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Thanks to my Beta NeeNee246. Who is so awesome that I want to dedicate this chapter to her. She loves our hot Rock Star Barward ;)

Chapter 21

EPOV

I should have told Bella sooner. Ten fucking years sooner but what was done was done. I could only try my hardest to make things up to her. To make her understand I only kept those secrets to protect her.

Bella lay in my arms sleeping peacefully. I ran my hands over her stomach still in awe of the little life that was possibly growing inside her.

I was worried about the timing. Bella was finding it difficult to trust me I could see it in her eyes. I had let her down and in the worse possible ways. Firstly, the Heidi incident, which still made me throw up in my mouth when I thought about that whore's hands on me. The worst of it was that was nothing compared to what I had kept from my love over these past ten years. A miscarried child and an overdose. I wished I'd had the strength to tell Bella years ago. I wouldn't be feeling this distance between us now if I had.

Bella stirred gently in my arms. I pulled her closer to me kissing her forehead. I would make this up to her. Once this tour was over I would dedicate my entire life to this creature and love her for the goddess she was.

I woke up early the next morning. I was going to make Bella and me an appointment at the doctors in the afternoon before my gig. I could hardly believe I was already half way through the world tour. Only three more months left and finally I would be free to be with my family. All five of them. I was smiling to myself as I wondered into the bathroom.

"Have you been smiling all night," Bella smiled making me jump as I entered the bathroom.

"Maybe," I smirked pulling her to me for a kiss.

"I might have been sick," Bella giggled. "You don't want to kiss me. Trust me."

"You've brushed you teeth haven't you."

"Yes." I pulled her lips to mine. Running my hands down her back until they rested on her hips. Bella moaned against my lips as I pushed her against my twitching dick.

"I'm going to make us an appointment at the doctors for one o'clock." I muttered as our lips parted. Bella looked a little giddy. "How are you feeling?"

"Wonderful actually," Bella sighed pressing her lips against mine again. I couldn't help my snarl as I lifted her up onto the vanity table pushing her legs open as I slide in between them. "Edward, the kids might wake up." Bella moaned wanting me as much as I wanted her.

"I'm not sure I can stop love," I muttered moving my hands up her legs to that sweet spot while I attacked her neck.

"You have to," Bella panted but she only opened her legs wider. I pulled away for the quickest second locking the bathroom door.

"This is going to have to be quick." I smirked dropping my sweats to the floor. My dick throbbed as Bella licked her lips opening her legs wide as an invitation. "You're going to have try and be quiet love." I smirked pushing into her wet center in a swift motion. How my wife was always so wet for me still amazed me.

"Fuck yes," Bella threw her head back lifting up so I could push deeper.

"You are fucking amazing," I whispered beginning a soft pace at first.

"Harder Edward. I need you." Bella pleaded digging her nails into my shoulder. I let her have it with a yearning groan.

Bella was still flushed as I helped her down off the vanity table.

"Well, I'm awake now," Bella smiled kissing my lips. "Thank you."

"I was getting worried, it has been a while since we . . ." I trailed off. Bella and I never went a week without sex. It was the one reason I knew she was being distant.

"I know. My head has just been a mess. I guess it might have been a baby brain too."

"I'll get the kids up. You have your shower." I kissed her cheek before going to wake up the kids.

It was difficult leaving the hotel with just Bella. Everyone was asking questions wondering where we were going. Harry and Dale took us to the doctors but didn't comment at all as I helped Bella out of the car.

"They must have guessed," Bella whispered in my ear as I held the door to the surgery open for her.

"Probably." I beamed following her.

The receptionist had a fit as I appeared. Bella just tutted going to sit down in the waiting room.

"Your fucking groupies are everywhere." Bella huffed as I sat next to her.

"So are yours. I can't believe Mr Ass Wipe Armstrong wasn't outside our room this morning declaring his love for you."

"I have one Edward. You however have about a million . . .probably more."

"You are so beautiful when you are annoyed," I smiled crookedly at her watching her blush.

"You never play fair."

"Are you are referring to my crooked smile that I know you love so much."

"You know I am." I was still chuckling when the nurse called Bella's name.

"Come on then. Let's go and find out for sure." Bella beamed taking her hand in mine. . . .

Bella rested her head on my shoulder as we travelled back to the hotel. Our thoughts had been confirmed and Bella was possibly about five weeks pregnant.

"Are you okay with this," Bella asked still resting on my shoulder. "I know we weren't planning on it happening so fast and with everything else that is going on."

"Bella, I am over the moon. I love you. Seeing you with my child growing inside you always makes me feel like I can take on the entire world."

"I wonder if we will have a boy or girl this time."

"I'm happy with either." I whispered kissing her head. "You're going to have to take it easy though. Maybe we should slow down on the book."

"Bex is helping us as well. I have already sent the first three sample chapters to her. I'm enjoying writing it. It doesn't feel like work to me."

"I just don't want you over doing it."

"I won't," Bella looked up at me. Her warm chocolate eyes bored into mine. "Oh my God, so many fans." Bella sniggered looking out the window.

"Harry, I think we need to go around the back," I called.

"Certainly Mr Cullen." Harry turned to Dale who made a quick detour away from the fans.

"How do they find out where you are staying?" Bella looked at me amazed. "Your fans are everywhere."

"Come on," I smirked taking her hand as we made our way through the back of the hotel.

Bella and I were chuckling in the lobby with Harry and Dale when I froze looking at the sunshine blonde walking towards us.

"Edward what is it?" Bella asked looking in the same direction as me.

"We need to go," I replied to Harry. "Now!" It was too late of course Bella had already seen Jane break through the group of people in front of us. I held Bella close to my side and tried to stay calm as I noticed Demetri at Jane's side.

