Author's Note: I don't own cardcaptors.

"talking"

/thinking/

Chapter 21
Deception

Syaoran and Lucy sat in one of the privat tables of a fancy restaurant. Syaoran didn't like the idea of being there with her, but if she truly did knew something about what happened four years before; he had better make sure to shut her up.

Lucy sat camly. She had ordered her food and waited for Syaoran to finally asked her a question. If Leo wasn't going to do anything to get Sakura now, that didn't mean that she was going to do the same about Syaoran. She wanted Syaoran back, and she will get him back.

"Alright Lucy, what is it that you know?" Syaoran asked.

"Well my dear, I know what you know. That Sakura left you for him. Although I don't understand why Shalon has your name instead of his." Lucy said.

Syaoran watch her cautiosly. She was up to something, but what? What did she truly know.

"Shalon is my son, that is why he has my name. If this is all that you are going to tell me then I better leave. I have better things to do." Syaoran got up from his chair. Maybe Lucy didn't truly know anything and she was making everything up.

"It's funny that in high school she dumped Dave for you and when you guys got married she dumped you for him." Lucy said making Syaoran stop.

What had she said? Dave? The same Dave from high school? But that was impossible. It couldn't be him. Syaoran grabbed Lucy by her arm and pull her out of her chair. His grip on her arm tighten causing Lucy to close her from the pain.

"Why did you say that?" Syaoran asked, or more likely demanded.

"Because that's what happened." Lucy said. "Let go of my arm." She said, but this time in pain.

Syaoran released her arm but his cold eyes never left her form. Lucy rubbed the part of her arm Syaoran had his grip on.

"Who told you this?" Syaoran demannded. Lucy stayed silent. "Who!"

"Dave told me. I met him a while ago. At first I didn't know that the woman he talked about was Sakura until he mention your name. Then it all made sense. Sakura probably still had feelings for the guy and left you for him. That is how he told me at least." Lucy said softly.

Syaoran didn't say anything. He needed to talk to Sakura, to make sure that everything that Lucy was a lie. It had to be a lie! Without saying anything else he left.

Once he was gone, Lucy only smiled. "Well Syaoran it seems that with a bit of information and a few lies could destroy your 'perfect' life. Too bad Sakura, but I won this round and soon the war."

Sakura stared at herself in the mirror. It was a habit that she picked up a few years ago. Seeing herself in the mirror reflected her current position. Soon she would become Sakura Li once more, but with Dave back her future seemed unsure. Why was it that everytime she was about to reach happiness something would happen to destroy it. Yet it was true that her mistake would always come back to haunt her, and her biggest mistake was accepting to become Dave's girlfriend in the first place.

She was sixteen years old at that moment. Dave was a year older than her and the most popular guy in school. Every girl in school wanted to date him and he choose her, Sakura Kinomoto. Sakura wasn't interested in him because he was popular, but becausehe was sweet and caring to her. That was what made her like him so much.

They had dated for a year now. Everything was perfect, until Syaoran Li had been transfered to their school. He was the knew sensation and even though he didn't want to, he became one of the most wanted guys in there school. He was perfect in everything although his cold attitude scared people, Sakura never felt threaten by it though.

In one of their classes, Sakura got pair up with Syaoran to do a project together, unknown to them that was what decided they're future together. It was a history project, but since it was a lot of work; the teacher gave them a month to do it.

Since her father was a college history teacher, it gave Sakura a huge advantage for there project. Syaoran at first was surprised that Sakura was the daughter of Fugitaka Kinomoto, since he was a man that he truly admired.

During that time of working together, Sakura discovered the softer side of Syaoran Li. A softer side that attracted her. She knew that it wasn't right because she had a boyfriend, but lately things with Dave hadn't been going to good. He was angry because she had to spend a lot of time with Syaoran.

