Hey Everyone!! Can I just say how sorry I am that it's taken me FOREVER to update?! Geez, I ended up working like a mad woman for the past month on overnights… and now I have to find a new job because I CAN'T even make my bills. Ahh, the lovely little things in life huh?
Well, I'm going to be working on this story until it's finished because I KNOW ALL OF YOU are waiting to see how it ends. And I have such a Kick I have been waiting to put into it that it's seriously only to be about ten more chapters until it's done.
Well, now I am seriously going to get back to work now that I have the time to. Hope you like what I have in store everyone!
Me
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Chapter 21: Consequence
Waking up suddenly to the light tapping on her window, Kagome shot up and looked at Inuyasha on the other side of the glass.
Rushing to open it, Kagome used her mind to unlock the little metal bar and carefully stood as he entered the room. When she looked at the clock, she found she was surprised, it was well after midnight now. And Inuyasha looked tired standing before her.
"Hi," he said as he sighed and leaned against the window after he had shut it.
"How's Shippo?" she asked instantly. The worry in her voice was enough for Inuyasha to understand that this needed to be taken care of first.
"He's going to be fine," he said gently pulling her to him and wrapping his arms around her. "I got there in time. But he needs to rest at least until tomorrow."
As she sighed and let her body sag into his, Kagome smiled as a few tears fell from her eyes. Inuyasha had saved him, he had saved her son.
Now she loved him even more than she thought possible.
But as she wiped her eyes and looked up to him, she could feel the pull once more to kiss him as she looked into his golden eyes of sunset. But Inuyasha pulled away from her first, walked over to the closet, and sighed.
"It's getting harder for you too? Isn't it?" he asked her without looking at her. "Tell me honestly."
As she forced herself to sit on the bed, Kagome nodded once he looked at her.
Sighing as he realized that maybe staying in this time tonight was possibly not the best idea, Inuyasha began to walk towards the window. But she grabbed his arm and shook her head as she looked at him.
"You don't need to leave, Inuyasha. It may be hard on me, but I know how to lock my emotions away," she said showing a weak smile. "After all, I've done it for three years haven't I?"
Even though he knew she was right, Inuyasha couldn't help but feel as though staying would cause her even more pain. Without any warning, Kagome sprung up, wobbled a little bit, and ran over to her TV.
"Why don't we watch a movie or something? Get in your pajama's and we'll just have some fun. I have a funny feeling you haven't slept in a while either just by looking at you," she said as she noticed the dark circles under his eyes.
Chuckling as he scratched at the back of his head, Inuyasha nodded at her. Maybe he could stay tonight. And possibly get his kimono washed in the morning. The amount of demon blood staining it was starting to make him nauseous.
As he walked into her closet and dug out his own set of clothes, Inuyasha closed the door and changed quickly. He had no idea what Kagome would possibly want to do at this time of night, and since they had to stay quiet so her mother wouldn't wake up, a movie was most likely not the best option.
Opening the door as he tied the string to his red and black plad fleece PJ's, Inuyasha scrambled over to her bed and pounced on it. Kagome giggled as she dropped a DVD case on the floor and landed on him with her own little pounce.
"You think you're stealing my bed huh?" she said slyly to him grinning.
As he nodded his head and caught her wrists in his hands, Inuyasha gave her a Cheshire cat grin as she fought his hold.
"Yup, I've been fighting big nasty demons all week long. I deserve a nice comfy bed for a change," he said as a stray strand of her hair tickled his nose. "You can have the floor this time around."
As her exaggerated jaw dropping and eye bulging made him laugh at her, Kagome took the opportunity to use her leg to dig into his thigh sharply. As he yelped at the instant pressure point of pain, Kagome twisted her arms around and crossed his over his chest.
As she slammed her body down on his, knowing full well if he wanted to all he would have to do is shove her to the floor, Kagome grinned at her slight victory.
But when his eyes locked onto hers, she felt her heart skip a beat. As he stared at her, Kagome forced herself to stay where she was unmoving. She knew if she kissed him even once, then she would either have to wait around six months before she went back to the past, or she would be carrying his scent while they were fighting Naraku.
And she would literally be his target once more.
Even though he knew what the consequences would be, Inuyasha found himself staring at one of the few scars on her body that showed over the top of her shirt.
She had gotten those scars because of him, her body had been destroyed, and he knew that it was all his fault. Yet, the hold on his minds rationale was beginning to slip. And the fact that she was on top of him was not helping matters any.
Turning his head violently to the side, he breathed deeply as Kagome crawled off his body and sat next to him. His arms and legs were shaking from all the restrain he was using on himself in that moment. She tried her best to soothe him by running her fingers through his hair and whispering to him, but nothing was truly helping him.
