What's up! Update, yay! This is a long one, but Eli is leaving! What! Yes, now I tried to make it fluffy! :)

Last nights episode ruined my day, WTF Fitz! I totally laughed like a crazy girl when he said "I found the answer. I found Jesus." No, Fitzy, just no. And Eli? Why you scurry? I'm so scared and prepared for a cardiac arrest for the this week's episode.

Anyways, enjoy! This chapter was iffy in my book, but I couldn't think of anything better, but I have the rest of the plot for the future chapters planned out, all I can say is be prepared!

Clare's P.O.V.

"So, you got stuck in the woods and then what?"

"Well, we talked, and...I just knew, it was time." I sighed dreamily as Alli asked for details.

Making love with Eli was a dear memory and I could not regret it one bit, because my soul felt complete at the pure thought, and my body agonized for more at the touch he could give me, it was a calling.

"So, no hotel, no Victoria's secret? You mean, I did all that work with you, for nothing?" She huffed

"Well, you did more than that Alli, you were the one who helped me through all of this, and that's more than enough." I smiled warmly at her, only to be suffocated with a bear hug from her.

"So...was he good? Did he hurt you?"

"It was...awkward. It took him a couple of tries before he could...you know, and it was so painful, but he was so sweet the entire time."

"So, now what?" Alli's eyebrows furrowed.

"What do you mean?" I hesitantly asked.

"He's, leaving...tomorrow, in the afternoon. What's going to happen now?" Her voice cracked at those words.

"Well, he said he is going to call me every week, we're going to video chat, write letters...we are going to make this work." I stated firmly.

"Clare..." Alli frowned at my choice of words.

"Alli, Eli and I love each other, and our love will make it through, I know it can." I smiled confidently

"I hope you're right." She sighed

Eli's P.O.V.

"So how was it man?" Adam squealed.

"It was amazing." I laughed heartedly.

"I can't believe you deflowered Degrassi's last virgin!"

"Don't say that about her...besides it was more than that."

Adam nodded nervously at my words and looked away before asking again a question.

"So, how was the view?" His eyebrows cocked curiously.

"A gentleman doesn't kiss and tell." I said, only to earn a playful sock from him.

"What? I don't go asking about you and Fiona. Would you like it if I asked how she looked like naked?"

"I guess not, but if you asked nicely..." Adam grinned

"No thanks. I'm more than satisfied with my girl." I chuckled

"Man, I'm going to miss this...times like these, but you'll always be my bro." He sighed

"Hey! We agreed, we would call, text, chat..." I interrupted him.

"I know, I know...you're lucky I can handle that, but what about Clare?"

"Well, we will make it work, and if I can I might come back for the holidays and visit you know...every year." I smiled

"I hope that really does happen, but anyways I have to go now, I have a date with Fiona tonight. I'll be back tomorrow early in the morning and tag along to go drop you off at the airport." Adam patted my shoulder before doing a fist pump with and then exited the door of my bedroom.

I was looking over at my suitcase making sure I had everything: pictures, clothes, laptop, phone, my awesome music collection, and passport.

"Knock, knock!" CeCe laughed before entering my room along with my dad.

"Hey guys." I smiled

"So, tomorrow..." My mother drawled nervously.

"Well, the brat's leaving tomorrow." Bullfrog chuckled finishing her sentence.

"Baby boy, do you have everything?" My mother sniffled a tear away.

"Yeah...oh come on! Mom, don't cry." I groaned and walked over to give her a hug as soon as I saw that she was crying.

"I-I'm sorry, it's j-just that you're leaving already!" She sobbed as I wrapped my arms around her.

"Look on the plus side CeCe, you won't have to cook for two, laundry will be less of a hassle, and we could finally have some of that alone time we've been waiting for a while now." Bullfrog winked, earning a deathly glare from my mother.

"I'll miss you too dad." I snapped sarcastically.

"Hey! You know I love you boy, just don't get a big head when you become famous. You, my friend, inherited the unbearable arrogance of your grandfather." He said.

"Arrogant? Me?" I fake laughed.

"Yes you, now we'll leave alone, considering that you are going to see Clareabelle-"

"It's Clare, dad." I interrupted.

"Sorry, I had a late show last night, my head is still kinda err- y' know." He laughed and enveloped me into a hug, before he and my mother exited the door.

I walked over to Clare's house and was greeted by her mother.

"Eli, come on in, so Clare's been telling me you are leaving tomorrow?" She gestured for me to enter her house.

"Yeah, tomorrow's the big day." I said, as I brushed my bangs to the side.

"Your parents must be so-"

"Eli!" Clare smiled as she ran downstairs into my arms, followed by Alli.

