Chained Heart Chapter 21
Gaara's POV
After we were done bathing I went to Temari's room and got Ai a dress and after that I made sure she ate a decent meal. I watched her as she ate. The dress was extremely loose around her, and she would usually fit in Temari's dresses. I smiled at the way she ate, like I was going to take her food away. I placed her pill in front of her plate.
"Don't forget to take your vitamins." I said and she nodded.
When she finished eating we all walked at the gates of the village got in the calash I requested from the village. I knew it would be bad for her to travel in that state. She sat next to me and my siblings on the opposite side of the calash. Ai leaned on my shoulder and dozed off. I had to stay alert in case of an ambush. Temari held her gaze in a book and Kankuro was looking out the window, still probably on the lookout for danger. I felt Ai's bony frame trying to get more comfortable on my shoulder. I placed my head on hers and put my hand around her hip. I couldn't help but wonder what she has been eating all of this time. A sleepy sigh could be heard from her, as if she felt safe and comfortable. A small smile formed on her chapped lips.
It was me who made her do this to herself…this torment she has been through, and I was supposed to heal her suffering. I checked my pocket. That's where I held my mother's ring for all these six months, the ring I offered to her. I wanted to propose to her again but I figured I should let some time pass.
After a few hours went by we stopped for a brief moment. I had to wake up Ai to give her the second meal of the day. I shook her up and she woke up a bit startled as usual. She looked me in the eye and smiled.
"You're here…" She whispered and embraced me.
"Always." I said back. "Here. You have to eat this." I gave her the food.
"I'm not really hungry…"
"But you know what Sakura said…Besides…you do remember what we talked this morning about, right?" I said smirking.
She flashed me a sultry look that did not last for more than a few seconds. "Hm…why didn't you say so?" Once she began eating we resumed our journey until it got dark and had to stop again and rest a bit more. Ai was sleeping all the way so I figured I should let her rest. After we set our tents for the night I went to go get her and she was already awake. I sat next to her and embraced her. I pecked her on the nape, where the scar was. "Even now…" She began. "I can't believe I am here instead of that hell hole." She sighed deeply and when I was about to speak she continued. "And you're here with me…warm and soft…You're not an illusion, are you?"
I caressed the side of her arm and saw she had goose bumps. She almost moaned at my touch. I kissed her cheek, then her mouth. She smelled good. "I am no illusion…" I placed my hand on her thigh and she gasped in surprise. I was merely teasing her. She placed her hand on mine and guided me to her private area.
"Please…" She begged.
I took my hand away. "No. It's not good for you…We better go have some sleep, alright? You also have to eat your third meal."
She smiled reassuringly at me and kissed me on the cheek. "I love you." She said wholeheartedly. She got up and was about to exit the calash, but she took her sandals off first. She placed her foot on the sand and stood like that for a second. When she got off she kept walking towards the camp fire, in a kind of bouncy manner…like she was free and with no care in the world. She began eating what I have prepared for her.
Only I and she were awake; Temari and Kankuro went to sleep. I was supposed to stand guard in case something happened. I also got next to her. She smiled at me making my heart swell. She stood in a meditative pose, her feet playing with the sand.
"It's been a while…" She whispered. "This sand makes me feel like home." If it wasn't for her whipping her face I couldn't really tell she was crying. After she finished eating I saw tears streaming on her cheeks. She looked at me and smiled. She got up and came closer to me and bent down to take my hands in hers to lift me up. "I'm so happy…" She smiled up at me making me smile back. I stroked her cheek erasing her tear marks away. I leaned in and captured her lips in a passion driven kiss. She moaned almost instantly when our lips touched. She embraced me tightly and kissed me with desperation. When I broke the kiss she laced her soft lips on my neck, pecking me gently and giving me small licks which turned to rough sucks.
She suddenly hit the right spot and made me groan. I felt her smile against my skin.
"Did that feel good, love?" She ground her hips in mine and smirked. "I guess it did…"
I looked away. "This has gone too far already. You better go to sleep now, Ai."
"But you're-"
"I said go!" I yelled without actually meaning to, immediately regretting it.
