Chapter 21.

I woke up hearing hushed whispers. I blinked once; twice, third time lucky and I managed to keep my eyes open.

Dimitri was sitting by my bed on the left side of me, while Lissa and Christian were sitting on my right side.

Dr Olendzki was standing at the foot of my bed, filling out my chart. I turned my head towards Dimitri and gave him a warm smile as his eyes met mine.

"Roza" he breathed, as a smile lit up his face. "How are you feeling?" he asked, gently. "Hungry" I replied, as my stomach growled in response. They laughed.

"So Doc. Am I free to go?" I inquired. "Just a moment Rose" She told me. "If you are feeling okay, then I have no problem with you leaving, but I must speak with you in private before you leave"

"I don't mind them staying, whatever you tell me I will tell them anyway" I told her truthfully. She nodded her head hesitantly and cleared her throat.

"It appears as if you are pregnant, Rose" She told me. I stared at her in shock. Then I saw Dimitri stiffen at my side, shock showed on Christians face, while confusion flowed through the bond.

"I don't think so Doc, you must have it wrong" I told her, she merely looked at me and shook her head.

"We've not got it wrong Rose. We performed the test twice, it came back positive both times.

We took a blood sample to see why you had fainted, we thought that maybe you were anemic, because you looked so pale, but you definitely are pregnant"

I just stared at her, with my jaw on the bed. "I'd say about 12 weeks gone" she added. I swallowed.

How the fuck was this possible, Dhampirs couldn't conceive with each other, and Dimitri was the only person I'd had sex with since I had left my old school.

Dimitri just stood up and walked out, without saying a word to me. All I could do was stare at the back of his retreating form. It was at that moment that I realized what he was thinking.

He thought I had cheated on him because it was impossible for me to get pregnant by him.

"Dimitri" I yelled, he paused just outside the room, then he shook his head and carried on walking. I couldn't believe it…..how could he.

I felt a tear escape my eye as Christian wrapped his arms around me. "Can you blame him for being so upset?" he asked. "He's just found out that his girlfriend has cheated on him" I did not cheat on him." I bellowed.

"Fuck Christian... I love him. Why the hell would I do that to him, when he's all I've ever wanted" I couldn't stand this. How could he doubt my love for him?

Did he not know that I loved him more than anything in the whole universe? I would die for him. I honestly thought he knew that about me.

"If you didn't cheat on him, then how is it that you are pregnant then?" Lissa asked, she tried not to sound like she was accusing me of lying, but I could detect it, deep down inside of her, and that was the last straw.

"Get out" I yelled. "Get out… both of you, now" Christian didn't say anything; he just stared at me as if I'd lost my mind.

Lissa cringed under my glare as she realized that I must of heard what she was thinking. "I'm sorry Rose. It's just-" "Save it" I yelled at her, "at least I know now what everybody thinks about me. GET OUT" I growled, and they did.

Leaving me to my own thoughts and feelings….i couldn't believe that they would think so low of me.

"How can I be pregnant? I've only ever had sex with a Dhampir" I told the Doc when she came back into the room.

"I'm sorry Rose. I am not too sure about that, all I can think is that it is another ability you have, because your shadow- kissed.

This kind of information probably wouldn't even be researched, because it has never happened before, at least from what we know of anyway, nobody knows what spirit can do to someone's body, especially if they are brought back from the Dead using it.

It could of possibly altered your DNA, your half human half Vampire, the change of being brought back could of changed the pattern of your body somehow and given you more Vampire than human, we will have to run some tests to find out" she said.

I simply turned over and lay on my side, burying my head under the covers and dwelling on my situation and thinking about 'my love' walking out on me.

I woke up the day after, with no visits from anybody. I felt totally alone and abandoned, and I didn't like it. I hadn't felt this way since before my mother's funeral, and it made something dark and ugly rear its head inside me.

Dr Olendzki gave me a some folic acid, pregnancy vitamins, she had also taken some more blood to run the necessary test to find out how I conceived with another Damphir.

She didn't know it was Dimitri, I figured she would be like a priest and keep that information to herself, patient confidentiality, but I just couldn't risk anybody finding out and Dimitri loosing his job.

I left the clinic after that, and went to search for Dimitri, but I couldn't find him anywhere. I finally checked the last place that I could think about- our cabin and was horrified by what I saw.

Through the window, I could see Dimitri, in the arms of Tasha, and that broke my heart.

I spun around and ran away as quickly as I could, and I didn't stop until I reached my room. I grabbed my duffle bag and threw some clothes inside it and then my toiletries.

Then I put all of my money and my bankcard into my purse and grabbed my passport, just in case it was needed.

I had to get out of here, and there was only one place I wanted to go to now, the only home that I had ever had.

I grabbed a pen and notebook and wrote a letter to Dimitri.

My Darling Dimitri,

I'll never be able to tell you how sorry I am that you didn't think our love was strong enough. I never thought that you would have doubted my faithfulness to you.

I never felt for any other man the way I felt about you. I don't really know what to say here comrade, except for goodbye and I'll love you always.

It's obvious that you think of this baby as a dirty thing, but I think of it as a beautiful miracle, conceived in love. It is your baby, I promise you that, though I could never explain why or how.

All I know is that I was smitten with you from the moment I saw you, and I would never have done anything to risk that. Maybe you could speak to the Doctor.

I know she helped me, a little. While the arms of another woman seemed to help you. I'm sorry I wasn't enough for you. I wish you all the best in life from here on in.

I'll love you forever

Your Roza xo`

I sealed it up and left it on my bed. And then I got the hell out of there.