Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight.
Warning: This is not beta'd; all mistakes are my own because I'm lazy and spell check only does so much.
I softly closed the door while still facing Kate. I couldn't bring myself to look away from her golden eyes. I'm still not really sure what I want out of this conversation, or even what I want to say, but I do know that we need to talk. After Kate claimed that I'm her mate, I can't stop thinking about it and when I do I can feel my heart swell with happiness. I feel so much happier with her than I ever felt with Edward and Kate is technically still just a friend.
I slowly made my way to the bed, only momentarily hesitating when I almost decided to sit somewhere else, Kate's eyes made me feel so welcomed that I just can't deny the feeling. I sat up against my headboard and faced towards the foot of the bed where Kate mimicked my position and faced me.
"What would you like to talk with me about Bella?" Kate said, giving me a small smile.
"Us." I quickly answered. Kate's grin grew into a full out beaming smile and all nervousness that she had seemed to leave her body. "I don't know what we're doing." I said truthfully before she got a chance to say something.
I don't want her to think that I'm ready to jump into a relationship with her, especially since I'm still technically with Edward. But I think she at least deserves to know that I'm really starting to think about the fact that 'us' can really happen. It almost feels like my heart can't stand the fact that Kate might know there isn't a chance.
Kate's grin didn't fade at all. Even though I sounded confused and really just lost, Kate seemed to know exactly what's going on. It actually almost seems like she's formulating a plan of some sort as we sit here.
"Well Bella, you're falling in love with me and I'm trying my damn best to get in your pants… when you're ready of course." Kate said, smirking now that she got me to blush.
At least she's honest... I opened my mouth to try and argue with her. Not about the part that she's trying to get in my pants, she's never really hidden that, but about the fact that I'm falling in love with her. But as I try to think of words to say, I can't. Well, I can, but it wouldn't be honest and if I want to clear this whole thing up, I have to stay honest. So I closed my mouth and instead focused on making my blush go away.
"What do you think we're doing Bella?" Kate asked curiously.
I almost felt like saying 'Did I not just say that I don't know?'. Luckily I managed to keep my mouth shut and actually think about the question a little bit more. I've obviously already thought about and I wasn't able to get any concrete answers. But every time I thought about it, I was by myself, or at the least not with Kate. Now that Kate is here, my thoughts seem to revolve around her and I have no problem agreeing with her. There's just that small part of me still that says I'm with still with Edward and I thought we were meant to be together. After all Edward and I have been through, it's a little hard to just give that all up and run into Kate's arms… no matter how inviting her arms look.
"I, well, I think I'm falling in love, but… I just, I'm technically with Edward." I eventually said, stumbling over my words.
I mentally cringed at the hurt that crossed her face, but she was quick to hide it again and allowed her confidence to shine.
"That's a technicality that you can fix though Bella." Kate said in a soft voice.
"But –." I started but cut myself off since I don't know what I wanted to say.
I was going to say I can't leave him, but I'm already on my way to doing that. The more I talk with Kate and the more I spend time away from Edward, it's like my feelings for him or slowly dwindling to nothing, but they're still there.
"I don't want to pressure you to do anything you don't want to do, but I'm not going to idly stand by and risk the possibility of you not choosing me Bella. I refuse to allow that to happen. You're on break with Edward, that means you are not tied to him, you can go on dates. You can't be in a relationship, but you can go on dates." Kate said.
Okay, I'm pretty sure she's really pushing the lines of being on break and still being a couple. I'm also pretty sure that I have no problem with her doing that; I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.
"Does that mean I get to go on a date with your sister?" I asked, not able to resist lightening the mood a little and also slightly annoying Kate.
Instead of annoying her though, she narrowed her eyes. I think I just found out what a jealous Kate looks like and I really like it.
"They don't like you like that." Kate quickly said, clearly trying to squash my fake feelings for one of her sisters. "I however, have no problem taking you on a date." Kate said, her eyes showing her excitement of the possibility of going on a date with me.