Pith a pained look that made my heart soar she sprint in Temari's tent and zipped it shut. I did not mean to yell at her…In that mental state she was she could not handle that. She is way more sensitive than before. What the fuck am I doing? I sat down at the campfire and was cautious in case something seemed out of place.
I was not sure, but I heard a faint noise of whimpering. Why must I ruin everything?
And to top it all I had a raging arousal that I could not cool off at the moment.
I sighed in discomfort and sulked in silence.
I waited for the next morning in anxiety. I wondered if Ai was still upset that I yelled at her last night. I was about to make the wake-up call when out of nowhere Temari's tent opened and Ai burst out in tears and shaking. She looked frantically around and jumped into my arms holding on for dear life. I have never in my life seen her in this state.
Then Temari exited the tent with a sorrowful expression on her face. She saw Ai in my arms and looked at me. "She had a nightmare. Try to calm her down a little." With that she got up and began packing things up.
I tried to pry her out of my arms but she wouldn't budge. Her hold on me was almost suffocating. "Ai, are you feeling alright?" I asked.
It was as if she did not hear me. Then I heard her mutter some things, but they were muffled because of her posture.
"Ai, you have to speak up. I can't hear you."
She looked at me with her big eyes, looking more scared than ever. "Please don't leave…Please…Please don't leave me…Please…" She would say those things over and over again, just like a broken doll. I pat her back in circles and hummed to her. She would not listen to me whatever I said so I had to find other ways to calm her down.
I took her bridal style and put her in the calash. I did not leave her side, nor did she let me. When she finally calmed down she fell asleep. The dream must have kept her awake all night.
The entire journey towards Suna she would be like this. She would throw up, have nightmares and refuse to eat at all. But somehow I knew this was not from a bad dream…It couldn't have been. This girl next to me was a total wreck; emotionally, psychologically and physically.
When we were close to Suna she seemed to be behaving normally, she even ate a meal. But somehow she seemed so distant…She would usually sit like glued to me.
At the Suna gates I took her hand in mine and it was as if she didn't even feel me. Her hand was cold. I squeezed her and slightly pulled her.
"We're here, Ai. We're home."
She finally looked at me and nodded slowly, but in her eyes I could see there was a glint of happiness. I felt her squeeze my hand back. We were currently being taken to the tower and when we finally arrived there Temari and Kankuro got off first, then me and Ai holding hands.
I was surprised to see Kamiya coming out of the tower with Anubis in her hands. I felt uneasy about this and looked at Ai to see her reaction. She looked at me and let go of my hand and looked away from me.
I looked back at Kamiya. She did not know how to start the conversation as well.
"Uh…Ai…it's good to have you back!" She said enthusiastically. "Look who I brought!" She offered Anubis to Ai in hopes she could take him in her arms.
Ai looked at the animal and her eyes sparkled with joy. "Anubis!" She giggled and leaned in to touch him, only to have him hiss at her in return. Ai flinched and stepped back.
"Oh my…" Kamiya muttered under her breath. She handed it to one of the guards and ordered him to take the cat away. Kamiya looked at Ai visibly shocked by the state she was in. "Ai…" Ai looked at Kamiya with sadness. "What happened to you?"
"Why would you care?" Ai responded.
"Well I care…Hasn't Gaara-kun told you the big news? You may be my sister."
"I don't care…And don't call him Gaara-kun."
"Alright…well…I understand this is hard to take in, but I want us to get along well, alright? I announced father and he will be here in a day or so…He can hardly wait to meet you…You know…He loved you so much…"
"I really don't care…" Ai looked down.
"You must be tired…Come now…" Kamiya took Ai's hand and mine and united them. "I know everything you two have been doing…so stop trying to fake it. Dad will be very happy to know you found love here."
She was pushing us from behind and I could feel Ai didn't really like her closeness. She snapped as I predicted. She let me go and began yelling.
"Why now?! I had to leave because of you! And now look at me! Look at me! I look like a corpse! I could have died because of you! I wanted to die! Why did you kiss him? Why couldn't you leave him alone? He is all I have left! He is everything! And you took him away! I won't forgive you! Ever!" With that she stormed in the tower.
