- I've ran into an issue, where as I was reading Draco's journal for like the 50th time, I ran across an error or two. You know just the usual repeating a word while replacing another and that type of thing. In this case is was, "Why was I was afraid." which was intended to be "Why was I so afraid." Now, at the moment I've kept it the way it is, but I'd really like to know what you think. As this is a journal, and since Draco is still only human, maybe leaving a mistake or two in actually makes it more realistic? Or does it detract to the point of it all, you know, getting his story and trying to understand it? Let me know what you think. Should I or should I not keep the mistake?
31/01/1992
So, Goyle had another chat with me today. He's worried. I know, but I just wish everyone would just leave it alone. I don't have the time or energy to deal with everyone's concern, even if that concern is coming from the captain or one of my closest friends. I don't even know how they could know. I haven't even gone down seven pounds. There shouldn't be any notable difference in me.
The captain. I remember. Flint had pulled me aside while the others did drills, only asking if I was alright. I know that he knows that I know what he had seen that day. I was careless, but now I've got more to hide. Those bruises, they won't just go away, and now I'm left asking myself if I'm truly okay. I had answered honestly when he'd asked me. I said that yeah, I was fine, because even if I've been scared before, I've since felt as if I've got this monster under control. However, now there's that other monster, a physical being. Let's call him the hawk. The hawk gripped me so tight, and it's not something a mere tank top could hide. So, I've switched to a long sleeve… but it doesn't make a difference.
Just because someone can't see something, doesn't mean that it's not there. The monster, for example, has been with me for a long time now, and it took the longest time for people to know it existed. And the hawk… I feel so stupid. How could I not have seen it before, that his intentions were nothing more than to preserve his legacy? He doesn't care about me. If he did, then he would have stopped when I said it hurt… No. He doesn't care for me. He never has. He just needs an heir… And I am not worthy. I never have been. He should just find another son, one who can make him proud… because I… I clearly can't. I'm never enough. I never do well enough.
I never do well enough.
-Draco