Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters used in this story. Stephenie Meyer owns them all (lucky). I am just having some fun and gathering entertainment from them.

A/N…As some of you know, FF was being stupid yet again yesterday. I am trying to get this posted today quickly for you guys so I have not had a chance to send out teasers since the chapter actually did not get posted yesterday until last night.

Chapter 20

EPOV

The ride to the hospital was very awkward. My mom was crying but holding it together.

I was not.

I was shaking in my seat…full on sobbing. Tears were streaming down my cheeks and I did not fucking care. Everything she said was sinking in now.

Bella did not cheat on me.

She was carrying our baby.

She and our baby were in some sort of danger. I was afraid to ask my mom how bad it was…but I could not stop myself.

"Mom? How bad is it?"

"I don't know," she replied.

She did not give me any soothing words, no sugar coating. I did not deserve it anyway.

"But she and the baby are going to be okay right?"

"I don't know Edward. I wish I could tell you yes…but I just don't know. I think it's best for you to wait and talk to your father. He and his fellow doctors at the hospital are working on her and Charlie. They are doing everything they can for them."

"Charlie?"

"Yes, she and Charlie were in an accident on the way to the hospital to get the DNA test results. A drunk driver hit them. Carlisle called me and I went straight to the hospital. We figured we needed to get you there.

"Your dad handed me the test results and told me to drag your ass back to the hospital. We figured having the results shoved in your face would be the only way to get you to come. I am so disgusted and disappointed with you Edward.

"I would appreciate it if you wouldn't talk to me anymore right now because I don't have anything nice to say and I was raised to not say anything at all if you don't have anything nice to say. I know how to abide by my upbringing unlike some people," she spat out at me.

My mom had never used such a tone with me. I did not like it. She could not even look at me.

I suddenly felt the urge to vomit.

As she spoke…two thoughts came to my mind.

One, this was my fault. She would not have been in that car on her way to the hospital to get DNA test results if I had not insisted on it.

Two, the drunk driver could have been me. The way I have been acting with James and Jacob, I have driven around town more than once quite intoxicated.

I was the lowest form of scum on the Earth.

She has to be alright. My Bella had to be alright.

My baby. Our baby.

I started thinking about that.

She had to have gotten pregnant on purpose then. What else could explain the antibiotics? She was lying about not taking them. I caught her in her lie when I found the pills in her dresser.

However, she was not lying about cheating…so maybe she was not lying about the pills. But nothing else made sense. Her story about James and Jacob was excessively farfetched for me to believe. Besides, my friends always had my best interest at heart.

The more I thought…the more I did not care that she got pregnant on purpose. I could understand her lying about it. I knew my temper. Just look at the way I reacted when I grabbed her in her room.

There was NO excuse for that. Both of my parents taught me to never put my hands on a woman like that. I did not know what the fuck I was thinking.

I knew she was going to have bruises and at the time, I could not bring myself to care. I really needed to go to anger management.

I would do that for Bella.

I concluded that I did not care if she lied or if she did it on purpose. I loved her and I loved our baby. Thank god it was mine.

The both of them would be okay and we would make this work. I would get her to take me back…again. I would be there for her and the baby. I would end all partying with James and Jacob. If they could not deal with good clean fun…then I would stop hanging out with them all together.

In addition, I would go to anger management…for her.

Yeah, everything was going to be fine. I could feel it.

When we pulled into the hospital, my mom still would not look at me. Neither of us had really stopped crying either.

As I opened the door, I heard my mother speak finally, "Edward I love you. I just want you to know that. But before we go in there…I need you to know something. If anything happens to Bella or my grandbaby…I don't know if I will ever be able to forgive you for the way you treated them.

"I really hope and pray that you will have the chance to make amends with them. I hope you will bring my son back to me. Because I don't know who you have become lately but you haven't been my Edward Anthony. We all really miss him."

With that, she got out of the car and headed into the hospital. I was right behind her. When we walked through the hospital, I felt weak in the knees. Somewhere in here, my Bella and my baby were fighting for their lives.

I had no idea how bad it was.

Or what was going on with them.