Kamiya looked dumbfounded. "But what has happened to her?"
I sighed. "She lived alone for six months…in a small dirty cabin near Konoha. I honestly…don't even know how she survived…She was always spoiled…she did not know how to care for herself…" I began feeling sorry for myself. I began loathing myself and let my tears fall. "It's because of me that she's like this…Her behavior is different…She isn't the same kind, gentle, happy Ai you knew…She is so scared…of absolutely everything…"
"Oh God…I started this…It was because of me…"
"It may have been on one part, but I should have run after her! I should have! Only because this stupid arranged marriage…she is…" I stormed into the tower to look for her. I found her on my bed, with her face on my pillow and crying her lungs out.
I went in the bath and turned the water in the tub on. I went back in the bedroom and began taking my clothes off. I turned towards Ai and noticed she calmed down and looked curiously at me. She smiled at me and wiped her tears away and began undressing as well. I turned around to give her privacy and resumed undressing. When I heard no more rustling I turned to her and almost choked. She was lying on her back with her legs spread; bear naked, with a sly smile plastered on her lips.
"Ai…"
"Gaara-kun…I can't wait…please…It's…itchy…"
"You know we can't. Maybe you just need to take a bath and-"
"It's itchy…inside of me…"
"Hm…" I shook my head and took her in my arms bridal style. "Let's take a bath together…that's all I can give you right now, alright?"
"Alright…" It was just like her old self again. It was like she was letting her walls down only for me. I placed her in the tub and I followed shortly after I closed the tap water. She just sat there looking at me with no expression at all. She eventually got under the water until it reached her chin. After I was done soaping I began washing her body with great care. Sometimes she would moan under my touch, but not in pain. After I washed her body she sat on my chest and she would plant butterfly kisses every now and then. "Tell me…" She whispered.
"What do you want me to tell you?"
"Anything…"
"You're beautiful…" I combed some strands of hair off of her face. "…and I find you very attractive…" I caressed her hip and moved my hand towards me buttocks. "…and I love you…"
At this she smiled and she made me smile in return. "Kiss me?" She asked unsurely.
I smirked. "That I can do."
She puckered her lips and I saw her face coming closer to mine. When our lips met I felt jolts of pleasure all over my body. The kiss was not rushed, nor rough. We had this great, steamy make out for like five minutes or so. It felt different than when we kissed in Konoha. It felt unbelievably good to hold her in my arms; she fit perfectly.
When we parted lips she looked kind of dazed. She placed her head on my chest and sighed in content. "Gaara-kun…can I ask you to do something for me?"
"Anything."
She raised her head and looked me dead in the eye. "I want us to live together…Only the two of us…"
"But why?..."
"I just want to be with you…I don't…trust anybody here but you…"
"You don't trust my siblings?"
"It sounds bad when you say it like that…Let's just say I want to be alone with you…"
"No Ai…You will be all by yourself…I will be at my office the majority of the day. I need someone to keep an eye on you every now and then…Temari gave you no reason to doubt her trust. She used to mean a lot to you. She was your first friend. What changed?"
"Nothing changed…I just need some time away from all of this…especially Kamiya and her dad…I don't need them…Not when I have you…"
"But if you're his daughter we can get married. This is what we always wanted, isn't it?"
She smiled at me. "That's all that I want. I want to be yours. I want to love you…I…I'm so happy right now…" She hugged me tightly.
"Ai…" I caressed her back and kissed her forehead. "I don't want us to live together, not yet. I don't want you to live alone. I can't take that risk."
"It's alright…Whatever makes you happy, love."
"You just have to give your father a try…"
"If you say so…"
"It will be alright, don't worry."
"Hm…" She smiled sweetly at me. "Will you stay with me today?"
"I can't…I really wished I could, but I have to report in, it's been a long time anyways…I really should get back to work…"
"I understand…I just wished we would have much more time together…"
"Maybe you could hang out with Temari tonight…buy some new clothes? What do you say?"
"Sure, why not…But you will sleep next to me tonight, right?" She said hopefully.
"Of course."
She smiled. "I can sleep in your room?"
