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Quaternary: Rise to Power
Chapter Nineteen- The Wrong Goodbye
Little black submarines
Operator please
Put me back on the line
Told my girl I'd be back
Operator please
This is wreckin' my mind
Reading over the papers for what felt like a million times in the time span of finding them, Blair fell back on the sofa as she tried to process it all. Tears welled up in her eyes as she quickly brought her hand up to wipe them away, Blair didn't want any sign of doubt creep in to her mind because the thought of death looming for her mother wasn't an option that she was preparing to face by any stretch. Glancing over at the clock, Blair began to realize how late it was. In her mind, Blair thought she could wade out Tyler's eventual return but knew the timing could be at any point. Placing the papers on the table, Blair took her phone out as she quickly took pictures of them for her own evidence before putting the papers back where she found them. Wiping her eyes once more, Blair composed herself once more before she made her way out of the apartment.
Oh can it be
The voices calling me
They get lost
And out of time
I should've seen it glow
But everybody knows
That a broken heart is blind
That a broken heart is blind
Tearing away from the celebration, Jenny smiled happily as It Girl Inc was becoming the whispers around the lobby area in the after party. Taking her phone out, Jenny quickly began to call Blair to inform her of the good news but only got her voicemail. Leaving an enthusiastic message, Jenny hoped that Blair would call her back since she was distracted in to not coming. Immediately updating the media clips and photos as a supposed onlooker at the show, Jenny wasted no time in posting to Gossip Girl. Just as she finished the task, Jenny quickly saw that she had missed an earlier call from Darren. Looking back over her shoulder to make sure she was alone, Jenny stepped out to listen to the message.
"Hey Jenny, it's Darren. I just wanted to let you know that I've drawn up the paperwork for the divorce and I need you to come in to look over them. I'll get in contact with Chuck but I wanted to make sure that you were sure about this. Come by any time to sign them this week but think about this Jenny" Darren said before the call ended. Listening to the message once more, Jenny began to realize how close she was to her divorce, which came quicker than she thought.
Pick you up, let you down
When I wanna go
To a place I can hide
You know me, I had plans
But they just disappeared
To the back of my mind
Cuddling up closer towards Sean in the bed, Serena rested peacefully as her naked frame lay wrapped in his arms. Resting his head on top of hers, Sean let a smile slip as he rested as even in his slumber it felt perfectly natural and comfortable for her to be with him. His eyes fluttered open to look on at the time for clarification of just how much time he had before he'd have to get ready to go to the arena, Sean cursed himself for doing so as the time he thought he'd have was slowly slipping away. Closing his eyes quickly, Sean didn't want to waste any moment awake when he could be asleep.
Oh can it be
The voices calling me
They get lost
And out of time
I should've seen a glow
But everybody knows
That a broken heart is blind
That a broken heart is blind
Looking on at the clock, Nate prepared to tie up his running shoes as he knew the sun would peek out at any time. While other's slept, Nate found it to be the best time to get in his workout. Turning off the lights in his bedroom, Nate made his way out of his room and quickly jogged down the stairs towards the kitchen. Grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge, Nate made a quick exit of the house, unaware that his father looked on from the living room, sitting in the dark in his chair with a stiff drink in hand. Getting up from his chair, The Captain walked towards the window to see Nate running down the driveway as he had done for many mornings before. Pulling his cell phone out of his pocket, The Captain dialed the number that was in his pocket before pressing the phone up to his ear.
"I would like to place a work order for today. I'm looking to burn some things" The Captain said as he took another sip from his drink before turning away from the window to see his wife looking back at him with a guilt ridden facial expression that left him momentary stunned before he pushed through with what he needed to do.
Treasure maps, fallen trees
Operator please
Call me back when it's time
Stolen friends and disease
Operator please
Patch me back to my mind
The door quickly opened as she grabbed her purse to exit, Georgina walked towards the trunk of the car while the driver closed the door behind her. Getting her luggage out of the car, Georgina walked ahead towards the private entrance of airport while the driver rolled the luggage on. Walking up towards counter, Georgina walked towards the desk to receiver her ticketing information.
"Name?" The clerk asked
"….Julietta Sharp" Georgina replied as the clerk began to print out the ticket before handing it to Georgina
"Enjoy your flight Ms. Sharp" The clerk said
"Let's hope I do" Georgina said as she began to walk ahead. Looking on at the ticket, Georgina quickly noted that their was a special plane designated to Julietta than the one Georgina usually took. Walking towards the gate, Georgina looked on skeptically as she realized it was a separate plane all together that was designated to just Julietta. "Aren't we living in the lap of luxury" she said to herself as she looked on at the aircraft.
Oh can it be
The voices calling me
They get lost
And out of time
Flipping through the channels on television, Dan couldn't manage to shake the earlier conversation he had with Harold and Cyrus out of his head. Surprised that the two men took it as well as they did, Dan knew that in the end they handled it in the way that Eleanor would've wanted them to. Prepared for any wrath they would have towards him, Dan found so such thing as he was dealt like a true family member that could do now wrong in their eyes. If only he felt that way, Dan thought to himself as he turned the television off. Tossing the remote control on to the sofa, Dan rubbed his eyes as sleep was beginning to set in. Looking on at the clock, Dan's worries had not time to set in as Blair came walking through the door.
"Sorry for being late. I had to run an errand" Blair replied with no enthusiasm that she would typically have after a day of work
"How was work?" Dan asked
"Another win for the good guy, that's a good day" Blair sighed as she took her coat off "Did you make dinner?" she asked
"I bought sandwiches" Dan said
"Oh, I thought you were cooking?" Blair asked as she walked into the kitchen to see the sandwiches "Did you go by the house to see my mom?" she asked
"Yeah, I forgot something" Dan lied as Blair looked on at him for a few moments. Sensing that Blair could detect he was lying, Dan waited for her to call him out but found that she never did.
"Oh….I'm not all too hungry. Something just took away my appetite" Blair said after a few moments of silence as she contemplated on whether to tell Dan about Tyler's sudden research in to death but thought better of it because last time he checked, she was trying to make good on her relationship with her brother. Wanting to settle things with Tyler without everyone, Blair would let this situation stay to herself before making anything of it. "Goodnight" she said as she leaned in to kiss him good night before heading back to bed.
I should've seen a glow
But everybody knows
That a broken heart is blind
That a broken heart is blind
That a broken heart is blind
Gossip Girl: Get out your best rain wear Upper Eastsiders, I hear when it rains it's sure to pour. We've had too much sun to think that the rain wouldn't eventually come with it's dark clouds in tow. There's always something to love about the gloomy days because along with days like these come time for us to stay inside to shield our Prada's and Chanel's, but it also makes way for some juicy secrets to be revealed by the crackling of a fire. Though I'm eager to hear something scandalous, finding out about It Girl Inc would be on my must know on a need to know basis but if I had to settle, good Upper Eastside misdeeds coming to light can tide me over. You know you love me.
XOXO,
Gossip Girl
Looking on at the fancy setting, Justine sat in awe of just the silverware that was being placed in front of her. To Blair it was just a simple breakfast at a premier restaurant that she had eaten at time and time before but to Justine it meant much more as she gawked over the artistry that was of the food on the plate to where presentation was everything. Reading the latest Gossip Girl update, Blair snacked on her fruit as Jenny finished up her text to Eric to let him know that she'd catch up with him after breakfast. Closing her phone, Jenny looked up to Bart entering into the restaurant as he was quickly escorted over towards Carter's table. Not wanting to show any sort of concern as to why Carter and Bart were now breakfast buddies, Jenny put her attention back towards the girls.
"Since when does Gossip Girl become a weather analyst" Blair sighed as she closed her phone to put it down on the table
"Gloom does bring about the baddies" April sighed
"Yes but we barely got a line in the update…" Blair began to say
"A line that goes along with the tons of media players that has It Girl spread around like it's the newly learned vocab. Last night was good, very good" Jenny replied "So do not rain on my parade" she teased making a play on the weather
"Funny" Blair smiled sarcastically at Jenny "What was the general consensus?" she asked
"They loved the jewelry pieces that April made. Never would they imagined she made it from scrap" Justine said as she took a picture of the glass of orange juice with her phone
"What's with the pictures?" April asked
"For the three of you that seem accustomed to this, I would like to state that this is real crystal we're drinking from, this is a Kodak moment by far" Justine replied as April laughed while snacking on her fruit
"You sure you not thinking about taking up daddy on his offer to be a part of the company? Those custom jewelry pieces were sheer brilliance" Blair asked as she looked over at her
"He wouldn't do that. If it's not diamonds then he has no need for it. Plus I like having my own thing away from the Zellers name attached to it" April replied "Getting the Bilson's as a reference is a big thing" she said
"So what do we do next? I know you have something churning in that brain of yours" Justine said
"Well that you are correct on" Blair said as she looked over to see Ophelia and Bex sitting at their table in what was a business meeting amongst the staff. Spotting Laurel as she sat fully engaged, Blair became more eager as to what was going on with them. "We still need to get on the radar of the big wigs" she said continuing to stare off at Bex and Ophelia.
Meanwhile….
Taking a sip of his water, Carter looked through the folder as Bart sat across from him sipping on his coffee. Laughing and muttering to himself as he read, Bart couldn't help but think Carter was strange with his reading tactics. Though Carter was Chuck's business partner, Bart began to wonder what it was that made him business savy let alone venture into the business world with his father being a banker. Putting the folder down, Carter looked on at Bart with a grin on his face while Bart sat with a serious look on his face.