"I would love to go on a date with you, only you." I said, adding the last part to try and convey that I didn't mean what I said early. Her eyes only narrowed slightly and I can't help but think that I may have just gotten Kate slightly mad at her sisters, even though her sisters didn't do anything.
I was so focused on trying to calm Kate's jealousy that I didn't even realize that I unintentionally told her that I don't want to go on a date with Edward, only her. I just can't see myself going on a date with him anymore. I realized what I said a little too late to avoid saying it, but I won't bring any attention to it anyways.
"Good; I only want to go on dates with just you as well." Kate said with a smirk, making me think that she did in fact catch on to what I said. "Why don't we go on a date tomorrow? A real date; not one that I tricked you into going on, even it was fun to do." Kate said with a smile.
After speaking with Jacob and doing some more thinking about it on my own, I can't but find it a little sweet that Kate actually did that. She has warned me that she's willing to do what it takes to get me to fall in love with her… or as she says, get in my pants. Plus, I just know that if I really didn't want to go, she wouldn't have forced me to go.
"I would like that." I admitted, getting a little excited about going on a date with Kate and actually fully wanting to go.
Kate beamed at my answer and without warning and too fast for me to react; she gave me a quick peck on my lips. Even though it was quick, I could feel tingles lingering from where her lips had met mine. If it wasn't the fact that Kate was still here, now sitting a lot closer to me, I would have traced my lips with my fingers. But I don't think Kate could pass up teasing me if I did that in front of her.
"I would like that as well. As much as I would like to stay here and just talk with you and ease your worries about us; I think I should let you get some sleep. I'm willing to bet a lot that Alice will be here as early as possible to help you get ready for tomorrow and I know you know that that means she'll be here early." Kate said, amusement written all over her face.
I haven't known Alice as long as Kate has, but if I know that Alice will drag me to a store to find the 'perfect outfit'. Then I know for a fact Kate knows that also. Too bad Alice can't drag Kate to the store and I can just wear what's in my closet already.
"Oh joy." I said sarcastically, not bothering to hide the annoyed look on my face.
Kate chuckled at me while she climbed off my bed and at the same time she seemed to get closer to me. I know she's making her way to leave like she said, but a part of me doesn't want her to.
"You know Bella; I heard once that you couldn't sleep without Edward cuddled next to you." Kate said with a thoughtful expression on her face.
"Yeah, I couldn't." I admitted, my face getting slightly red from embarrassment.
"I would hate to have you lose out on valuable sleep. Though, I don't want Edward anywhere near you." Kate said with a slight growl. I really like a jealous Kate, it's cute. "I wouldn't mind sacrificing my night to stay here with you to make sure you sleep." Kate said with an overly innocent voice.
"I don't know Kate, I would hate to take you away from any plans you may have had." I said with a shy smile.
There's no way that I'll turn down Kate's offer. It's true that I've grown used to sleeping next to a cold body and I actually usually sleep better when I do. If Kate is offering to hold me while I sleep, there's no way I can decline that offer.
"Well, the only plans I had for tonight was to think of ways that we will eventually have sex and where some of the more inappropriate places we could have sex are that would annoy Tanya. If anything, I can picture it better with you in my arms… although, instead of just picturing it, we could always practice." Kate said with a smirk.
My face went red, naturally, at what she said. I don't even want to know what she has in mind for us. Is it weird that I'm not concerned about us having sex; I'm only concerned about where we might end up having it?
"I uh, I think that I will just go sleep then." I said as I stood up; which was harder than I thought since Kate had somehow managed to get close enough to me that I had no choice but to brush against her as I got up.
"Would you like to sleep with me?" Kate asked with her innocent face back on.
Of course I know she meant nothing by it, but I also know that she meant it to sound like there was a sexual meaning to her words.
Deciding to get back at Kate for teasing me so much tonight, not that it's different from any other night or that I actually mind, I grabbed a pair of pajamas and then invaded her personal space. I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled us together, Kate was all too willing to let me pull her to me. I brought my face as close as possible to hers without actually touching. I could just barely feel her lips start ghost against mine. Right as she started to kiss, I started speaking, breaking off her kiss, but keeping her in a trance because of our closeness.