"We can sleep anywhere we like."
She smiled and got up to sit at the other side of the tub. "The water is getting cold. We better get out."
"Hn."
After we got out of the bathroom and got dressed I led Ai to the kitchen on my way to my office. When I was about to leave her at the door she grabbed hold of my arm and brought me closer and whispered in my ear. "We will fuck in less than a month."
I don't know what expression I made because she giggled, blushed and went in the kitchen.
Ai's POV
As soon as I entered the kitchen door I opened the fridge and got everything that had high fat. Well I always enjoyed eating fat so I began preparing a large pizza with bacon, ham and cheese. After I finished making it I put it for fifteen minutes in the oven.
I sat down on the sofa with a loud sigh waiting for the pizza to get ready. I relaxed in my seat and looked around. God how I missed this place…
The next thing I knew, Temari came in. She looked at me and smiled. "It's good to have you back, Ai…It wasn't the same without you."
I smiled back for a moment, before my smiled dropped. "I'm sorry I left…But I had to…I was so hurt…so damaged…I couldn't stay here another moment…"
"I see…But this does not explain why you did not go to Konoha…You would have been safe there…You were isolated for such a long time, you were starved…Was it really worth it?"
I sighed and looked down. She came closer to me and sat down. She put her hands around me and brought me closer. "I am not scolding you or anything. You are my sister and my best friend. I don't want anything bad to happen to you…"
"I know…It's just that…At that moment something inside me broke and I was afraid of people…I am still so, so afraid. I don't want to hurt again. I prefer physical injuries to emotional pain…"
"I am sorry…But Gaara has always been faithful to you."
I smiled. "I know that…and I love him so much…He has been so careful with me these days…he's babysitting me and I can't hope but feel kind of bad…He has a lot of things to do already…and I am standing in his way…"
"You know Gaara would rather cut his own leg than let something happen to you. He is just protecting his precious person. Don't worry about it. And don't forget me and Kankuro, we all want to help, so it's not just him. We are just glad we are safe." She released me from her embrace and wiped away some tears. I did not even notice she was crying.
"Temari please don't cry for me. I don't feel worthy."
"I am crying with joy." She got up and kissed my forehead. "I see you're ready to put that weight all back." She looked toward the oven.
"Yup…I need to put some meat on really urgently, or no action for me in the sack. Oops, maybe you did not need to hear that."
"Nope, not really." We laughed it off. "You shouldn't put too much on too suddenly. It's not really healthy."
"I don't know what to say…I'm just frustrated…I'm like a teenage boy…I need it like right now."
"Ai…"
"I mean that's all I think of…"
"Ai I get the picture."
"Sorry, I'll stop." She sighed in relief. "Gaara told me we could go out tonight to go shopping?"
"Great, I was just about to ask you. We will find you some new and pretty clothes, for those bones of yours."
"Hey, I'm not really that thin…"
"Ai I could see your ribs in detail when Gaara brought you."
"But I'm better now."
"It's only been like four days. You're not better…but you're on your way to recovery." The oven clock beeped and I got the food out and began eating. "I'll let you eat in peace. See you tonight."
"See you."
After I was done I went to my room to take a nap. When I opened the room to my door I saw Anubis on my bed. He saw me and stood up. When I took a step closer to him he hissed and clawed at me. What's wrong with him? Why is he behaving like this to me? Did he forget about me?
"Anubis, it's me…" He hissed again. "R-Remember when you were little and I gave you a home? You were wounded and weak…and…you probably don't understand what I'm saying…are you?" He still stood in his intimidating stance. I had better leave. He was a wild animal after all…I kept eye contact with him until I was at the door. I went to Gaara's office. I knocked but got no answer. I still got in his office only to find it empty. I took a seat in the chair opposing his desk and waited for him.
Gaara's POV
It has been a notorious day so far, filled with paperwork and meetings. I just got out of a meeting and was heading for my office. It seemed the elders wanted to apologize to Ai for the way they behaved. Pitiful old man…Ai has always been a well behaved young girl. They shouldn't have treated her like that in the first place. Kamiya exited her room and walked towards me with a small smile.
