asleep," Travis told his three month old daughter as he laid her down in bed then laid down next to her. He reached over and kissed Amelia. "You stayed up again studying your law books," he told her.

Amelia smiled keeping her eyes closed as she touched the babies face. "Silly daddy telling mommy something she already knew huh Jenna?"

"Milly, could it be possible the dreams are coming back more frequently because your father is coming for a week to visit? It happened before our wedding too, right after you spent time with your former crew," he told her as he kissed her.

Amelia opened her eyes. "I am not going to tell my father that he can't come and meet his first grandchild because I'm having nightmares of Khan…" she said as she looked at the baby then him. "Dad, Spock, Uhrua, Bones, Scotty, Sulu and Chekov will now and forever be more than a crew, they are family. Just as you and Jenna are," she informed her husband. "I know you don't understand how that can be possible because you never spent any time on a ship, your father worked at Star Fleet headquarters for God Sake," she told him as she kissed the baby's head. "But, I was cursed having a father who was a captain of the pride and joy of the Fleet, so yes they became my family. And, a family that would do anything for each other," she told him as she looked at him. "You do realize that if it wasn't for this thing in my head trying to kill me, I would have helped steal the Enterprise and went after Spock with them."

Travis nodded. "It was one of the reasons that McCoy gave me when he contacted me and told me that he was transferring you and I quote, 'that if she has a moment of clarity she is going to be typical Kirk react first then think later. She's getting off this ship."

Amelia laughed. "Yeah that sounds like Bones," she told him. "I know you don't respect the way that my father handles things, but could you please keep the insulting down to a bare minimum. I mean he is meeting this little sweet potato, and we both created her and my father was a bit responsible for creating me, so you do have him to thank for both of us being here," she said with a grin.

Travis laughed. "Starfleet's loss is the lawyer corpse gain," he said as he kissed her.

Vulcan years later-

Amelia sat on the bench in the garden outside of Spock's house at three Am, not even looking up as Spock sat down beside her. "Spock."

Spock touched her shoulder causing her to turn around and look at him. "You did not wake me."

"Spock there is no reason for both of us to be awake," Amelia informed him as she kissed him.

"It is illogical that you would assume that I would not be bothered by your absence in our bed," he told her. "When did they start?" he questioned as he touched her cheek.

"Spock…" Amelia told him.

"Do not Spock me, do not Adun me, I am the only other person that understands," he warned her. "I still say we should mind meld," he told her.

"Spock…I have asked you not to mention that again, years ago, before I was even married to Travis. I appreciate that you did when I was in sickbay, but that was before you died," she told him as she kissed him. "I seriously don't think I could deal with your demons on top of mine when it comes to Khan," she told him.

Spock nodded. "But it does not mean we are not going to discuss it," he said as he kissed her.

Amelia sighed, knowing they could sit there all night and argue. "It's always the same….the touch of his fingertips barley touching my chin…his bone chilling voice….it's not even about the eel, it never was," she told him.

"Look at me," Spock told her as he bent his forehead to hers, lowering his voice and gently taking her chin in his fingers. "You are safe; you are not there with that man. You are here, you are on Vulcan, and you are loved. Nightmares can be won; you just have to fight them. When you find yourself in it, focus on what it is, just a nightmare, a battle that you won long ago, my dear wife," he said as he kissed her. "Return to our bed."

Amelia nodded as she stood. "Thank you…"

"Always," he told her in her mind.