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Chapter 5 has now been uploaded because a few people have
been telling me it was the same as chapter 4 I checked it out
and you were right so I have uploaded the real ch.5 hopefully
things are a bit more clear in chapter 6 XD

Edward carried me outside and through to the garage. "Put me down now, my legs do work" I moaned wriggling in his arms, they tightened around me.

"Nope." Edward said smugly. I huffed dramatically and wriggled again. Edward walked into the garage with all the Cullen's flashy cars they were all so clean compared to most of the cars and vans in Forks it made me laugh.

Edward walked over to the Volvo and plopped me in the passenger seat and walked around to the drivers seat in record time. "What you mean I'm allowed to do my own seat belt up?" I said sarcastically giggling.

"I will allow it just this once." Edward said laughing back. I did my seat belt up and we began to drive home. We didn't really talk in the car so unfortunately that gave me mind free time to think it's self. I worried that I was going to have the nightmare about Edward again and start talking about it in my sleep.

If Edward heard I would have to tell him what had been on my mind all this week and I would rather not, not until I had to. It's not that I was embarrassed I was pretty sure he would get mad with me and I hated being mad at Edward and Edward being mad at me so I would shut up for now.

But why I had been thinking all these things and more I had been staring out of the wind shield and Edward could see my expression not good. Edward could read my face like a book now because he was making up for not being able to read my mind.

"What's wrong Bella?" He asked suddenly. I was shocked then I quickly shrugged it off if I didn't answer soon he would know he was right.

"Nothing" I said turning to him and smiling. He gave me a disapproving look. "Nothing at all." I reassured him. Great now I was lying to Edward. Oh well he had lied to me enough times.

That's when we pulled up to my house. "Well I will see you up there in about ten minutes" Edward said happily.

"Ok… cool" I said dumbly. I hopped out of the car and ran inside.

"Hey Dad how's the car!" I shouted , I knew Charlie was here because the lights were on.

"Hey Bells, it's all fixed. Not going to break down again… hopefully. Did you have a nice day?" He asked.

"Yeah it was so much fun, I watched…" I quickly corrected myself before I said the wrong thing. "…Edward playing the piano." That was close I was going to say I watched all the boys fight. I could have meant play fighting but just to be on the safe side I kept my mouth shut.

"There's some food in the fringe." Charlie shouted.

"What! You made dinner" I said sarcastically.

I heard Charlie chuckle from the direction of the TV. "It's ok Dad I had something at the Cullens and I'm not that hungry today."

I looked at my watch as I walked up the stairs, no Edward wouldn't be back already so I ran in my room not bothering to check if he was there of not. I grabbed my Pyjamas off the end of my bed and ran to the toilet to get changed. I would have got changed in my bedroom but I didn't really want Edward to walk in un-expectedly.

He had no warning after all he couldn't read my mind so he would have no idea. I shuddered at that thought.

I walked back into my room and Edward was still not there, I couldn't really think for anything to do so I walked over to my bed got under the covers and lay down on the bed and waited.

As soon as my head hit the pillow I realized two things. One: I was really, really tired. Two: I could feel arms encircling my waist.

I felt Edward's lips on my neck; he started from the bottom of my neck and began to kiss upwards to my jaw line. "So do you want to tell me what's wrong?" He asked his breath tickling my neck and lower ear.

I don't know why but it made me a little annoyed that Edward was trying to find out what was wrong I mean he was aloud to want to know it was natural but some things I wanted to myself.

"Edward don't…" I tried to say strongly but the mix of my sleepiness and Edwards kisses were sending me to sleep. I only had that one thought before my eyes closed and I was asleep.

I woke up suddenly breathing heavily. I sat up slowly and looked around it was pitch black but I was in my room I new that. What had woken me up I wondered as I lay back down. That's when it came to me "Stupid freaking dream." I mumbled under my breath. At least Edward didn't seem to be here thank God. I feel back to sleep minutes after I had woken up the warmth of my bed just made it so easy.