"Gaara-, uh, have you seen Ai? I can't find her anywhere."
"No, I have been busy all day, and I still got tons of papers to sign…It's like an avalanche. Have you even seen the stash on my desk? And next my desk?"
"No, I haven't been snooping around in your office."
"Anyway, what do you need Ai for?"
"I just wanted to hang out…"
We reached my office. I entered first and as soon as I placed a foot in the chair in front of my desk turned around revealing Ai. She smiled at me and was about to say something but saw Kamiya come in after me. She got up and got in between me and Kamiya.
"What are you doing here?" She asked.
"We just met accidentally. I was looking for you, Ai. Would you like to join me for some coffee?"
"I would mind." She said threateningly. "What are you doing with my man?" My male pride soared when she said that.
"I still get it you need some time away from me."
"Yes…A lifetime…"
"Maybe we'll talk some other time…I'll leave you both alone then…I have to look for Kankuro now…After all…he is the one I like…"
"Let me get the door for you." Ai sprint towards the door and opened it hinting her to leave asap. I thought that if Kamiya would tell her that she views Kankuro as dating material she would let this slide. Ai closed the door after she left and sighed. She looked at me and smiled.
"Where were we?" She said as if nothing happened.
I chuckled. "Your man?"
"Well you're mine now, aren't you?"
"Hn. But why did you behave like that with her. You were right. She fancies Kankuro."
"You are never too sure. She might just say it so that I would leave her alone."
"I think you are over reacting."
"Are you defending her?"
"Of course not. It's just that you worry too much…Why were you in my office?"
"I wanted to go to my room and sleep, but Anubis kept hissing at me."
"Kamiya has been looking over him when you were gone. You could ask her to help you be friends with him again."
"I don't trust her."
"It wouldn't hurt to try and…You could go to my room and sleep if you want."
"I actually wanted to see you. I missed you." She walked closer to me. "Remember what I told you when we parted this morning?"
I looked away from her. "How could I forget?"
"I have a feeling it's going to be less than a week... Want to make bet?"
"What kind of bet?"
"Well…If I get you aroused in a week…you have to fuck me." She said with a smirk.
"Ai, are you feeling alright?"
"I'm perfectly fine."
"It's just that…you've been so pushy with this subject lately…"
"What? Don't you want me?"
"Of course I do…But your health is not in its best condition…"
"I feel fine…I just want you so bad…You're mine."
"You're mine as well." I leaned in and kissed her heatedly on the lips.
She broke the kiss. "Let's try tonight?"
"No, Ai."
"I'm beginning to think you're not so attracted to me as you said earlier today…"
"I am, Ai." I took her in my embrace and thrust my hips in hers. "Trust me…I am…More than enough…"
"Then fuck me…" I saw her lift her dress. She had no underwear. "Please fuck me…"
"Ai, no."
"I love it when you say my name…"
"We'll talk about it tonight, alright?"
"Ok…" I kissed her cheek and groped her backside. "Oh, you tease…" She sighed and walked out the door.
Ai's POV
I went to Temari's room to tell her I'll be in Gaara's room so she can pick me up when she wants to go shopping.
I was thinking of different ways of trying to seduce Gaara without fail. It was pretty hard…He was quite stubborn. I wanted to make him lose his sanity with lust. I want him to lose control of his actions. I feel like I am wearing the pants in this relationship.
He was sensitive to touch and sight…so I had to dress in something quite revealing, a lot of lace…and red. I entered his room and pounced on his bed. I almost immediately felt his scent on the pillow. I rolled over and sniffed in his pillow. This was like getting high for me. I loved his smell. I fell asleep feeling the most content I have ever been.
Temari visited me in the evening and we finally went shopping; and I knew exactly what to buy for tonight.
When we arrived home I thanked her for accompanying me and giving me her opinion on what to buy. She actually found the most revealing outfit for tonight.
I walked to his room and it seemed like he has not returned to our room. I went to the bathroom and turned the shower on and hopped in. I was feeling so nervous I could barely contain myself.