"What's so funny?" Bart asked not finding any humor in the moment
"You were married to this" Carter laughed "I've never condoned extra marital affairs but you needed to cheat for the sake of humanity" he laughed
"I don't tend to like wasting my time. Let's be sure you use it wisely" Bart said
"Relax, relax…" Carter began to say
"Don't tell me to relax" Bart quickly replied
"And now I see why Chuck and you don't connect so easily" Carter replied as he looked on at Bart "All this confirmed was what I was all ready thinking, Elizabeth and Russel have some sort of deal going on" he said
"She's not trying to protect me, she's trying to set me up" Bart said
"While Russel get's access to Bass Industries. I mean this all sounds convenient, I mean if Russel wanted Bass Industries then why not make a power play for it while Chuck is clearly on the down and out" Carter said
"Down and out? What do you mean?" Bart asked
"He's getting a divorce" Carter replied "Elizabeth is surely lamenting this momentary victory but she seems keen on pushing Chuck to the forefront maybe even more now that Jenny is out of the picture" he said
"Because that would require her to care about him" Bart sighed "She messed with his marriage and she's going after more…." he began to say
"It's just what is it?" Carter said "Elizabeth getting Russel stock from the very company that Ophelia has taken over from the Waldorf's" he said to himself as he got lost in thought "It all has to connect together" he said as he continued to think. While the two of them sat, little did they know that they were under full surveillance.
Beginning to stir awake, Tyler began to look around to get a feel for his surroundings as he came to. Sitting up on the sofa, Tyler tossed the blanket back on the sofa as he began to rub his eyes. Looking around to see if Georgina was around, Tyler began to realize that she wasn't around. Getting up from the sofa, Tyler walked over towards the dining table to see a note that was on it. Reading it to himself, Tyler began to realize that Georgina was still hot on her pursuit of the mystery that was Julietta Sharp. Grabbing his phone from off the table, Tyler immediately began to dial her number as he walked over towards the table once more. Listening to the phone ring, Tyler began to think that she wouldn't pick up before she finally picked up.
"Good morning sunshine" Georgina smiled
"What happened last night?" Tyler asked a bit groggy
"If you mean how you were, I would say your sensational self as always, though the thing with the tongue…." Georgina began to say
"Georgy, I know we didn't sleep together. I'm talking in reference to why you're not here to lament me being at your doorstep" Tyler said
"I lamented it. I may have peaked a few times at what I've missed, but no…I didn't molest you, thought about it but didn't" Georgina laughed
"I should feel so lucky" Tyler replied sarcastically "Julietta, what do you have?" he asked quickly
"…I thought this was my problem?" Georgina asked
"You not being here leaves me suspicious of you, call it a me not trusting you thing" Tyler replied
"And you trust me enough to tell you what I'm honestly doing?" Georgina asked
"…do we have to do the banter? I mean it's a bit tiring…." Tyler began to say
"I'm in Monaco" Georgina said
"Why Monaco?" Tyler asked a bit surprised
"Because a little birdie has pointed me in the direction of my home town, which is starting to make sense. If my mother is behind this then she wouldn't make any moves in New York, it'd be in a homeland of political upheaval" Georgina said
"I'll pretend to understand what you mean, but political upheaval?" Tyler asked in confusion
"There are two families of Monaco, you have the Grimaldi's and Garibaldi's" Georgina said
"Right, but what does that have to do with the Sparks?" Tyler asked
"We're a beloved family because people think we brought a religion to the country to save the damned souls from eternal damnation" Georgina said
"So we have the Grimaldi's, Garibaldi's, and the Sparks. Three families, a web of lies" Tyler said setting up the scenario
"Precisely. You may get your blockbuster story of the year if this turns out to be something" Georgina said as a silence came between them as Tyler realized that Georgina was still following through on her promise to give the rights to the story but with the added bonus of her mother being involved in it
"You do know what this means…" Tyler began to say
"I know what it means and I know what it could lead to, and you're right, I'm not a good person. I'm the wildcard, always have been and will continue to be. My only allegiance is to myself" Georgina replied "Don't get mushy on me because…" she began to say
"I know, I know" Tyler said
"Try not to make a mess" Georgina said before she quickly ended the call. Looking on at his phone for a few moments, Tyler was about to put the phone away until he saw that he had a text message coming in from Blair.
Blair: Meet me at your place. Now!
"Yay, a visit from Blair" Tyler said to himself sarcastically as the thought he got off the text message was that she was upset, which was something he didn't want to deal with so early in the morning.
I live in this fantasy where everything is amplified
Senses hiding in a flash and everything just comes alive
This pressure all inside of me is sexual anxiety
Walking into the bathroom in a bit of a haze from last night, Sean began to think it was simply too early to be up, when all he wanted to do was go back to bed, curl up next to her and feel her warmth against my skin. In robotic motions, Sean turned on the cold, then hot water of the shower, sliding his hand under it long enough to test that it was a good temperature, then twisted the knob to the shower setting. Stepping out of his boxers, Sean then stepped into the shower. The heat from the water burning against his skin at first, causing a tingling sensation. The steam surrounded him as the water flowed down his skin. Leaning against the wall, Sean closed my eyes and found himself lost in thought of the previous few days with her. Reaching down, Sean turned up the hot water a little more.
Baby there's a lot of freaky stuff running my mind that
I can't say, but I know I can demonstrate
And I can let my body explain
I know I can demonstrate
So I'ma make it simple and plain
You just need to come over
I can just demonstrate
Unaware with how much time passed, but before he knew it, he felt a cold breeze against his back and then her hands coming around my waist. Letting out a slight laugh as he was still half asleep, Sean turned to face her as he wrapped his arms around her. With the water rushing, Sean felt it more than he could hear it.
I'm arrested by the night and only you can set me free
Guilty but I'm not ashamed, I'm exactly where I wanted to be (yeah)
I leave the door open wide in hopes that you will sneak inside
Baby there's a lot of freaky stuff running my mind that
I can't say, but I know I can demonstrate
Sean stepped backwards, drawing Serena with him, encircling my waist with one hand, and his other gently brushing her hair to the side. His teeth barring into her flesh just a little as her held with no intention of ever letting her go. It was the moments like this that let Serena know how much he truly loved her to where holding her was just as satisfying as any sexual activity. It was moments like this that made him irresistible to her, which made her more of sex feign with him. Slowly, Serena slid her hand down to each sides of his waist to signal that she wanted him. Pressing his lips against hers, they kissed passionately as it was becoming unclear of who wanted who more.
And I can let my body explain
I know I can demonstrate
So I'ma make it simple and plain
You just need to come over (come over)
I can just demonstrate
Pressed up the cold tile, Serena held her arm out to shield her from just how cold it really was. Teasing a little, Sean pressed into her as Serena just groaned. Resting her forehead up against the tile, Serena breathed heavily as the sensation shot through her body. Serena felt her knees buckle once again, but his arm around my waist holding her up at his entrance. In and out, harder and harder Sean plunged into her. His fingers pressing ever harder against her frontside. Serena felt her body shake with each thrust. Almost in a dream, she felt her body begin pushing back against his. Serena felt as if she couldn't breathe, couldn't think, he felt so good that her brain had lost all its devices. Every thrust bringing her closer to release, the pain of the depth combining with the sheer pleasure of his touch. His lips finding mine as he maneuvered his head around to capture her lips with his. Their tongues dancing in a fiery passion.
I'm thinking come over, come over, come over
I'm thinking come over, come over
I'm thinking
Continuing their continual dual, Sean showed his upper body strength as he held up with her legs wrapped around his waist. Water flowing down their bodies as if they were being rained on. Feeling his penetration inside of her, Serena ripped away from his lips as she rested her head back against the tile. Serena's groans of pleasure becoming louder with each thrust as he pushed deeper into me.
Baby there's a lot of freaky stuff running my mind that
I can't say, but I know I can demonstrate (I know I can)
And I can let my body explain
Sean's assault on her body came in swifter movements. The depth of his penetration going harder and harder, making her want to scream with the divine combination of pleasure and pain. Serena's squeals, nearly screams of pleasure encouraging him, almost begging him to make her explode in the passionate orgasms only he could give her. Their lips locked onto each others, tongue dancing as their bodies moved in perfect rhythm with one another. Their hips slamming into each other, rocking in unison, Sean began whispering words of encouragement as if he wanted her to come as close as she possibly could to where he was in their rollercoaster of pleasure. Serena could feel her heart racing, my nails digging into his flesh, the feeling of the hot water spraying against my back as the back of her head slid against the tile in an upwards and downward motion. Letting out a groan as he felt himself coming to his peak, Serena gasped as they arrived at their final destination together. Whimpering with each of the final gentle thrusts as his orgasm finished, almost in unison with her own. Resting his forehead up against hers, the water clashed against their bodies as they caught their breath. Kissing her shoulder sweetly, Sean rested his head in the crook of her neck as she wrapped her arms around his neck as they just stood there in each others embrace
I know I can demonstrate
So I'ma make it simple and plain
Come over so I can demonstrate(Come over)
With her arms folded, Blair looked outside the window as she watched the clouds set in. No signs were shown of them disappearing like she had hoped but then again she knew with the sun their would come the rain, which seemed to be the motto of her life as well. Looking on at her phone to see that Jenny had text her about the success of the fashion show, Blair was glad to see that they had the event completely under control as they racked up another bonus in the win category. Walking back over towards the paper, Blair read over the paper, hoping that she was jumping to conclusions on what it could all mean but the constant read over of one section only solidified her fears. A recent date of consultation along with his relation to the buried was son, that was all it took for her to see that this was the only option. Hearing the sound of keys jingling outside, Blair looked over at the door just as he entered.
"Seriously, you've got this intrusion thing…." Tyler began to say as he entered his apartment, shocked to see her all ready inside.
