Hey guys, I know I usually post earlier in the week but my family received to the news of my grandmothers death so they had to travel to Haiti for the funeral. So I've been staying at my friends house and she has no internet...Okay so the next chapter will be the last chapter for this story. Please don't freak out, the sequel will come right after the next chapter. Thanks for everyone who is reading...and REVIEWING lol it means a lot to me.

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Five nights ago I fell asleep in Jasper's arms while he slowly rocked me to sleep and I still can't get it off my mind. I probably shouldn't have taken so much pleasure in it, but I did. I loved the feeling of lying against his chest with his arms tight across my waist. Everything about that night was unforgettable…especially the fight we had. I just want Jasper to have something when I'm gone, because as much as I hate to admit it, it doesn't seem like he will have anything unless I do something about itl

"What are you thinking about?" His cool voice pulls me from my thoughts.

It's almost time to wake up, but there's a part of me that wants to stay right here…with Jasper.

"That maybe it's time to wake up." I began to shrug out of his grasp but he just pulled me back.

"Let's skip today," As enticing as it sounded I knew that we shouldn't do such a thing. It was becoming increasingly hard every day to resist Jasper.

"Jasper, I need to go school" He sighed and released his hold.

"I know." He rolled out of the bed and stood near the door.

I hated seeing him like this; his pained expression brought me pain as well. If only I had knew….if only I had knew that this whole thing would've brought this sort of ache onto Jasper, then maybe I could've s save him from it all. A kiss upon your lips…It's not like I haven't thought of doing it. I've had dreams of kissing Jasper and becoming his other half, him becoming the one.

I try to push my thoughts away as I get dressed but I can't wipe away the image of Jasper and I being intimate together. Focus Bella focus. I walked downstairs and waited for the others to be ready to go. When we got to the school I made sure to avoid Nash before class started. He was becoming more and more annoying for some reason.

"So I'll meet you here after class okay?" Although I did not need reminding, it was nice to hear him say it.

"Hey Jasper man, how's it going." Nash said while appearing by my side.

Every morning they would do the same thing, I think that Nash finds pleasure in seeing Jasper so wound up. So every morning I have to play peace maker between the two of them.

"Okay I'll see you after class Jasper," I smile at him and hope that it will be enough to calm him down. He nods then walks away.

"What's wrong with him this time?" I roll my eyes and walk to my seat.

"You know exactly what wrong." He smirks.

"I have no clue what you're talking about" I pull out my notebook and begin to do the morning assignment. "He just needs to chill out."

"You need to chill out, Jasper isn't doing anything to bother you." I felt his hand on mine.

"Actually he is." I shook off his hand and continued to write.

"What are you talking about?" I asked even though I already knew the answer

"Oh I think you know Bella," I ignored him for the rest of the class and was more than happy to have Jasper walk me to my next class.

"You should just ignore him," I told Jasper as we walked to my next ESL class.

"How can I when he's always around? I don't think you should talk to him anymore," I crossed my hands across my chest and stopped in the middle of the hallway.

"Jasper you know I can't do that." He sighed deeply.

JPOV

I hate everything about him; I hate the way he looks at Bella, the way he touches Bella. I hate that he gets to spend the majority of the school day with her…that should be me.

"Jasper you know I can't do that."

"I know…just be careful okay." I had to fight back the urge to pull her into my arms to hold her like I did those five nights ago. "I'll meet you out here after okay?" She smiled back and disappeared into the class.

I took my time walking to my next class I couldn't get rid of the thoughts of Nash and Bella being together from my mind. I know Bella is only here for the curse but sometimes I wish that she was here for me. SELFISH, yes I am being selfish; I should be supporting Bella not holding her back because of my immature worries. What if Nash is the one? I could be holding her back from her true destiny.

"You're late Mr. Hale." I ignored the teacher's warning and walked to the back of the class room to my seat.

Images of Bella ghosted over my eyes as I pretended to do the assignments on the board. I just couldn't stop thinking about the possibilities of Bella actually finding her love at Fork High School, all the guys in this school couldn't possibly be worthy of Bella's love. Maybe I should just tell Bella how I feel, maybe then she'll….WHAT WILL SHE FEEL? I don't know, I don't know how Bella will react if I profess my love to her. I want so badly for her to want me too but why would she feel that way about me? I know she says I'm not a monster, but why would she want to be with me, when she can have the man that she was destined to be with?

NEED…I need to show Bella just how much she means to me, just how much I love her without actually saying those words. Every touch, every hug, every smile keeps her here with me…keeps her awake. I wonder if Bella would stay with me even if she would still be cursed…would she spend her lifetime with me even if it meant she would never truly be free. Could I really ask her to do that? Could I really take away from her true love just so that she could be with me? Yes…I would do it, I would tell Bella that I dream of being with her forever, that I love her more than my own existence. After school today I will tell Bella how much I love her, how much I need her in my life. Hopefully she'll say the same thing too…

BPOV

The only thing that I could look at while Jasper walked me to my class was the two way bond that tied us together. It is one the most beautiful bonds that I have ever seen and bitter sweet too. I love Jasper with all my heart and I know that he loves me too but he has Alice…his wife. I can't just pull him away from his life because I have developed feelings for him. How can I expect him to want a life with me when I have this curse…this other man out there…waiting for me? It would be too much to ask of him and could I really be that selfish? No, I cannot be that person; it is not in my character to be so self-seeking.

"What are you thinking about?" Nash was looking at me with his green eyes, which once interested me but now annoyed me.

"How I can get out of these ESL classes," and into classes with Jasper.

"Well you could just take the English placement test to see if you're ready for the regular classes."

"Really? That would great! When can I take this test?" He smirked and grabbed my pencil from my hand.