Almost at the end of the month something unexpected happened. Dave was doubting their relationship, so he wanted to make things more serious. He wanted to take it up to the next level. A level Sakura wasn't ready for. When Dave asked her that, Sakura felt hurt for he knew what she thought of the subject. Only when she marry would she finally give herself to the man she loves. Dave took this as proof that she no longer loved him and with more fights their relationship ended.

Dave believed that Sakura would come back to him after he apogilized, but it didn't happen. Syaoran and Sakura had become closer friends that she had even told him what had happened. Soon their bond grew into more and once they entered in their senior year they were an official couple.That was the moment Dave had become their enemy. Even though Dave had gratuated from high school he would still come and look for Sakura, picking fights with Syaoran.

At the end Dave had 'understood' that what ever feelings Sakura had ever had for him was gone; and that her love now belong to Syaoran Li. Once they ended their senior year Sakura and Syaoran decided to get married for their love for each other was so huge that they couldn't stand being away from each other.

If only she had never accepted when Dave asked her out then maybe she could of had avoided all of this pain. Sakura knew that Dave wouldn'tleave without her, but how was she going to tell Syaoran this? When he had found out about Shalon and the rape he had turned so cold towards her, she had even thought that he hated her. Will this time he truly hate her?

Sakura's thoughts were interrupted when Syaoran entered the room. He seemed angry yet now at her.

"What's wrong Syaoran?" Sakura asked.

"Lucy has just told me something disturbing." Syaoran said. Sakura's face inmediately turned into a frown at the mention of Lucy.

"And exactly what were you doing with Lucy? Sakura asked a bit angry.

Syaoran inmediatly noticed it and decided to explain everything to her before she got the wrong idea. "She came by the office earlier todady and said she had something important to tell me. I ignored her until she mention what happened four years ago."

Sakura's face became shocked. How could of Lucy found out? "What does she know?" Sakura asked.

Syaoran became more serious at this. "She said that she knew who you 'left' me for."

Sakura's face paled. There was no way that Lucy could of known that, unless, Dave had made contact with her.

Syaoran didn't notice this and continued on, "She clamis that you left me for Dave. Yes the same Dave that you use to date in high school."

This Sakura lost all the color of her face. No. No! How could this have happened? Sakura's body began to shake and an unwanted fear invaded her body. This time Syaoran did notice.

"Sakura, what Lucy said is a lie, right?" Syaoran asked, but his wife-to-be didn't answer. Instead Sakura sat on the bed and turned to face somewhere else. Syaoran kept starring at her. "Sakura, it is a lie, right?" He asked once more but she didn't answer.

What was she suppose to say now? She was in so much trouble, if only Tomoyo was here. She felt Syaoran's hand on her arm as he forced her to stand up.

"Sakura answer me." Syaoran asked yet she refuse to do so. So it was true? But then what truly happened before. Arrghh his head was so confused. "Sakura please tell me that you didn't leave me for Dave."

"I didn't" Sakura softly said. Syaoran sigh. So what Lucy said had been a lie. Syaoran smiled as he hugged Sakua yet she didn't hug him back. "But he did have to do with what happened four years ago."

Syaoran inmediatly released her. Sakura had her face facing the floor and since her bangs were covering her face he couldn't her face.

"What?" Syaoran asked. Had he heard right, no it couldn't be.

Dave sat on a couch in his hotel room. In his hand he had a picture of Sakura and him when they were in high school. How happy they had been togher in that time. They were so happy until Syaoran Li came to Japan. He was the one responsible for there relationship ending. It was all his fault.

Next to Dave there was a scrap book with the name Sakura. He grabbed it and opened it. It contain pictures of Sakura, from high school and so on. There were pictures of her with the high school uniform. Another one with the cheerleading uniform. Turning the page there was a piece of newspaper with Sakura's picture on it. Dave brought that piece of paper closer to him as he read what it said.

The most famous wedding of the century has occured in the small town of Tomoeda, Japan. The heir of the Li Clan, Syaoran Li, has married one of Tomoeda's favorite daughters, Sakura Kinomoto.

