MY WARNING STANDS! This chapter will start to show some of the changes with in B and E! Thanks for sticking with this story!

EPOV

This was going to be the first game that I got to play in. I was so excited that I was up before Bella was, and that didn't happen often. I was showered and ready to go by eight, the game didn't even start till two in the afternoon. I told Bella last night that she wasn't going to be grounded all weekend. I thought that one day was long enough and after her freak out yesterday, I wanted her to have a good time.

This was all new to the both of us. After talking with her and Carlisle, I did realize how much we depended on each other. I liked her having to need me as I needed her. I didn't think anyone would ever really understand the way we were with each other, but I was okay with that. I didn't have the need to explain our relationship to every person that we meet.

When I was done getting ready I sat at the computer and Goggled James. I wanted to know what was going on with him, but I found nothing new. I heard a soft knock at the door, I looked to see if it woke Bella, but she was still out. I opened the door to see Emmett there looking like he just woke up himself.

"What's up?" I asked shutting the door, but not clicking it shut.

"Is Bella making breakfast, because I'm hungry, but I'll wait if she is," he said rubbing his stomach.

"Nah, man, she's still sleeping."

"Okay, I just wanted to make sure. You ready for today?" he asked with a smile.

"I'm so excited," I said with a huge smile of my own.

"You wanna come down and grab something to eat with me?" Emmett asked looking hopeful.

"I'm going to wait for Bella," I told him.

He gave me a smile and nod, but he looked sad. I didn't get it, but then again I didn't care. I went back to the computer and searched some more. I knew there had to be something to let me know how he was doing. I got frustrated reading the same things over and over, I was getting nowhere. I looked back to the bed and Bella was still sound asleep. I thought for sure she was going to sleep all day. This was something she was never really allowed, and I knew she needed sleep, so I just let her be. I waited till almost ten, and I couldn't stand the hunger pains in my stomach. I left the room trying my best not to make any noise, it worked because I couldn't hear any movement. As I made it to the kitchen Esme was there asking me what I would like to eat. I just had a bowl of sugared cereal, which I hadn't had in years. Bella has always made breakfast, dinner, and lunch on the weekends. I was eating when Carlisle walked in and I went against my better judgment and asked about James.

"Have you heard anything about James?" I asked him as he stared at me.

"I have, what do you want to know?" he asked me. I really wasn't expecting him to say that. I didn't know if they would want us knowing anything.

"I don't know; anything I guess. How is he?" I asked as Carlisle sat next to me.

"He is being considered a flight risk, so he is in jail until the trial."

"What is he being charged with?"

"A lot of things. As of right now, he is looking at five years, for statutory rape, eight years for fraud, then five more total between, child abuse and endangering the welfare of children. One day this coming week there will be lawyers in and out of here along with Emily," he told me.

"Hmm, the state of Washington is a little screwy in itself," I said as he agreed with me. "Why do they need Bella, if they have all this planned out?"

"Well, he is pleading not guilty to all charges. This is going to trial. They tried to give him a plea deal, but he wouldn't take it. They even used you kids as a barging chip, but he said that neither one of you would speak out against him. He thinks that he will get less time if this goes to trial," Carlisle said.

"I told Bella that I want her to do this. I know we always said that we would never talk out about him, but I think this is the right thing to do," I told him not making eye contact. "She's mad at me for it. She feels like I'm throwing her under the bus."

"You could always do your part," he said to me. "Write a letter stating how you feel and what had happened in the Hunter house. That will help and some pressure will be lifted off of Bella," he said as I looked at my hands.

"I know, I'm a shitty person, but I can't do that. Don't ask me to explain it 'cause I can't. I can be there, right? During the trial?" I asked.

"Yeah, you, Bella, Esme, and I will all be there. Chief Swan will watch out for Emmett and Alice. As of right now the trial will be a week long," he told me as I nodded my head.

"I know this is selfish, but will it be after football is over?"

"Right after. Your last game in on a Saturday and we will leave Sunday for Seattle," he said as I heard someone running down the stairs.