When we finally made it to the emergency room waiting area…everyone was there. Jasper, Emmett, Alice, Rose, Chris, Angela…and other people from school…most of the football team, other cheerleaders.

When I saw Chris and Angela there together, I felt like the biggest kind of moron. How had I not seen it before this?

He was completely and very smitten with Angela Webber…not my Bella.

They were just friends.

Could I be a bigger asshat?

As I looked around the waiting room, most of the people were either crying, on the verge of crying, or just looking very sad. Alice and Rose ran up and attacked my mom with big tight hugs while the three of them shared their tears.

When Jasper and Emmett noticed us there, it did not take long for Jasper to stalk up to me. I thought he was going to kick my ass.

He looked up at me closely and he must have noticed my drunken, bloodshot eyes because he said, "You're fucking pathetic! My sister, your baby as well as my father could be in there dying for all we know and you are fucking drunk! You're not even worth the energy I would have to put forth to kick your ass you useless piece of shit!"

My mom, Rose, and Alice had released each other by this point. Jasper stormed away from me and took Ali into his arms while Emmett got Rose.

I had no one to comfort me.

I just stood there like a dumbass not knowing what to do. No one in that room wanted to talk to or look at me.

That was understandable.

I was the biggest kind of loser.

I broke the wings off an angel.

We heard footsteps coming towards the waiting room. The room was suddenly filled with silence. When the doors opened, I saw the distraught and livid face of my father standing there.

He took one look at my red, drunken, bloodshot eyes and headed right for me.

He grabbed me by the collar of my shirt and knocked me into the wall. "I hope you're fucking happy Edward! Your baby is dead you selfish little prick! I just had to save Bella's life and remove my grandchild's remains from inside of her! Does that make you happy now Edward? You're off the hook!"

He was screaming and he was enraged. He pulled me towards him and then he shoved me back into the wall and he decked me. My dad…my calm, rational, pacifist father fucking decked me…twice.

He hit me the first time and said, "That is for the way you treated Bella and your baby."

Then he pulled back and hit me again, "And that is for the hell you have put your mother through and all the tears you have made her cry. You are no fucking son of mine. I want you out of our house as soon as possible."

I heard my mother gasp as my father left me to slide down the wall he had just knocked me up against…while I let everything he just said sink into my head.

Bella was alive.

But my baby…our baby was dead. I did not even get to tell him or her that I loved them and that I was going to be there for it.

I did not get to tell Bella that I loved our baby.

Everyone in the room was crying.

My father went to my mother as soon as he finished with me.

"Carlisle, tell me it's not true. Tell me our grandbaby isn't dead."

"I'm sorry honey. It is. It died in the accident. There was no way to save it."

My mother and my sisters were sobbing. Chris was holding Angela while she cried and Emmett and Jasper had silent tears running down their cheeks.

Emmett cleared his throat and asked Carlisle, "What about our dad?"

Carlisle shook his head.

Oh no.

No. No. No. No. Bella could not take that.

"Emmett, Jasper, I'm so sorry. Charlie's back was injured very badly and he is paralyzed. They are pretty sure it is permanent. Apparently, there was nothing he could have done to avoid being hit so he turned the cruiser so that he would take the brunt of the impact.

"If he would not have done that it would be Bella who is paralyzed right now or worse because she is smaller than your dad. She is alive right now because of your father's quick thinking. I'm so sorry boys."

I had never seen Emmett and Jasper look so weak.

It broke my heart.

I could not believe Chief Swan was paralyzed.

It did not seem real.

My poor Bella.

Those three were the casualties of my fucking stupidity. If I had not of insisted on that goddamn DNA test…my baby would still be here, Charlie would not be permanently paralyzed and my Bella would not be broken.

My poor mother's sobs were probably the loudest. She was mourning for the grandchild she would never get to meet because of my idiocy.

She spoke barely above a whisper, "Carlisle...you didn't mean what you said did you? About Edward getting out of the house?"

"I meant every damn word, Esme. I'm sorry. It's for the best. We are just enabling him and I am not going to allow him to tear our family apart any longer. This was the last straw. HE is responsible for this!"