"Well, look who we have here," Jane smiled sweetly standing in front of us. "The years have certainly been kind to the two of you."

"Hello Jane." My voice was motionless. "What brings you to Hawaii?"

"Business." Jane smirked looking at Bella. "I take it you read about Alex?"

"I . .I" Bella was shuddering in my arms. I had had enough.

"Jane, Alex is in our past. We are sorry for your loss but we have our own lives to live."

"How dare you," Jane screamed trying to push me but Dale and Harry were in between us before Jane had barely moved. "You really think you had nothing to do with his death. It was your fault. You took what was his. He went crazy because of what you two did."

"I think we should get you upstairs Mr Cullen," Dale commented. I nodded pulling Bella with me.

Bella fell into my arms as the lift door closed. She could hardly stand on her feet so I scooped her up in my arms and carried her to our room.

For fuck sakes, was it ever going to stop? How much more shit would my love have to face?

"It's okay love," I cooed as I lay next to her on the bed.

"I'm not strong enough to deal with all this shit right now." Bella sobbed.

"I'm here love."

"Why did she have to be there? On today of all days. Finally we get some good news and Jane has to ruin it."

"We were bound to run into her at some point. It's over now though love."

"Is it though Edward?" Bella turned her blotchy red eyes to look at me. It was excruciating to look at her when all I wanted to do was take all her pain away. "Will it ever be over?"

"Alex is dead love. It is over." I pulled her into my arms and Bella clung to me like her life depended on it.

"I love you Edward, so much." Bella's lips were hard against mine forcing me back against the bed. Hungrily she pulled the shirt from my body.

"I thought you didn't want us to distract each other with sex." I smirked as she went for the belt on my jeans.

"Shut the fuck up Edward," Bella growled pouncing on me. I obeyed her. Fuck me, Bella was like a sex craved animal. I couldn't help but snarl out in pleasure as she pulled me over my cliff. I fell for a good few minutes watching my wife above me. She was glowing and I understood why she needed this. This – us, had always been worth fighting for and in these few seconds I felt the distance between us fade away. My wife was back firmly by my side. I would never let her down again.

oxoxoxo

"I really don't want to do the show tonight." I sighed watching Bella with the kids on the balcony.

"Think of all those fans downstairs," Bella smiled looking up at me while she did a jigsaw with Hope. Jack was playing his guitar while Grace was colouring a picture she had drawn. There was no place on earth I would rather be than right here.

"I like the fans I have right here." I smiled.

"It's time Edward," Emmet called over the balcony. "Get you cute ass out here." I rolled my eyes giving my family all a kiss before I left.

"So I hear you saw Jane," Emmet asked taking a seat in the back of the car with me.

"Yeah, Bella was a little shaken by it."

"Our guys had quite a job getting rid of her. I think Demetri had to drag her away in the end."

"So he finally got back in with Jane then."

"It would seem so."

"Do you think we need to watch them?" Emmet smirked at me. "Your already watching them aren't you."

"I told you. I will always have your back. "Emmet nudged me and I knew he was right. "We don't need to worry about them Edward. Jane is just angry. She has lost all her family and is just looking for someone to blame." Emmet shook his head. "I wouldn't want to be Demetri if Jane ever did find out the truth."

"I know," I breathed putting my hands through my hair.

"Don't worry man." Emmet beamed as the car came to a stop. "It's show time."

"Your late," Garrett glared as I walked into the dressing room.

"Leave off him Garrett." Jasper called standing up to pat me on the back.

"I will not. Edward knows the rules they haven't changed in fifteen years. We always meet for thirty minutes before show time."

"I've had important things to do today. I'm not apologising for that." I spat as Jasper handed me a beer.

"Really, enlighten me."

"Bella is five weeks pregnant." I beamed watching the smile drop from his face. Everyone else was congratulating me but my face was fixed on Garrett. He was furious and I couldn't understand why. He knew I was leaving after this tour. What did it matter if Bella was pregnant? Then it hit me. Did Garrett really think he would have been able to change my mind? He really didn't know me at all.

"We aren't telling anyone else yet apart from Alice and Rose of course so I would appreciate your silence." I added as the stage manager gave our five minute call.

"I'm so happy for you man," Jasper muttered just before we were about to go onto stage.

"You have no idea what is in store for you man" I beamed patting him on the back. "Fatherhood is just as incredible as all this."

"I can't fucking wait."

"You only have four weeks of calmness. Enjoy it."

"You call this fucking calm." Jasper laughed as the curtains dropped and a sea of hands appeared before us. The screaming was deafening.

"Let's entertain these fuckers." I yelled strumming my guitar as I took to the microphone.

I knew a part of me would miss this in three months but I wasn't giving this up. I was just taking a well-earned break to cherish my family. I deserved that.

oxoxoxo

Alice gave birth to a bouncing baby boy and I couldn't have been happier for them. It was difficult for Jazz being away from them but we had all managed to get a couple of days off in Seattle to visit Alice and little Daniel.

"He is so adorable." Bella cooed nursing him in the hospital.

"He better be for fourteen hours labour." Alice replied. "Mom cried when she saw him."

"She would," I smirked going over to Bella.

"Do you want a hold of your nephew?" Bella winked. I held my arms out and Daniel fit snuggly into my arms.

"Nice to see he still has it. Don't you think Bella?" Alice laughed as I rocked my nephew to sleep.

"I guess I will need to get some practice in." I chuckled. "I mean it's been six years since we had a baby."

"I think you'll do just fine Mr Cullen." Bella smiled kissing my lips softly. All I could do was sigh in contentment.

God, I love the fluff. Nice to see they are working through their issues. Are we worried about Jane?

Um . . . .well we will see ;)

Bee xx