"What the fuck! Why did you let me sleep so late?!" Bella said standing in the kitchen in one of James' t-shirts. The shirt went to her knees, but I still didn't like her walking around the house like that.

"Get back upstairs," I said looking at her bare legs.

"Why didn't you wake me up? What did you eat for breakfast? Cereal? You know you aren't allowed to eat that!" she said taking my empty bowl away.

"Bella, get upstairs. I will be up in a few minutes," I said getting angry. She just wasn't listening to me.

"Why? I have wasted half of the day," she said throwing her arms up in the air. Her movement raised the shirt up he thighs. I had forgotten that Carlisle was there and I reached across the counter and twisted the collar of her shirt in my hand. I felt a large hand clamp over my wrist and halted my movement.

"Let go of her, Edward," he said in a calm voice.

"Go. Put. Pants. On," I said letting go of her. Her faced paled as she realized what I was so pissed over. I knew she would be upset that I let her sleep, but she needed it. She was starting to look like death, and I couldn't stand it. He eyes were starting to sink into her head, she had bags and dark circles under her eyes.

"I'm sorry," she whispered as she ran from the room.

"Do you grab her like that often?" Carlisle asked with anger written on his face. I didn't say anything to him, I just left the room. I headed up the stairs skipping every other step. I found Bella sitting on the edge of the bed with pants on, and her head in her hands.

"Corner," I said to her as she went without a word. I banged the bathroom door as I was in and out just to scare her. I was madder at myself than I was at her. How could I let myself grab her in front of that fucking shrink!

"You're welcome by the way. I thought I was doing you a favor by letting you sleep, but I guess that will never happen again," I said. I purposely hit her shoulder with mine as I walked past her, and then flung my hand back which cracked her in the ass. Of course, she didn't say anything, she knew better. "You are not ruining today for me. You can get out of the corner now."

"I'm sorry, I didn't even realize that I had no pants on," she said softly.

"I know, but did you not see Carlisle standing there?"

"I really didn't. I am so sorry. Can I please still go to your game?" she asked in an almost begging tone.

"Of course, neither one of us should go after this morning," I said shaking my head.

"You did nothing wrong."

"Yes I did. One, I went downstairs knowing you were going to wake up and freak out. Two, I grabbed a hold of you in from of him," I told her.

"So?"

"Babe, you just don't get it. What did James do to you?" I asked as she stared at me.

"He did the same thing to me as he did to you," she said shaking her head. "What has gotten into you? I feel like I don't even know who you are anymore," she said as she walked away from me.

She was right, what was wrong with me? I was now one of those people that took a mile when they were given an inch. I was starting to like living with the Cullen's more and more every day, and that scared me. I should be like Bella, and Bella should be like me. Why was it easier for me to let go of James than it was for her? I know she felt that she owes him her life, but I helped with all that as well. She was giving James too much credit and it was starting to piss me off. I knew that I would be able to take my aggression out on the field, and then I would talk to Bella about it. I knew right now, that I would blow up on her. Did she forget all the times that I calmed James down before he got his hands on her? I don't think she will ever know how I protected her from James. Bella's innocence may have been taking from her, but she was still innocent to me. James wanted to push her into sex as soon as he saw her; I was the one that was able to talk him out of it. As sick as it may sound, I was very lucky to get him to wait until she was thirteen. That was another conversation that would haunt me for the rest of my life...

James and I were lying in his bed after being with one another. I loved him, there was no denying it. I knew he had wanted Bella to join us, but she just wasn't ready. I was able to get into her panties and when I told James, he saw that as she was ready. I told him how she cried and felt dirty, but he said that she would get over that.

"I want you to have sex with her by this weekend. She trusts you. Just get her to get her clothes off, start to eat her out; I bet she taste amazing," he said licking his lips. "I will just walk in and you will keep going, trust me she will allow it. We will also show her how we are together. After you make her cum, I will kiss you. When she sees that you are okay with it, she will just go with it."

"I don't want her to be scared."

"She will get over it. You just have to talk her into it." That's what I did.