"Well, I've got to go now. Eli, good luck, I hope you have a safe trip." Alli smiled and exited out the door.

"Since, today is Eli's last day, I suppose I can extend your curfew Clare, just be safe." Her mother kissed her on the cheek and went inside her kitchen.

"Where do you want to go?" I asked her, pecking her lips.

"Tonight is about you." She whispered huskily.

My nerves kicked in at the tone of her voice, and I could felt my cheeks flushing a faint pink.

"I want to go somewhere special." I said.

"Let's go to the church." She suggested.

"The church? We always go there." I countered.

"But, that's what so special about it, our first date was there, and our first kiss." She smiled.

I pulled her in for a hug and walked her towards the hearse.

Clare's P.O.V.

Tonight was Eli's last night with me, and the thought circulated my mind every second. The feeling, knowing I wouldn't see him for a very long time was abnormal. Everything felt rushed and timed, as if our last moments were being counted down by the second. The looks he gave me were being recorded in my mind so I wouldn't forget. The touch he gave me was a lingering sensation; I hoped would last with me. And, this was a moment I know I would look back one day and wish I could go back to it; I knew I had to make the most of it.

When we arrived, we headed straight towards our usual hangout spot: the hammock.

I grabbed his hand and traced small circles across his palm, feeling the purity ring I gave him.

He looked at me and kiss my forehead, "Best night of my life." obviously referring to the night we both made love.

"I just wish..." I blushed and stopped at my words.

"What?" His eyebrows furrowed.

"Never mind, I...I know this is our last night, and it feels so, rushed. But, I want to spend it like...as if it were just another regular night, like we always do."

His lips were pursed into a flat line, and his eyes looked sad, but he grabbed my hands tightly and brushed his head on my shoulder.

"You know, just because you're leaving, doesn't mean we are ending something, so why are we going to make it seem like it's the last time we'll see each other in our lives." I continued.

He stayed quiet and faced towards me, he stared at my face intently and said, "You look gorgeous tonight, Clare."

I blushed, "You don't have to kiss up, I'm already yours."

"I only speak the truth, right now, you look really beautiful." He placed a kiss on my cheek and traced it to my lips, and then my neck. I locked my fingers through his silky hair as his hands roamed my body.

"We should have gone to Paris...or something." He muttered between kisses.

"You're so stubborn." I giggled.

"I love you, like a lot, I don't know if I've told you this before." He smiled.

"Not ever enough." I gasped.

I kissed him hungrily, as our tongues danced within each other mouths. I grabbed his hand and placed it on my waist, then somehow my body gained a mind of its own and I slipped my hand under his shirt, his muscles contracted at the touch I gave him, my finger clawed on his back, and I grew too impatient that I took his shirt off. His hands slid under my shirt as well, teasing with my bra strap.

"I want you...to, make love to me." I whispered.

He grinned and searched in his pockets for a condom, I was happy that he was prepared.

I hoped more than anything that things would be less awkward this time. The sensation he gave to me by now was better than the first time, I enjoyed how his hands caressed my breasts and that we became more curious, trying things differently. When he entered me, I couldn't help but feel a forceful urge to keep him in my arms forever.

"How many times will you call me each week?" I asked.

"Every day." He said and kissed me on the lips.

"Really?"

"I'll do my best to make it happen; hopefully my schedule won't be hectic." He countered.

"What are you going to study, aside from training?"

"I don't know, maybe major in English. I know you will go for journalism at Smithdale."

"Senior year is going to be horrible without you." I sighed, "Who will I go to prom?"

"I can't promise you anything, but I want to visit time in time and maybe I could come with you to prom. Just don't go with any other guy, you're mine" He laughed.

"I won't...Eli?" I asked to gain his attention and he looked at me asking for me to continue. "I want to make a promise with you."

"What is it?"

"I...I promise to not fall for any other guy and wait for you, until you come back, and we can be together." I replied. I didn't want to come off as a possessive girlfriend, or make him think he had to be with me forever. I just wanted him to know, I was his forever.

"I swear the same thing." He stated. I looked up to him, and his eyes were filled with sincerity, our chests pressed against each other and we kissed.

For me, I wanted the night to last forever. But minutes were taunting Eli and I, we never dared to look at what the time was and spent the entire night speaking and cuddling with each other. Until, the sun came out and we realized it was morning. We gasped at our absorbed conversation and rushed quickly to dress.

Eli's flight was scheduled at three in the afternoon, and it was seven in the morning.

"Oh, man! Your mom is going to be so pissed at me, for keeping you out so late." Eli groaned as he buckled his belt to his pants.

I clasped my bra on quickly and put on my t-shirt. "I'll think of something." I said, he gazed at me one more time.

