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Chapter Twenty-one:
It's choice - not chance - that determines your destiny. - Jean Nidetch
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10:40
18-23 of the Girls dorms down, only 25 to go. I know he's here. I know it. Naruto may doubt it, but I KNOW it! You know what I'd noticed, until recently I'd hardly ever mentioned Gaara, it was like my brain had made a pact to try and remember him as least as possibly, not forget, just not remember… if that makes sense.
But I don't mind thinking of him now! BECAUSE SOON I'LL SEE HIM! He's here! He came to me! It'll be like the good ol' days again. I can tell. Everything is going right again.
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11:00 – I neeed to make Naruto agree to help me check dorms! The quicker the better!
Going for an ad-vent-ture. Be back soon.
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1:25
Naruto doesn't seem too enthusiastic. "Sora, you sure it wasn't just a slip up? I know your ears aren't that reliable…"
I sigh. "For the seventy-millionth time, no! It wasn't! I KNOW what I heard Naruto, and I KNOW Temari wouldn't leave Gaara unless she was sure he wouldn't hurt himself, and that doesn't happen with Gaara!"
"I'm sure he can look after himself fine…" Naruto said, hinting at something.
I glare. "'Not hurting yourself' and 'Looking after yourself' are different things in my book." I say, sniffing primly.
He rolls his eyes. "Well, you look."
"I will!" I pout, and get up, storm into Kimimaro's room, and without even saying 'hi/bye' crawl into the vent and go, he looks mildly surprised but then just goes back to his reading.
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Friday 8/4/18
Naruto came over first thing in the morning with mail! I missed out on checking more dorms, but I can make up for it by skipping Human Mind study and looking then. Once again, they looked wet, but apparently it's been raining in Konoha so I guess it's kinda explained there. Naruto looked scared again, he hasn't seen Sasuke in ages so I guess it's okay, well, maybe HE should be out knocking on dorm after dorm to find his friend/gay lover!
Anyway, Sakura's letter was really short and had been cut off at the bottom, Shika must have got to it, hehe. Shika's wasn't there at all, but it did say at the bottom that he was studying and couldn't be disturbed.
Anyway, was kinda sad and sent a long reply back saying to make Shika write and that studying is for wimps.
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8:48
Well, of course they don't know all I did last week was study…
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8:52
Well, then again, I could class myself as a vent-crawling wimp…
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8:57
Yeah. Vent-crawling wimp all the way!
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8:58(.8)
Or maybe – OR SHIIITT! I HAVE 1.2 MINS TO GET TO CLASS!
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9:47pm
Rooms 24-31, checked. It is quite strange, I am checking all girls dorms, but came across Kabuto's dorm somehow, he opened the door and I was so exited because I was so sure it was this one, he looked surprised. "That's strange, you look fine and there's no Kimimaro…" he said.
I knew it was stupid, but I asked anyway. "Is Temari here?" I asked.
He just looked at me strangely. "Okay, maybe I was wrong, what happened?"
"No, I'm fine."
"Come in, I'll get bandages…"
"No! I'm actually sane!"
"… Really now?"
"Okay, bad wording, but I am…erm, unharmed! … I guess." I say hesitantly. He grins.
"Okay then, here for anything? I really have to go, the pool is leaking and I have to check nearly every day now."
"Looking for Temari." I answer. "The pool?" I then ask.
"Yeah, We have a roster, I check today, then Tayuya then that new kid, Uchiha." He scowls. "But Tayuya never does it and that Uchiha kid doesn't look well enough for me to trust him so I look anyway."
I look up. "Really?" then smile. "Okay, well, I better be going then."
"Okay then." He half-smiled in his half-smiling way, adjusted his glasses, and I took my cue to leave.
I spent ages looking through various dorms until in the last one some random redhead tackled me shouting "BBABBY! You came! Hey, I've got an idea that could get us into lot's of trouble- oh…" and then I ran off screaming and had a long long LONG shower.
And now I'm here, feeling quite exited again because I'M FINDING TEMARI! She's gonna be here, and I get to see Gaara! Everything is going to be good and good and AWESOME again!
