Chapter 21 – Moonlit Truths
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I'm sorry you guys have had to wait to find out who the mystery girl is that Edward is meeting.
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EPOV
We drove along the quiet roads of Forks to the most private place there was in town; the place where everyone our age goes to do what I had in mind tonight. The local make out point.
I turned towards the sexy girl in the passenger seat of my Volvo and breathed, "You look gorgeous tonight Rose." Brushing a strand of her blond hair behind her ear.
"Thanks Edward. Before this gets any further I need to ask you something." She said in a rather anxious voice.
"Go right ahead," I said.
"What's this going to be? Just a quick fuck in the back of your car, or something more? Because I won't do this if it's only a quick shag. I won't degrade myself to such a low, and I won't risk what Em and I have if we aren't going to make a go of this," Rose rushed out in a hurry, as I parked my car. Shit. That's all I wanted right now. A quick fuck.
"Rose I want this right here right now; and maybe something more. Just relax babe." I lied. That wasn't going to happen. I wouldn't have a relationship with her but she is a fine piece of ass and I might keep her around for a bit. For personal uses that is.
"But what about Em? What do I...."
I cut off her speech and covered her mouth with mine. Our lips moulded together. She forcefully pushed me off and I whined a little bit like a baby because I was desperate for release. I didn't care I just wanted to do this.
"Edward. Listen to me. I'm not like Bella in any way and you may have shut her up like that whenever she tried to talk about something you didn't like but this is really important." Rose almost yelled. Ouch.
"Okay, Rose. What is it?" I asked hoping whatever she was going to say was quick and then I could have my release that I was so desperate for.
"Emmett. I really care about him and before we make whatever it is we have public. I have to talk to him; I have to break up with him. If there's one thing I'm not it's a cheat."
"And that's what I love about you Rose," I whispered huskily before I elevated her chin and pulled her in for a greedy, needy kiss.
I quickly manoeuvred us into the back seat of my Volvo and whipped out a condom from my jacket pocket before shrugging it off and flinging it into the front seat. Rose licked her lips seductively and I grew even harder than I already was; aching even more for release. By now I don't think she cared too much. Her eyes were lust full and need. Rose quickly pulled off my jumper and yanked off my jeans and boxers; as desperate for this as I was, although for different reasons. She took the condom from my hand and tore it open sexily with her teeth and sheathed my hardness. I then tore off all of Rose's clothes and flung them aimlessly around the car as she slowly and sensually removed mine. As soon as her bra was off my hands were on her breasts, massaging them while she was still teasing me with her fingers dancing up and down the sides of my cock. Her other hand came into my hair and pulled me down to her mouth to kiss her. She broke the kiss after a few minutes only to kiss round to my ear.
"Come on Edward, I'm ready and waiting for you." She purred into my ear.
I needed no more invitation. I plunged my hardness into her and she moaned. Oh that sound was so beautiful, and it was coming from the most beautiful girl ever – my Bella.
I pulled out and started slamming into her as hard and fast as I could eager for her to reach her release. I brought my hand slowly down to her clit and started to play with it plunging my fingers in and out.
"OH GOD, Bella. You have no idea how long I've waited for this."I groaned.
I felt her hands shove me off her and then I heard and angry voice yell, "BELLA! I KNEW THIS WAS A BAD IDEA!"
I looked up at the gorgeous girl in front of me and all I saw was Bella. What the fuck is she talking about? A bad idea!
"What are you talking about?" I asked, my dick throbbing and aching to be inside her again so I could reach my release
"Edward. What's my name?"she asked. What kind of question was that?
"Bella."I replied feeling a little stupid answering a stupid question like that. God it wasn't like it could be anyone else.
"You need to sort yourself out Edward. Coz last time I checked my name was Rosalie Hale." She said as she pulled her jeans back on, and then her t-shirt.
I sat there dumb struck. I shook my head and I realised that I had made a major fuck up.
"Rose I'm...."
"Save it Edward. I should have known you still love her. Just drive me home." She said nonchalantly. "And not a word of this moment of madness to Em."She snarled.
I shoved my clothes back on and jumped back into the driver's seat. Boner still obvious. Great…
Within 10 minutes I had dropped Rose off back at her house and was driving off back to my favourite place to relax.
BPOV
I felt like I had been sleeping for 2 seconds when I heard the tell tale song 'Love Story'signalling that Alice was getting a phone call from Jasper. It fit their relationship perfectly. I felt Alice shift position very carefully so that she could avoid waking me from my 'slumber'.
I glanced over at my alarm clock which read 3:19am. Why the fuck was Jazz ringing at this time? Well, Alice still thought I was asleep. Let's see what he wants.
I heard Alice answer her phone and say, "Hey Jazz. What's up? And why the hell are you phoning me and 3:20am. You better have a good reason." She hissed. Not wanting to wake anyone up.
I knew I was only going to hear one side of the conversation but hoped it would be enough get a general idea of what was going on. It must be something pretty important and urgent if Jazz was calling at this ungodly hour.
