Chapter 21

Take Your Time

[Italy's POV]

I sat on the couch with my knuckles in my mouth as I heard the front door opening. I didn't even bother to turn around. I know I'm in so much trouble. I didn't mean for this to happen again. I swear on everything. I've been taking my birth control, I just….slipped a few times, but even if I did slip it should still work! I only missed a couple! Maybe my period is missing for some other reason? Stress maybe? But I'm not stressed, I'm happy. Oh my gosh what if it's menopause? No way, I'm too young for that.

"Upstairs, now." Cat stated firmly. I've never heard her voice so dark and demanding it scared me. If I hadn't of been positive it was Cat, I would have thought it was Jade speaking.

I slowly get up from the couch and make my way to the stairs where she's standing with her finger pointed up, a small bag in her hand, and a look on her face that seems as if she never smiled a day in her life. I've made her so angry. I've never seen her this…this mad. Sad, I've seen, mad….not so much. Well there was the first time she was mad, but not this mad.

She walked up behind me as I reached the top and I already knew where I was headed.

"Take this cup, pee in it, and get out." She said as she handed me a small cup from the bag. She took a step back as I sighed and walked into the bathroom and closed the door behind me. Of course she wouldn't let me do it on my own. Now she will see the results before I even can.

I do as I'm told before washing my hands and exiting the bathroom and leaving the small cup of pee on the sink.

I don't even look in her direction as I walk into the hallway. Instead I keep my head down as she walks passed me and into the bathroom slamming the door behind her.

I lean up against a wall and let my back slide down slowly before bringing my knees up to my chest and resting my chin on top.

I know I should be scared, or nervous, or something, but I'm not. This is the point where the girl starts to cry her eyes out and ask why this is happening to her. That's not me. If I'm pregnant again then…okay. I'm not sad about it, or scared. No I'm not ashamed, or guilty. There's no one on earth that I love more than Kemistry and to have another one will just fill my heart especially knowing Kodak is for sure the dad. I don't think he'll mind either…..I hope.

A loud slam coming from the bathroom brings me from my thoughts as I let my knees go and spread my legs out in front of me as I listen closer.

The sounds of the toilet flushing and the sink running are the only things that can be heard before she opens the door of the bathroom and closes it behind her.

I stood to my feet as I look at her furrowed brows and a swade from left to right as she looked at me with evil eyes and a straight face before she just shook her head and walked passed me.

"..Mo-"

"-You better let Kodak know he's going to be the father of two." She said over her shoulder in a tone that sounded like she was trying everything to hold in a scream before continuing her walk to her room.

"Mom I'm sor-"

"-I don't want to speak with you right now." She said with a slam of her door.

…..Well shoot.

[Cat's & Kat's Text]

Kat: Hey Dimples, is everything okay with your daughter?

Cat: (frowning emoticon)

Kat: Oh no, that doesn't look good…

Cat: (sighing emoticon) She's pregnant.

Kat: I'm sorry. (frowning emoticon) Are you okay?

Cat: Yeah, I'm just….I can't believe it. I'm so, so disappointed in her. What on earth would make her think this is okay to do again!?

Kat: I understand. Wren came home pregnant when she was only 15. I couldn't believe it. I was so disgusted with her.

Cat: What!? I didn't know she had a baby?

Kat: Well she doesn't. I made her put him up for adoption. The dad didn't want to have anything to do with the child and Wren could barely even take care of herself. I couldn't care for the child unless I gave up my job which we would have ended up on the streets. So the best thing was adoption. The baby has a loving family, something Wren could not give. Maybe your daughter can consider that?

Cat: I don't know how the dad will react to that. He's very loving of her and his little girl already. He actually keeps her the majority of the time.

Kat: Well it's a different situation since the dad's involved.

Cat: I guess. I just…I…whatever.

Kat: Don't get too frustrated with her Cat. Just take a breath. Everything will be okay.

Cat: I know it will. Thanks for checking in. We can go on that spa date on your next off day okay? I only work mornings so we can go a little in the evening. Is that okay?

Kat: That's fine love. I'll get back to you on that. Best of luck to your daughter.

Cat: Thank you. See you soon.

[Cat's POV]

1 Month Later

"So what do you think of her?" Robbie asked as he took a bite of his ice-cream.

I smiled. "She's really nice Robbie. She even bought me flowers." I giggled at the thought of when I came home from work to see a banquet of flowers on my doorstep.

Robbie smiled. "Why don't you just say yes?"

I looked down. "Because…I just….I still don't know if I'm…"

"Ready?" Robbie finished and I nodded.

He pushed his ice-cream aside as he crossed his arms on the table. "I think you're ready Cat. It's been way over a year. I really think it's healthy enough for you to move on now and let someone love you."

I looked him in his eyes and saw the genuine hurt in them before he just put his head down and turned away from me.

I reached my hand across the table and placed it on top of his. "Robbie….I'm sorry. Please don't look at me that way. I love you, I do. But you're my best friend."

"I know, I know." He sighed. "I guess I've just…always had a thing for you deep down."