"I would love to sleep with you tonight; I'm just worried about how long I'll last." I said, being vague so that she doesn't know what I really mean. Because I was vague though, I know her head will go in the gutter.
I slowly started pulling us backwards, closer to my door, as Kate answered me.
"I wouldn't worry about that, practice makes perfect after all." Kate said, her eyes slowly getting darker and completely focused on my lips.
"You're right, the sooner I practice the better I get. Right?" I asked in a slow and low voice.
I moved from in front of her face to the side of her face. I allowed my lips to just barely brush against her ear as I spoke.
"Of course, we should start now." Kate said, her voice making her sound very eager.
I abruptly pulled away from Kate with a huge grin on my face and put my hand on the door handle that was now just in reach.
"Perfect, then I'll go get in my pajamas so that I can get some sleep and work on getting used to sleeping next to you and not Edward." I said with a smile on my face.
Kate looked so deflated that I couldn't help but lean in and give her a quick kiss on her cheek before I opened my door to leave and get changed. Before I closed the door behind me, I could barely hear Kate mutter something along the lines of 'I can't believe she got me back'.
I changed as quickly as I could and made my way back into my room. Kate was already lying in bed and normally I wouldn't have cared, that was what we agreed to anyways. What had my stop in my door way (thankfully by this time Charlie was already in bed) was that Kate decided that she would get into her version of pajamas as well. I say her version because she didn't get any from me; instead she took off everything except her bra and underwear. She also must have felt it was necessary to leave herself completely uncovered as she lay on my bed staring at my ceiling.
My eyes took in every detail they could see about Kate. My eyes skipped over the smug look on her face and instead moved down her body to the swell of her breasts; they are perfect. It took an immense amount of will power to make my eyes move again. Her stomach, even though I had already known that she would be in shape since she is a vampire, I still felt myself become amazed at how toned she is. I felt my fingers itching to explore her stomachs surface. My eyes continued even lower on her body and stopped at the one part of her that has always remaining completely hidden from me. Even her breasts have offered me a preview of what she has, but this area, the area that I had never thought I would ever like, held all of my attention. I couldn't help but imagine what it would feel like if I was there…
"Do you normally just stand in your door way before you go to sleep?" Kate asked, sounding both amused and turned on at the same time.
It was her voice that brought me back to reality. It was her voice that had also brought attention to what I was doing and made my face go red. I immediately tore my eyes away from her body and proceeded to finish getting ready for bed.
I successfully avoided staring at her the whole time it took me to finally crawl into bed next to her. Because of my embarrassment, not only did not even bother answering her, but I also avoiding touching her. I'll admit that I as I crawled into bed, I was actually a little afraid of what my treacherous brain would start to think of if I had the chance to actually touch her without most of her clothes on. So to avoid the temptation of staring at her instead of sleeping, I turned on my side facing away from her.
I turned the light off just as Kate pulled the covers over both of us. Normally Edward would lay on top of the covers, claiming that he didn't want the cold of his body to keep me awake or to even get me sick. I'm very glad that Kate isn't like that, because I personally feel the whole point of staying in someone's bed (when not having sex) is to cuddle, right? I would do that now with Kate, but with Kate's current state of undress, I don't trust my mind at the moment.
Kate had other ideas though… like always.
"Good idea Bella, I would love to spoon you." Kate said.
As she talked she pulled our bodies together and she wrapped her arms around me. I could feel Kate's practically naked and utterly perfect body press into mine. I wonder if I told her that the shivers racking my spine were from her being cold, if she would believe me or not… I don't think I could even pretend to believe me.
This has got to be pay back from what I did earlier. This is such a sweet, torturous pay back that I can't even be mad at the fact that I know I won't fall asleep for a while with her right behind me.
"Goodnight Bella, I hope you dream fun dreams about me." Kate said.
My face got even redder when I realized what she said and actually meant. I just realized that Kate knows about me sleep talking. I have a feeling that not only is this going to be a long night, but when I wake up tomorrow, Kate will have some interesting words for me.