Friday night came and James had giving me the look telling me that he wanted to get Bella in bed.

"Let's go upstairs," I said to her. She looked to James and he nodded his head in approval. As soon as we were in our room I started to kiss her and feel her on top of her clothes.

Now, I felt dirty for doing that to her. Why was I seeing everything as wrong now and not then? I internally slapped myself when I thought that I wanted to ask Carlisle. I shouldn't want to talk to him about anything.

"Bella, I have to go," I said as she came out of the closet dressed. "I'll look for you in the stands," I told her as she nodded her head.

"Good luck," she said as she gave me a one armed hug. That showed me that she was still upset by our fight. I gathered her hair in my fist and yanked on her hair.

"Cut your fucking shit now!" I said to her as I yanked on her hair again. "We will talk about all of this later. I would have already, but I probably would beat the shit out of you." She didn't say anything, she never said anything. She knew I was mad, I could see the fear in her eyes. I hated to see fear, but some sick part of me got off on it. "Now, give me a fucking kiss," I said as I brought her face to mine.

This was one of the things that I loved about Bella, she may never say anything, but when she was pissed she showed it through affection. She showed no emotion in hugs, kisses, or touches. It pissed me off and it fueled my fire. I pulled her back by her hair and showed my anger through my eyes.

"This isn't over," I said letting go of her hair and then pushing her away from me.

"Of course," she said back talking me. I dropped my bag and then grabbed a hold of her face putting her against the wall.

"You don't get to talk back to me you little cunt!" I said through clenched teeth. "Do you really want me to hurt you?" I asked her as she glared at me.

"Edward, come on man, we have to go," Emmett said banging on our bedroom door.

"I'm coming!" I yelled back letting go of Bella. "I love you."

"Love you too," she said rubbing her face as I walked away from her. I headed down the stairs and out the door. I jumped into the jeep and Emmett could tell I was pissed as soon he looked at me. I didn't know what came over me, but I just spilled my guts to him.

"I don't know what is wrong with Bella! She was up there back talking me! She is not allowed to talk to me like that; she does as she is told. I think she likes to push my button! She knows how I get when I'm pissed, but yet she just keeps coming at me!" I said as I took a deep breath. I felt better. I knew I needed to clear my head before I could start the game.

"You are this mad because she back talked you? Ya know, you sound like a douche bag," Emmett said to me.

"I am a douche bag, probably one of the biggest ones you will ever meet," I said looking out the windshield. "Bella and I are just having differences of opinion."

"For real? I didn't think she spoke for herself."

"Well, that right there shows that you don't know her. She is a fucking bitch," I said as Em laughed.

"I would really like to get to know that side of her. I bet her and Rose would become great friends," he said as I rolled my eyes.

"I know that you will get to know her, kind of, but you will never be friends with her," I said as he looked hurt.

"Why not?"

"Because I won't let her."

"Why? I would never hurt her."

"I don't think you would either," I told him. "It is really for selfish reasons why I wouldn't let the two of you be friends," I told him.

"Rose is the only woman that I will ever want. I wouldn't take Bella away from you," he said with sincerity in his voice.

"I'm not worried about that. Look, you are one of the good guys. I don't want Bella to get the idea in her head that there is someone better out there for her," I told him.

"You're not a bad guy, Edward."

"But, I am. If you knew a quarter of things I have done in my life, you would hate me," I told him feeling like shit. "This is who I am." I knew two things at that moment, one, Emmett didn't know what to say or, two he had so many questions and didn't know what one to ask first.

"I know you think I am some spoiled rich kid and that I don't know that there is bad in the world. I'm not naïve, I know you and Bella are both messed up, and you both think some things are okay when they aren't. You can change. Let my dad help you, you will be happy in the end," he said as we pulled into the school parking lot.

Nothing more was said between us. Maybe he was right, maybe he was wrong. Either way I didn't trust Carlisle enough to tell him that I have hurt Bella, and that I have pressured her into things that she didn't want to do. Bella may think that James and I helped her, but we destroyed her more than she was already.