'You're what?' I ask her surprised. I reach out to hold on to her but she steps away.
'I am breaking up with you Dimitri.' She says and I feel my heart breaking with her words. She can't be. She was happy earlier when we were in my office with Ivan. She was in love with me back then so what happened that made her do this?
'You can't leave me.' I tell her, beg her almost. I almost want to drop to my knees to beg her. Do everything to keep her from leaving me.
'I can and I will.' She says and I can see the unshed tears in her eyes. She wraps her arms around herself as she takes another step back. Another step further away from me.
'Why?' I ask her. Wanting to say so much more. Why are you breaking my heart? Why can't you stay? What can I do to change your mind?
'You changed me Dimitri.' She whispers but I can tell that it isn't the reason why she is leaving me. Yes I can tell that it scares her that she is changing but it isn't the only reason. It isn't her reason for breaking my heart. For breaking both of our hearts.
'Please talk to me.' I beg her this time and take a step closer. But with every step that I take she steps one back and shakes her head no. She doesn't want me to come closer. She doesn't want me anymore.
'There is no point in talking anymore.' She says before she walks past me into the bedroom. I feel hot tears in my eyes as I turn and walk after her. Only to see her open the closet. She is packing.
'Why won't you talk to me Roza? I deserve more of an explanation.' I say with my voice rising. Anger building inside of me to hide the hurt that is forming in my heart. She spins around and walks towards me until she is only an inch away.
'You didn't talk to me Dimitri. You never talked to me. You only did what you thought was right without informing me of your actions. It was only you and it will always be only you when I just want to be me.' she says and it doesn't make sense at all.
'I don't understand it Roza.' I say and try to take her hands into mine. But she slaps them away before taking a step backwards again.
'Does the name Victor Dashkov say anything to you?' She says and I close my eyes for a moment. Of course that name rings a bell. He is the guy that hit her and I let him disappear by calling Abe. When I open my eyes again she is back to packing a bag.
'Please Roza. I can explain.' I say and step closer to her holding my hands up. One look of her makes me freeze immediately.
'Sure you can. But I never asked you to do that for me, didn't I?' she says, her voice cold as ice. And it is the first time that it makes me feel fear when I am around her.
'I wanted you to be safe.' I tell her. Even then. Even when I was just a client of her I wanted her to be safe and I guess that I wanted her to be mine from the beginning. And now when I got her I am losing her for my own actions.
'You wanted control.' She says and it makes me snap. I grab the back out of her hand and fling it across the room. The clothes and stuff she already packed flying around and falling to the floor. But I have only eyes for her. I take a step closer to her.
'You can tell me why you are acting like this or I will make sure that you regret it.' I say to her, my voice so low it is almost a growl. She blinks before I see a devilish look appearing on her face.
'You will make me regret it? What are you going to do then Dimitri. You are going to hit me? Well, do it.' she says before stepping even closer. I raise my hand but not to hit her. I tangle my fingers in her hair and pull her closer, smashing my lips to hers in a hard kiss.
I feel the sharp pain of her teeth in my lip until I can taste blood. And I push away with so much force that she falls to the ground. I bring my hand to my lip while cursing loudly. There is blood on my fingers as I look at them.
Roza is looking at me from her position on the ground with her hand pressed against the back of her head. I can't figure out what her expression means but it isn't a good one. I take a step closer because I want to know that she is alright. Wanting to know that I didn't hurt her. But she crawls back before standing up and fleeing into the bathroom.
The door falls closed and I know that she locked it but it doesn't stop me from trying. I kick and scream at the door but it doesn't open. She doesn't make a sound either and it frightens me. When I finally stop with the kicking and screaming my breath is labored.
And I rest my head and hands to the door. Finally releasing the tears that fall from my face to the floor. And I let myself fall to the floor on my knees and bang my head against the door. Regretting the fight but I don't want to lose her. I can't lose her.
'Roza please.' I beg her through the door. And it is then that I hear a sob coming from the other side. Breaking my heart even more.
I sit there against the bathroom door for what feels like hours when the doorbell rings. I groan and smash my head against the door. It is the middle of the night. I am so not opening that door. Whoever is standing there can come back at a normal time.
But when the ringing and knocking continues I sigh loudly before standing up and walking to the door. Irritation and anger fills my body when I come closer and closer to the door. I don't want anyone near the apartment tonight. I want to finish this conversation and talk things out with Roza.
When I swing the door open and are almost ready to scream at the person at the other door I see two people I never expected to see. There are two police officers standing in front of me. I look at them before recognizing them. They are the same two people that were in Roza's apartment.
'We got a phone call.' The one with red hair says. I don't remember his name. And for a moment I am staring at them dumbfounded. A phone call? But I didn't call anyone.
'Yes. I called you.' Roza's voice comes from behind me and I spin around. She looks absolutely terrible. Her hair is a mess, her eyes are red rimmed and there are black mascara stripes over her cheeks. She is still in the dark blue dress she wore to the fundraiser.
'You called the cops?' I ask her while I raise my brow at her. She nods but she doesn't look at me. Why did she called them? We could've figured this out on our own. But now that she has called them there is no return from this and I know that she will be leaving tonight. A couple swear words leave my mouth before I can stop them.
