Sorry about the shortness. Fyi, I started this chapter before I posted the last one.

I WILL AWARD YOU WITH A COOKIE IF YOU CAN TELL ME WHO SAID THE TITLE OF THIS CHAPTER. hint: it's a president.

It wouldn't be much longer. My body quivered with excitement as a opened my mouth. A brush of my tooth on any bit of the flesh in his mouth would open a wound, would be just enough. Finally, after more than three years, a real meal.

The human started exploring my mouth, but he didn't come near a tooth. I pressed myself up against my prey to entice him more. His pulse thudded erratically and loudly in my ears. I pushed him onto the street feeling alive. Once more I took a dive for his mouth, but ended up bringing my mouth down to his neck, when I realized the human was knocked out. I inhaled the scent. Wonderful.

I suddenly found myself whacked away from my prey. My silent assaulter was none other than Edward. He wanted his own piece of the human. Well that was just too bad. I lunged for him. He met me halfway, slapping me across the face. "Jera!" he screamed right in my face. "What would Jacob think?"

"Who's Jacob?" I growled at him, eyeing my prey. He remained silent. What was he waiting for?

Oh no. Jacob.

I fell to my knees. "What have I done?" I wailed while sobbing dryly.

"You lost control, that's all."

"That's all?! What did I do?!" The past five minutes were a fuzzy blur. Edward pointed to a body sprawled on the ground. It was Mike. "Did I...?" I gasped. He shook his head. "What did I do?"

"Don't worry about it...We'll have to leave him here though. You need to hunt right now. That's all we can do."

"Will he be alright?" I asked starting to stand. Edward nodded. "Thank God."

Soon we were in the giant backyard of the Cullen's residence. And I was well fed, kind of.

The word, monster was playing in my head on repeat. Monster. Monster. Monster. I'm a monster that feeds mercilessly off of what I used to be.

"Stop thinking," Edward commanded as we walked through the back door.

"You can't hear my thoughts."

"But I kno what you are thinking."

"Do you?"

"More than you can imagine."

"Scary," I murmered.

Edward was already in the living room with Jasper. "You get anything yet?" he asked.

Jasper looked at me and Edward. "What happened?"

"Did you hunt yet?" I asked trying to ignore him.

"Yes, I did..."

Edward started heading up the stairs. "Good, get everything together, we're leaving now."

"Jera, what happened?" I left the room without saying a word of reply.

We were back in Illinois before I realized we had started moving. I was entirely zoned out. For all I could tell no one spoke the entire way as well.

The guilt was chewing away at me. What if I hadn't lost my control of Edward? I could be on a killing spree right now. One human wouldn't be enough to fill me, I knew that.

Jacob was waiting outside the door. He smiled at me excitedly. I tried to return the enthusiasm, but I knew it looked fake. He frowned. "What's wrong?" he asked as he took me into his burning arms. I couldn't respond. I only choked before breaking down into dry sobs. He picked me up and brought me upstairs to our room, where he cradled me for Lord knows how long.

"Jacob," I sputtered, at last. "I'm a monster."

"You are no more a monster than me."

"Not true." He didn't respond, only stroking my hair. "I almost killed somebody..." I started. I felt his muscles tighten a little. "Mike Newton." Jacob chuckled. "Not funny," I said irratated.

"Sorry," he muttered. "Just, I've wanted to kill him..."

"But I was only a second away from truely doing so."

"Are you going to tell me what happened?"

So I told him. Well, as much as I remembered, which wasn't very much. I could remember telling Edward something along the lines of being brainless recently. Then it was almost nothing until I realized who I was, who Jacob was.

"Why does this scene seem familiar?" I asked staring up into his troubled face.

"History repeats itself," he replied simply with a small shrug. I drew my arms around his neck and kissed him. His pulse and energy coarsed through me. I've missed him so much.

That night I spent curled up in his arms, trying to sleep. But whenever I was close, sleep evaded me once more. Damn sleep.

I arrived at school to be greeted by an unhappy Scarlet...an unhappy, pink haired, Scarlet. "What happened?" I managed as Jacob and I stifled our laughs.

"What do you think happen?" she said through gritted teeth.

"Alice...?"

"Bingo. I can't believe that you didn't get my message."

"Let's just say that the past few days have been really bad for me." Scarlet's mouth hung open and she stared at me in silence. I shook my head. "It's not what you think; I'll explain it later. So how did this message go anyway?"

Scarlet though unhappily retold her message, which included an impersonation of a murderous sounding Alice snatching the phone from poor, weak Scarlet. It was very entertaining. By the end Jacob and I were in hysterics. Of course, she didn't find her dilemma too funny and tried to hurt us. That didn't go over too well...

And with that day gone everything was restored to a new normal. Anthony had a job. Bethany kept Gabriel preoccupied. Leaving Jacob and I to do...well anything we wanted. Sue began to assimilate with our group better. And I continued to silently growl at dance when Melanie and I had to partner.

No it's not over. Ha! Like that would be my ending. Seriously, man, there's still like five major things that have to happen before the story's over.