"Roger, would you sit down. It might now work this time." Brianna said sitting in the doctors office.
"I know. I'm sorry Brie, I'm just really nervous." he said sitting in the chair next to the examing table and taking her hand.
"Roger, Brianna, I'm sorry. You're not pregnant this time. But that doesn't man we can't try again next month." the doctor said as tears came to Brianna's eyes.
"I'm so sorry Brie." Roger said standing up holding her in his arms.
"That's OK. But I think I'd like to take next month off. You know from the hormone shots. They're killing me." she said wiping her eyes holding back tears.
"Are you sure Baby?" Roger asked looking down at her.
"Yeah, I'm sure. I just need a break, you know. I mean just a month. Then we'll try again the next month." she said trying to smile up at him.
"I'm so sorry Brianna. But you know, it rarely takes the first time." the doctor said looking at her.
"I know. I'm fine, really. Thank you doctor." she said as she and Roger got ready to leave the office.
"I'm really sorry Brie." Roger said putting his arm around her shoulder.
"Roger, do you have my moms address?" she asked looking up at him.
"Yeah, of course I do. Why?" he asked stopping her in the middle of the sidewalk.
"I think I'm ready to talk to her." she said looking up at him.
"Are you sure?" he asked taking her hands in his.
"Yes Roger, I am. I need to face her eventually. I was just afraid to because I didn't want to cause myself any stress trying to get pregnant, but now that I know I'm not, I really need to talk to her." she said looking up at him.
"Are you sure you're calm enough to go?" he asked concerned.
"Roger, I'm as calm as I'm gonna get." she told him smiling at him. "I'm fine Roger, really." she said as he caressed her face.
"OK. Brie, I love you, you know." he said leaning down to kiss her.
"I know Roger. I love you too. We'll get pregnant. You'll see." she said before they continued on to Mrs. McGowan's apartment.
"Are you sure you're ready Baby?" he asked again before they knocked on the door.
"Yeah, I'm ready." she said lifting her fist to knock. As they waited for her to answer the door Roger put his arms around her waist.
"Brianna, I'm so glad you came." she said answering the door.
"Hi mom." she said looking at the older woman.
"Come in, please." she said opening the door wider to invite them in.
"Mom, I wanted to clear the air with you. I wanted to know why you drove Roger away from me and Hope? Why you told him that he would end up a violent prick like his father?" Brianna asked in a hostile tone.
"Brie." Roger said quietly as she looked at her mother.
"No, Roger it's OK. I deserve that." Mrs. McGowan told him looking at her daughter.
"Well mom, do you have an answer or are you just gonna hope me being here and my husband being on your side was gonna make everything all go away?" she asked taking her purse off.
"I'm sorry Brianna. I just wanted what was best for you and Hope and..." she started before Brianna cut her off.
"You do not get to say my daughters name, mom. You gave up that right when you chased her father away and then used me and threw me away like yesterday's trash when you no longer had use for me." she yelled looking at her.
"You're right Brianna. I made a lot of mistakes in my life and yours. But I want to make it up to you. I know it's gonna be impossible to fully make it up to you, Roger and Ho.. your daughter, but I want to try." she said looking at Brianna.
"How mom? How could you possibly make up to me the 9 and half years my daughter and I lived and struggled without the man who loved us in our lives?" she asked looking over at her.
"I don't know Brianna, but I'm gonna try." she told her sitting down on the couch.
"OK, so how are you gonna try?" Brianna asked looking down at her.
"Well for starter, I'm gonna say I'm sorry. I'm truly sorry for all of it. Driving Roger away, turning my back on you for getting pregnant at 16, treating Bethany the way I did. For all of it." she told her quietly looking up at her.
"You have no idea mom." she said looking down at her as tears came to her eyes.
"I'm sorry Brianna. I really am." she told her as Roger wrapped his arms around Brianna.
"So what do you expect now?" she asked looking at her.
"I would like to take things from here and see where they go. I'm not asking you to forgive me, I'm just asking you to let me prove to you that I'm a different person than I was then." she said standing up.
"I'm gonna have to think about it mom. But I guess I can try." she said as her mother approached her.
"Thank you Brianna. I really appreciate that." she said as tears came to her eyes.
"Not yet mom. I'm not ready." she told her moving closer to Roger.
"I understand that." she said looking at her.