"You stupid, idiotic, irresponsible girl!" Mary started yelling immediately once she saw me. She flinched a little when she saw how messed up I looked, but continued all the same. Jasper and Tyler were standing in the corner –with no Mia.
"How could you be so irresponsible? You can't just go out and get drunk when things don't work out! I know we're vampires and a part of a super race, but that is not an excuse! Do you know how long we spent looking for you yesterday? Hours! And guess what, now Mia's missing too. Jesus Christ Arissa! Don't you ever use your head?" Mary just wouldn't stop. I wanted to break down right there, but I knew it would be no use. Mary hated me either way. I looked at Jasper for a second, and instantly wished I hadn't. His eyes were filled with sadness and worry for his sister. I didn't blame him.
"I'm sorry," Was all I said.
"Yeah, you should be," Mary snapped.
"Mary, stop," Edward ordered. I forgot how scary he could be.
"Stay out of this, Edward." Mary fought back.
"No. She feels terrible. Last night was miserable for Ari too. She feels bad enough as it is, so stop rubbing it in. When she feels better I'm sure she'll go and find Mia and make amends." Edward said, looking to me expectantly.
"Of course," I said, overly enthusiastic.
"She's a child, Edward, she always has been. Now I'm convinced she always will be." Mary said, and walked out the door.
"Save it," I told whoever cared enough to listen. I wasn't a child. She wouldn't be able to live with what I've seen. What I've been through. From birth I've been thrown into my own personal hell, something she's never experienced. The truth was, I wasn't a child. I was just too old for my age.
"Hello Cullen household!" someone yelled, and when I turned to snap at who I assumed would be Layla, I found a short haired, pixie girl looking up at me. Beside her was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. She had long flowy blonde hair and was tall. She was a supermodel, in my opinion. I almost asked who it was, but then a rush of excitement came along and people shouted their names enough times to make me feel like I've known her my whole life.
Alice and Rosalie were back.
"Rosie!" Emmett shouted, running over to his wife and embracing her.
"I've missed you, baby," Rosalie whispered into Emmett's ear.
I was too busy paying attention to Rosalie and Emmett's reunion that I didn't pay attention to what was happening right in front of me. When it became to uncomfortable to watch Rosalie and Emmett, I returned to reality and saw a pixie in my face.
"Hi, I'm Alice, it's nice to finally meet you!" She said and hugged me.
"Arissa," I said back, cautiously, "How do you know who I am?"
"I can see the future. I've known about you for a long time, I just haven't been able to tell anyone yet for obvious reasons. Time has to run its course sometimes," she laughed. "Speaking of which, I think it's about time you and Mia forgave each other," Alice told me, getting serious. I frowned.
"Nobody can find her, they don't know where she went. Jasper and Tyler are out looking for her now," I explained.
"I know, but I also know that you know where she is."
"Alice…" Edward warned.
"No, it's okay. They need to work this out on their own," Alice told him, and then turned to me, "If you think really hard about it, you can find where she is. You know her better than anyone else here, even Jasper and Tyler. When you go there, don't leave until you two have forgiven each other. You are best friends and you always have been. It is not in your best interest to let her go right now, trust me."
I tried to think about where Mia would be. Alice was right, I knew Mia better than anyone else. She was my best friend, and I needed her. With all of these changes, we needed each other.
" I know where she is," I told Edward, "I'll be back by tonight."
"Arissa, you can't just leave!" He shouted, but I ignored him, got in the car, and drove away.
I always liked watching the sunset. I don't know why. I guess it's just because it's the one thing that has never left me. No matter where I go, no matter what trouble I get in to, I know that I can always watch the sun set. It's peaceful, unlike my life. Unlike me.
"Thank you for letting me come here," I told Jacob, who was sitting beside me in his wolf form. I asked him for permission to cross into his land after I had gotten drunk. He knew I was wasted so he decided to keep an eye on me. Eventually, it turned into puppy guarding. "I know it's hard for you to trust me, to trust my sisters, but I am grateful all the same."
Jacob grunted, but I know it wasn't in response to me. He stood up and turned around, showing off his teeth. Sam was walking up with Arissa, who looked terrible.
"Easy, Jacob. She's good." Sam told him. Jacob lay back down on the ground. It was getting dark out and he was probably tired. I kind of felt bad for the kid.
"Hey Mimi," Arissa said, keeping a safe distance from me.
"Hey," I responded. I was pissed about what she said, but somewhere in me I knew she didn't mean it.
"I'm not going to sugar coat anything, because I know that you hate that. I'm going to tell it to you as it is, and you can decide if you want to come home or not. Deal?" Arissa said, taking a step closer, but never blinking.
"Deal." I told her, meeting her eyes.
"First of all, I'm sorry. I have no excuse, except for the fact that I was a bitch. What can I say? You get drunk and you are happier than you've been in decades. Me? I act like someone just told me my family had been murdered. I say stuff I don't mean, because I don't think. I was wrong. And I'm sorry."
"It's okay, I forgive you." I said to her, and she released a held breath.
"Second of all, there is a strong chance that by the end of this week, we could all be dead. You, me, Tyler, and Jasper. I don't know about you, but I want to make all the amends I can make with those I love. Jasper loves you, Meems, you need to see that. You're going to be fighting beside him soon, and you don't want to know what it's like to watch someone you love die without them knowing how much they mean to you. I'm not going to tell you what to do, but I think it's time you moved on. Forgive AND forget. He's your brother, he loves you, and he left me half assed on the toilet to go look for you. Believe it or not, he cares."
"I know." Was all I could say.
"Come home, please. I need you. We all need you." Arissa begged.
"Okay," I said. I wanted to come home more than anything, but not if there was going to be drama. All this time I thought it was everyone around me just hating on me, but I never realized that it could be me holding myself back from happiness. I wanted the happiness that Arissa had with Jasper. With Mary and Edward. I needed that. And I would fight in the next days for that, no matter what happened with the Volturi. I would not die holding a grudge, and I would not die a hater. Of that, I was sure.