Before Reading: Don't read this at work. You know who you are :P
Song: Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy
Character(s): HinataXNaruto
Genre: Angst
Rating: T
Summary: There are some cons to being so in love.
Almost Lover
ほとんど恋人
His hand was in her hair, almost massaging her scalp in its caress. She was draped over him, holding him close to her in his arms. Only it wasn't him. It was her pillow. But it felt like him, if she thought hard enough.
That sting of loneliness in her heart slowly ebbed away under her musing. Her musings of a certain blonde falling in love with her and almost being hers more and more each day. Almost telling her how much he loved her and making her his. Almost holding her until she no longer felt that loneliness. That loneliness that had built over years of going unfulfilled. Sometimes it would spill over and she would be here, on her bed, holding her pillow, pretending it were the love of her life holding her instead.
It had been a while since it'd been this bad. And even in the imaginary warmth of a phantom embrace, she still felt lonely. Lonely in a way that was so much worse than sitting in a corner, crying. Lonely in a way that she felt empty and numbed. Numbed by this lingering emptiness in her heart that only seemed to grow.
A lone tear slipped from the corner of her eye, gliding down her cheek and onto her pillow. Even with her eyebrow slightly pinched in expression, she was hardly aware of it, imagining herself in a better place. Being held by someone whom all she wanted was to call her lover.
Almost wasn't enough for her anymore.
Note: This song came on my iPod right before falling asleep last night and inspired me. I know it's not like my usual stuff, but I hope you enjoy it regardless and don't hate me for the Hinata-angst. I'll still love you, if you do, though.