Hello everyone and welcome to this chapter! I've not said it before, but I am really, really thankfull for the love my story. I love writing this and am glad that this is picked up so well. But a slight warning. Something brutal is going to happen to Serah. She'll survive, but a little warning for gruesome content. Not that I'm gonna go into gory details, definately not, but still. I wanted to get that out.
Thanks so much for reading and hope you'll enjoy this chapter as much as the rest!
Chapter Twenty One: One's sight is a window to many
(Serah's POV)
Lucky for us, Sur'Kesh was a complete succes. Unfortunately, there was only one female krogan that had survived. Mordin nicknamed her Eve, since we didn't know her real name. She didn't want to reveal it either. Shepard actually had a talk with Eve. They seemed to agree on a lot. The genophage was wrong and it definately needed to be stopped. It sometimes was hard to believe people actually believed the genophage was a good thing.
I was sitting in my room in my pyjama's. It's been a long, tiring day and I needed some time alone. I grabbed a datapad to do some reading. I setteled down on my bed. Reading was a good way to escape my life for a little. Look, I like my life, but sometimes it get's to me. All the war and death. And reapers that can appearantly look through your eyes.
I blinked a few times, thinking about my eyes. So far I've only had seizure like episode when involved with the reapers. But how far could they possibly go? What did cerberus inject into me exactly?
I walked over to the bathroom unit for the women. I look into the mirror and sighed. My eyes had bags under them. It seemed like I hadn't slept in days. Which could be true. The reapers had been plagueing my dreams for the past week. It made me really tired since when I sleep, I couldn't tell my reality from theirs anymore. It has been bugging me to no end. There seemed no way out of it, unless..
Believe it or not, I actually managed to slip a kitchen knife into my room. I saw not other way out than.. blinding myself. I couldn't handle the reapers anymore. I felt disgusted knowing that those.. feckers could look through my own eyes. As pretty as Arcen considered my eyes, it wasn't worth it. I sighed and grabbed the knife I strapped to my leg that was covered by my pants.
My hands trembled as I took one look in the mirror and glanced over at the knife in my hand. I placed my other hand on the knife handle as well and stood away from the mirror, focusing my sight on the point of the knife. I'd be able to do it with bleach or something, but I needed a quick solution. I smiled tiresome at the knife before thinking;
No more reapers, no more using me for things
I thought about Liara wanting to use me for some lab thing and couldn't take it anymore. I jabbed the knife into one eye, feeling immense pain and I screamed in terror. My vision on one side went completely black before I jabbed the knife back into the other eye, completely blinding myself. My screams attracted people, which I did expect. What I didn't expect, was that I'd still be consious.
I felt someone lift me into his or her arms and bring me to what I assumed would be the med bay. The pain was unbelievable. Of course it was to be expected. I was layed on my back and felt some sort of mask put over my mouth. "You're going to be okay", I heard Shepard say before I slipped into some sort of dream.
A few hours later, at least, it must be a few hours later, I awoke. I could feel there was some sort of bandage on my eyes. Well Serah, that's stating the obvious. I yawned and swung my legs over the bed. I could sense there was someone there. Doctor Chakwas?
"What were you thinking?",
That was no doctor Chakwas. Pretty sure I know who it was and man, I was not.. looking foreward to this. Wow, the puns. I sighed. "You wouldn't understand", I said. I heard Garrus taking a seat, most likely in front of me. "Try me",
He sounded beyond pissed. This sounded more like.. dissapointment. Not to sound ungrateful, I'm glad he's looking out for me, but I needed to do this. The very thought those reapers could see through my eyes. It freaked me out to the point where I saw no other way than.. blinding myself.
"I understand why you're-",
"No you don't. Otherwise you wouldn't have blinded yourself", Garrus cut me off. I hung my head. I felt his hand on my shoulder as he sat next to me. "Look, I couldn't take it anymore. The seizure like episodes, the fact they could see you guys as clearly as I could, I..", I stopped, "I just wanted to be a normal human being".
There, that was out. It didn't hit me until I said it out loud. I didn't ask for all this. I never asked to be created in a lab, instead of loving parents. Of course I was happy now that I was created, I mean I have great friends and an amazing boyfriend. But still. I never actually had a childhood or parents. My parents were.. most likely donors or something.
"I.. ", Garrus seemed unsure what to say about that. "I'm sure you'll understand to an extend", I answered with a slight smile. I rested my hand on his wrist. "You may have considered yourself a bad turian and all, but trust me, if I were one of you, I'd beat you in being a bad turian", I jokingly said. Garrus chuckled slightly. "How are you feeling by the way? Chakwas has removed everything in your eye sockets, just to be sure nothing gets infected", he told me.
I shrugged. There was no pain anymore, just no sight. It sort of felt like a relief. Most likely the reapers wouldn't be seeing the others anymore. No more knowing what Shepard was up to. It was an extreme measure to do, but I'll manage. Maybe they've got seeing-eye varren or something?
Well, all joking aside, I've got to get used to not seeing anything anymore. Lucky for me, I know what everyone looks like. So those memories will never be forgotten.
Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter and although it seems Serah is okay with being blind, it's most likely for show. She's trying to cope, but things might not change in regards to the reapers. Well, thanks for reading and see you all next chapter!