He wanted her more than anything. But right now truly was not the time or place. All they needed was to defeat Naraku and claim a few more shards, then, and only then could he be with her the way he wanted to.
"Inuyasha?" she asked him as he finally felt the control come back to him. "Are you okay?"
As he sat up, Inuyasha shook his head and blinked his eyes to clear his mind. When he looked to her, he smiled weakly as he nodded his head.
"I'll be okay," he said weakly to her. "Just make a deal with me. Until Naraku is dust, lets not get in that position again? I thought I was going to snap."
Even though she knew it wasn't the best move right now, Kagome giggled as she nodded her head.
"Okay, just don't try to steal my bed again and it's a deal."
Playfully, Inuyasha's ears drooped as he gave her the puppy dog eyes.
"But, it's comfy."
"And having to force your body to chill out is as well I take it?" she asked as she raised an eyebrow at him.
As he screwed up his face, since she had nailed him once more with a good comeback, Inuyasha crossed his arms over his bare chest and looked away from her.
"Feh… girls," he mumbled.
"Oh… grow up!" she said playfully as she looked over at her DVD player now and inserted the DVD of her choice.
"I thought we agreed for small tasks like that you wouldn't use your powers?" Inuyasha said dully as he noticed her remote flying over to them.
Sticking her tongue out at him, Kagome moved the pillows around on the bed and snuggled into his side comfortably. He was frozen in place for only a moment, but Inuyasha slowly relaxed as he wrapped his arm around her. It was odd that even though he knew touching her was a bad thing right now, this… this was okay.
It had been a while now since Inuyasha could truly just relax. Since everything that had happened, he couldn't help but wonder if he was ever going to be able to feel comfortable again like this.
Kagome was by his side, watching the strange movie she had put on. But he knew she would fall asleep shortly. The air of exhaustion surrounding them both was telling him that they would both be out for the remainder of the night very shortly, and a part of him could not wait until the sleep consumed him as well.
Looking back on the past few weeks without her around, Inuyasha began to wonder how he had managed to do so much. Kagome had always been the one to find the shards and he would just be there to help destroy the demon who possessed it. Now, even though he had Kikyo's help, he still felt as though something had drastically changed within himself.
Maybe because now he no longer wished to become a full demon, it was easier for him to think of how to destroy Naraku. All he had ever wanted was for his foolish greedy dream to come true. And it had always been the cloud of his judgment. Even Kikyo had messed up his plans time and time again because, at the time, he had still felt something for her.
But now, as he looked down at Kagome, he could tell why his mind had cleared so much.
He had found his reason for life. And most likely his reason to finish this stupid fight with the evil bastard whom had harmed her. With everything that had happened in the past few months, Inuyasha really had grown into a much more mature, rational, and strong willed person. Everything was finally beginning to fall into place.
But now, sitting there and watching as the credits finally strolled over the screen, Inuyasha absently turned the TV off and pulled the blanket's over them. He looked at Kagome's sleeping form and found himself smiling.
As long as he was with her, he had every reason in the world to keep fighting and stay strong.
All he needed was a little bit more time. And then, he could be with her.
As he closed his eyes for the first time in weeks, Inuyasha smiled.
This little relaxation trip he had taken was just what he had needed. And he could only imagine what he was in for tomorrow.
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As her eyes fluttered open as the sun's rays began to penetrate her eyelids harshly, Kagome awoke feeling warm and safe.
Looking to the tan and well toned arm wrapped around her protectively, she smiled. Inuyasha really was still here.
And he was out cold. But she couldn't blame him, he looked like he hadn't slept since the last time he had been here, and possibly even longer than that. As she carefully got out of bed and walked over to her closet, Kagome pulled out her bathrobe and tip toed over to the door. He was still snoring peacefully as she shut the door behind her, but she knew by the circles still resting under his eyes that he would be.
She had never seen him this exhausted. So she only needed to guess once that he hadn't slept in weeks. Most likely he had been trying to find as many jewel shards as possible before Naraku could, and he had most likely not eaten very much either. So, today she was going to just be nice to him and make sure he ate as much as possible before he left once again.
Him leaving again… wow, that thought alone ripped her heart out. After a while she had gotten use to him not being here. But now that he was, she felt like she was being pulled into too many different directions.
When was this torture going to end?
Stepping into the shower, Kagome cleared her thoughts as she turned on her iPod Bose system she had bought only a few days before with her mind let it run on shuffle.
As the first song began to play, she was tempted to switch it to the next one, but begrudgingly, she let it play as the hot water scorched her skin.
