chapter 21

randy point of view

we have been at the hospital for two hours and we have heard nothing about heaven. i hope she is alright i cant lose her and the girls cant lose her. i cant believe she was at the buttom of the stairs. i cant believe it has been two hours ago when john walk over and told me that something happen to heaven. me and him both went inside and i look down and we saw her and she was not moving but she was still breathing. when we move her a little bit i had put my hand on the back of her head and when we move her. i move my hand and i saw blood on my hand. it was then that i notice there was something seriously wrong and we call the ambulance and we have been here for two hours. i am thankful that kristen and ted are watching the girls because i did not want them to come to the hospital at the moment because i did not want them to be scared. i hope she is ok and if someone push her and i found out about it oh it is not going to be a pretty sight for them. mickie and jeff and cody and both johns with ashley and maria and eve and layla were sitting around. yeah both johns but i do not know if she can forgive him or talk to him maybe i should as well try for her.

after another 30 minutes pass i could not just stand there and do nothing beside pacing back and forth and making my self dizzy and i could not sit down and do nothing. so i head down the hall toward the little church. i am not much of a praying person but this was a special case. i walk toward the front row and get on my knees. i said" i know i have not been here in a while sorry just been kind of busy and i know i have not talk to you in a while but there just this amazing girl who is amazing mother and my best friend i wanted to make her my wife things just get complicated but i need you to bring her back to me and our girls and our friends and our family, i need you to give her strenght make her strong i know i have ask alot everytime i do talk to you but it is always about her or for her i am not being a selfish man she has change me for the best she is my light that reach for me during my darkness.i sigh softly and said' please god if this has to be my last request take me dont take my girl i know the song is dont take the girl but she is my girl and i love her and i care about her" i get up and head back to where everyone was at and everyone was staring at the doctor.

end of randy point of view

the doctor explain to everyone that they had to do a surgery to fix something because of the blood that heaven has lost that they had to do a surgery to fix a hole in her heart that she was born with so it would not cause more problems. almost everyone was surprise to learn that she was born with that condition everyone but for three people. randy, mickie and john just stood there staring at the doctor. the doctor said" the head injury is bad but we wont know how bad until she wakes up" the doctor gets called to the operation room and mickie and randy and john told that everyone should go back to the hotel and that they would call them if something changed. everyone left and mickie went to go get something to eat leaving the boys alone for the first time since heaven was kidnapped by john. john look over at randy who was leaning against the wall and it was almost like the life had been took right out of him. john walk over and said"randy she is going to be fine she is a subborn bullheaded fighter who is going to wake up be in pain but fight through it she has found her way back to you so many times she will do it again" randy nod his head not saying a word since he had the worse situation going around and around in his head. john knew exactly what randy was thinking. john said" randy if she lose her memory or lost it you help her remember once i know you can do it again in alot of ways i hate my self for hurting her and liz, i guess i do not part of me like having two girls but the other part of me could tell the difference between the two and i guess that part of me fall in love with both and did not know how to let either one of them go" randy look up at john and replied" i am afraid when she wakes up she wont know me and she will only know her life with you" randy stops knowing he was fighting trying not to cry and said" i love her, i love miracle and i love alanna they change me in their own little sweet crazy oh my god way and i lost one of them three i do not know what i would do"

two hours past mickie took john to the arena and came back to stay with randy since he was on smackdown he did not have to be there tonight and since mickie and jeff were on tna that did not have to be at their thing until wednesday. mickie comes back to the hospital and see randy out side smoking and she sighs. he only did that when he was really nervous or take a breather. mickie walk over and sat down and thought randy had not even notice her, since it seem like he was in his own world. randy said" she wants me to quit and i try to quit smoking but i cant she is in that room in that condition because of me" mickie gentle rub his back and replied" randy dont blame yourself her being in the hospital bed has nothing to do with you she most have lose her balance between her sore ankle and stuff" randy said" i have a gut feeling she was pushed i do not know why but everything inside of me is screaming she got push and when i found out who push her they will have hell to pay" mickie replied" if it was a girl me and the girls will deal with her or them or whatever" randy nod his head and did not say anything else as he sat there. mickie hope and prayed that heaven pull through and nothing bad would happen. mickie was always thinking who would have wanna this to happen and she came up with a list pretty fast. randy said" it was kelly or one of her friends i told kelly i never prospal and knowing heaven she must have said something to kelly and kelly most have push her or had one of her friends do it, this is my fault." mickie did not know what to say but she knew if heaven woke up and randy was blaming himself that it would make heaven mad and sat that he was doing that and she did not need to be either one of thoses feeling she need to be healing. mickie said" look heaven is suborn bullheaded tough as nails fighter who has three people she deeply cares for now i know she will come back to you and the girls" randy just sigh softly and said" i was going to prospal to her i had it all plan out in my head and then the abortion thing came out and i get mad and scared and upset but i always and will always love her" mickie nod her head and it look like randy has not ate or anything and she know it has only been a few hours but he still look bad. mickie said" get up dont agrue with me and lets go you need food and you need to take care of yourself because you need to be health for her" randy sigh knowing mickie was right but he did not feel like eating but he did get up and stomp out his cigratte and they go back in to the hospital to get food. randy just grab a grilled chicken sandwhich, a bag of chips and water. mickie was going to tell him to eat more but she decide against it. mickie grab some chips and a coke since her and john had grab something to eat when she took john back to the arena. randy ate but it was almost like he was a zombie. mickie said" where are the girls?" randy replied" ted and kristen are watching them, they said they need the pratice plus they were the only two i kind of trust with the girls since miracle acts like she has a crush on all the guys even through she is two and alanna has a little crush on cody and yeah" mickie laughs and said" so i will take it they have no idea that their mommy is in the hospital" randy replied" not yet i mean i did not want to scary them especial after the last time when she get kidnapped so i am going to wait until she wakes up" mickie nod her head and knew that randy was doing the best thing for his children.