But I was shocked to hear Jazz's reply on the other end of the phone saying,"Ali you won't believe what Edward has gone and done."
What? Edward? Shit what had he done? Whatever had happened was my fault. If he had gone off and got himself hurt it would be my fault and I would never be able to forgive myself.
As though she was thinking exactly the same as me Alice replied in a worried voice, "Omg Jazz what?
"He went out for a drive and when I went into his room I got rather nosy and checked his drawer. His stash of weed and coke. Looks like a bit has gone as-well"
What the fuck? I told that prick to get rid of all that shit. Great not only did he obviously not love me anymore. He never did. I clearly remembered telling him that if he loved me that he would get rid of all his drugs and never touch that shit again. And I watched him flush it ALL down the toilet when we got together. He lied to me.
"WHAT!" Alice screamed in a quiet voice. "I thought he got rid of that shit ages ago when he started dating Bella."
"No he kept some just in case of an emergency. He didn't want anyone to know about it but I just found it one day when I was looking for..... Well that part doesn't matter. I found it and asked him about it. And I think that must have been 2 months ago."
Well well well from what it sounded like Jazz was obviously looking for something in particular and I knew that if Alice had realised Jazz was looking for Edward's condoms she would be bright red right now.
"What the fuck does he think he is playing at? Keeping that shit." Alice questioned.
And I was thinking exactly the same thing. Along with when he managed to find the time. Every time I saw him I never once smelt weed on him and his breath was always fresh – like he had just had a breath mint or something stronger.
Oh! Shit, I should've known.
"I don't know Ali but worse than that he left his phone behind you won't believe who his last call was to." Jazz said as though he was having an internal debate about whether or not to share this bit of information.
"Jazz who did he call?"Alice asked in a stern, demanding voice.
Who did he call?
Skankly?
Or was it Open All Hours Mallory?
What am I thinking there is no way I could figure that out? It could be any number of girls in our school. Any one of them would gladly spread their legs for him.
"Don't freak out or anything. But he called Rose. Now Ali I don't know why he could just want someone to talk to but he said he wanted to be alone. So I don't know Alice. What do you think?"
What the fuck? Of all the girls it was Rose? She was the last person I expected him to call. I mean for fucks sake we were practically sisters. Well we were step sisters and even though we weren't close, in the last few months I felt as though we were family. Bitch.
"I think he's getting his ass kicked when I see him next." Ha not before me. He made a promise and broke it. "What he did to B is one thing but this just puts the icing on the cake. I just hope he doesn't do something he's going regret."Alice fumed.
"Me too But we got to have faith." Jazz said.
I didn't hear anymore of the conversation and drifted back to sleep. My dreams were filled with images of him and Rose in the back seat of his car at OUR spot; at the meadow, and him doing everything I ached for him to do to my body, to Rose. How the fuck could she do that to Emmet? Was she crazy? Or was she only going along with what Edward wanted to get revenge on me? Or maybe she wanted Edward all along and settled for Em when he dumped her for me, even though they were barely even together.
I felt Alice shake my arm gently and I wafted it away and muttered, "Alice not now. Too sleepy."
"Bella, get your ass up now!"
"Alice it's.... 3:36am. What the fuck is so important?"I said feigning that I didn't hear half of her and Jazz's conversation. If she was waking me that had to mean only one thing. And it had everything to do with Edward.
"It's Edward!"
That was all it took, confirming what I already thought, to get me jump out of bed and shove on the first items of clothing I could find.
"Bella, don't you even want to know what's happened?"
"Don't need to Ali. I heard you on the phone. And I'm going to kick his ass so you won't be needed for that."
"So you know he hasn't been home since just after we left which was like 7pm."
"No Ali. Shit! Does Jazz have any idea where he could be? I mean I doubt he would still be with Rose. I know her mom and that she has a midnight curfew."
"B, he was kinda hoping you would have an idea. I mean Jazz said when he left he was pretty upset and that he didn't believe you were at the door."
"Ali. I don't know where he would go. Hell I don't even fucking know him anymore, not that I ever did. I thought I did but I know absolutely fuck all about him. Coz I thought he had got rid of his drug stash and that he wouldn't go back to that ever. Turns out I was fucking wrong!"
"Bella, that's not true. You know him better than anyone. If he needed to go somewhere to think where would he go? Especially if you're involved."
It was like a light went off in my mind. I knew where he would be. He always said that before we got together he went to our meadow frequently to think about me and how he could make it up to me.
"The meadow," I breathed. "Quick Ali. We need to get up there!"
"Okay B, but we need to wait for Jazz."
And at that moment Alice got a text from Jasper.
"He's here." Alice stated
Alice and I quickly sneaked downstairs trying our best not to wake Charlie in the process. We got outside and saw that Jazz had brought his Jeep. Fantastic.
"Jazz. You know where the meadow is?" I said quickly
"Yeah, Edward mentioned it to me in passing and told me it was a great place to think!" Jazz said as though he had just figured out for himself what I was thinking.
"Good. Now step on it!" I somewhat pleaded
I was in a hurry to see Edward, for two reasons.