"Staring is rude, Elijah."

"Sweet, merciful crap...I'm going to miss your body so fucking much Clare." He basically drooled.

"Eli." I said, warning him about the language he was using.

He smirked at me and gave a peck to me on the lips, we were walking to the hearse and he drove slowly, we arrived at the front of our houses. His eyes were fixated on the steering wheel and turned to look at me briefly.

"Are you coming to drop me off at the airport?"

I thought about it. I know what you're thinking, I should be there with him as an obligation of what a girlfriend should do, but in my mind I didn't want to go, I didn't want Eli to see me cry and breakdown, it would be awfully selfish, but I would have to control myself...

"Yeah, of course." I smiled faintly and kissed him one more time. "I'll be over your house in two hours, I just need to shower and...come up with an excuse for my mother."

"I love you." He said and allowed me to enter inside my house.

Eli's P.O.V.

"Well, well, well, lookie what we have here CeCe! Our own boy sneaking into the house at seven in the morning, clothes is wrinkled, hair is messed up, and he's got that Goldsworthy sparkle in his eye. Yep." Bullfrog chuckled. "Someone got some real lovin' last night. Good times, good times." Bullfrog scratched his belly and looked over at my mother who was sitting on the couch looking at me.

"We were worried sick! Helen came over asking if her daughter was home already and Mr. Edwards was phoning all night!" CeCe said.

I shrugged casually at her.

"Where were you Elijah Goldsworthy, and don't you dare lie to me, the Edwards and I have known each other for years, they have beliefs and if you were-"

"Mom! Clare and I just spent our last night together, we lost track of time." I partially answered the full truth.

Until they saw the purity ring on my finger and CeCe sheepishly smiled, while Bullfrog let out a hearty laugh accompanied with a wink.

"Well! Damn time! We should celebrate! My son ain't a virgin, and here I thought he was gay!" Bullfrog laughed.

"Eli, never mind this, we have to make sure you have all your stuff ready to go. You're leaving in seven hours!" My mother waved her hands towards my room, gesturing me to make a move already.

I know, I know Clare and I will be separated for a very long time in seven hours. I know that when I leave I will have the never-ending doubt in my mind towards our relationship. I know.

"So, you need a hand, getting those suitcases in the car?" Adam was at my bedroom door.

"Damn time you came!" I walked over him and gave him a long hug.

"I love you man, no homo." Adam chuckled.

"I could say the same thing, machismo."

"Where's Clare?" Adam asked.

"Her mother got mad at her because we stayed out all night and is driving her to the airport herself, she probably thinks I'm corrupting her daughter."

"Is that so?" Adam said and walked to my suitcases grabbing one and helping me put them in the car.

We stood outside and I saw that Clare's car was gone, meaning that her mom, being punctual and all drove her to the airport, which is by far the stupidest thing, considering we live next to each other.

"Well, we good?" Bullfrog asked.

"Yeah, I guess that's everything." I sighed; my mother rushed over to my side and hugged me tightly.

"It feels like you were a baby yesterday, now you're moving to Spain all by yourself!" She laughed dryly.

Adam laughed awkwardly and we got inside the car.

Clare's P.O.V.

"Where did Eli take you last night?" My mother asked for the hundredth time as she focused her eyes on the road.

"We went to a church and talked." I replied

"Isn't he atheist?"

"Well, we didn't necessarily go inside the church, we were by the church. Can you please explain to me why, you didn't let me go with Eli and his family?"

"I guess that's a punishment you deserve for staying past your curfew. Your father was worried sick."

"Since when does he care? Ever since you two divorced, he's been prancing around town with his assistant and kept me out of the picture." I scoffed.

"He really does love you, he just distances himself because...because of me. Don't hold a grudge against him; you should listen to what Pastor Dave preached every Sunday, forgiveness is the path to salvation."

I stared out the window, wanting to avoid the subject. I truly missed my dad, and sometimes he would invite me to stay over his condo, but he was always so nonchalant about it. He was the parent who always had my side in my darkest moments. Now that he wasn't around so much, Eli became my…I guess you could say, savior. And Eli leaving was something I had to get used to, but I know he will come back someday.

"I'm going to miss Eli, mom." I said abruptly.

"It's not goodbye forever, you'll see him again someday."

"But, what if he forgets about me, finds another girl, I really lo-"

"We're here Clare." My mother interrupted me and we walked inside the airport. I was confused as to why each time the subject of my love for Eli was mentioned she ignored me, because believe me this happened other times.

We waited patiently at the entrance until we saw Eli and his family walking towards us. CeCe waved happily at my mother, and Bullfrog gave a polite nod. While Adam walked over to me and gave me a friendly hug, how I longed to kiss Eli, just not in front of our parents.