"Care to share any information?" Blair asked as she looked on at her brother
"Such as?" Tyler asked a bit confused
"Oh, I don't know…maybe the fact that you're looking into funeral costs?" Blair said as she held up the piece of paper that caught Tyler's attention. Quickly showing a change in expressions, Tyler stood in disbelief that she had been so nosy to snoop through his things
"Give me that!?" Tyler replied trying to grab the paper from her
"No!" Blair yelled "You tell me, is my mother dying?! Are you planning a funeral for our mother?" she asked angrily
"I'm not doing anything!" Tyler yelled as he threw his keys forcefully to the corner of the room
"You're researching information about our mother, information that has her being six feet deep, you're doing something" Blair quickly replied
"Because what? I'm looking to collect or something?" Tyler asked
"At this point, you could wade it out to see what you stand to gain" Blair replied as she didn't back down one bit
"You've got a lot of guts to make this accusations, when I've shown no signs of what you accuse me of" Tyler replied angrily
"You could've seen my efforts to get to know you as me showing weakness…." Blair began to reason
"No one thinks like you. You're crazy enough to think that type of bullshit" Tyler griped "It's not at all what you think" he told her
"Then what the hell is it then Tyler!?" Blair yelled
"It's my mother's, as in Marcy Adams!" Tyler yelled "My aunt had my parents dug up and burried in the family plot closer to her. I tried appealing the decision. That is research" he said as Blair took a few moments to let it all settle in as she saw no reason for him to lie on something like that
"Oh….I'm sorry" Blair replied as she wasn't afraid to admit her faults in the situation "Why didn't you say anything?" she asked
"Because I tend to not talk about funerals as conversation starters" Tyler replied sarcastically "Besides, you and your boyfriend seem to have a tight grip on what this family should and shouldn't know" Tyler said as he walked over to grab a beer from the fridge
"I said I was sorry, there's no need to bring Dan into this…" Blair began to say
"No, I have every reason to bring him into this" Tyler replied angrily "You were out of line with the accusations, and he was out of line by keeping something like that from me" he said
"What are you talking about?!" Blair asked as she had no clue as to what Tyler was saying
"Don't act like you don't know. He doesn't do anything without your knowledge" Tyler replied not catching on to Blair's clear confusion and lack of knowledge "That was bullshit with the whole I want to get to know you. All that was to gage what I knew or if I was close to finding out. Well guess what, I'm not the family idiot like you think I am. This is just as much my family…." he said going off on an rant as his anger built up more and more
"What the hell are you talking about?" Blair asked
"I'm talking about Dan and you keeping the fact that our mother, as in you and I, refused to have a surgery!" Tyler yelled "That's what the hell I'm talking about" he said as Blair went blank at the revelation
"Surgery?" Blair asked "When? How?…will it help her?" she questioned in disbelief
"I don't know? I didn't get to ask my questions to get a grasp because you sent you're fucking boyfriend out there to handle things. The doctors…." Tyler began to say
"I didn't send Dan anywhere" Blair replied "He was supposed to be at work, he was meeting with Alessandra" she said as Tyler just looked at her for a few moments
"Either you really think I'm stupid or…..you really have no clue?" Tyler questioned as Blair wore a blank and dejected face that he had never seen of her "You really don't know, do you?" he asked as a silence came between them
"No, I didn't know" Blair said before she quickly grabbed her purse and made her way out of the apartment.
Pushing himself to the limit on his run, Nate focused more on achieving the goal rather than the pain he was feeling. Seeing the house as he ran up the hill, Nate got the motivation he needed as he couldn't wait to get to his finishing point. The closer he got, Nate quickly saw the moving truck that was in the driveway as it became a sudden interests for him to figure out what was going on. Turning off his headset, Nate took the earbuds out of his ear as he walked towards the house to see the movers coming out with the frames that go to his bed. Immediately noticing his furniture was the one being carried out, Nate quickly ran over towards the movers to cut them off.
"Hey, put it down. Put it down!" Nate yelled
"Can't, these are orders" The guy said
"From who?" Nate asked in confusion
"These are orders. Now if you could get out of the way" The guy said
"Will you put my stuff down so we can figure this out? Let's figure this out that way you don't have the wrong stuff?" Nate asked as the two men looked on at each other in agreement before putting the frame down on the ground "Thank you. This will just take a few minutes to get this all cleared up" he said
"Hurry, we have orders to send this stuff to get burned" The guy said as Nate quickly headed inside the house
"Mom. Mom. Mom" Nate called out finding no answer before a few minutes passed as Anne made her way out, looking as if she was dreading this moment. "Why is my stuff being burned?" he asked his mother immediately "Why is it being moved all together?" he asked
"Do you want something to eat? Let me get you something to eat" Anne asked
"No, I'm not hungry. I just want to know what's going on" Nate said as a silence came between them "I go out for a run and this is happening?" he asked
"…your father. He can't get past it" Anne admitted hesitantly "He's tried but he can't get past what you've chosen" she said
"What I've chosen?" Nate questioned in disbelief as it began to set in for him as to what his mother was talking about "You mean, he can't get past the fact that I'm gay" he said coming to the realization. "Wow, this…this is unbelievable" he said as he laughed to himself
"Maybe with enough time then he'll come around to this phase" Anne said
"What phase? Who's going through a phase?" Nate asked as he felt insult in his mother's words
"This, whatever you are. This cry for help" Anne reasoned
"Me being gay isn't a cry for help or a phase, it's what I am not who I am" Nate replied becoming annoyed
"How do you expect him to understand you? This is just too much for him to handle" Anne said
"You have no problem in announcing your side clearly" Nate said as tears welled up in his eyes
"Don't you dare. I have stood by you Nathaniel, I have done my best to accept…" Anne began to say
"What is there to accept? If you love me, if I'm your son….you accept me as is. Regardless of what I like or sexuality preference, you accept me!" Nate replied as he tried to fight the tears
"I have accepted you!" Anne yelled trying to defend herself "To the detriment of my marriage, I have accepted you" she replied
"….so this is me getting what? Getting the shaft so you can save your marriage?" Nate asked
"You choose this life but your father hasn't. It's just a little while" Anne said
"And in this little while, I go to a hotel. Hope you understand me while I'm in a hotel room and not here to explain myself and why this is the life I've chosen?" Nate asked as he looked on at his mother to see that her silence was more deafening than anything "I do have money, right? I do have some means to support myself" he asked
"This was your decision…." Anne replied as he laughed in disbelief as he put his hands above his head
"You know what, don't explain it. The more you explain why this is the way things are, it only makes it worse. Does my grandfather feel the same?" Nate asked as she stood silent once again "Of course he does, they all ban together to make the tough decisions" he laughed to hide the pain he was feeling
"I love you Nathaniel" Anne whispered as tears streamed from her face
"Which Nathaniel? I'm having trouble coming to the conclusion of who you love as your son" Nate asked as he glared on at his mother before he thought to go upstairs to grab his things. Upon reaching his room, Nate looked in to see Trip standing in utter shock by the sudden and drastic move. Staring at the emptiness that was once filled with all his likes and trophies, Nate felt his whole existence wiped away.
"Nate, I didn't know" Trip said as he looked over at his cousin
"It's fine. I don't need sympathy. This makes leaving the house easier, there's nothing to come back for" Nate replied before he turned to leave. It felt like the longest walk as he made his way down the staircase to walk over towards the truck. Pushing past the guards, the men tried to pull Nate back. Rushing out to hear what the commotion was all about, Anne and Trip made their way outside as Trip continued to run forward to help his cousin get to what he needed.
"It's his stuff!" Trip yelled as he pushed the man away as Nate glared on at the guy for his confirmation to know if he could get through "It's his stuff" he said once more before Nate began to go through the piles they had to grab the two picture frames of Katie and of the original four.
"You can do with it as you've been instructed to do now" Nate said as any shred of dignity was slipping away from him as he walked away from the truck. Walking down the driveway, Nate clenched on to the photos as tears streamed down his face.
After their fun in the shower, Serena and Sean managed to get around to the actual purpose of the shower. Claiming they were saving water with their sudden desire to shower together, it was all just an inside joke for them to explain their sexual encounter. Stepping out the shower, Sean stayed back as he continued to use the shower, Serena began to dry herself off before wrapping the towel around her body. Deciding on how to style her hair as she looked on at herself in the mirror, Serena was torn away from her thoughts by the sound of the house phone ringing. Surprised that he even had a house phone, Serena looked back to see if Sean was making any effort to get out but found no effort of doing so from him. Walking towards the phone after she spotted where it was, Serena picked the phone up.