Below those words a picture of Syaoran and Sakura was placed there. Syaoran had his arms around her as they both smiled. Although in Dave's newspaper Syaoran's picture was cut off.

After that many other pictures of Sakura were there. Most of them were of newspapers and magazines. Since she married one the most famous and richest man in China it was natural for her to be in the newspaper constantly, especially since she held many charity gatherings and stuff like. The people of China grew to love the new Mistress of the Li Clan.

Dave kept thinking about his meeting with Sakura. He needed a way to convince her to come back to him. But how? Using the child, no it wouldn't work. He wont be able to get near him because of the security that surrounded him. If he could only argue the fact that the child was his, but he wasn't stupid that boy looked nothing like him. Oh well it wasn't like he cared. He wanted Sakura back, Syaoran could kept the brat for all he cared.

He needed to come up with a plan, and a very good one. All he need was a bit of more time before the wedding so that things would finally become the way they should.

Syaoran stared at Sakura waiting for an answer. What she had just said had shocked him. How could have Dave have something to do with what happened four years ago? It didn't make sense.

Sakura could feel Syaoran's gaze on her, but she remained quiet. She knew that today Syaoran would find out what really happened four years ago and this truth can put their future in danger.

Syaoran hated being lied to. That was one thing he could count on Sakura, to always be truthful with him. She had lied to him on one occasion, but he understood why. But now, would he understand he had been lied to again? Or will this be the end for both of them?

Syaoran couldn't wait any longer. This silence was killing him! Sakura kept starring at the floor, her bangs covering her sadden and guilty eyes.

Syaoran grabbed her hand and pulled him towards him gently. Pulling her body next to his embracing her with his arms; he gently caressed her hair. He could sense that she was scared for some reason. He knew that this method would calm her.

"Sakura please explain me what you meant before. How could Dave have something to do with you leaving four years ago?" Syaoran asked. He felt her stiffened at the mention of Dave's name.

Slowly he began to feel his shirt get wet. It was her tears that were soaking him. The young woman softly whimpered remembering the past.

Sakura wanted to forget everything. Everything that had to do with that night and with that man! But she knew she couldn't erase the past, especially when that past has come back to haunt her.

Syaoran stopped caressing her hair and with one of his hand he lifted her face so that he could see her. Her eyes were red from her crying and her face held such sadness that made his heart twist in pain.

"Sakura please tell what's wrong. I can't stand it when you're upset. It breaks my heart seeing you like this." Syaoran softly said to her as he kissed her tears away. "Why can't you tell me?"

"Because you'll hate me." She softly replied.

Syaoran stopped his feather like kisses to look at her. He knew that she wasn't joking. Her eyes, even though they showed sadness, also showed that she was serious about what she said.

"Why do you say that Sakura?" Syaoran asked.

Once more Sakura looked away, but Syaoran had his hand on her chin and forced her to look at him again. He could see that her emerald eyes still held tears waiting to be shed.

"I…I…" No she couldn't say it. She couldn't, not at the price of having Syaoran hate her!

Sakura pulled away from his grip and ran towards the bathroom. She locked herself, leaving Syaoran outside more confused then before.

Finally realizing what she had just done, he ran after her but the door was already locked.

"Sakura open this door." But he didn't receive a reply. He began to pound on the door, but Sakura refused to open it.

Inside the bathroom, Sakura sat on the floor with her back resting on the door. She hugged her knees close to her. Her soft cries were loud enough for Syaoran to hear them.

Syaoran was worried sick. Sakura was locked all by herself in that bathroom crying, plus the fact that she's pregnant and this could affect the baby.

What was he to do now? He could bring down the door, but what if Sakura was close to the door? She and the baby could get hurt. There was option number two, he could go and get the key of the bathroom door, but what if Sakura tried to do something while she's locked in there?

/No, Sakura isn't like that. Besides she would never do anything to harm our child./ Syaoran assured himself.