two hours later it was eight o'clock mickie turn on raw hopeful to maybe get randy to stop pacing back and forth. she was getting dizzy and she knew that it had to be making him dizzy. mickie said" randy sit down please you are making me dizzy and very annoyed and you walking in circles is not helping anyone she will be fine and when the doctors let us go see her, you will see the fighter you fall in love with." randy sigh and run his hands through his short hair. after six hours of off and on paciing randy sat down and his legs start bouncing up and down. mickie sigh

meanwhile nurses and doctor set heaven up in her room and heaven being a sleep. the doctor made a miracle discovery heaven did have abortion but she still had a child in but it had died because of all of the blood and stuff. after the doctors and nurse check on her and everything was set up. they turn off the lights and walk out of the room and the doctors went to go tell randy and mickie that heaven was in her room. mickie told randy that he can go and that she would just tell everyone what was going on and that they would be back in the morning and randy just nod his head and head toward heaven room that the doctor told him where she was at. randy walk over toward the door and open it but it felt like it weight a ton and he walk in and saw heaven head wrap her in a white cloth and it sent a flash back of her and the car crash. he walk over and held her left hand and said" you know we really have to stop meeting like this that is what u said every day for two weeks when u did not know who i was or who anyone was, you see you have this amazing daughter and little alanna is so crazy about you, i have good news but i think the abortion coming out kind of mess everything up sam signed her rights over and i want you to adopt alanna so we can be a true family" randy did not say another word the flash back was freaken him out.

the next morning randy was a sleep holding my hand. i flick my eyes open and groaned softly the sun was shining in my face and i block it with my hand the best way i could see someone was my hand. i smile when i turn my head and notice it was randy but pain shot through my body when i move my head that i bit on my buttom lip not to scream out in pain. then i sigh softly as i try to remember what happen and why i was in the hospital. i slowly sat up and just look at randy and sigh softly since i was scared he was just there since no one esle was here for me and he was going to go back to barbie. then i heard the door wristle open and turn my head and bit on my buttom lip this was heck moving in general and then i saw it was kelly and felt sick to my stomach. kelly walk over and kiss randy and he wakes up and start kissing her. i open my eyes and look over and realize that it was just a horrible dream at least i hope it was just a horrible dream. randy was still a sleep and i just look up at the ceiling. i did not know if i should be mad at him for the whole kelly thing and him being engaged or believe him. my head was hurting really bad like it hurt remember but i was glad that i did not forgot randy or our kids.

a hour past and a nurse walk in to check on me and randy was still a sleep since i did not have the heart to wake him up. the nurse notice i was up and smile and said" he has never left your side you have one of a kind guy right there" i nod my head and replied " yeah him and our girls mean the world to us" the nurse smile and took my temp and pressure and left the room. randy was the love of my life and i dream every day of him and i get married and him asking me.

thirty minutes later i was still laying there and getting bored but i did notk now how i was going to wake up randy. i sigh and move my hand he was holding and when i move it slowly it was like he jerk a wake like he was having a bad dream or something. randy look over at me and smile and it was the same smile that could make me turn into pool of jello. randy said" hey there beautiful" i could feel my cheeks turning red just on that comment alone. i replied" what happen?" randy said " i was hopping you could tell me, me and john found you at the buttom of the stairs bleeding so what happen" i shug my shoulders because i really could not remember beside me talking to kelly and then everything went blank after that. randy sigh softly and i felt him gentle touching my face and said" baby i love you everything is going to be ok i promise i wont let anyone hurt you i know i have said that before and i know i am the worse" i knew what he was doing and i had to stop him and i lean up and kiss him softly and he seem kind of surprise but he kiss me back and we start making out right there in the hospital room. randy slowly pull away and said" damn i could get use to wake up to that every morning" i giggle and roll my eyes and replied" me to but right now i do not know if i can" he look at me like i was crazy as i sigh softly and said" the ring you give kelly i do not know part of me wants to believe you but the other part of me is not so sure" randy look heart broken and i felt so bad i have give him a reason to have that look twice in the past two days or three and i hated my self for it. he kiss my cheek softly and whisper" i love you, i do not know how esle to say it but i know how i am going to show it, see you baby doll" he walks out of the room leaving me confused and slightly scared of what he was going to do.