'Did he hurt you miss?' the other cop asks and I almost want to lose my patient on him. Hurt her? I would never hurt her. I turn around to glare at him but Roza stops me from doing something stupid.
'He didn't. I just want to pack my things and get out of here but he is stopping me from doing that.' She explains and steps forward. She is now standing beside me and her eyes meet mine for the first time since she has left the bathroom. I see the hurt and her heartbreak in her eyes and I know that the same thing is readable in my eyes.
'Alright. Castile go with the lady.' The officer with the red hair says and officer Castile nods and he follow Roza. I want to follow them but red hair stops me with a hand on my shoulder and a shake of his head.
'Give them a little time.' He says and stirs me to the couch. I don't like it for a single bit that they are ordering me around in my own apartment. I feel my hands going into fists and I clench my jaw holding my from saying stupid things.
'What happened?' he suddenly asks and I raise my eyes up to him. He has himself positioned in one of my chairs and he looks around.
'None of your business.' I answer him and he laughs while shaking his head. I stand up abruptly and leave him sitting there while I walk into my bedroom. I am not going to let them tell me what I can and can't do in my own house.
Roza is packing her stuff into a large bag and is talking with officer Castile in a hushed tone. I sit down on the bed next to her bag and she freezes. Her eyes meeting mine in a silent pleading. She is pleading me not to stop her.
'Why did you called them?' I ask her and nodding to both of the cops. One is standing next to her and the other is leaning against the door. 'You know that I would never hurt you.' Suddenly hoping that she would know that.
'I wasn't afraid you would hurt me Dimitri.' She says and only that she says my name instead of her ridiculous nickname makes my heart hurt even more. 'I was afraid that I would hurt you.'
Her words make me look away from her. It breaks me that she was afraid of hurting her. And I know that it is only because I somehow pushed her enough to make her lose it all. She goes back to packing her stuff and I know that she is almost done.
'Are you going to tell me why?' I ask her and she stops to look at me.
'Why what?' she asks me back. She puts her last clothes in the bag and closes it.
'Why you are leaving me.' I say and she sighs loudly before she places the bag on the ground so she can sit next to me.
'Could you leave us alone for a moment?' she asks the officers. They share a look before looking my way. I guess since Roza told them that she was afraid that she would hurt me that they want my opinion. I nod at them and they leave us alone.
'I am sorry for calling them.' She says as she turns to look at me. I shake my head and laugh.
'I don't think I would've let you go otherwise.' I say to her and she nods. She knows that I am telling her the truth. Because if she wouldn't have called them I would've done everything that would come up to let her stay here.
'I found out earlier today that my school was already paid for Dimitri. And there is only one person I could think off who has the money and wanted to do that. But you had promised me that you wouldn't do that. And I wanted to talk to you about it.' she says and I look up surprised. I have made my mistakes and I know that. But paying for her school isn't one of them.
'I didn't do that Roza.' I tell her but she shakes her head and hold her hand up.
'You can stop lying.' She says and I want to argue with her but one look of her makes me stop talking.
'Then later tonight I found out that you were behind the fact that Victor Dashkov stopped following me. And I was wondering about that fact for a while because he had been following and sending me messages for years now and suddenly he stopped.' She says and chuckles darkly.
'I wanted you safe.' I tell her but I know that it won't make any difference.
'And then if that wasn't enough I found out that you and Ivan were behind the fact that I don't have an apartment anymore. And I felt so stupid you know. You have been busy with that project for such a long time and those folders and information were scattered all around your apartment for the same amount of time. And I never looked through it.' she says and she shakes her head.
'I am so sorry.' I say to her but I know that there won't be a thing I can say to stop her from leaving.
'You could've told me Dimitri. You could have been honest with me and tell me what you were doing. But no you had to keep it all a secret for me and now see where that got you.' She says with and lets out a tired sigh.
I wished I would have done things differently. Told her about those things before I let it all end up here. But I also know that somehow her running instincts would pop up again. She could stay here and talk things out with me. Make things better.
But everything inside of her is telling her that she needs to go. And I know that I can't do anything about that instinct of hers. The only thing I can do is letting her go and hoping that she will return to me. But I don't know if I could welcome her back when she leaves.
'I made my mistakes Roza. But can't we talk it out? Stay here and we can make things better.' I beg her but she shakes her head and stands up. She stands before me and cups my cheeks in her hand. I hold my breath at the feeling of her skin against mine.
'Sometimes it can't be fixed.' She says and I know that we both know that she is lying.
'You can't come back when you walk out of that door.' I tell her and bore my eyes in her. I want to give her a way back into my life. But this is the second time that she is breaking my heart and I can't handle it when she would do it a third time.
'I know.' she whispers. Her voice so soft that it almost inaudible.
'You need anything?' I ask her. Thinking about money or a place to sleep. Knowing that it will keep me up at night, not knowing where she is going to be. But she shakes her head and leans forward. Her lips meeting mine for a soft kiss. I place my hands on her hips and cling to her. She pulls back and I know that she is leaving but I don't open my eyes to see her walking away.
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