"Hello" Serena answered to a silence "Hello" she said once more before the line went dead on the other end. "That's strange" she said to herself just as Sean came out of the bathroom
"What's strange?" Sean asked
"Someone called or at least I thought someone called" Serena said
"On the house phone?" Sean asked
"Yeah" Serena replied
"Oh, then no need to worry. I get calls all the time on the phone but it's from local businesses. It was probably a local business expecting a man to pick up the phone" Sean reasoned
"That makes no sense" Serena replied
"It's the mind of a bill collector, it's not supposed to. You probably messed up their quota by answering the call expecting to market to a man. Not just any man but a real man" Sean said boosting his ego as Serena just laughed
"You've got a cocky attitude even with phone calls, why is that not surprising" Serena laughed
"I can't help the allure that is me" Sean joked as he pulled a shirt out of the drawer "I love you but you have to understand I'm a hot commodity" he said as he put his shirt on while Serena stood frozen. Turning to look at her, Sean was caught off guard to see that she was all teary eyed but had no clue as to why "What's wrong?" he asked immediately with concern
"….you said you loved me. You love me?" Serena asked
"Uh, I've said it before" Sean said
"I know but you said it again. You just said it" Serena replied as she laughed
"Is it really so surprising?" Sean asked
"With everything we've gone through, it kind of is. I mean I just…I'm sorry, I'm acting like a girl…" Serena began to say
"You are a girl" Sean quickly replied as he walked towards her
"I mean being overly emotional as a girl. I just didn't think you'd say it again" Serena cried before Sean walked over to wipe the tears from her eyes as he just caressed her face
"You're right, you are such a girl" Sean laughed softly "I love you. That's not something that should surprise you. It scares the hell out of me but I love you and you should get used to knowing that" he said
"What does it feel like?" Serena asked
"Me loving you?" Sean asked as Serena shook her head
"I know it's strange but I just want to know" Serena said
"It's like me wanting to be around you all the time. It's me feeling like I can share anything with you. It's me wanting you in my bed to begin and end my day with. It's me being my best self with you…it's me finding something that is so right that I don't want to let it go" Sean told her as she began to blush "It's me appreciating that you were brave enough to put me before everything else. I may not have appreciated it then but I thank you for giving me the chance to be the father I wanted to be and to play without all the distractions" he said
"I never thought I could make someone feel that. I mean I make guys feel things but not that…" Serena began to say
"You really have to stop comparing me to other guys" Sean laughed as he traced the outline of her face with his thumb "…I don't think anyone can love you the way I love you, and that's not being territorial. That's just me not wanting anyone else to know how great you are" he said
"That kind of is you being territorial" Serena laughed
"Me peeing on you would be territorial" Sean quickly replied
"Why would you pee on me? Why are you bringing up pee in this moment?" Serena asked
"I was thinking about dogs and how they mark their territory…" Sean began to explain before Serena leaned in to kiss him
"Okay, don't ruin the moment" Serena said as she laughed against his lips as he kissed her. Getting caught up in their make out session, Serena was quickly reminded of why he was up so early to begin with as she pulled away slightly "You've got a game" she said in between kisses
"I can leave in a few minutes" Sean replied as he tried to keep her close, not wanting to break the kissing
"Then I have to go" Serena replied
"For what?" Sean questioned as he broke the kiss
"I'm not going to stay cooped up in a loft all day long. I have shopping to do and maybe even food…" Serena began to say
"You cook?" Sean asked "Please make my day and say you can cook because I'm thinking grits, eggs, sausage. This will be the sexiest thing you have ever said if you say you can cook" he said becoming excited at the idea
"Okay, you should know me better than that, I've only boiled water as my proof of cooking" Serena replied as Sean laughed while shaking his head
"That's the biggest tease ever" Sean sighed
"You worked yourself up on that one" Serena replied as he wrapped his arms around her waist "But you have to go and I need to go see London while you go through walk throughs" she said as he pouted "Thank you" she then said after a bit of silence
"For what?" Sean asked
"For not expecting to hear it….how I feel about you is something I've never felt for anyone…." Serena began to say
"Me saying it was predetermined on making you say it. If you love me, I know you'll say it because you genuinely feel that….I know you're scared of it and I want you to be ready for it. So when the time comes, I'll know that it's you putting all your faith in me and I would like nothing more than to be that guy you have faith in" Sean said before he leaned forward to kiss her on the forehead as he let the kiss linger a bit "Do you think…" he began to say
"We're not having sex again" Serena quickly replied, knowing what he was going to ask
"You should be able to say it now since you clearly know what I'm going to say and ask before I ask or say it" Sean muttered as Serena just laughed as she burry her face into his neck
Beginning to stir awake, Dan rubbed his eyes as he looked over in the bed to see that it was still made up. Showing no signs of Blair coming home, Dan quickly grabbed his phone as he began to dial her number once more before reaching the voicemail. Getting out of the bed, Dan made his way down the hallway as he turned down the option of leaving a voicemail. Tossing his phone onto the couch as he entered the living room, Dan made his way into the kitchen as he wasted no time in preparing himself a cup of coffee. Leaning up against the kitchen counter, Dan yawned as he thought over the events of last night. Though Cyrus was a bit upset that Eleanor would keep the surgery from him, the idea of creating a will was even so troublesome to him. Dan couldn't even begin to apologize for his part in all of this but Cyrus and Harold knew just how stubborn Eleanor was. Torn from his thoughts by the sound of the door opening and slamming shut, Dan made his way out of the kitchen to see Blair coming to a stand still.
"Where were you?" Dan asked as he looked on at Blair
"I was out….the question I have is what is this surgery I'm hearing about?" Blair asked immediately as the silence became deafening to him as he saw the tears well up in her eyes "Answer me!?" she demanded
"The doctor wants to try to remove the rest of the tumor in her right breast. Then after that do aggressive treatment to try to get rid of the rest of the cancer cells" Dan told her
"And does he think this will help her?" Blair asked with a bit of hope
"He's a good doctor and he thinks it could but the risks are still involved. Nothing is guaranteed" Dan said
"Then we do the surgery" Blair replied "We can schedule the surgery as soon as possible. I'm sure my father will have no problem in paying…" she began to ramble on
"There's only one problem" Dan said
"What? She doesn't want to do the surgery. I know that, I'm not all to thrilled that I have to find that out through my brother when I didn't even know about the surgery…but this is nerves talking. She's just scared" Blair replied
"No, it's more than that" Dan sighed
"What more could there be?" Blair questioned "Dan, she has breast cancer. There is nothing more than that. Either you fight to live or you…she's scared and that's understandable but she's doing the surgery" she said
"Because she didn't want to" Dan exclaimed "She's tired…" he began to say
"Which can be expected but she still has to try" Blair pushed
"It's not that simple…" Dan began to say
"No, it's never simple. I don't expect it to be simple because being a Waldorf these days is never simple but we have to try. We have to…" Blair began to reply
"She's made a will Blair" Dan said as Blair froze at the statement while Dan just looked at her process it "She's made her peace with it" he reasoned
"She's made a will, which therefore means that she's accepted….no, you're wrong. This is all carried over for when she feared her only downfall would be in a runway show in Paris with eclaires by her side" Blair replied as tears began to stream down her face "You're wrong. There's no peace to be made because she's going to live and fight because her family is here" she reasoned
"Every bit of strength she has is dwindling" Dan said
"I don't need you to tell me what is dwindling, it's to be expected because this is a part of it. I've read the brochures, they said she'd be weak but she'll be fine. If we keep the hope then it'll all be fine but you can't feed into this notion that acceptance is okay" Blair said "Darren can explain the will, he'll show that it was all formalities before all of this" she said
"Darren wouldn't know about this" Dan replied
"Why wouldn't Darren know? Darren handles everything for my mother. Anything legal, Darren knows. I can call him and you'll see that this will is not the will we think it is" Blair laughed
"I know because I created and wrote the will with her. There is a new will" Dan said as Blair stared at him in utter disbelief
"How?" Blair breathed
"She asked me to" Dan replied as the silence came between them before Blair slowly walked towards him. Standing in front of him, wanting him to see how baffled she was, Blair smiled weakly before she quickly slapped him across the face. The sound of her hand clashing against his face resonated so loudly that she was sure that she had left a zinger on him that he'd feel for some time. Looking on at him as he reacted to the slap, tears streamed down her face as no words could measure how furious she was but no words could escape her. With his hand tending to his face, Dan looked back at Blair with no intent of complaining about her natural reaction. Glaring at him, Blair turned and headed towards the bedroom. Expecting that she may let out her frustrations in due time, Dan just sat in the waiting room for her to exit but found that she was stowed away for some time.
Heading inside of the club, Nate looked around to see no clear sight of Chuck before he walked in further. Girls smiled as they passed him by as his only thought was on other things than be flattered that girls still found him attractive. In a bit of a haze, Nate adjusted his picture frame in his hand to make it seem like he was bringing them by as a means to show rather than to represent all he had. Walking towards the bar, Nate put on his best smile as he saw Carter in what looked like a meeting. Contemplating on whether to order a drink or not, Nate struggled with the idea until he ultimately requested just a water for his refresher. In his mind, Nate wanted to chalk it up to it being too early to drink as his ploy in not ordering the vodka he so desperately wanted.
"Give him something stronger than this" Carter said as he made his way over towards the bar as his meeting wrapped up "Hey Nate" he said greeting Nate as he went behind the bar.
"Hey" Nate replied weakly before he realized he'd have to loosen up to convey that nothing was wrong "Is Chuck around?" he asked
"Uh, he actually managed to leave the office, which has become his new place of residence but he's at Bass Industries" Carter relayed
"And he won't be back until later" Nate concluded
"Pretty much" Carter laughed as he couldn't help but notice a certain sadness that was on Nate's face
"How long has he been staying at the office?" Nate asked
"Ever since Jenny took a bat to his mom's car" Carter said
"What do you mean?" Nate asked
"Jenny had a bad ass moment to where the car was up for the wrath she had to lay down. All in all, it wasn't a pretty sight" Carter said
"So it's looking like divorce for them, huh?" Nate asked in conclusion
"She's all ready contacted their lawyer. It's all pretty sad because you don't expect two people that loved each other at one point to end so badly. Love is such a tricky thing, it's appealing at first but then traps you and terrorizes you" Carter sighed
"You seem like you've been a victim of it" Nate said
"Hasn't everyone" Carter replied "I mean make no mistakes, I enjoy the casual hook up but it's only because love is just too much to deal with. It's something that hurts too much if you truly get involved in it" he said
"I wish I could agree or disagree with you on that sentiment. Love for me is a fleeting thing that seems to always be unattainable" Nate said
"I would think it's easier to pick up guys than girls. I mean we're very simple minded creatures" Carter teased
"It's not the guys, it's just love involves everyone knowing it's love for it to be called love. It's just too many people have a say so in it, and it's people you care about" Nate said
"If they care about you and see the difference in you then they should trust your opinion of it being love" Carter said "Your heart is the only thing that tell you anything different regardless of it being male or female. Love is love" he said
"It's not that simple" Nate replied
"It is. Look, I'm not sure as to what you're dealing with because we're not exactly best buds but I think it's clear to see that you're having this inner battle with yourself and if I know anything, I would say the battle is moreso against your parents" Carter said "If you love someone whether male or female, it's love. If they can't stand behind that and support the love that is now or of the future then they're not doing the key thing of being your parents" he said
"My parents are of the old school mindset. Image is everything" Nate laughed to himself "I can't expect them to accept our ideology of live and love each other for who we are" he said
"Maybe, but don't you think you should spend your days being happy than being sad about problems you only have with one set of people" Carter said "Fight for what makes you happy, not for what's making you sad" he said as Nate took in what he was saying.
The silence in the house had been deafening as Dan was unsure of what to do. Dan walked around the living room, contemplating if he should force the issue or just let her come to him since his part in all of this made him unable to be the voice of reason for her. Standing near the bedroom door, Dan wanted so desperately to come out but found that any intrusion would not be in his favor. Hearing a knock come to the door, Dan looked over towards the door before the bedroom finally opened up to show Blair. Blowing past Dan as if he wasn't there, Dan was only a spectator as she went to open the door to see Harold, Cyrus, Tyler and Eleanor on the other side. Fussing with the men as they aided her into the apartment, Dan stood confused as to why they were here.