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10:09
I can tell. It's like I can FEEL it, everything is going to be good, the stitches are like, tightening and it's like I'm all nice and sewn up, but not in a hiding way, in a healing way, and it's kinda like I'm on a big pillar, and underneath is all this water I had been drowning in, but suddenly I'm not just floating, I'm FLYING, and I can laugh at the waves that had pushed me around before. I know I'll see Gaara again. And soon!
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11:34
I'M SO EXITED I CAN HARDLY BREEATHHEE!
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Sunday 10/4/18
I found her. I am possibly exploding of nervousness. She was in Dorm No. 39 outa 45, I was over this morning on the usual dorm-run, and I was on the 9th door I'd tried that day, I remember thinking 'errg, I need coffee!'
Some random with blue streaks had opened the door, and I had blandly asked "Is Temari here?"
And she had smiled brightly and said "Yeah, I'll go get her!" I remember my stomach was almost exploding with excitement, it was like I had a butterfly farm cultivating butterflies in my stomach just to make me feel as if I was gonna puke.
I remember the breath I took as she rounded the corner and looked at me for the first time, I remember the look of shock on her face, I remember the feeling in my legs that just said 'run, run and don't look back' but I swallowed hard and managed a sad attempt at "Hello…"
She blinked. "S-Sorano?" she asked, rubbing her eyes.
I nod. "Y-Ye-Yeah…" my stuttery goodness had returned with a familiar face, and I curse.
She smiled. "Come in." she motioned for the couch, a lot like the one in Kimimaro/Naruto, Mine, and Kabuto's dorm, I seriously wonder if these people have ANY originality AT ALL.
"How have you been?" She asked after a while, I took a breath in and exhaled slowly.
"Okay, I think." I say hesitantly.
Temari had always been stunning, she was even prettier now, and she was wearing the most adorable red dress and heels, she smiles and I went dizzy. "Good, I heard you got into a bit of a mess." She looked concerned.
I nod. "I guess you could call it that."
"So, how'd you get here?" she asked.
I knew I was pale, I knew I was shaking, and I knew I was afraid to speak because of puking. "I d-don't know, just was the best op-p-tion." I get out.
She smiled sadly. And put her hand on my shoulder. "I'm glad, it's a good school, hey-" then the door bell rang, and our heads flicked towards it, she sighed.
"I better go-" I start.
She nods. "That's my boyfriend, sorry, you picked a bad time." She said apologetically. "We're going out for dinner, but it's a long drive so we have to leave early." She explained, I nodded dumbly.
I didn't even look at the boy, I was just walking, walking nowhere, I wanted to be lost, just to be lost and stay lost, because lost is a kind of limbo where getting out is the main ambition, and when your out, your free, but now I was free and wanted to be lost, and how can one deliberately get lost, when they know exactly where their going?
She waved and said something along the lines of 'Talk to you later, Sorano!' and I just kept walking, because walking was the only function my body could handle, and I walked until I smelt the scent of chlorine and woke up from the stupor I was in, it was weird, in couldn't quite expect what I had wanted in that meeting…
I mean, I was confused, I had really just wanted her to say "Oh, Gaara is next door, go have a look!" but one doesn't exactly say that without warning to a stranger that has searched 37 dorms for them.
I sat on the edge of the large pool, and took off my shoes to put my feet in. What could I expect? I had been so exited and I was just a let down, I guess I'd just have to wait until tomorrow to see her. I won't tell Naruto though, he'll just laugh and say 'told you so' but I know Gaara is here, if she is, he is.
I just need to ask, I guess.
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Wednesday 13/4/18 – I can't find her again! Errgg!
I have left about 30 messages and am CONSTANTLY on the look-out for anyone in that family, it's like she wasn't ever here damnit! Erg.
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Friday 14/4/18 – at the poolside.
It's really quite relaxing here, silent, and it's a nice place to think. Temari search is still going, the blue-haired roommate keeps saying 'I've just missed her' and she doesn't look like she'd be the type to lie.
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Saturday 15/4/18 – poolsiding again.
I'M SO NERVOUS! I keep randomly convulsing out of nervousness. Stupid Temari and her away-ness! Errgg. This place has become a real hangout for me, you know, I like it here.
Hahaha. Today I went to see Kimimaro and Naruto for the first time in what's ages for me, since I usually visit like 4 times a day, and they were so glad to see me Naruto even made me complimentary coffee.
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6:35
I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM! I'M SO EXITED I MIGHT EXPLODE!!!
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