"So Clare, my man here has been moping the entire ride thanks to you." Adam said.

I laughed dryly at his comment and looked over at Eli, he seemed, happy.

"You excited?" I asked.

"Just think...in a few hours I'll be in Spain!"He yelped and looked around the airport.

"Eli! We have to go through security and checks! Your plane is leaving soon sweetie, you've already said your goodbyes to your father and I, say goodbye to Adam and Clare." CeCe said.

Oh no. Not goodbye.

Eli walked over to my mother and gave her a hug, "May you have a safe trip, and work hard for that dream of yours, I hope to see you in a year or so."

"Thank you; you've always been a very sweet woman, take care." He smiled

Then he went to Adam.

"Dude."

"Dude, take care and uh- you better get me an autograph from Villa and Messi, that's all I want for Christmas. Take care man, call me." Adam simply said and gave him a long hug and fist pump, before his eyes got watery.

Then he came to me.

"Let's leave them alone." My mother and CeCe said, as they walked away.

Our eyes were focused on the linoleum floor beneath us.

My heart was racing and he was the only thing on my mind right now. At that moment, the memories I shared with him were rushing back. The moments I lived with him have gone by so fast, and now? Now, he's leaving. I felt my throat tightening and my bottom lip trembling. I fidgeted with the bottom of my dress. And he looked at me with those green eyes.

"If you ever feel lonely, or you need someone to talk to...you know the drill" I said.

"I'll...um...-ahem-...you know I'll be thinking about you, all the time. So, don't do anything stupid when I'm gone. I won't be here to protect you and, just take care." He said awkwardly.

"You too. I just hope, you'll be happy and you do well." I smiled, and tears were brimming in my eye.

Don't be selfish, don't let him see you cry.

"Clare. This isn't goodbye. Think of it like, summer camp, or something. It'll be for a little while."

"You're so optimistic." I giggled.

"With you, always."

"Just, don't forget about me, okay?" I whispered into his ear as we embraced into hug, and our heads rested on each other's shoulders.

"I swear, you ask the most ridiculous questions sometimes." He chuckled.

I inhaled a shaky deep breath, feeling the tears coming.

"Don't cry. I hate to see you cry, you're making me feel bad." He replied and I saw that his eyes were being filled with tears.

"I'm not sad. I'm happy, that you're going to make your dreams come true. I need you to try your best at everything Eli, for me."

"Clare, when I come back-"

"Passenger, flight 56, Spain is boarding."

We were interrupted.

"I guess that's my cue." He smirked

"Call me when you get there?" I asked.

"I love you so fucking much, don't you ever forget that." He replied and grabbed my palms, pulling me into a gigantic hug.

I sobbed quietly on his shoulder and gave him a final long kiss.

"I love you!" I yelped through my quiet sobs.

He exited through the gates.

I waited after he left and looked over at the windows, until I saw that his plane took off.

Why did this feel like goodbye forever?

Then when I saw the plane go into the sky, all hell broke loose, and I couldn't stop crying, Adam came behind me and pulled me into a hug.

"He's coming back someday, don't worry." He answered.

"W-what if he doesn't, I have no control of the future." I muttered.

Adam looked at me and smiled, "As cheesy as this sounds, he left the thing he loves the most here, and he'll come back for it, can you guess what that is?"

"What?" I sniffled through tears.

"Morty!" Adam laughed, causing me to giggle. "Just messing with you Edwards, it's you."

"Then why do I feel, as if he's going to be gone for more than a year?"

Adam didn't reply to my question and hugged me until, my eyes were dry.

I felt that a part of me felt empty, as if a huge weight came off my shoulders. Yet it was a weight filled with drives to the park, kisses under the moonlight, caresses each afternoon, sarcastic comments, and loving stares. Gone. The way I felt wasn't completely empty, but it's as if my love was stained onto the inconvenient plane, Eli boarded. It was summer, and so many I had spent with him, now this would be a first without him. I felt numb, almost peaceful as I walked to my car, and anger filled my mind. I was reclaiming a lost hope, and I felt so lonely now that Eli left. I lost so much with him leaving, and it's been twenty minutes his flight left, I'm really pathetic.

"Clare, are you alright?" My mother said as she drove into the road.

"Just, let me cry." I sobbed.

Without a doubt, I was happy.

Was. Not anymore.

THREE CHAPTERS LEFT! AND AN EPILOGUE!

Spoiler for next chapter: Long distance relationships never work, trust me, I know, personal experience. That's all I'm gonna say.

The next chapters will be each VERY long! Maybe each like the size of this one.

Update in two weeks, or less! I have TONS of schoolwork, MARCH MADNESS!

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