"What's going on?" Dan asked as Eleanor took her seat
"Oh, you two haven't come together to plot and figure this out?" Blair asked as she looked back at Dan sarcastically to show that she was still very much upset
"Stop being so dramatic Blair" Eleanor sighed
"Dramatic is not even the level of how angry I am at the both of you" Blair quickly replied
"Can't say that I don't blame her" Tyler added
"The one thing you two agree on" Harold laughed to himself
"I could reprimand on end to how furious and angry I am, but I'm not going to waste my breath because this can all be solved in a simple decision" Blair said as she looked on at everyone but back at her mother for her final point "You're having the surgery. Whatever you two have come up with together will be nullified and we will all breath a sigh of relief once you are prepped for your surgery" she stated
"You just bypass her consent?" Harold asked
"She bypassed ours so I figure it's only fair" Blair said as she folded her arms
"You can't just do that Blair" Cyrus sighed
"I'm her daughter, she's her son. We clearly had no say so in the matter. Of the immediate family there is three votes to what goes on with her our mother. Two against one trumps every time" Blair said
"And the logic always come across skewed with you" Tyler sighed "What my sister is trying to say is that we should've known and had a say so" he said
"I'm a grown woman, I do not need my kids to make decisions on my behalf" Eleanor replied
"And yet you let Dan know" Tyler quickly replied
"She didn't tell me, I found out because the hospital called me" Dan said
"So you've known for some time? So this lie has carried on for some time?" Blair quickly questioned
"It wasn't like that" Eleanor replied "I told him what my wishes were and he respected them" she said
"Yeah well, I don't like the fact that my boyfriend is showing loyalty to my mother than his own girlfriend, who happens to be the daughter. The moment you got the call you should've told me" Blair replied angrily
"Us fighting about the events aren't going to help. It helps no one or solves anything" Cyrus replied
"All of which, I agree but I'm complying to what she wants. You're having the surgery because that gives you a better chance than just this acceptance crap" Blair replied
"You can't tell her what to do" Cyrus replied
"Why not?!" Blair asked "She's my mother, my input" she replied
"But you don't speak for everyone" Cyrus said
"You may be married into this family to say something as you've just said but you don't wear the same stripes to truly be a Waldorf. You don't get a say in what this family should do!" Blair yelled as she looked over at Cyrus, who just laughed in disbelief at her statement
"Blair" Eleanor said as she began to cough
"You're taking it a bit far now Blair" Harold said
"Yeah, that's a harsh thing to say" Dan said
"It's the truth. You fly around the world knowing you have a sick wife. You could be gung ho for this so you could gain in the long run, it's not like it's above you to look the other way on family because Aaron has yet to make a steady appearance in your life" Blair replied
"This is the few times where I can honestly say you don't know what the hell you're talking about" Cyrus replied
"You're out of bounds" Dan quickly chimed in as Eleanor continued to have a fit of coughs with efforts to try to speak against Blair
"I'm the only one that has the balls to call you out on it" Blair stated
"Why can't this be a decision that we collectively come to together?" Tyler asked
"Because it isn't what she wants!" Cyrus yelled "Now granted I'm not a fan of this decision but we have to…" he began to say
"We? We don't have to do anything! If there's a decision to be made then her children will make it. Not you, not Dan, her kids!" Blair yelled
"Everyone needs to calm down" Harold said as he moved to the middle as Dan noticed how Eleanor's coughs weren't going away like he had thought. Heading into the kitchen to grab a bottle of water, Dan quickly handed the bottle towards Eleanor as they continued to argue.
"No, he acts like some peace maker in the family but all he's doing is aiding her along against what is clearly best for her. She's having the surgery because it's what's best for her…" Blair began to say
"Or because it allows you enough time to settle your vendetta with the Sparks" Cyrus stated
"Here's how much you know about my vendetta with the Sparks as being priority number one, Tyler's been sleeping with a Sparks and I had no retaliation against her" Blair said
"We want what's best and we should be allotted to have a say in that because it wasn't given to us. If this surgery can help her then what is the harm in having it" Tyler said
"Guys, I really think we should get to a hospital" Dan said as he tended to Eleanor to find that she was breathing heavily before they turned to look at her. Rushing over to aid Eleanor, Blair stood in panic as everyone tended to her mother while she just stood frozen. "I'm calling 911" he said as he immediately pulled his phone out
"Just try to breath. Try to breath" Harold told her as he tended to her.
Sitting at his locker, Sean adjusted his seat as the discomfort from the ice wrapped around his legs were beginning to numb him. Looking on at the game tape, Sean rewound and fast forwarded key plays as he was sure that the offensive set would be used quite a bit tonight. Though his mind was trying to get locked in on the game for tonight, Sean couldn't help but drift off to Serena. It had been months since he had been this happy and while the birth of his son elated him, Sean felt like this was his personal happiness that made all the difference. Getting torn from his thoughts of a future with Serena, Sean looked on to see that his phone was ringing. Quickly grabbing the phone, Sean answered the phone without really looking at the caller identification.
"Hello" Sean answered
"Hey" Rochelle said
"I was actually going to call you" Sean smiled "How is he?" he asked
"Mike is doing good. He's going through colic, so he's a bit fussy" Rochelle sighed
"You sound tired" Sean noticed of her sadness on the phone "I see sleep will be high on the list for when he's away" he laughed
"Actually I'm managing. I've always managed because I thought or least hope to work towards something" Rochelle said
"Something like what?" Sean asked
"….is she there?" Rochelle asked after a few moments "Is she with you in London?" she asked as Sean froze for a moment, torn in between whether to lie or tell the truth
"How'd you find out?" Sean asked as he felt the sudden pain of hurting Rochelle
"That's all you can say?" Rochelle asked as he could hear her crying on the other end "I'm thinking you're playing basketball and you're off with her!" she cried hysterically
"It's not like that" Sean whispered as he got up from his seat to head into a quieter area to where no one could hear him
"Then explain to me what's its like because I'm thinking we're working towards being a family but you're with her" Rochelle replied
"Look, Serena flew into town the same time I did. We talked for a bit and I asked her to stay because we had things to work through…" Sean told her
"Things or your relationship?" Rochelle asked as silence came between them "Are you sleeping with her?" she asked
"Yes" Sean admitted after a few moments "This isn't some hook up type of thing…." he began to say
"I don't care what it is" Rochelle replied "I care about my son, which you don't seem to" she said
"I care about my son. You can't even excuse me of that because every bit of what I make goes to my son" Sean quickly replied
"You could be making more but you opt not to, so you clearly can't be contributing everything you could" Rochelle said
"Since when is money a big thing now?" Sean asked
"Since I'm the one chasing jobs around the world to provide for our son because you go months without playing. I'm the only steady thing Michael has…." Rochelle began to say
"Don't you dare say that!" Sean replied angrily
"I can say that because I've got proof in order to make such a claim because his father is off sleeping with blondes that got him kicked out of the country" Rochelle said "I deserve more than how you treat me" she said
"I never made you believe that we would be something more. I've been honest with you…." Sean began to say
"Because you're just so in love with Serena" Rochelle said
"I would like for us to talk about this. Come to an agreement to where…" Sean began to say
"If she's part of your life then Michael will not be" Rochelle quickly interrupted him to say
"What? How can you say that?" Sean asked
"Because I mean it. Michael is solely with me so it'd be easy to get sole custody of him" Rochelle said
"You can't do this to me!?" Sean exclaimed
"You did this to you by choosing her. You chose her before and she broke your heart, I'm not letting you hurt our son because you're too stupid to see that it will never work for you two" Rochelle cried "So you make the decision, either you choose Michael or Serena but you can't have them both" she said before ending the call. Realizing the call was over, Sean slammed his hand against the wall as he groaned in frustration.
Tapping his foot nervously, Nate looked up at the floor indicator to get a gage on how long it would take before reaching his destination. Tapping more and more, Nate felt his nerves pile up before he heard the final ding that let him know that he had made it. Stepping off the elevator, Nate made his way through the lobby as he headed towards his father's office. Passing the receptionist, Nate heard his name being called as she trailed behind, wanting him to stop. Not allowing any of the outside noise to set in to deter him away from what needed to be done. With a full head of steam, Nate burst into his father's office to see that he was in a meeting but still Nate carried no regard to what his father was doing because of all the emotions that were coursing through him.
"Nathaniel, what are you doing here?" The Captain asked as he tried to play off Nate's sudden entrance as an expected thing that he welcomed rather than an unexpected visit that upset him due to timing
"I got your message" Nate said
"What message?" The Captain asked "Is this something we can discuss…." he began to say
"At home? Was that going to be your words? Because you made sure that I didn't have that anymore. So I got your message" Nate told him
"You made your choice, now you live with the consequences" The Captain said
"I never thought there would be actual consequences for being a gay man" Nate replied
"Okay, you need to go" The Captain said becoming upset as he knew his executives were looking at the scene between them
"No, I'm not going. You can call the security or whoever you need to burn me out of your memory but I'm not going until you look me in the face and tell me what you're too big of a coward to say" Nate demanded
"The only thing I can say to you now is that you're behaving like a child right now. I do not appreciate you bursting into my place of work for your stupid tantrum on the latest disservice I've done to you" The Captain reprimanded his son
"Me bursting in should be expected since you unexpectedly kicked me out of my home, and for what? Because I didn't conform to what you wanted?" Nate questioned "I've conformed to every idea you ever wanted me to be. You wanted me to play sports, I played because that's what you wanted. You wanted me to date Blair Waldorf because it looked good to date Eleanor Waldorf's daughter, I did. You wanted me to apply to Dartmouth, I did that. Everything you asked, I did because you were my father!" he yelled as tears welled up in his eyes
"Well I'm sorry for being a father with high hopes for his son…." The Captain began to say
"I never faulted you for having such high hopes, it's just that they became unattainable after a while because I wasn't happy. I'm not happy. I always felt trapped in the expectations you put on me to the point where I nearly covered up the fact that my best friend was laying dead within a few feet of me, all because I was thinking about this future you crafted out for me. Your future for me, that's all I was blinded by….but the one time I improvise to make my own decision, you can't even find one shred of you to accept it" Nate said
"That's because it's not a decision, it's a cry for help!" The Captain yelled
"The only cry for help I ever had was the second I thought it was okay to kill myself because me being gay wasn't an option. That was my cry for help, which you ignored then. I've been crying for help, you just never took the time to care about who I really was" Nate cried
"Oh, spare me this bullshit. I've worked my ass off to give you this life, to help you get ahead and you do this. No, you're a lazy ass that would rather sponge off the family name then create your own claim to this family" The Captain said
"So me being gay stops me from contributing? How absurd and stupid can you sound?" Nate asked in disbelief as the tension built between them as they glared on each other "I have waited for you to accept me. I have hoped that maybe if I try to show that my family is important to me, then he'll love me enough to accept who I am. I keep waiting to be happy because you're approval hinges on that, when in actuality you're supposed to love me. You're supposed to be my father!?" he cried
"I'm supposed to raise you be a man not a faggot" The Captain said in the heat of the moment as gasps came from around the room at the strong words that The Captain had for his son. Noticing that people were whispering about him, The Captain looked around, observing the whispers spreading about.