"Carlisle how's our sister?" Jasper interrupted.

I had never been more thankful for him…ever. I could not bear to hear my father speak of me that way anymore.

"We had to do a DNC to remove the baby. She had many cuts and bruises. She had so much glass in her that we had to pull out. She had internal bleeding that we had to go in and stop.

"She started hemorrhaging and she went into a coma. She is alive and stable but we don't know when she will wake up.

"It might be her body's way of healing and dealing with everything. She was coherent a little when she came in and all she kept saying was to save her baby and her dad. Poor thing is going to have a lot to deal with when she wakes up."

Jasper and Emmett nodded. My mother and sisters had not stopped their sobs. I felt numb. I felt like I could not cry anymore. I stood up and walked over to Emmett and Jasper, "Guys, I'm so sorry about yo…"

Emmett spat in my face as he said, "Don't you fucking say a word Edward! We have nothing to say to you and we sure as hell don't want to hear anything you have to say."

Jasper then asked my dad, "Can we see her?"

"Only one at a time guys. The ICU visitor's policies are very strict."

"I want to see her," I told them.

Carlisle, Jasper, and Emmett all three said, "NO!"

"Please, I am begging you…I need to see her."

"I don't think that is a good idea right now Edward," my mother said.

"Yeah, I think you've done enough," Rose hissed at me.

Alice could not stop sobbing in Jasper's arms long enough to say anything mean to me.

Carlisle told them that they needed to give the nurses about thirty minutes to get her completely settled into her room and make sure all of her monitors were set up properly.

While they were all talking, I snuck into the ICU part of the hospital. No one had told them specifically not to let me back there and I was Dr. Cullen's kid so it was a piece of cake.

The Cullen charm worked every time.

I started choking out sobs when I walked into the room and saw my angel in her bed. She looked so battered and broken. I did not know what to do.

I went and sat in the chair beside her bed. I took her hand and held it in mine. I laid my head down on the bed and cried.

"I'm sorry baby. Please forgive me Bells…you have to forgive me. I won't make it without you."

I just laid my head there and cried.

Cried for our ruined relationship…thanks to me.

Cried for our lost baby.

Cried for her paralyzed father.

I just cried.

I felt a hand on my head.

I looked up and saw the beautiful pools of brown that I loved so much open and looking back at me. "Love, you're awake! I'm going to go get the nurse."

"No Edward don't. I need to talk to you first."

Her voice was barely at a whisper. She could not talk much.

I looked at her confused. Why wouldn't she want me to get the nurse? She touched her hand to her stomach. Oh.

She wanted to know about our baby.

I shook my head and cried. "I'm sorry sweetheart…our little one didn't make it. God I'm so sorry," I sobbed into her hair.

"What?" she choked.

"The baby…didn't survive the crash."

"Oh god…wait…you called it our baby? You believe me?"

"Yes…my mom showed me the test."

"Oh," She said softly. "You only believe me because of the test."

I kissed her cheek and she cringed away from me.

"Bella, baby…please."

"Get out Edward."

"No," I said like a defiant child as I crossed my arms over my chest.

"Edward get out! Of my room and my life! I can't take it anymore. I wanted you to believe me. All I wanted was for you to believe me."

"I do baby, I do."

"Yeah because of a piece of paper. You should have believed me in the first place. I wanted you to believe me about the antibiotics but you didn't. Just get out. I can't do this right now. I need to find out how my dad is and I want to see my brothers. Now get out of my fucking room and stay away from me…permanently!"

"Bells, you can't mean that."

"Oh but I do."

She pushed the call button to the nurses' station.

"Yes?" asked the on call nurse.

"I want Edward Cullen out of my hospital room now, I want to know how my father is doing and I want to see my brothers." My poor baby was sobbing.

I tried to comfort her but she pushed her arms out in front of her to block herself from me.

"Um…yes, Miss Swan…I'll see what I can do."

"I'll go Bella if that is really truly what you want. I don't want to upset you any further right now but I really think we should grieve this together."

"Grieve what Edward? What the fuck do YOU have to grieve about? That baby was growing inside of me! It was a part of ME! I heard its heartbeat and I loved it! You didn't give a crap about your child until you had a fucking piece of paper shown to you to tell you that you shared some DNA with it.