With one last look at that door Syaoran ran downstairs to find the key of that bathroom.

/Who's idea was it to put a freaking lock on that door/ Syaoran asked himself as he ran down the stairs.

Syaoran saw one of the maids and ran to her.

"Where is the key to the bathroom of my bedroom?" Syaoran quickly asked.

The maid was shock for the sudden appearance of Syaoran. Since she was taking to long to answer; according to Syaoran even if only a few seconds had passed. He began to glare at her.

"I-it's in the kitchen sir, with all the other keys." The maid replied.

Syaoran dashed of into the kitchen scaring the maids that were in there.

"Quickly, give me the key to the door of the bathroom in my bedroom!" Syaoran ordered. One of the maids gave it to him.

Syaoran ran back to his room praying that Sakura and his child were alright. Finally he was in front of the door and with that key he opened it.

At first he couldn't move the door since something heavy was pushing it back. Syaoran was thankful to himself that he didn't decide to bring the door down because he was sure that it was Sakura the one leaning on the door.

"Sakura, move away from the door. Please let me in." Syaoran softly said, or at least he tried to say in that tone. The truth was that he was extremely confused and his patience was at a really thin line that was ready to be broken.

Feeling the pressure against the door finally leaving, Syaoran opened the door completely and found a tear face Sakura leaning against the bath tube. He quickly made his way to her and held her in his arms.

"Sakura please tell me what's wrong. Your silence is only confusing me more." Syaoran said as he once again began to caressed her honey brown hair.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Sakura repeated over and over.

"You don't have to be sorry about anything Sakura." Syaoran said.

Sakura remain silent as Syaoran kept caressing her hair. How wrong Syaoran was. If he only knew.

"Now my cherry blossom, tell me what's wrong." Syaoran softly said.

Sakura sighed sadly; she knew that there was no way of getting out of this. Slowly she separated from Syaoran. She looked at his eyes. Emerald met amber.

"Syaoran, I…I wasn't completely sincere about what I told you." Sakura softly said. She knew she had Syaoran's attention since his eyes never left hers, yet he remained silent.

Sakura walked back to the bedroom followed by Syaoran. She sat on the bed but kept her gaze fixed on Syaoran's.

"When I told you that I had…had been raped" Saying that word made Syaoran's insides cringe. It only reminded him how he had failed to protect his Sakura.

"I…I…I didn't tell you who it was because I was-am scared of what you would have done." Sakura said. She tried to remain calm, because she knew that one of them needed to be.

Syaoran remained quiet. The fact that Sakura had just said that she knew her attacker seemed to have no affect on him, or at least that was what it seemed.

"After I had left you in the airport that day, I went to see Dave." Sakura said.

Syaoran face became pale as a ghost. His hands had tightened into fists making his knuckles completely white.

"Dave was my attacker." Sakura softly said. She turned away because she didn't want to see Syaoran's face.

Syaoran face was no longer pale. It was red, red with rage.

/How dare he! That bastard! He…he…wait, Sakura went to see him/ That last thought stopped his mind from continuing with plans to kill Dave.

"You went to see him?" Syaoran asked in a rather cold tone.

Sakura stiffened at the tone of his voice, but she had expected it. Syaoran wasn't someone who could easily control his rage. When someone got him started, there was no way stopping it until he got it out.

"He had called me a few times in those days. He said he wanted to see me. I told him that no, that I had nothing to do with him. But he threatened to come here and I didn't want you to start a fight with him. So I went to see him that night. I didn't know that he had that in mind. If I had known I would of never had gone there." Sakura desperately said.

"But you did." Syaoran's cold tone didn't change. His bangs were covering his eyes.

"Syaoran I-"

"What! Are you going to say that you are sorry? You knew that you could be in danger and yet you still went to see him and not only that but behind my back!" Syaoran yelled.

Sakura remained quiet. She knew that she should be expecting this, yet it still surprised her how Syaoran was acting.