"It didn't feel good the first time you said it and it doesn't feel any better the second time around" Nate said noticing how the whispers were catching his father's attention "Do you hate me?" he asked "I mean do you hate me? Let this one moment be a moment of honesty. Do you hate me?" he pleaded with his father before The Captain looked him dead in the eyes
"….I hate what you are" The Captain said through gritted teeth before he pushed Nate to the side as he made his way out of the office to escape. Chasing behind his father as they went through the building, Nate tried to keep up with his father but found that The Captain was driving off in a car that was waiting for him. Not willing to let his father off the hook so easily, Nate looked up to feel the rain begin to set in before he ran up towards the guard.
"Vanderbilt car" Nate said requesting his grandfather's car that he left behind in the garage for when he was out of town.
Staring on at her mother as she lay asleep in the bed, Blair found herself watching a little longer than normal as she feared that in a blink of an eye she may lose her mother. Noticing Blair standing outside of Eleanor's hospital room, Dan walked up with coffee in hand as he walked up beside her. For a moment, Blair hadn't even realized that Dan was standing beside her until he tried to touch her. Quickly looking over at his hand as it tried to touch her should, Blair turned away from his touch as she walked over to take a seat. Running her hand through her hair, Blair sighed as the weight of the day was beginning to weigh on her. Watching her for a few moments, Dan bit the bullet as he walked over to take a seat beside her as she once again tried to move away from him but Dan stopped her from doing so by grabbing on to her hand.
"You can't keep running from me" Dan told her
"I can try" Blair quickly replied as she yanked away from his embrace
"I had no intention for things to get this out of control" Dan said
"No, you had no intention of telling me about things because that was your little secret" Blair replied
"I wanted to tell you but it wasn't my secret to tell" Dan said
"It is your secret to tell. If the person entrusts you with the secret then it becomes yours, especially when it involves other people" Blair said
"And I get that" Dan said
"Don't patronize me" Blair replied through gritted teeth "You don't get it because if you did, if you got it then you would've told me the truth about my mother" she said
"You act like it was easy for me to just lie to you about this?" Dan asked
"Because it was!?" Blair exclaimed "You have so much ease when it comes to lying to me. You do it so naturally that it scares the hell out of me. Every moment between the moment you agreed to lie to you being caught, all of that was you lying to me, all of that were moments on top of moments where you could've exonerated yourself from this mess that you two have created!" she said angrily
"I made a promise to her" Dan said
"And you made one to me too. You promised that you would be honest whether I wanted to hear it or not. Well guess what? This is a piece of news I'd like to know about" Blair said
"Removing you and me from the equation, can't you see that I had no other option?" Dan asked
"All I see is you in this equation!?" Blair exclaimed "I blamed my brother for a funeral that I thought he was planning for our mother, when it was you all along that was walking her to grave" she said
"I wasn't walking her to her grave" Dan stated
"Then you were skipping her. Does that make you feel better Dan?! Is that action verb that suits you for what you have done?" Blair questioned "Do you know why I scheme or plot the way I do?" she asked
"….to protect yourself" Dan said
"I do it because of moments like this. I do it for those moments where there is a slight possibility that she won't be here to protect me or guide me. I do it because it's my way of taking care of things because the whole time I'm thinking how would the great Eleanor Waldorf handle this. Granted my way be skewed but I do it because failure is an option she'd never accept. I don't like to fail because that's what she taught me, so you guiding her through and helping her write her acceptance of failure contradicts everything she taught me!" Blair said as tears streamed down her face "I'm strong because of her not in spite of her, so you going behind my back….you're taking away the aspect of myself that is her, the only thing I pride myself in saying that is her because that's who she raised me to be" she cried
"You'll still be that girl regardless" Dan said
"Regardless of what? If she lives or dies?" Blair questioned "….right. I forgot that you've come to this acceptance to. She's dying….just say it, that's what you were going to say" she said
"I wasn't going to say that" Dan said
"Stop lying to me!" Blair yelled "I don't need you patronize me because you want to protect me" she said as she punched Dan in the chest
"What am I supposed to do?!" Dan questioned "I can't be right because if I do right then I'm letting either you or her down. So tell me, what am I supposed to do?!" he asked
"You honor the promise you made to me because in the end this isn't your mother that you're losing, it's mine" Blair replied through gritted teeth before a silence came between them "I don't care if you have to sleep in a box but I advise you to stay far, far away from me" she replied before she made her way down the hallway.
[Monaco]
Arriving at the hotel, Louis looked around to observe the setting of her usual surroundings that she liked to keep herself in. Getting out of the car, Louis put his shades on as he entered into the waiting doors that were open for him. Undoing the button his dress jacket, Louis made his way into the hotel as he walked over towards the elevator to the assigned room that was given to him. Boarding the elevator, Louis stopped the rest of his security team from coming up with him as he wanted to meet with Julietta on his own. Once the elevator doors closed, Louis leaned up against the rails before the elevator doors opened up once again. Making his way towards the double doors of the penthouse she was staying in, Louis removed the key card from his pocket before opening the door. Closing the door behind him, Louis heard an eery silence as he walked around trying to hear where Julietta was in the room.
"Julietta!" Louis called out
"Not the same as it used to be" Georgina said making her presence felt as he quickly turned to see Georgina "So nice to see you again, though I'm sure you weren't expecting to see me" she said
"Ophelia planned a impromptu trip?" Louis asked as she poured herself a drink
"No, just me. I decided to take a little trip back home. Learn about my roots and all that what not" Georgina said "I do find it interesting that you called out for a Julietta" she said
"It's a common mistake" Louis replied as Georgina looked at him strangely
"No, I'm not stupid. You called for Julietta because you were looking for Bex or expecting Bex" Georgina said as she handed Louis a glass "Drink up, I think you have a long night ahead of you" she said as he took the glass from her
"What do you want?" Louis asked
"Truth" Georgina replied as she walked back over towards the bar "I know about Julietta, also known as Bex, so now I want to know you're involvement in this" she said
"Does your mother know about this venture?" Louis asked as he looked on at the liquid that was in the glass "I'm sure she won't be too thrilled" he said
"I really don't care. I don't fear her wrath as others do….you in particular" Georgina said as she turned to face him before taking a sip from her glass "Why is that? What's she got on you?" she asked
"I work with your mother, not for her" Louis replied
"You're her whipping boy, which means you work for her" Georgina said
"Fine, whatever you want to say. Now I have business to tend to…" Louis began to say before her put the glass down
"You're not going anywhere" Georgina said sternly as he looked up at Georgina "….I want to talk and I think you want to as well" she said as a devilish smile came to her face "Besides, you hardly touched your drink" she said before finishing up her drink for him to see.
"Fine" Louis said before he picked his drink up to finish it off. Studying Louis for a few moments, Georgina stood back and watched him hold up his glass before he once again sat it down. Turning to walk towards the door, Louis loosened up his tie as he stopped short of the door to find his vision becoming a bit hazy. Falling to his knees, Louis slid over to lean up against the door as he saw the blurry images of Georgina walking towards him. "What'd you put in the drink?" he asked slurring his words
"Just my own special welcome back to Monaco mix" Georgina said kneeling down beside him "It's a bit of adios motherfucker mixed with your personal favorite….absinthe" she said as his eyes began to droop until they were becoming heavier by the moment "Easy, easy" she said as he leaned over into a deep slumber. "You've got to do better than this Ophelia" she said to herself as she began to struggle with dragging Louis towards the bedroom.
Sitting by her mother's bedside, Blair began to doze off as the sounds of the machines beeping lulled her to sleep. Quickly forcing her self to wake up, Blair wanted to fight off sleep as much as possible as she didn't want to miss any moment of being with her mother. Looking on at her phone to see if she had any messages from the girls, Blair sighed as she felt relieved to know that she didn't have to micromanage the business like everything else in her life. Looking on to see the money they were beginning to rack in, Blair would usually feel happy because this was hard earned but in this moment, nothing about money was feeling good to her. Tucking the phone away in her pocket, Blair looked on to see Eleanor begin to wake.
