Detention...

Maya's POV;

I stared at the back of Riley's head, just wondering what the hell she was thinking when she outed my situation with Josh to the whole school. Is this her sick way of punishing me for lying to her for almost three years? I just don't know how we went from being the ultimate best friends, to having a cat fight in the courtyard over the course of one semester. Definitely not how I planned on spending the holiday season.

Letting out a small sigh I looked over at Lucas, and he shook his head in disappointment. He had been thinking the same thing. When did everything get so messy? Maybe things were better off when everyone thought we hated each other.

"So, who wants to explain why you two were fighting this afternoon?" Mr. Matthews sat on his desk and fixed his eyes on me. Because of course he assumes that it's my fault. "Maya?"

I sat up straight and looked into his eyes. "You're oh so perfect daughter," I started, making sure to emphasize just how imperfect she was, "decided it was a great idea to not only tell everyone I was raped, but she even let her real feelings about the situation and me become public knowledge." Riley turned around in her chair and glared at me. "Sir, all I did was walk over to the table, and overheard Riley trashing me to Lucas."

"If you don't want me talking about you behind your back, maybe you shouldn't have slept with my boyfriend."

"Riley, turn around please." Mr. Matthews prompted his daughter, trying to avoid another fight. "We already know your feelings towards Maya, and I don't doubt that she's telling the truth."

Riley turned to face her father, and the look on her face was priceless. For once, he finally was on my side. "But dad, she-"

"Lucas," Mr. Matthews cut Riley off, "What's going on with them?"

Lucas shrugged and leaned forward in his desk, "I think Riley is still upset about my history with Maya. Which I understand. But that doesn't give her the right to be disrespectful towards her." He looked between me and his girlfriend, then back at Mr. Matthews. "I don't think she meant what she said. I think she's just trying to hurt Maya by attacking a very sensitive subject."

"No I meant every word I said." Riley smirked at me, then glared back at Lucas. "I think Maya is a homewrecker, and I think she's lying about Josh."

I looked at her with disgust, "Why do you think I would lie about something like that?"

"Because you're a liar, Maya." She snapped. "You lied about your relationship with Lucas. You even lied about hooking up with Josh. You told me you were just friends. And now you expect me to believe that he raped you?"

"That's enough." Mr. Matthews chimed in. Riley settled in her seat and faced the front of the room.

Riley was right. I had a pretty extensive track record of lies. I mean, I'm lying to her right now. There's something between Lucas and I, but we're both way too afraid of breaking the news to Riley. I'm not lying about Josh. I don't think she believes what's she's saying. She was on my side not too long ago. She wanted me to press charges.

We spent the rest of the hour in silence.

I had a million things on my mind as I waited on the steps for Lucas. He stayed back after detention, I guess Mr. Matthews wanted to talk to him. What am I supposed to do? Do I press charges against Josh? Do I tell Riley the truth?

Before I could get too deep into my thoughts, a pair of lips kissed my cheek. Knowing it was Lucas, I pulled away. "Stop."

He sighed and sat next to me. "I'm really sorry for what happened today." We stared out into the parking lot in front of us. "Riley has literally lost her damn mind."

"Has she though?" I looked at him, "I mean she's not wrong about me."

He locked his eyes with mine, "No, she's just mad. She'll get over it."

I nodded and scooted away from him. "I don't like this version of you." I paused. This is all wrong. How can I possibly be mad at Riley right now? "She's your girlfriend, Luke. Okay? and she's going to be your girlfriend until either you grow some balls and tell her how you feel, or she finally gets tired of your shit."

"Well what's that supposed to mean." He was clearly caught off guard by my sudden truth bomb. "I can't just dump her, you know that."

I looked at him, "You being with her, just because you think you have to, is not a good enough reason to keep lying to her, okay? Do you or do you not love her, Lucas?"

He hesitated, then deflected. "We should get home."

Of course when I got home, my parents were readily waiting for me in the living room. I stood in the doorway and avoided eye contact, "The fight wasn't my fault."

My mom looked at me and sighed. Her eyes bloodshot. Had she been crying. "Come sit, Maya." I carefully sat on the couch between my parents and stared at my hands. "Cory called and said that this might have something to do with Josh."

A tear rolled down my cheek at the simple mention of his name. "I feel so humiliated, and now everyone knows..." I trailed off

Shawn put his arm around me and pulled me close. "What happened with Riley sweetheart?"

The tears slowly streamed down my face, and I stopped trying to hold them back. "She basically slut-shamed me in front of everyone, and she told them about Josh, and called me a liar."

My mom slowly rubbed my back, "She's still mad about Lucas?"

My voice cracked, "I-I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know how to handle this."

"Maya-"

"Everything was fine until I messed it up. Maybe I am selfish."I sniffled and buried my head in Shawn's chest. "I just want everything to stop."

Later that night...

We sat on my bed in silence. I just couldn't look at him right now. I didn't know what to say, how to say it, or even if I wanted to put it out there.

"Did I do something wrong?" Lucas kept his gaze on me, trying to study my face, looking for an answer. "Is this about Josh?"

I sighed and shook my head, "Not everything is about Josh, I wish everyone would stop bringing it up."

"Fine, so then when are you going to tell me what's bothering you?"

"You want to know what's wrong?" I stood up and walked across the room before turning to face him. "I'm fighting with my best friend, because she doesn't trust me anymore."

Lucas pushed himself off my bed and stood in front of me while reaching for my hand. "Riley is acting like a crazy person, and that's not your fault."

I pulled my hand away and stepped back. "Isn't it though?" Taking a deep breath, I pushed my hair out of my face. "I've lied and kept secrets from her for almost three years." I looked into his green eyes. "We have been lying to her, Lucas. How is that not bothering you?"

"You think it doesn't?" He seems a bit in shock that I actually pulled away from him, but it's long past time for us to talk about this. "She's my girlfriend Maya, I've kinda been waiting a long time for this chance."

"Oh, so she is your girlfriend?"

He pursed his lips and stepped away from me, "What is that supposed to mean?"

"Well I don't know Lucas, you don't act like she's your girlfriend." My face was turning red, but I was trying to keep my volume under control. "You're sleeping with me. Telling me that you wanted to choose me, but you're still dating Riley. How does that work?"

I could tell he was starting to get frustrated, and he was starting to add some bass to his voice. "I'm not breaking up with her, Maya. I love her."

"Then what are you doing here with me!" I snapped. "If you love Riley so much, then why are you with me!"

He snapped back, "I don't fucking know, Maya!"

We stared at each other, neither of us knowing what to say next. I didn't mean to pick a fight, but we needed to talk about this sooner rather than later.

"I just think it's funny how you couldn't even answer me earlier, and now all of sudden you love Riley, and you want to be with her."

Lucas sighed, "Because I do love her-"

"But she won't sleep with you." I cut him off.

He looked at me, and the dumbfounded look on his face just proved that he didn't know what to say next. "Where is this coming from?"

"It makes sense. And I heard what Riley said earlier, you didn't disagree. You didn't say that you didn't just want to sleep with me."

"Maya," He started, trying to find a way to save himself. "who do you think I am?"

I sighed and bit my lip nervously. "Sadly, I know who you are. And I know that you're the kind of guy who would totally use a girl for sex." I felt tears starting to fill my eyes, but I held them back. "and that's why you really shouldn't be here right now."

Why did I say that? I don't actually want him to leave, and a part of me hopes he chooses to stay. But I know that I can't keep doing this, and he needs to go be with Riley... even if it that would break my heart.