"Syaoran, all I wanted was to avoid a confrontation between you and Dave." Sakura said trying to make him understand. Why would he always shut himself when he was angry!

"Avoid a confrontation, huh? Are you sure Sakura? Or was it that you wanted to see him and this was your excuse?" Syaoran coldly said. Rage, jealousy, hatred, ruled his heart and mind at this moment.

Sakura didn't want to listen to what he was saying. She wanted her ears to become deaf so those cruel things that were coming out of his mouth wouldn't affect her. But reality was a cruel truth, and her wish wasn't going to come true anytime soon.

"What are you mute now? Are you sure that it was a rape Sakura? Perhaps you weren't ready to be his back in high school, but what about that night?" Syaoran coldly asked.

At hearing that Sakura stared at Syaoran with a stunned look. Did he actually believe that?

/How dare he…/

"He was the one that has been calling you, isn't he?" Syaoran coldly asked.

Sakura remained quiet. She still refused to look at him. What was she suppose to say now? Why was her life so damn difficult?

He took her silence as an answer. So that bastard was back. That's why she was suddenly confessing what had happened. So she had been protecting him for years!

Syaoran knew that if Sakura had told him what had happened four years ago, he without a doubt would have killed Dave. He would have made sure that his death was long and painful. He was sure of that because it would have been his own hands finishing the job.

So that explains why she protected him. Did she still had feelings for that bastard at that moment? Was that the reason why she protected him?

His blood boiled in anger at that thought. Dave had been his rival in high school for Sakura's love. He had done everything in his power so that his relationship with Sakura would fail, but Syaoran never gave up. He in the end triumphed when he married Sakura, or so he thought.

"So, are you glad that he is back? Tell me Sakura, has that night been repeated?" Syaoran rudely asked.

Sakura's eyes only widen. How could he think like that about her? No matter how angry he was, he had no right to insult her that way.

Sakura got up from the bed and stared at Syaoran. Her eyes met his. Cleaning a tear that had fallen from her eye with her hand had made her decision. She knew that after this, things wouldn't work.

"If that's what you think about me, then there's nothing that I can do about it. Once you make a decision about someone it's truly hard to change it. And I for one am not planning to try and change your mind. I'm too tired to even try." Sakura softly said.

Syaoran stared at her not understanding what she was trying to say.

"I don't want to live the rest of my life in a hell that is sure to happen. So I'll be the one to finally end this." Sakura took the engagement ring that he had given her. She pulled out her hand containing the ring motioning him to take it.

Syaoran stared at her hand before looking at her face again.

"Our wedding is canceled Syaoran. Find a woman that truly is worthy of you. Someone you can truly trust and hopefully will never have the problems that I have." Sakura kept saying as Syaoran remained quiet.

Syaoran's eyes hardened at her words. /Like hell she's leaving me/ Syaoran grabbed her shoulder's and pushed her onto the bed.

Sakura's eyes widen at his actions. She knew he was going to take this bad, but not like this.

"You are not leaving!" Syaoran yelled as he refused to let go of her.

Sakura closed her eyes, fearing what he might do. Subconsciously her hands went to her lower stomach.

Syaoran noticed this. He got off her but his gaze or glare remained on her. He didn't want to hurt his child, no matter how much anger he felt at that moment.

"You are going to stay here. Everything will continue as before. We are still getting married at the date set. Nothing will change. You will become my wife!" Syaoran coldly said. With that he walked towards the door. Before opening it though, he stopped and said, "Don't try leaving again Sakura; because this time I will find you no matter what. And believe me, your life will become a living hell if you do." With that he left the room.

Sakura only stared at him. She was in a worst situation than when she came back to Hong Kong a few months ago.

"He truly does hate me now."

AN: I'm really sorry I haven't updated in a really long time. I'm really thankful to all the people that kept reviewing and reminding me to update. Thanks a lot! J So what do you all think about this now? Don't forget to review.

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