Lost Without You Chapter 21: Forgiven, an austin & ally fanfic

-Recap-

We spend almost two hours on the phone. And we finally come up with a song that I'm performing. "Thank you so much Alls!" I could hug her right now, but I obviously can't. "You're welcome Austin. Bye," She says. "B-bye," I say sadly. I hear her hand the phone to Trish, but she doesn't hang up. Knowing Trish, I know she didn't hang up on purpose. "You miss him don't you?" I hear Trish ask. "So much." Ally admits. I can't help but smile. And then, Trish hangs up. Almost a minute later, I get a text.

You heard her. FIX IT. – Trish

After about two hours, I text Trish.

Are you home? –Austin

Yup. What's the plan? – Trish

I know what I have to do. Just get her to come to the concert please. –Austin

Will do. – Trish.

And now, I can finally fall asleep peacefully.

Ally's POV.

Trish convinced me to go to concert. It took about 2 days, but I finally gave in. I have a feeling her and Austin are up to something, but honestly I don't even care anymore right now. I'm so over everything. I don't care anymore.

But of course, I have to write songs. So I used my pain to write a song, and it turned out really great.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in

'Cause I got time while she got freedom

'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even

Her best days were some of my worst

She finally met a man that's gonna put her first

While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping

'Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even... even... no

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason

But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding

'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving

And when a heart breaks no it don't break even, even... no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?

I'm falling to pieces, yeah,

I'm falling to pieces

(One still in love while the other one's leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

('Cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh, you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain

You took your suitcase, I took the blame.

Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, ooh

'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in

'Cause I got time while she got freedom

'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break...

No, it don't break

No, it don't break even, no

What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you?

And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok?

(Oh glad you're okay now)

I'm falling to pieces, yeah

(Oh I'm falling, falling)

I'm falling to pieces,

(One still in love while the other one's leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

('Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even)

Oh, it don't break even no

Oh, it don't break even no (1)

I'm not gonna lie, I do miss Austin. A lot. But I can't just let this go. Although he did say that he told her to leave him alone… I'm not sure whether I should believe him or not. I'm so confused.

Austin's POV.

I'm beyond excited for tonight! Almost 200 people bought tickets for the concert! How awesome is that?! But, I am a bit nervous. Trish promised me she would get Ally to be there, and I have a plan to fix things, I'm really hoping it'll work. I've never been nervous before, I don't know what's wrong. I just miss Ally so much, it hurts.

She was the one I could go to, she was my rock. I couldn't explain in words how much she means to me. I'm really hoping I get to show her how much she means to me tonight. I'm hoping things will be fixed and I have her in my arms again.

But first, I have to get through the rest of the day. It's 5th period and I convinced Trish to come sit next to me so we can talk about the concert, which made Ally come sit next to Trish. She didn't talk though, she just sat there in her hoodie listening to music, but I couldn't take my eyes off of her.

"Okay so Austin," Trish starts. I turn my attention to her, gesturing her to continue. "The concert starts at 6. Do you know all the songs you're gonna play?" She asks. I nod. "I have everything planned" I assure her. "Okay good, you better not mess this up Moon, this could be huge!" She warns. "I know, I know. I'll be good mommy, promise" I mock. She glares at me then rolls her eyes and laughs. I glance at Ally, who's looking at her phone. I see her lips curved into a small smile, and I can tell she's holding back a giggle.

"Alright, we kind of have to be dressed up. Ally, I'll come to your house after school and we can get ready together," Trish tells Ally. She looks up and nods in agreement. "I could record the whole thing and post it online!" Dez exclaims. "That'd be awesome!" I exclaim. We do our 'what-up' handshake. "Okay, so do you know what you're gonna wear?" Trish asks me. I shrug. "I'll figure something out" I reply. She rolls her eyes. "Just don't be late" She puts emphasis on the 'don't'. "Hey, is Austin Moon ever late to anything?" I say confidently. "All the time." Ally, Dez and Trish say in unison. Ally giggles and grabs her songbook and begins writing in it.

"But do we need to dress up a lot a lot, like will I need to wear a dress or skirt or something?" Ally asks Trish. Trish shrugs lightly. "Probably just a skirt and a nice shirt" She says. Ally groans. "But I like my sweats and hoodies!" Ally defends. "Yes, but that's all you've been wearing for last 2 weeks" Trish explains. "Week and a half" Ally mumbles.

"Oh yeah, hey Alls!" I speak up. I see her cringe at the nickname and a ton of guilt hits me. She looks up at me with those big beautiful chocolate brown doe eyes. "Yeah?" She says quietly. "U-um do you have the song lyrics? To the song we worked on over the phone?"I ask. She nods and reaches in her backpack. She pulls out a piece of paper with lyrics on it. She hands it to me and our hands brush against each other, and she quickly pulls away, sighing.