I woke up in the morning on Monday morning to a grey morning; as usual it actually brought a smile to my face. It's nice to know something's never change. "Hey Bells." Edward said. I jumped slightly.

"Geez do you mind" I said smiling back at him. His face was hard and un expressionless slightly angry even. "What's wrong?" I asked scrambling out of bed to wear he was standing. I stood in front of him looking up.

"Bella you were talking in your sleep last night." He said bluntly. OH NO! Not yet I don't want him to know. I quickly looked at the floor. What was I meant to do? I saw a pile of clothes I had put on the rocking chair in the corner of my room, bingo. At least I could figure out what I could do in the bathroom while getting changed.

"I have to go get changed" I said quickly running to get the clothes on the rocking chair. I didn't even get a chance to touch the pile of clothes Edward had grabbed my wrist. "No Edward don't" I pleaded it was just going to make him mad if I told him.

He pulled me backwards and pinned me against the small bit of wall next to my window. He wasn't trying to force the information out of me the way he usually did by kissing me till I was going to internally combust. He looked right into my eyes and said strongly: "Bella, what is wrong?"

There was a possibility that I had had a random dream and it wasn't the nightmare… yeah that is it. "What did you hear me say?" Please, please, please not the nightmare.

"You were calling my name, telling me not to go and that I should wait until you died to leave." DAMMIT! His voice was strained and very confused. I didn't say anything. "Bella?"

"Don't get mad ok?" I asked looking up from the floor.

"Ok…" Edward replied hesitantly. I might as well tell him everything all at once.

"I have been thinking a lot about the future and I got myself a little bit worked up because you're obviously not human and you don't age and I still do. I would not like to be going out with a person who looks seventeen when I am eighty and let's face it I might not even last till then knowing what I am like." I took a breath and began again. "I have been thinking and I want you to turn me into a vampire and don't you even dare think about butting in I am not finished" I said loudly when I saw Edward open his mouth. "I started having this nightmare where you left me because you realized I was going to age which is perfectly fine honestly who really wants to kiss a grandma but in the nightmare I just stand there and plead you not to go but you go anyway and I know you would never do that… I understand if you did though…" I trailed off then took a big in take of air. "I know you probably don't want to turn me into a vampire because you believe when you turn into a vampire you loose your soul and you're going to do the annoying thing and say that you won't take me soul away from me. Another reason is well… you probably don't want to have me around for eternity that's understandable what man in there right man wants to me stuck with one girl without even going out with others, oh and don't give me that crap about having a normal life if you haven't already noticed I don't exactly fit in in the human world…." I trailed off again this time I had actually run out of air. I saw Edward open his mouth again and I put one finger up to tell him I wasn't finished. After I got my breath back I said: "Please don't be mad."

Well that was it all that I had been thinking about for the past week and now Edward was going to be mad I still didn't quite know exactly how he was going to react to the whole turn me into a vampire thing I had really thought about it and it's wanted I wanted to do. I wanted Edward for eternity.

I hadn't realized but while I was talking I had began to look down at the floor again Coward! You couldn't even look him in the eyes. I looked up to see the expression on his face. He had blocked his thoughts from me I was starting to get worried now.

Suddenly Edward let a slow breath and sighed. He grabbed and a hugged me close to his body he put one hand on my head and the other on the small of my back. "You have such little faith in me." He sighed into my ear. "I do want you for eternity and I couldn't care less about the other fish in the sea but I will not risk your soul or your chance at a normal human life because I am so selfish that's not right." He explained.

"It's not selfish if I want it and I said don't give me that crap about a normal life or my soul." I replied quietly.

Edward pulled back and looked at my face. "I won't do it."

"Then I will get Alice to do it." I said stubbornly.

Edward growled. "I won't let you do it." He said through clenched teeth.

"Fine!" I snapped running to the bathroom. I knew this would happen now we are both mad! I took a cold shower and tried to relax boy this was going to be a fun day wasn't. I think I was just going to forget it even happened pretend things were normal.

So she finally asked him and let she predicted it failed XD
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