"Blair" Eleanor said as she looked over at Blair
"Yeah, it's me. You should get rest" Blair quickly told her as she tended to her mother
"What happened?" Eleanor asked
"You had a mild heart attack" Blair said "The doctors want to keep you overnight to monitor you" she said
"You sure that's all this is…this isn't your way of sneaking me in to have the surgery" Eleanor laughed weakly only to see that Blair wasn't laughing along with her
"It's not funny" Blair said looking down at her hands trying to stop the tears that wanted to come
"You've got to laugh Blair. Being serious will have you end up….like me" Eleanor said
"And is that such a bad thing?" Blair asked "I mean the old you, this current you…not so much" she said
"What's the difference?" Eleanor asked
"This laughter about something so serious, that's the difference" Blair replied as a silence came between them "Why didn't you tell me?" she asked
"You would've tried to fix it" Eleanor sighed
"And that's a bad thing now? Me trying to fix it or help you?" Blair questioned "Since when am I the bad person in this family? Why am I the last to know in everything?!" she asked
"Because you'll to fix things" Eleanor said as a smile came to her face
"This isn't funny. I'm not laughing, nothing about this is funny" Blair protested as Eleanor reached out to hold her hand as a silence came between them
"There are certain things in life we just can't fix. I know that you think if you move heaven and earth then you will find the answer but there is no answer to this" Eleanor smiled weakly "I would rather you not try to fix me than for you try to realize you can't. It's an unspeakable burden that you don't need nor do I want you to experience" she said
"I'm suppose to take care of you. We're suppose to take care of each other" Blair said as she gripped on to her mother's hand as tears welled up in her eyes "Remember, you used to say that after daddy left, when it was you and me for that time period" she cried
"And you've done a remarkable job in doing that, even after everything I have done, you've done a remarkable job of loving me. But you and I both know it hasn't been you and me for some time" Eleanor said "You've got other people to take care of you and to protect you, even when you think you don't need them…." she said
"Don't try to stick up for Dan, that's one relationship that I want to leave untouched because if I touch it then I'll have my hands around his neck to choke him" Blair replied as Eleanor laughed weakly
"Loving a Waldorf woman is never easy. I'm beginning to understand that, finally I see it" Eleanor said
"Yeah well, being a Waldorf woman also means you have to be stronger than what you're being. We don't give up, we regroup and come back stronger than ever but we never give up. Failing isn't an option….that's what you taught me" Blair said "So you should stick to that creed and stop with all this accepting because there's nothing to accept. We beat this and we continue on" she trying to build up her shaking confidence
"Do you know how proud I am of you?" Eleanor said as she stared on at Blair with tears welled up in her eyes as Blair just looked at her mother for a few moments.
"Don't tell me. Don't tell me that…." Blair quickly protested as she began to pace the floor
"Why?" Eleanor asked
"Because this is your concession speech!" Blair exclaimed "This is you putting in the final word and this isn't the final word of anything. You're going to stop with the stupid accepting and fight because this isn't what we do" she said trying to keep herself together
"I'm proud that you've managed to become every bit of the woman that I never was…." Eleanor began to say
"I'm not listening" Blair said putting her hand up to her ears "La. La. La. La" she chanted
"I'm proud that you've trusted your heart to love completely and not half heartedly…" Eleanor continued to say
"What's that you say? I hear nothing because I'm not listening" Blair said
"But most of all, I'm proud that you've accepted your brother. I know it took you a while to accept what I did and it was tough to come to grips but I'm so proud that you kept working at trying to bring him into this family. Whether he realizes it or not, he belongs in this family" Eleanor said as a silence came between them yet again. Dropping her hands from her ears, Blair wanted to pretend like she hadn't hear a word her mother said but knew she'd be lying. Crying as she stood, Blair turned back to face her mother
"This family doesn't work without you" Blair cried
"It does because as long as you have the same fight and will to protect it, then it can withstand anything" Eleanor said as she wiped away Blair's tears "I never understood why you loved me or admired me, and I guess at times it scared me because I afraid of failing you. I created these ridiculous notions that you had to live up to because I didn't want to show my flaws for you being afraid of showing yours. There is no rule to be a Waldorf woman, it's just the rule of waking up every day to be a person that you can respect when you look back at your reflection in the mirror. You can have it all in this world but none of that means nothing if you don't respect yourself to believe you can. It took me years to realize it but I want my legacy, the one thing for you to carry on, to be family. Everything else….that means nothing" she said as she began to tear up just as Tyler made his way into the room with coffee in hand. Noticing the tears that were being shed, Tyler knew what this moment was because he had lived through it a number of times to know it well
"I should go" Tyler said "I just came by to give you coffee. Dan said to give it to you because you'll most likely be nodding off at this point and you'd try to fight it" he said as Blair shook her head
"He knows you well" Eleanor laughed through the tears
"He also knows I'm furious with him" Blair said as she wiped away the tears
"Don't leave. I want you here" Eleanor said as Tyler turned to leave
"You sure you want me or do you want Dan?" Tyler asked as he looked on at Eleanor
"No, I want you" Eleanor said
"I don't know about that, it was touch and go for a moment, you turning to Dan" Blair quickly replied
"Who would've ever thought the common thread would be your current dislike of Dan" Eleanor laughed "Too bad it won't last because as much as you want to be mad, he'll win you guys back over. You just want to be mad right now" she said as they fell silent "This is perfect, you two together. Remember how perfect you two are together because apart…it wouldn't be half as right as it is now" she smiled at them
"She's currently making her concession speech" Blair warned "Next she'll say what she's proud of you for. Then she'll make some awkward joke that isn't as nearly as funny because the timing sucks. Then she'll express how bad of mother she was and how you navigated through it to be the adult that could live without a mother now that she's redeemed herself. She'll say all these nice things to miss the key point…losing a mother has no bright side to look forward to" she said as she looked over at Tyler to see the pain that was in his eyes that he was trying so desperately to conceal. "I need to get some air….all this acceptance is becoming more than I can handle" she said before making her way out of the room to leave Tyler behind. Once alone, Blair walked down the hallway towards the bathroom. Immediately heading into the bathroom, Blair turned the water on as she began to splash water onto her face. Coming up to look on at her reflection in the mirror, Blair found her heat beating faster than ever as she felt like it was all starting to set in for her. Looking on at herself, Blair composed herself once more before she turned to head into one of the stalls. Closing the door and making sure to lock it, Blair slowly began to break down as she burst into tears. Breaking down into tears, Blair was torn out of her tears by the sound of her cell phone ringing. Grabbing the phone, Blair looked on for a few moments before answering.
Looking on at her clothes that she had bought after a days worth of shopping, Serena smiled as there was nothing like a good shopping spree to make her feel like she was taking in the city. Folding her clothes up so that it wasn't taking up space or a sign of her being messy, Serena began to put her clothes away just as she heard the door open up. Making her way out of the bedroom, Serena looked on to see Sean toss his gym bag on the floor as he held something in his hand. For a moment, Sean just looked on at the photo for a few moments as if he was troubled by it. Coming out of the bedroom, Sean looked up to see Serena before he let out a deep sigh.
"Hey" Serena said breaking the silence as she sat on the sofa
"Hey" Sean replied sadly as he played with the photo in his hand before he walked over towards the kitchen
"How was practice?" Serena asked
"Good" Sean replied with no enthusiasm
"Good as in you were a star and you had an amazing walk through or good as in you got chewed out by the coach and you have no idea what he said because it was in Spanish" Serena teased
"No" Sean replied once more with the same one answer replies
"Okay, clearly something is wrong because you're not joking or making any sort of attempt to touch me….you're just being short" Serena said
"I just wondered if you were going to tell me who else has been touching you" Sean said as he grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge while he walked over to grab the photo to show her "A reporter brought this to my attention" he said
"Trip and me at a social event? This is why you're being silent?" Serena questioned
"I just never thought you'd still be linked to the guy" Sean said
"I'm not linked to him, I was simply taking a picture with him because we were at a charity event" Serena replied
"Even though he's the same guy that had me removed from the states?" Sean asked
"Okay, if you want to accuse me of something then come out with it because I've done this enough with Jason. Are you mad? Are you jealous?" Serena asked
"I'm upset because eventually you'll go back to the states and then he'll be there to fill you're head with more reasons to have me moved to some third world country after that" Sean exclaimed
"You sound ridiculous. I don't particularly talk to Trip about you" Serena said
"Then what type of things do you two talk about? I mean have you gotten any sort of inkling that he may be in to you?" Sean asked
"Jealousy really doesn't suit you" Serena replied
"You haven't answered the question" Sean quickly replied
"Because you're trying to make something out of a picture that had nothing behind it but a simple picture taken at a social event" Serena said
"Let's just say that you were completely oblivious to it all, do you think on his end that he may have feelings for you?" Sean asked
"…he may have feelings but it was only because of a misunderstanding on my part" Serena said
"On your part?" Sean asked
"Yes, look I was dealing with some things. I was in therapy and my therapist told me to give in to my urge…" Serena began to say
"What is your urge?" Sean asked a bit confused
"…it's when I'm attracted to someone and decide to give in" Serena said as Sean looked at her a bit stunned
"So….did you give in?" Sean asked "Did you sleep with him?" he asked
"We kissed but nothing happened. I was too scared to do anything because I wasn't ready" Serena admitted
"So there is something" Sean replied as Serena got up from seat
"No there's nothing but you seem hell bent on making it something" Serena said "I didn't sleep with him nor have I led him on to believe that there is something because I couldn't allow myself to….because even then, nothing changed. I was trying to figure me out but there was only one thing that was certain….I never got over the possibility of us. It was delusional but I was trying to get past you because I love you, I'm in love with you" she declared as Sean felt the pains of how special this moment was supposed to be because it's something he always wanted to hear opposed to what he couldn't hear
"Are you saying this because you feel guilty?" Sean asked after a few moments
"No, I'm saying I love you because I do. These past couple days only solidified that I couldn't get over you because I didn't want to. I love you more to put you first, so yeah, that's why I went to Trip but I'm not going to Trip for some sort of a hook up. Everything has been for you because I love you" Serena said as the silence still remained between them. Expecting Sean to wrap her up in his arms like he had done so effortlessly, Serena could still see that he was holding back.
