A Day in the Life of Bella Black Part 3

It took all I had to pull away from those delicious lips and from the fantasies and memories swirling through my mind; the hundreds of time we had kissed, in my bedroom, the meadow, each time my body would yearn for a deeper touch, a longer kiss. His scent caused my head to swim, I could almost taste his breath on my tongue. I pressed myself against the back of my chair trying to distance myself as much as possible. He just sat there; a smile on his lips as he leaned over the table waiting for me to take the plunge.

The smile remained even as I shook my head to not only clear my thoughts but to also answer his unspoken question. No matter how much I still loved him I would not betray my Jacob, if I had wanted to be with Edward I would have stayed with him. We had our time together, one of the best times in my life and now I was married to the real love of my life. "Edward this was wrong. We made a decision years ago and we should have stuck to it. I'm sorry that I may have hurt you and yes I still love you but it was not meant to be." A lone tear ran down my cheek and before my hand could even unclamp from the table's edge, his thumb wiped it away and brushed the hair from my face.

"I did not come to make you walk away from all you have built with Jacob. I simply came to see if you were happy; and you are. This is what I always wanted for you, to be human and happy; although you would have made an fascinating immortal." I saw the flash of pain in his eyes for only a moment. I knew he was thinking of the images Alice had seen years ago, a future I had nearly died for time and time again. "I am glad that Jacob gave you the life I never could have."

My eyes left his face for a moment as I pondered what kind of life we would have had if I stayed with him. The phrase together forever would have actually been true, there would never have been children or the usual growing old together but I would have been with Edward forever. My lower lip quivered and my breath caught in my chest as his eyes flashed to me. "Sorry I just started thinking about what would have been." To my surprise he chuckled and stroked my hand, his own way of saying that he had been doing the same for many years. "Forever at eighteen would have been a wonderful thing but I know I made the right decision. I'm sorry that I had to ruin the first dreams you ever had."

I jumped at the sudden fierceness in his expression; what had I said to make him this angry? His knuckles went bone white as he crushed his hands into fists on the table surface. It took him several minutes to ease his temper before his still sharp eyes flashed to me. "You have ruined nothing Bella, you gave me the ability to dream and nothing you have done will make it stop. You will always be my first and only love, you still own my heart and if you ever wanted to give your heart back to me, I would gladly take it. Wrinkles and all."

He fought a laugh as I glared at him. I did not have that many wrinkles, I still saw the beauty of my youth. I continued to glare until his bemused appearance soften my stance and I could not help but to smile. After that, we slipped back into almost how we used to be, minus the unquenchable lust. This meeting ended up being a smart idea because now we knew we would be able to be friends, even after a torrid love affair. I felt as if a peace had finally been reached. Now we arranged a new agreement, we would stay in contact; phone calls, letters, e-mails the idea of in person meetings again were not set in stone. I would have to speak to Jacob about that aspect and I knew it would not be an easy decision.

"I'm sorry this could not have lasted longer but I know you have to pick up your children. I do hope I may be able to meet them one day, if Jacob can stand to be near me without wanting to rip off my face." We shared a laugh but I added an eye roll; Jacob was nothing like his superstitious teenage self, as much. He still hated if Edward's family was brought up but learned to accept that they would always be in some form, connected to me.

I drove home with a smile on my face knowing that I had all important pieces of my life finally together and perfect.