Can hold my breath only for a little while
'til reality starts sinking in
once again I'm settling for second best
turn the pages skip to the end
to where I swore that I would try
since the last time I crossed that line
in the back of my mind I know
As she absently began to scrub away the sweat from the midnight heat, Kagome could feel her heart breaking as the words took her to another place in time. All the times Inuyasha had run to Kikyo instead of her. All of the pain and devastation that Naraku had caused him and even herself…
it only hurts when your eyes are open
lies get tossed and truth is spoken
it only hurts when that door gets open
dreams are lost and hearts are broken
Running the small fluffy green ball over her scars on her chest, Kagome's finger's trembled as she felt the raised and distorted skin. The only reason Inuyasha had come forward with his feelings had been because of that one day she had gone back to the Feudal Era without him. It had set everything from their love for each other to him becoming so determined to kill Naraku in motion. What if that had never happened? She wondered. Would she still be living in silence of her emotions? Or would they still be where they were now? Waiting until the final battle to be together?
miles away promise from a burning bed
two worlds should never collide
one word would end it if you ever heard
tear the page out that reminds me
when I swore that I'd be strong now
the next time has come and gone
well maybe I'm wrong I know
Kagome wanted to rush these thought's from her mind as she looked down at her form. Minus the scars on her breasts, and arms that she could make out in the humid air around her, she felt as though if this had never happened, then Inuyasha might have never said anything to her about how he truly felt.
it only hurts when your eyes are open
lies get tossed and truth is spoken
it only hurts when that door gets open
dreams are lost and hearts are broken
'Maybe he might have still told you anyways, Kags. Just because of circumstance isn't Inuyasha's thing. You KNOW that." Her mind dully noted as her eyes found another scar from Naraku, this one across her pelvis.
I know what your feeling
it's hard to believe in someone, someone who's not there
I know that your waiting
'cause love is worth saving
but only for so long, so long, so long
Pressing her hands against the cool wet tile, Kagome felt the hot tears scorching her face as they mixed with the hot water pouring down on her. She really didn't know why Inuyasha had finally confessed. And it now bothered her. This really had been a bad choice of a song first thing in the morning. Crumbling to the bottom of the tub in a heap, she cried softly. Did it really take her nearly dying for Inuyasha to speak up? Or had it been something more?
I swore that I would try since the last time, the last time
Hearing a muffled sound from down the hall, Kagome went to stand up, but due to the water and soap combining at the base of the drain, she slipped and crashed harshly into the side of the tub. Pain assaulted her side as she cried out in pain.
it only hurts when your eyes are open
lies get tossed and truth is spoken
it only hurts when that door gets open
dreams are lost and hearts are broken
' Oh please, don't let me have broken my hip again…" She pleaded a she gently prodded at the spot she had hit. Without any warning, she heard someone running down the hall.
it only hurts when your eyes are open
lies get tossed and truth is spoken
it only hurts when that door gets open
dreams are lost and hearts are broken…
"Kagome?! Are you okay?!" Inuyasha said as he ripped the curtain back in worry.
"SIT!" she shrieked.
Within seconds, Inuyasha was face planted on the floor in his plad PJ bottoms and swearing under his breath.
As a new song started, Kagome peered over the edge of the tub at her disgruntled hanyou and smiled as she began to giggle at him. Wrapping her arms around the curve of the tub, she pushed her hair out of her face and at him.
"This isn't funny…," he muttered into the wet tile of the floor. "I was just worried because I heard you fall."
As he looked up at her from the floor, Kagome's heart felt the natural warmth it normally did whenever she was around him. And as the second song played, she felt the happiness return to her.
We were strangers,
starting out on a journey
Never dreaming
what we'd have to go through
Now here we are,
and I'm suddenly standing,
at the beginning with you
He should have known that that would have been her first instinct. But he couldn't stay mad at her either or. He was merely worried about her. As his ears twitched as he started listening to the song, Inuyasha gently ran his clawed fingers over her saturated face, smelling the light salt of her tears fading away on her skin.
"Why were you crying?" he asked softly as he caressed her cheek.
No one told me
I was going to find you,
Unexpected
what you did to my heart,
When I lost hope
you were there to remind me
this is the start
Kagome pressed her face into his palm as he looked at her intently. His eyes of sunset burning her with the worry radiating out of them.
And life is a road
and I wanna to keep going
love is a river
I wanna keep flowing
life is a road
now and forever
wonderful journey
"I was thinking about something stupid," she said quietly. Pressing her hand against his, feeling the warmth filling her skin on her face from his hand, she sighed. "I was thinking… if I had never gotten hurt, would you have told me that you loved me still?"