1) So I could first of all make sure he was okay. That he hadn't been stupid or reckless.
2) And secondly so I could kick his stupid fucking ass.
Jazz made it to the meadow in record time, leaving the jeep a 5 minute walk away so that he didn't alert Edward to our presence; that is if he was even here.
When we reached the opening I saw Edward's Volvo parked there. The moonlight glinting off the shiny edges, and smoke rising from the window. A wave of sadness and disappointment hitting me
Ali and Jazz pushed me through the entrance but I remained rooted to the spot. I was not going anywhere near him while he was smoking weed. The thought made me cringe a bit.
"Bella just go to him. You're the only person he's gonna listen to," Jazz said.
"Yeah but thing is as far as he's fucking concerned I'm not even here. What's the use?" I said sadly, turning to walk away.
Alice put her hand on my shoulder, stopping me and turning me back round.
"Bella you're just gonna have to find a way to prove it to him," Alice said and I knew exactly what she meant by 'prove it'. And the thought of doing that right after he had smoked up made me cringe even more than thought of being anywhere near him.
"Okay but I don't like it. And Charlie is going to kill me if he smells that shit on my clothes."
They both just stood there smiling like idiots.
I hesitantly walked towards his car and then as I reached it I made sure that my hair looked okay before realising that it really didn't matter in the slightest. What am I to him – I'm just his ex.
I gently tapped on his window and as he rolled it down and glanced out of the window I saw a mixture of emotions cross his face.
Lust
Wonder
Confusion
Anger
And then finally settling with just an average complacent look on his face. He flashed me his crooked smile as I coughed because of the smoke.
"Edward?" I asked
"You're not real. Go away."
What the fuck? Not real – I'm stood right in front of you dick head and you think I'm not real. Well at least that somewhat explains his reaction when he answered the door. Well, if I'm not real, he wouldn't feel a slap then would he?
I pulled open the door and his top half fell out of the car, seen as he was laid across the back seat with his feet on the seats. I slapped him good and hard across his face; it even hurt my hand. His eyes widened as he stared up at me half stoned.
"Owwwwwww." He moaned. "That hurt."
"Good, because if I wasn't real, you wouldn't have felt it would you?"
He didn't say anything after that. He just got back in the car, but left the door open.
"Edward, look at me."I said in a calm voice, sliding into the car and lifting my hands, taking a light hold of his face. "I am very real and I'm here."
I leaned in towards him and placed a chaste kiss on his lips and as I did I felt that familiar electric current course between us and I swore it had gotten strong in our brief time apart. I pulled away and locked eyes with him.
"Bella?" he asked. "It's really you." His face softened ever so slightly.
"Yeah it is. And now that you know I'm back I really should be off."
"What? Why?"
"Because Edward you broke your promise. You swore to me you had got rid of all this shit and that you would never touch drugs again." I said in a quiet voice. "You lied to me." I dropped my eyes so I didn't have to look at his puppy face "And even worse, because of Rosalie. Any chance we may have had of getting back together again is gone now. Have a nice life."
I turned and slid out of the car, wiping the stray tears from my eyes.
"Bella," he gasped, his voice filled with pain which increased all the pain I felt by tenfold. I felt my heart break a little more. "I'll do anything just don't leave me again!"
"There's nothing you can do,"I said not even turning to face him. I didn't need him to see the tears falling from my eyes or the pain on my face. And I certainly didn't need to see the pain that I was certain was etched on his beautiful perfect face. I didn't need to turn to see him, I could feel him there, behind me.
"Please don't leave me again" He whispered.
I started to walk away, but I heard grass underfoot from behind. He was following me.
"Look at what happened to me when you left. I didn't live, I existed. If I walked around at all it was in bits and pieces. Alice and Jasper had to shower me. My grades dropped. People avoided me. No one spoke to me. Not even Carlisle or Esme. I didn't eat much. Is it any wonder I came back to that stuff.? While I had you I never touched it."
I turned back around "liar." I hissed at him
"It's true Bella. I didn't touch it, because I didn't need to. You were my fix. My drug was you Bella."
"I can't be with someone as selfish as you Edward. I'm sorry"
I made my way back to Ali and Jazz and said, "Take me home please."
Nothing was said on the journey home. Alice and I hopped out of the Jeep at mine and somehow managed to sneak up to my room without Charlie hearing us. I was confused and had no idea how we got away with it; but I was glad we did.
I was grateful to Ali when she said that I should just go straight back to sleep and that she was waiting till a decent hour to ask me what had passed between Edward and I.
I had a dreamless sleep and was grateful for that. At least I wasn't dreaming of Edward and everything that could have been.
I wondered briefly as I drifted off how I would cope with the pain of seeing Edward every day and knowing that we could be together. Seeing what could have been in my mind. And how I would cope with his betrayal; I didn't know what hurt more. The broken promise or sneaking around with Rose. Part of me wondered how long they had been going at it. Had it been since we broke up? Since I left? Or was it going on while we were together?
All I knew was that I loved Edward Cullen, the good the bad and the ugly.
But what happens now?
Where do we go from here?
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