Chapter-
that was Randy
"Nothing Randy, we need to talk" I said
"After the show, we go back home" Randy said
"yeah sure" I said and
after the show-
we went to the parking lot to drive my car
"Bee why the fuck it is here" he said and pointed on Ann and mine's weeds that were on plastic bag.
"I am sorry I'll put it back home" I said
"no dude you can't just say that you will put it back , that's not working like that, I thought you said that you won't touch drugs anymore, I thought you are done with that, you can't do troubles anymore, You can't be the biggest badass or the biggest trouble maker or the biggest troublegirl it all the same shit, you are in a place you can't do that anymore, I am telling you that because I am your brother and I do care so now please let me drive" Randy said
Randy drove with me to my house.
"Randy I am so so sorry" I said when we walked into the house.
"that's okay…" he said
"everything just went out of control and I didn't know how can I handle with that" I said, felt pretty sick…
"How did you turn to drugs again?" Randy was trying to understand
"I will tell you the story from the beginning to the end and you promise me as my big bro to not be mad, okay?" I said
"Sure" He wasn't sure
I lit a cigarette and continued to talk
"So I had some drinking issues coming from nowhere , Phil was at my house at one of those nights because of John's lying issues" I said
"So Phil was in your house and what?" He said
I smoked the cigarette and gave Orton a cigarette too.
"I was drunk" I said
"Oh damn it Brooke ! you didn't…" he started
"We did…" I said
"Oh shit I am going to kill him!" he said
"No please don't it's my fault" I said
"Get away from drinking please" he said
"And I had to went to the doctor for a normal check, and then he said I am underweight which is not new, and I lost 5 kg, when I should've gain something like 11" I said
"So I lost some weight which is good but I still felt a little sad" I continued
"Stop with that Brooke you causing yourself lot of damage." He said
"Then I searched for my depression pills, but I finished them, same thing on the anxiety. I turn to drugs, I find my place in it, my peace, I can be finally chill" I said
"No Brooke you are delusional and you have threw that and I know you don't want to do it again" He said
"you know what Randy? Somedays I feel thousands different emotions all at once." I said
Other days I am nothing but numb…" I continued "
"I am tired of this rollercoaster masquerading as my life" I said
"Stop the ride" Continued
"I want to get off" I said
"Well Brooke I have to leave now because It have been so late. And I have to go back to the hotel, I will see you tomorrow and don't be hard on you" he said kissed me on the head and left.
then I saw the bag on my table with a note from Phil that ordered before few weeks that I discussed about with Phil before few weeks in Chicago.
-'Phil I want to talk to u, please forgive me, we have to talk, thanks for the bag I appreciate it so much, Miss our friendship and I hope you will answer me, Brooke' ~Brooke's Iphone-'No problem you knew I order it on the same day anyway. That's alright I am not that Childish, I'll meet you if I can' ~Phil's Iphone typing….- -
'Thank you Phil, Really, Please meet me the soon as u can' ~ Brooke's iphone
'No problem I gotta go, bye' ~ Phil's iphone
'Wait, I think I really like you'
'Wait, I love you'
'Bye' ~message sent from Brooke's iphone.
sorry for letting u down... The next one will be much better.