After I was done with the shower and dried myself I could already feel myself becoming wet. I was ridiculously turned on. I heard the door open and exited the bathroom. When Gaara saw me he froze in his place and looked me up and down. I would usually feel disgusted when men looked at me that way, but this was Gaara. I felt euphoric when he looked at me so…wildly.
I walked closer to him. "Do you like what you see, Gaa-ra-kun?" He was momentarily speechless. "Temari helped me buy it. Isn't it…nice?" I cupped his cheek and kissed him gently. He placed his hands on my hips and it looked like he was giving in. He was thrusting his hips into mine making me shudder. I moaned his name and guided him to the bed without breaking the kiss.
He pulled so hard on my outfit I was sure he just wanted to rip it off. "Ai…my control might just slip…are you sure you're feeling alright?"
"I feel great." He began nipping on my neck slowly descending to my breast area. "Let's make a baby, Gaara-kun."
He looked at me seriously and got off of me and sighed. "You know I can't do that…Unless you perform some birth control jutsu, I can't do this with you."
"But I am ready-"
"No, you're not…You can't even take care of yourself…there's no way you can take care of a baby. I promised you one day, when we are older. Not now."
"How can you-"
"I'm not scolding you or anything…I'm just saying you're not ready…and neither am I."
"Yeah…I understand…" He smiled at me. I smiled back. "But I still want it…anything…"
"I don't know…"
"I momentarily can't perform any birth control jutsu…and I don't have any condoms…How about you take those clothes off and lie down…hm?" I smirked.
"Why?"
"You'll see…Come on…Let me help you." I took his shirt off and unbuckled his pants, slowly pulling them down. He kicked his sandals off and looked at me. I pushed him to the center of the bed and got next to him. "Are you ready?" I cupped his cheek. After he nodded at me he kissed me roughly. I placed my hand on his crotch and began stroking his member. He gasped in my mouth. His hand traveled to my lady parts and began teasing the area. I could not bear it any longer.
I got up and positioned my head over his member and placed my hips above his face. "God how I missed this…" I gave his member a small blow and heard him groan. I kissed the tip and licked the sides. His scent drove me mad. I felt his breath on my folds and got goose bumps. I began shaking my hips. I wanted him to pleasure me while I was pleasuring him. He massaged my ass before giving me a slight lick. I moaned but got right back to business. I sucked on the tip before taking him whole deep down my throat. I felt him reach deeper inside with his tongue. This was already too much. I didn't even have time to announce him of my impending orgasm. I moaned his name and became kind of breathless. I felt him lapping up my juices in a sloppy manner. I still needed to finish him off. I got off of him and got in between his legs. I gave him a sultry smile before deep throating him. I kept my eyes locked with his the whole time I was bobbing my head. I would lick his sack every now and then and lick the sides of him member. He gripped my locks roughly, but not hard enough to hurt me. He tried to make me bob my head faster; he was close. He threw his head backwards and I increased my pace. In the next instant he came in my mouth. I swallowed it all and got right next to him. He was still panting heavily. I kissed his shoulder and cuddled next to him.
"Did you feel good, love?"
He looked softly at me. "I almost forgot how this was supposed to feel."
I pecked him. "Let's do this tomorrow as well."
"Hn."
"Though I'd prefer the real thing…"
"Not that I mind but…why do you always want to have sex?"
"I never really thought about it…It's just that…It makes me forget…I don't want it to sound selfish…but most of the time that is the reason. Well that and the fact that I want to please you…I thought that…since you're male you would enjoy it more often. But also because I like sex. Yeah, it takes my mind off things."
"What do you want to forget? Before you were gone you still wanted it every time."
I sighed. "Then it was different. It was because of you…You're so appealing to me…I can't explain it. Now I want to forget about everything that has happened in that…place…And I want to spend more time like this with you. I want to do this every day with you, always. So don't shy away from me. The rougher, the better."
"Hn."
I took his hand in mine. "Are you upset?"
"No. Why would I be?"
"I don't want you to think I am using you or anything…I-"
He leaned in and kissed me. "Stop worrying about things. If it helps you forget then I am here for you."
I giggled. "I love you."
I felt his strong arms round me and he played with my hair.
I never felt safer…
And the demons inside my head stopped whispering.