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
in the end I wanna be standing
at the beginning with you
Inuyasha was stunned. Would he have? Now that he thought about it, he found it hard to believe how far they had come in only a few short months. If Kagome had never gotten hurt and nearly died…
We were strangers
on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming
how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you
Without thinking it through, he gently pulled her face to his and kissed her for the third time. Not even caring that his scent was blending into her flesh for six months. He couldn't hold back the thought of denying her anymore. Couldn't stand the act that he'd even been able to hold himself back for this long. Her lips were wet and lush, just like he knew them to be. And the intoxicating scent of her freshly clean skin was driving him insane.
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
at the beginning with you
She was beauty incarnate to him. And even as his hand brushed over the scars on the base of her neck, he didn't see them as ugliness to her features, but they had been his reason to take out Naraku as soon as possible. Because he had loved her far longer than he could really remember at this point, and he had planned on telling her anyways. Just… the events had caused him to say what he had felt for her a lot sooner than he thought he would is all.
I knew there was somebody somewhere
that made love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothings gonna tear us apart
Kagome felt dizzy from his kiss as she felt a wave of erotic power floating around her. She felt as though a blanket of protectiveness were coating her skin and seeping in deeper, making sure it stayed there forever. Not caring for the consequences, she wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him closer to her. Shutting the door with her mind. Kagome tried to run her wet fingers through his hair, but became tangled in the silver locks instantly.
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
at the beginning with you
Inuyasha growled as the taste of Kagome's tongue entered his mouth had she gently pulled on his hair. As her nails slightly bit into the back of his neck and head, he felt like he was flying. Pulling her up and out of the tub, he landed with her on his chest as she giggled lightly. Looking into her eyes, he couldn't help but want to kiss her again.
So, he did.
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep going on
Starting out on a journey
Kagome smiled against his lips as her eyes shut slowly. Even though she knew that this was not the best timing, she was happy to finally feel some of the love they shared for each other for so long out and in the open. As they kissed some more, Inuyasha pulled away from her, breathing heavily and cupped her face in his warm hands and smiled.
Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I wanna be standing
at the beginning with you
"I would have told you even if you hadn't gotten hurt. Just because I knew how much I really do love you… You're all I want, Kagome. And I've felt that way for a long, long time now."
As the tears pooled in her eyes, Kagome smiled as she pressed her hand to his cheek. As he gently kissed it, he sighed and glared at her iPod as the song 'Animals' began to play.
"Wanna shut that thing off before we get ourselves into even more trouble here?" he said showing a fang filled smile.
Pressing the off button with her mind, Kagome sighed as the thought registered in her mind suddenly, and she felt weak.
"I can't go back until the jewel shard is complete and in my possession now huh?" she said as she brushed his bangs out of his eyes lightly.
Nodding his head slightly, Inuyasha sighed.
"Yup, we fucked up."
"I heard that, Inuyasha!" someone shouted from out in the hall and banged on the door violently.
Inuyasha's eyes widened as he cringed underneath Kagome like a coward. As she laughed at him, she cradled his head in her arms as her mother continued to scream.
"Mom," she shouted. "It's too early to be yelling at him for swearing."
"Why is the door locked?"
"I shut it when he came in. I fell in the shower and the last thing I wanted was gramps or Souta to see me," she said hoping the lie would work.
"Oh… okay. Inuyasha, you better not be planning on DOING anything else but helping her stand up!" she shouted into the door as she walked away. "Ever heard of the Vet?! That's where you'll be mister if you decide to do ANYTHING else!"
As they heard Norma walk down the stairs, Inuyasha sighed as he looked up at her confused.
"What the hell is the Vet?"
"You really don't wanna know what she's talking about. Trust me," Kagome said as she tried to get off of him.
"If you say so," he said as he blushed seeing the swells of her breasts. "Umm, do you want me to shut my eyes? I don't think getting sat while I'm already down here will be a good thing."
Well, why bother. He'd seen her naked before. Standing up without answering him, she gently headed back into the shower and shut the curtain.
Inuyasha sat there dumbfounded for a moment. She hadn't cared in the least. That was new for him.
"Inuyasha…," she said as she picked up the shampoo and squeezed it into her hand.
"Yeah?"
"Go and give my mother your Kimono. I have plans for us this afternoon and I know you still have some clean clothes in my room. If you want, use the downstairs shower since this one is almost completely cold water now," she said peering her suds filled head out to smile at him. "You need to relax today. So, I'm gonna give you a day of fun before you go back."
As she popped her head back in, Inuyasha smiled as he headed for the door.
Minus the fact that they had screwed up royally, maybe today was going to be a good day for him.
Then again, one good day with Kagome was always better than a thousand bad days without her. So, shutting the door, he headed to her room and found his Modern Era clothing and smiled as he walked down the stairs.
Today, he was going to be happy, no matter what.
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Toodles,
Me
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