"Don't you fucking dare talk to me about grieving! You have nothing to grieve except for maybe the loss of yourself. Because you have become a pathetic excuse for a human being. You and your loser friends are going to go so far in life," she spat out sarcastically.

"That is what you should be grieving you self-indulgent asshole! Because you sure as hell don't have the right to grieve MY child! I hope you have a nice life and I hope that everything you've done was sure worth it!"

I could not take anymore of this. She was so angry and rightfully so. I had to get out of there. I could not live in a world where Bella hated me so much. I knew that now. I just had to get out fast. Everything was coming crashing down on me all at once.

I felt as if I were about to explode.

I turned to leave her room, listening to my angel's broken sobs all the way. I paused at the door and whispered to her, "I love you my Bella…forever and always…no matter what."

I slowly walked down the hall out of the ICU wing. I felt my world crumbling. I was drowning and I did not know how to save myself.

I heard yelling and a commotion coming from the waiting area where I had left my family. I could make out what the voices were saying…when I heard the words…I stopped to see what I could hear before I entered.

"Get the fuck out of here James," Jasper sneered.

"No, I heard Bella was in an accident. Edward took off with his mom so I needed to make sure he's okay. He needs his friends since all of you have abandoned him."

"I am warning you James you better get the fuck out of this hospital or I will end you!" Jasper yelled into his face.

I could tell from the noises that Emmett was holding Jasper back from James. I heard him telling Jasper to calm down because this was not helping anyone.

Then I heard my sister, "You need to go James. I don't know how long my man will be able to hold his brother back. You've done enough. We all know what you've done."

"Please Rose, are you talking about that crazy ass story that little whore came up with for her betrayal? Everyone knows she's a cheating slut who fucked up her birth control and got pregnant on purpose…to trap Edward.

"But the dumb bitch didn't get knocked up by the right guy now did she? No, she let that little fucker over there knock her up. My best friend deserves so much better than that little skank."

I heard Jasper lunge for James and there was no one there holding him back because Emmett was lunging with him.

I should have gone in there to protect my friend. I did not like the things that he said. I was really pissed about them actually and something told me to stay where I was for the moment.

Jasper was pounding him as he said, "We all know what you fucking did and we even have proof you sick fuck!"

James was laughing at him. "What proof would that be Swan?"

"You forgot our father is the Chief of Police didn't you? He ran the bag and the antibiotics for fingerprints you dumb ass!" Emmett yelled.

What? I did not know he could do that.

Now my curiosity was peaked.

"Oh and where would that report be? Did Miss Swan have that with her? Guess it went down in a blaze of glory in her tragic accident. Too bad," James chuckled as he spit. He was probably spitting up blood.

I could hear punching.

I could not believe James was still awake let alone awake and talking.

"No it's right here you dumb fucker! I hate you! You are sick and hateful! Did you really think the Chief would not have copies made? Bella gave this to me before she left school!" Ali told him as she shoved a piece of paper at him.

I had to see that because I could not believe what I was hearing.

I walked in to the waiting room. Jasper and Emmett got off James. Jacob was there and he helped James stand up and let him lean on him.

"Ali, what is that?" I asked her slowly.

I was not sure I wanted to know.

She shoved the paper at me.

I looked down at the paper that was now in my hands.

I read every damn word.

Oh my God.

James and Jacob had set up my Bella.

Their prints and mine were the only ones all over the bag and the pills.

Bella's fingerprints were nowhere on the fucking bag.

I was a complete moron.

I had the best girl in the world by my side…we were blessed with a baby…and I fucking threw it all away as if it meant nothing.

Now I had lost everything.

My Bella.

My baby.

All gone.

My parents kicked me out of the house.

Why did I not believe her in the first place? She was telling me the truth all along!

No wonder she hated me.

I hated me.

And I fucking hated them.

Never had I felt such an intense anger building up in me as I did right then in that moment. I saw red…and then I blacked out completely.

I did not really remember what happened next.

A/N…Next update will be Friday 1/1/2010.

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