"Why don't you date anyone Robbie? You keep pushing every girl away. Don't say you don't because I watch you do it."

He sighed again. "I guess I keep thinking somewhere there's hope for us, but-"

"-There's not Robbie and I don't mean to hurt you when I say that. I just…"

"You don't like guys at all do you Cat?"

I just shrugged. That's a question I can barely even answer myself. I mean I had one boyfriend back in high school, and I liked him. I did. But it's been so, so long since then and I've been with a girl all these years I just feel….more attracted to them. It's not like I don't like guys, I just feel more comfortable if I am with a girl; with someone like me.

"It's okay if you're a lesbian, that will actually make me feel better knowing you just don't like guys then just thinking you don't like me."

"But I do like you Robbie. I just…I can't."

"I understand."

I smiled.

"Well, you should give this Katherine girl a chance. She sounds really nice Cat and you deserve it. You're not getting any younger. What do you have to lose?"

New Text Message

Sender: Kattttt

Kattttt: Hey Dimples, I got a surprise waiting for you on your porch once you get home. (winking emoticon) see you soon.

"That must be her now?" Robbie asked. I looked up at him still with a huge smile on my face. "You're blushing really hard Cat." He laughed.

I giggled as covered my cheeks.

"I had fun Robbie, but I have to go now. We will hang out again soon sometime okay?" I said as I stood up, gave him a kiss on the cheek and made my way to my car.

I couldn't keep the small excitement and the huge smile away as I pulled into my driveway.

Walking up to my porch I squealed at the huge custom made teddy bear holding a heart a heart that read. "Will You Be My Valentine Ms. Valentine?" I walked over and picked up the small card that set beside it reading. "Just say yes."

I held the card close to my heart as I smile and nodded to myself before I felt warm arms wrap around me from behind turning to see Kat with a huge smile on her face. "I'll take that nod as a yes?"

I giggled as I nodded again and wrapped my arms around her tight. "Thank you, for everything Katherine. You are so sweet."

She pulled me away from her as her smile faded a bit and she looked me in my eyes then down at my lips before meeting my eyes again.

I bit my bottom lip as I closed my eyes.

I know she's been waiting so, so long to kiss me. After every date, every goodbye, every hello, I just wouldn't let her. I dodged her kiss every time and no she didn't get mad. I was just scared to do it. That means…it's official you know? My heart races every time I'm so close to her, butterflies fill my stomach every time she looks at me the way she is now, my cheeks start to burn every time someone mentions her name, it's so….real and it's so scary because I can't control it.

Maybe Robbie is right? Maybe it's time. It's time Cat, time to move on, time to be happy.

I can be happy, I can.

I opened my eyes before looking into her eyes and silently giving her my permission which she indeed caught before leaning in. I should have met her half way but I hesitated and when her lips met mine I breathed through my nose way harder than I knew I should have been and my arms squeezed around her neck as my eyes squeezed shut and that's when she pulled away.

"Cat? What are you doing?"

I instantly let go of her neck as I took a step back and shook my head. "I'm sorry, I…I'm sorry."

"It's fine. If you're not ready I understand. Don't force yourself for me. It's just a kiss."

I shook my head as I took a seat beside the huge teddy bear before I started to play with his nose. "It's not just a kiss, it's more than that and you know it."

I heard her sigh softly before pulling a chair in front of me and placing her hand on my knee. "I like you Caterina. I really, really do. I want to go to the next level with you and I see you aren't ready for that, and that's okay. The worse thing between us isn't me having to wait, it's for you to force yourself to do something you're not ready to do. I don't want you doing that because I'm ready. We have all the time in the world. Take your time okay baby? I'm not rushing you into anything."

I felt tears fill my eyes as I shook my head. "But…I am, I am ready. I know I'm ready. I just…."

"It's just you are diving into deep water when you've forgotten how to swim. You have to start at one foot and slowly make your way into deep water Cat."

"But even starting in one foot the water is still going to be cold Kat and I'm still not going to get used to it for a while." I looked down. "I like you Kat. I want to do this with you. Just...bare with me. It's been a while okay. I kind of panicked."

She just nodded. "I understand." She said as she stood up and moved the bear before taking a seat beside me. I turned to look her in her eyes. "I want to."

"Relax." She said before using her finger to guide my chin up to her lips.

She moved forward and still I let her meet me. Her lips where soft and inviting. Not rough, not demanding, just…smooth, sweet.

I kissed her back with the same amount of sweetness as she was giving me. My lips responding to hers slowly. I felt her tongue swipe across my lips a few times but…I didn't. I couldn't. I pulled away.

I felt tears fill my eyes but before they could even fall she wiped them away. "Baby it's okay, it's okay. Don't cry. Take your time." She said as she pulled me into a hug letting my head fall to her shoulder.

I felt her hand reach behind me and play with my hair before giving me a kiss on the top of my head. "I'm not going anywhere. Take your time."

I let a tear slide down my face before I grabbed her free hand and kissed it. "Thank you." I said before closing my eyes.

I want Katherine. I do.

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