"I really want to believe you" Sean said as he nearly forced himself to keep up the role he was trying to play "….but I don't. I think the only reason you're saying this is because you have feelings for Trip" he said
"Wow, you're super paranoid on this" Serena laughed in disbelief "I just told you I loved you" she stated
"And I wish I could accept that…" Sean began to say
"You can accept that because I don't go around saying that to people. I love you, I want to be with you, you're the only guy that has even registered to me, I have only been about you…..Trip doesn't matter" Serena replied
"He does to me" Sean replied as he folded his arms as they stood at a stand still
"This is something else and you're trying to pick a fight with me because of it" Serena said as she stared at him "What is it?" she asked
"I told you what it is" Sean said as he walked away, unable to take her eye contact "And I think with him in the picture and me here, I don't think….I don't think I can handle this" he said
"So what? You can't be with me" Serena questioned as Sean stood with his back towards her as he couldn't face her "You can't trust me and trust the fact that it's you that I want" she said as tears streamed down her eyes
"I want to be honest with you and I can't risk my heart, not like last time. So yeah, we….we can't be together" Sean said as he turned to face her to see the tears in her eyes
"You really picked a perfect time to be an asshole" Serena said as she wiped away tears
"I've got to be able to trust you...and I'm not sure I do with me being in a different country..." Sean began to say
"That's a load of crap and you know it! you can trust me. I've done nothing but protect you and put you first, so that's a load of crap about you not being able to trust me" Serena said "If you want out then at least be man enough to pin it on your own fear but don't put me in this" she said wiping away tears that tried to fall as Sean did all he could to not cave in
"It's how I feel" Sean struggled to say as a silence came between them
"….you were wrong" Serena said as she wiped away tears "You are like every other guy. They hear about my past or about something then they run the other direction or try to get what they can….well congrats, you've slept with Serena van der Woodsen" she said as she stormed off towards the bedroom while Sean closed his eyes trying to keep himself together as he could hear her shoving her things into her suitcase. Tears falling onto her clothes, Serena continued to just shove things away before she was torn away by the sound of her cell phone ringing. Grabbing the phone, Serena got herself together before answering "I can't talk right now…" she began to say
"S, you need to come home" Blair said in between sobs as Serena quickly took in the fact that her best friend was crying uncontrollably, which meant the worst had happened. Turning back, Serena saw Sean standing in the doorway as he became the reminder of her own pain that she was dealing with.
"I'm on my way back" Serena quickly replied before ending the call as she quickly zipped up her suitcase.
"I can take you..." Sean began to say
"I don't need your help. You wanted to hurt me, job well done. You did it superb fashion because I actually believe you. I believed that you could love me and that I could actually fall...I was stupid. Don't be the nice guy, just go through with this, for once in your life, go through with what you want... let's just call this what it is...our final goodbye. " Serena said before she turned to grab her suitcase.
I took a walk on a Saturday night
Fog in the air
Just to make my mind seem clear
Where do I go from here?
I see my breath pushing steam through the air
Shaking hands run through my hair
My fears, where do I go from here?
The car pulled up and immediately the wreckage could be seen. Getting out of the car, Blair began to look around nervously for the sight of the dark haired boy. The closer she got, the more glass she saw and scrapes along the asphalt from the car. Panic came over her as her only thought was to find him as she couldn't help but replay her last conversation with him, hoping that it wouldn't be there last.
"Excuse me Miss, you can't…" The police officer began to tell her as Blair continued to scan over to where the bridge was, imagining the worse
"I'm his family. I'm family" Blair protested
Is it my fault, is it my fault?
We've been missing each other
We've been missing each other
My fault, is it my fault?
We've been missing each other
We've been missing each other
Laying back on the bed, Jenny sighed as she looked up at the ceiling listening to the sound of the raindrops fall outside. Grabbing her phone, Jenny put it up to her ear as she listened to Darren's message over, just truly realizing that it was over. Walking towards her bedroom, Eric stopped short at the doorway to see that she was in heavy contemplation with a million thoughts running through her mind. Lifting her head slightly to look at Eric, Jenny wanted to convey the newly badass that she was but she couldn't fake it, not with him. Walking towards the bed, Jenny moved over as Eric got in beside her. Grabbing the phone, Eric ended the replay she had on the message before he grabbed the ea buds out of his pocket to plug into the headphone jack on the phone. Putting each ear bud in each of their ears, Eric put on music as they just listened on.
Walking down to the water's edge
Asking why I'm here instead of home
Now I stand aloneI stop to stare at the ocean side
I'm breathing in just to feel it's sidewith his
like you were here with me
Placing his hand on top of hers, Tyler looked on as Eleanor just slept. Watching her for a few moments longer than he usually would, Tyler's eyes began to water as he began to realize all that he could lose. Originally when he came, Tyler just wanted to find his birth mom to know that she was still out there but never did he plan to let his biological mother become a part of his life because in his mind there was only one mom. Slowly but surely, Tyler began to see that his heart had enough room for two but to his dismay, it'd be two that he'd miss. Walking in the room, Harold paused at the sight of his son with his mother as he thought it'd be a sight that would take some time to see.
"I'm too late, aren't I?" Tyler asked as he looked back at his father
"It's never too late" Harold smiled weakly "That's the thing about mother's, they never expire, they just get better with age" he said as they shared a laugh
Is it my fault, is it my fault?
We've been missing each other
We've been missing each other
My fault, is it my fault?
We've been missing each other
We've been missing each other
Looking out her window, Serena stared as the she looked on the little specks of land that she was leaving behind. Her heart hurting more than ever, Serena tried to keep herself together as she didn't want to be a public spectacle of heart break. Biting down on her hand, Serena couldn't help but feel the pain as it was all that she felt in the moment. Nothing of London would serve her good as it only came with the painful memory of a love's cruelty to her heart.
Oh, it's on the warmest night
It's in the brightest light
It's when the world is moving
Oh, it's in the faintest cry
It's in the lover's eye
Is when I need you most
And don't you know?
Reading over the documents that Bart had given him, Carter couldn't help but run all the players involved over and over in his head. Hoping that something would make sense to him and would explain the mess they currently lived in. Hearing the sound of the door opening to the club, Carter looked over to see Dan as he walked in looking more defeated than ever. Grabbing the bottles of liquor, Carter then grab the stack of glasses as Dan walked up to the bar.
"Is she mad?" Carter asked putting one glass down to pour into
"Furious" Dan sighed as he took a seat before Carter put another glass on the counter to pour into
"Did she threaten you?" Carter asked
"She said stay away from her" Dan said before Carter put another glass on the counter to make three glasses
"Last question, the determining factor, what happened?" Carter asked
"She found out everything and Eleanor is in the hospital" Dan said before Carter put all the glasses he had on to the counter to begin pouring
"You'll be drunk for awhile. You'll need your strength to deal with that wrath" Carter said as Dan laughed weakly to himself before he pulled his phone out to dial her number before putting the phone up to his ear.
"…voicemail" Dan sighed "I know you're mad and you have every right to be but I'm not going anywhere. I'm not going to stay away….so I just wanted you to know that. We need each other to get through this" he said
"Please record your message after the beep" The automated voice said as Dan just hung his head
"My kind of day" Dan groaned in frustration
Is it my fault, is it my fault?
We've been missing each other
We've been missing each other
My fault, is it my fault?
We've been missing each other
We've been missing each other
Sitting in the dampness of the grassy knoll, Sean knocked back another beer as he watched the planes take off. It had been some time since she had left but with each plane that took off, it was only another dagger to the heart. Drinking his twelve pack of beer to where it was just to ease the oncoming pain he would feel, Sean tossed the can into the grass before grabbing another one. Hearing his phone ring, Sean grabbed and answered, knowing who it'd be
"She's gone, you happy" Sean asked in a monotone voice
"….I know it…." Rochelle began to say as she could hear how hurt he was
"Don't you ever threaten to take my son away from me. I want in writing what our terms are because you're not going to dangle my son in front of me again. I will do right by him. I will spend my last breath to try to give him a better life but I'm not going to be threatened again" Sean said "You got what you wanted, so let's just leave it" he said before he ended the call, tossing his phone to the side as he watched yet another plane begin to take off.
Is it my fault, is it my fault?
We've been missing each other
We've been missing each other
My fault, is it my fault?
We've been missing each other
We've been missing each other
Running towards him once she spotted him, Blair slowed down as she saw the body bag pass her by with The Captain inside. Looking on in disbelief, Blair stood in complete and utter shock as she didn't actually believe it until she saw the actual evidence. Once she composed herself, Blair walked over towards her friend as he sat on the grass, just sobbing as he walked back and forth. Scrapes on his face, blood on his hands and shirt, Blair could understand his pain emotionally but had nowhere near the battle wounds he had over his parent.
"You were the only number I knew" Nate said
"It's okay" Blair replied
"I was just trying to get him to accept me" Nate cried "That's all I wanted to do. I wanted him to accept me so we could be a family again" he began to sob "He was trying to get away from me….and he just didn't see the car. I tried to save him but it was too late" he began to tell his side "I didn't mean to kill my father. I swear to you. I didn't mean to" he sobbed as Blair just pulled him in to hold him close
"I know. I know" Blair told him as he broke down in her arms to where his cries were beginning to sound like gut wrenching tears that came from the soul of a broken heart "I know" she whispered as she held him tighter and for one instance she forgot about her own pain.
Music/Lyrics in this Chapter
The Black Keys- Little Black Submarine
Jojo- Demonstrate
Imagine Dragons- My Fault
Author's Note: So there you go people, the Upper Eastsider death was...The Captain. I can't believe how many of you were in pre-mourning stage for Eleanor, and the whole time I'm thinking they'll never guess who it is. I don't think I could Eleanor off at this point or even ever because she's such a vital part to the story as one of the parents. She's even bigger than Lilly, Rufus, Bart. So having her is somethign I intend to do. I wanted to make the breast cancer story believable and realistic, so I wanted the looming possibility of death to always be in the balance because it's not so much of her dying but her realizing that she could and that forces her to reevaluate what she placed as in important in her life wasn't worth it in the end. Appreciating life is key. Eleanor's storyline has allowed the Waldorf storyline as a whole to be a storyline because now you see this family coming together, especially with Blair and Tyler.
The Final Chapters of this story is winding down, so expect the unexpected people and remember everything I write can and could come back. :) Let me know what you think.