I let out a deep breath as I paced back and forth outside of the Cullen family home my stomach a bundle of nerves as I waited on Paul's return from the meeting with Sam's pack. Continuing to pace I felt on edge, not just because I was worried about Paul and the rest of my friends but because I had come to a decision.
A decision I knew Paul would help and support me with, but either way I knew it would change everything and even though I knew there was no more putting it off, I was still scared about what the fall out might be to the questions I needed answers too.
I was brought out of my self debate when a sudden pair of arms wrapped around from behind me, making me jump slightly making me stop in place from my back and forth movement.
Looking up I couldn't help but smile, seeing who it was "Paul" I mumbled in complete relief, wrapping my arms around him in a quick hug before pulling away giving him a quick once over to make sure he wasn't injured.
"Hey, it's alright, I'm okay" Paul said, but I only stopped to give him a quick glance before continuing with my check over, you can never be to careful especially were a stubborn wolf is concerned.
Finally satisfied that he wasn't injured and knowing he was safe I felt myself relax as I looked up at the smiling werewolf before me. Moving forward I quickly embraced him feeling the tension in my muscles melt away with his strong arms embracing me.
"I know but I'm just glad your okay and back in one piece" I said, and I felt Paul's chuckle rumble in his chest.
"I'd think you'd have just a little more faith in me" Paul said, rolling my eyes I playfully shoved his shoulder causing his smile to grow and I let out a light laugh before being silenced by his lips on mine.
Smiling I wrapped my arms around Paul's neck deepening the kiss, I felt my eyes flutter close and I felt myself surrendering over to him… completely at his mercy. I tried not to moan when I felt his tongue brush against my bottom lip asking for access.
I was about to comply when we were suddenly interrupted by a set of footsteps and a low suggestive whistle causing us to break apart. I let out a soft laugh while Paul let out an irritated growl.
I rolled my eyes looking past Paul only to be met with Seth's goofy grin and Leah's tight-lipped expression as she huffed at her brother before giving him a smack across the back of his head, I bit my lip trying not to smile at the two.
"Alright, alright enough of that!" I heard Leah groan as Jacob made his way over toward Paul and I "Sorry Tales, I need to borrow lover boy over here" Jacob said clapping a hand on Paul's shoulder.
"Need to plan out some strategies with the vamps" Jacob said, and I tried not to sigh, so much for getting the chance at spending some time with Paul.
I knew it was a selfish thought with everything going on, but Paul and I had hardly seemed to see one another anymore. Plus, I really needed to talk with Paul and truthfully, I didn't know the next time I'd get the chance too or even re-gain enough nerve to start the conversation.
A conversation I knew once I started, I wouldn't be able to return from, no coming back from…
"Let them go Jacob" I heard Edward's voice sound from behind causing me to jump, I hadn't even heard the vampire approaching.
Glancing over my shoulder I saw Edward and Jacob glaring at the other, seemingly having a silent conversation or in any case involving those two an argument which… Edward seemed to have won.
Sighing Jacob let out a huff before finally relenting, allowing Paul and I some alone time while he and Seth went ahead with the meeting with Carlisle.
Leaving Leah to patrol the grounds and with that news given everyone went their separate ways.
Smiling I gave Edward a slight nod, silently thanking him to which he just gave a slight nod before leaving to check on Bella leaving just Paul and me.
Taking a minute to clear my thoughts I paced back and forth along the forest's edge just trying to find the right words as Paul sat wordlessly on a nearby log watching me with a worried expression. I shook my head trying to even figure out were to begin but coming up empty.
Why is this so hard? I thought rubbing my temples "Talia" I hear Paul say and I looked up to see the worry and concern in his eyes.
Okay Talia you can do this "I…I've been thinking a lot about… well everything and I just… I can't pretend anymore and- "
"Talia!" Paul's voice broke me out of my mindless rambling "Breathe" he demanded slowly resting his hands on my shoulders to stop me from pacing and I complied closing my eyes taking in a breath.
After a few seconds of taking in some fresh air I felt better, slowly opening my eyes I was meet with Paul's weary expression "Better?" he asked, and I sighed nodding.
"Yeah" I mumbled following Paul as he took my hand and sat us down on the log, relaxing as he took my hand in his large one "Slow down and start at the beginning" he said, and I sighed.
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Biting my lip, I raised my hand to knock on the door before freezing, maybe this wasn't such a good idea. Taking a pause, I debated on what to do next when I suddenly felt a hand come, resting on my lower back reminding me that I wasn't alone.
I admittedly felt calmer my nerves fading away as I looked over at Paul his presence grounding me, "Are you sure you want to be here for… this?" I asked hesitantly "I don't know what my mom will even say… and for all I know I'm not human…"
Paul just shushed me "I'm here with you Talia through all of this" he said "It doesn't matter what happens next it doesn't change" he said, and I couldn't help but smile lightly.
"Even if it turns out I'm not human?" I asked slowly "Because I understand -… "I was cut off by Paul's lips on mine. Smiling I kissed him back wrapping my arms around his neck before sighing as we pulled away.
"You do know I turn into a wolf, right?" he questioned raising an eyebrow and I chuckled nodding "So I'm not human and it doesn't matter to you" he said.
"I love you and I'm going to be by your side no matter what" he said, and I felt tears come to my eyes, knowing that I had Paul by my side and that he loved me no matter what gave me the strength I needed moving forward.
Raising my hand, I didn't even hesitant as I knocked on the door.