Ally's POV.

I hand him the song and our hands brush against each others. Memories come flooding back. Memories I've been trying to ignore for the past week and a half. It's harder than you think. I quickly pull my hand away. I can't let him think everything's back to normal; I have to keep my guard up.

It's after school now and I'm waiting for Trish to come over. I'm really not sure why she didn't just come over straight after school, but she said she had a meeting with someone. I'm gonna take a wild guess and say that that someone is Austin.

I'm in my room when I hear the doorbell ring. I rush downstairs and open it only to find my beautiful short best friend stand there. "Hey Trish!" I exclaim, bringing her into a hug. "Hey alls!" She hugs back. "Okay it's 4:00. Let's go, no time to lose," She says, bringing herself in and shutting the door. She starts pushing me up the stairs quickly. I giggle, "Okay okay!" She already has her hair and makeup done, so she just needs to get dressed. I sit in front of my mirror, staring at myself. She lays out all of my makeup, which isn't much. She undoes my bun and starts trying to brush my hair, but fails. She hands me the brush in defeat, silently telling me to untangle the mess on my own. "It's not that messy!" I defend.

I begin curling my hair while she goes to my closet to pick out my outfit. "Not too short Trish!" I call out to her. She comes out holding a turquoise strapless dress. I shake my head, "too fancy," She takes one last glance and nods in agreement. After a few more tries she comes out with the last outfit idea. A floral skirt with a turquoise camisole and a jean jacket. I'm applying hairspray to my hair as she comes out. I glance and the outfit and grin. I turn my full attention to her and rush over there. "Perfect!" I squeal.

Austin's POV.

I'm going through the lyrics that Ally handed me, and I think she gave me an extra paper. This song has nothing to do with the song we wrote but it sounds really good.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That's what I was trying to do (2)

I can't help but feel like an idiot. She's really hurt, and I just sat around doing nothing but begging. Now I know for sure I have to do my plan. I took a shower and got dressed. I wore a plain white v-neck shirt with my whistle necklace, ripped jeans, and a leather jacket. I added some colorful shoes to top it all off. I have to have my whistle necklace. It's like my lucky charm.

Dez and I and sitting on my couch flipping through the TV channels. "I'm so pumped dude!" I speak up. "My first concert! And there's gonna be about 200 people!" I exclaim. He looks at me and grins. "I know! Billy bob and I are so excited too!" I raise an eyebrow. "Billy Bob?" I question. He reaches to the side of the couch and pulls out a gingerbread house. He takes out a gingerbread man and shows him to me. "Billy Bob" He points at the cookie. I raise my eyebrows, wondering how that gingerbread house got there. He never came in with one.

I look at the clock. 5:50. "Alright dude let's go!" I grab my car keys and hop in the car with Dez and we drive off to the mall. After we set up and everyone gets there, I begin playing songs. Original songs that Ally wrote of course. Songs like, Here Comes Forever, Loud, Not A Love Song, Better Together etc…

It's time for my plan to be set into action. "Alright guys! Quiet down please!" I tell the audience members. "This is a really special song to me because I wrote it all by myself. It took me almost a month to write this! Usually my partner Ally and I write one in about a week, but this one is all credited to me, and its for a very special person" I look at ally who's backstage, staring at me with shock. The music starts playing and I start singing.

Do you remember when I said I'd always be there?

Ever since we were ten, baby.

When we were out on the playground playing pretend,

I didn't know it back then.

Now I realize you were the only one,

It's never too late to show it.

Grow old together,

Have feelings we had before,

Back when we were so innocent.

I pray for all your love,

girl our love is so unreal,

I just wanna reach and touch you, squeeze you, somebody pinch me.

(I must be dreamin')

This is something like a movie,

And I don't know how it ends girl,

But I fell in love with my best friend,

(I think I'm in love)

I fell in love with my best friend,

(I think I'm in love)

I fell in love with my best friend.

Through all the dude that came by,

And all the nights that you'd cry.

girl, I was there right by your side.

How could I tell you I loved you,

When you were so happy

With some other guy?

Now I realize you were the only one,

It's never too late to show it.

Grow old together,

Have feelings we had before,

When we were so innocent.

I pray for all your love,

girl our love is so unreal,

I just wanna reach and touch you, squeeze you, somebody pinch me.

(I must be dreamin')

This is something like a movie,

And I don't know how it ends girl,

but I fell in love with my best friend.

I know it sounds crazy,

That you'd be my baby.

girl you mean that much to me.

And nothing compares when,

We're lighter than air and

We don't wanna come back down.

