B E T H

You know that feeling in your stomach when you're on a roller-coaster? The jumbled, flipping, intense butterflies? Or the feeling of excitement coursing through your every vein as something consumes your every thought and feeling? These feelings are making my life hell. Ok, maybe I'm overreacting a bit... But I think you get the picture. As a kid growing up I never really liked attention, and now it seems it's the only thing I get.

Carson. My best friend. A blonde haired bright eyed boy who will do anything to make you laugh. He always know how to cheer me up, and be there for me even if there are no words spoken. He gets me.

Beck. A mysterious, intense, and somewhat cocky boy. His sharp features and dark hair sets a sense of curiosity for me. And I just want to get to know him better. But, while undeniably handsome, he isn't all that he's cracked up to be. Sure I love that I have an affect on him, but I want nothing to do with him. He's the guy my mother (and recently my father) warned me about. He is a heartbreaker. And I know I should stay away from him. But that's just the thing; I can't. Beck draws me in and gets me all tingly and flustered and I don't know what to think anymore...

Should I stay with the safe judgment, Carson? Someone who I know will do everything in his power to keep me happy? Or the daunting choice between the two, Beck? The one who will keep me on my toes and entertained? My thought lately have been a war between myself, and I don't know what to do anymore. I want to say that my heart belongs to only one guy, but I'm not very good at telling lies.

"Bethany? Dear, are you alright?" A voice calls out to me, drawing me from my inner turmoil.

"Yeah. I'm ok, mom." I answer wearily. She places a hand on my shoulder and looks me in the eyes.

"Lets have a cup of tea and talk about it." My mom gestures for me to follow her into the quaint kitchen in the apartment in the Dauntless headquarters. I drop down into the kitchen barstool, my back to the living room.

"So, what's on your mind?" She bustles around grabbing mugs and teabags.

"I'm having guy trouble..." I place my head in my hands, groaning to myself. My mom fills up a kettle and places it on the stove to heat.

"Guys are giving you trouble? Who?" She stands in front of me across the counter.

"Carson and a transfer named Beck." I sigh out their names.

"Ahh. Well what's the problem?" She asks me, cocking her eyebrow.

"I don't know who I care about more. Beck, someone who peaks my curiosity. Or Carson, someone who already makes me happy; but I don't want to ruin our friendship."

"Well. What the heart wants, the heart wants." Shrugging she fetches the kettle and pours the steaming water into two mugs, adding the teabags.

"But I don't know what it wants..." I groan, staring at the cup of tea, as if it was the problem to begin with.

"Bethany. Hun, your heart may get broken a few times. And you may kiss a few frogs before you find your prince charming. But you need to be able to take risks and be happy with the decisions you make. I you will definitely love your life more if you learned from the mistakes you make. And not regret those decisions." Who knew my mother was so insightful? I take a sip of my tea, mulling over the knew found information. Hm, I guess I just need to take a few risks?

"But how do I know I will be happy when I make the decision?" I glance up at her from under my eyelashes.

"You don't" She shrugged, kissing me on the forehead and exiting the room.

Short I know. I just wanted something between Beth and Tris.

Here's her thoughts and feelings I guess.

Comment if you liked this and want more of Tris and her family.

Oh and to that guest who said they'd stop supporting the story because I don't update all the time. Go. Right. Ahead. See if I fucking care. Because this is my story and I do what I want with it. I have wonderful readers and I love all my pansycakes. I don't need that negative shit so do us all a favor and fuck off, you aren't wanted here.

And to all my pansycakes I love you all so much and thank you for continuing to make me happy by commenting all these nice things. I seriously love you all

*Sends virtual hug*

-Carly