And I don't wanna ruin what we have

Love is so unpredictable.

But it's the risk that I'm taking,

Hoping, praying,

You'd fall in love with your best friend.

I pray for all your love,

girl our love is so unreal,

I just wanna reach and touch you, squeeze you, somebody pinch me.

(I must be dreamin')

This is something like a movie,

And I don't know how it ends girl,

but I fell in love with my best friend.

I pray for all your love,

boy our love is so unreal,

I just wanna reach and touch you, squeeze you, somebody pinch me.

(I must be dreamin')

This is something like a movie,

And I don't know how it ends girl,

but I fell in love with my best friend.

I fell in love with my best friend,

I remember when I said I'd always be there,

Ever since we were ten, baby. (3)

i finish and the crowd is going crazy. I gesture Ally to come next to me but she's standing there in shock. Trish and Dez push her and she walks out catiously. I face her. "I have one more surprise," music starts playing again.

Can't blame you for thinking

That you never really knew me at all

I tried to deny you

But nothing ever made me feel so wrong

I thought I was protecting you

From everything that I go through

But I know that we got lost along the way

Here I am with all my heart

I hope you understand

I know I let you down

But I'm never gonna make

That mistake again

You brought me closer

To who I really am

Come take my hand

I want the world to see

What you mean to me

Just know that I'm sorry

I never wanted to make you feel so small

Our story is just beginning

But let the truth break down these walls (oh yeah yeah)

And every time I think of you

I think of how you pushed me through

And show me how much better I could be

Here I am with all my heart

I hope you understand

I know I let you down

But I'm never gonna make

That mistake again

You brought me closer

To who I really am

Come take my hand

I want the world to see

What you mean to me (yeah)

You make me feel like I'm myself

Instead of being someone else

I wanna live that every day

You say what no one else was saying

You know exactly how to get to me

You know it's what I need

It's what I need yeah

Here I am with all my heart

I hope you understand (I hope you understand)

I know I let you down

But I'm never, gonna make that mistake again

You brough me closer

To who i really am

So come take my hand,

I want the world to see what you mean to me ...

What you mean to me... yeahh..

I grab her hand and lock it with mine. "Ally , i know we haven't been best friends since we were 10, but I feel like I've known you all my mean so much to me. I love when we're together , i couldn't be any happier when I'm around you , you're the best. I'm sorry that I hurt you, you know I didn't mean it, and i just feel like a huge -" she cuts me off by putting her finger on my lips. "You should really breathe in between words," She says, getting people in the audience to laugh. I completley forgot they were there. "And second, did you really think that everytime you sing to me I'll just forgive you?" She asks. "Uhm well I-I mean.." I sigh

"Look alls, I just want you to know that I'm really sorry. I never meant to hurt you, it was all a big misunderstanding. I just.. I miss you Alls, alot." We hear people on the crowd 'aww' She smiles and we lock eyes. "Also, i want to-" she cuts me off. "You really need to babble less" She whispers with a giggle. "So do you forgive me?" I ask, hope filled in my eyes. She looks up at me, then her eyes flicker between my eyes and my lips. I take that as my que and we both lean in, connecting our lips together. Right there, at the moment, everything was perfect.

Ally's POV.

He sung the first song we wrote together, ever. Looking back I realize in a way, it was about him. He meant a lot to me, he still does, now more than ever before.

Our lips connected. As cliche as it sounds, I felt sparks, like I had been hit by lightening. My hands automatically went around his neck and his hands wrapped around my waist, pulling me closer. It felt amazing, beyond that, words can't describe it. It didn't matter that hundreds of people were watching us because it felt like we were the only two people in the world right then and there. Everything was perfect. Our lips moving in sync, neither of us wanting to let go.

We heard 'awws' and wolf whistles from the crowd, so we pulled back at the same time, hands still in the same place. "Hey Austin?" I wondered. "Hmm? " he replies. "I'm in love with my best friend too," I say with a shy smile. I lean in and peck his lips once more before pulling him into a hug. We squeezed each other tighter than ever before. Right then and there, being in his arms ...

I knew that's where I belonged...

DONE! Did you like it? I know I used a lot of songs, so instead of saying them one by one, ill just say it in general,

I DON'T OWN ANY OF THE SONGS USED IN THIS CHAPTER(or any chapters)

I DON'T OWN AUSTIN AND ALLY

WHAT'D YOU THINK?! Was it worth the wait? I'd love to know how you guys liked it! Please review!

P.S I think this might be the last chapter. I might do an epilogue or something, but I think this is it! Thank you all for sticking by me and reading this. It means soo much! Thank you all! Love you! -hugs everyone-