"Well it's gonna cost you" I knew that he had to have some sort of secret agenda.

"What?" He began to twist my pencil between his two fingers.

"Well Bella I think we have great chemistry." I furrowed my brows.

"Chemistry? What are you talking about?" He dropped my pencil on my desk and took both of my hands into his.

"Tell me you don't feel that?" Feel what? What was he talking about?

"Feel what?" He squeezed my hands before letting go.

"Ahh Bella I love it when you act so coy."

"So what is it going to cost me to take this test?" All I want is to get out of these classes.

"Meet me after school by your locker and you can pay me," I nodded my head.

"Thank you Nash." Something about his smile worried me but I was too excited to think about it any further.

The bell rang and I got up to pack away my things. I decided to not to tell Jasper about the English test, I want to surprise him with the great news after I pass it. Leaning against the lockers just like every other day was Jasper. I smiled as I walked over to him, each day it gets harder not to touch him…but I know what I have to do.

"You look happy," I smiled and began to walk down the hall.

"Yes I am," His expression was unreadable.

"I guess that means you had a good class?" I knew he was implying it was because of Nash that I was so happy.

"I guess so." He smiled.

"So I was thinking that after school today, instead of going home like we usually do, we can go out."

"That sounds great! Where did you have in mind?" He grinned.

"Well I can't ruin the surprise." I laughed.

"So now it's a surprise? What did I do to deserve such a thing" I joked.

"You deserve everything Bella," His voice was suddenly serious.

"I don't deserve anything Jasper; I have everything I want already," which was true to some extent.

"You do?" I bit my lip; knowing I was treading on thin ice.

"I have you, don't I?" he pulled me into his arms and held me close to his chest. I closed my eyes and savored the moment because I knew it wouldn't last.

"Always….you will always have me." I nodded against his chest and halfheartedly pulled away.

"I know that Jasper," I whispered before walking into the class.

I know that I will always have Jasper but I also know that I will never actually really have him. If he knew that I loved him, would he want to try? No, I shouldn't even think about such a thing. I have two goals and two goals only, help Jasper become happy and find this man who will release me from my curse. Maybe I should've just kept it a secret, maybe I shouldn't have told Jasper about my curse. But what would've happened between us? I'm sure I still would've fell in love with him and him with me but would he pursue me? Does he want to pursue me now? I look over to him and see him drawing; everything about Jasper draws me to him…I wouldn't have ever expected to feel this way about him.

"What are you thinking about?"

"Nothing really just about when we first met,"

JPOV

"Nothing really just about when we first met," I could feel my mouth frowning, she was probably regretting ever meeting me.

"No, no not bad thoughts Jasper," She says while placing her small hand on mine. "I just…things were a lot less complicated then wasn't it?" Yes…but that was only because it was before I fell in love with her.

"What do you mean?" she tries to move her hand away from mine but I hold onto it; refusing to break out physical contact.

"I know that this whole curse thing is hard," she sighs. "I really wish that I didn't drag you into it."

"Please don't think that Bella, I'm glad that you trusted me enough to share that part of your life with me,"

"Of course I trust you Jasper but that is not what I mean." She pulls her hand away and this time I let her. "I see the toll it's taking on you…and I'm sorry," she lowers her head and plays with her hands in her lap.

"Why are you sorry? I don't understand what you're trying to say."She lifts up her head and pulls a blank piece of paper toward her.

"I know it's hard for you to see me….to…to," she stops and lowers her heads again. "Never mind." I lift her head up and she looks at me; her eyes glistening with unshed tears.

"Bella please just talk to me." She turns her head away.

"Things…things would've been better for you if I never was awaken." She regrets meeting me; being my friend.

"How can you say that?" she turned her head back to me and smiled weakly.

"I don't regret meeting you at all Jasper, I feel so blessed to have known you. You have taught me so much, you're my best friend and I cherish every moment we have together. Please trust me when I say this okay; I will never regret you…ever."

"Then what are you trying to say?" I ask while pulling her hands into mine, not caring that the teacher is watching us.

"I just can't help but to wonder that I've ruined things for you by being in your life."

"If anything Bella you have made it better," She pulls her hand away while sighing.

"Jasper why can't you see it? Yes I helped you with your thirst issue but I know you would've been able to do it on your own…without me."

"No you're wrong, I've always needed you," She sighs again.

"That's sweet of you Jasper but you and I know that I've wrecked something's in your life" What was she talking about? My life would be in devastation if it wasn't for her…I owe her everything.

"Bella you're not making any sense, do you know how much you have changed my life for the good?"

"What about Alice Jasper? You two would still be together if it wasn't for me." I couldn't suppress my laugh.

"Bella is that what this is all about?" She nods her head. "Alice and I were bound to break up, please don't feel like it's your fault."

"How could I not Jasper? I know I've been selfish with you when you should've been with your wife."

"You were not being selfish at all."

"But you're going to work things out right?" I knew this conversation would come up again.

"It's not as easy as it sounds Bella,"

"Well do you love her?"

"Yes, I will always love her but-"

"But nothing Jasper. When you love someone, you will do anything to be with them; to fix things so they will work. Living your life in regret because you didn't make that move, will make your life a living hell," This must be a sign; this has to be a sign. If I don't tell Bella today, how I really feel then I could losing her forever.

"You're right Bella,"

"I am? Wow that was easier than last time." She laughed.

"Today I will express my feelings." She hugged me and I closed my eyes from the sheer enjoyment of her touch.

"Any woman would be lucky to be on the receiving end of your feelings Jasper, even Alice," even you?

The bell rand just as Bella pulled away from me, we had spent the whole class talking about this. The conversation only solidified the fact that I need to tell Bella that I love her before it is too late. We walked to lunch together and met the others at the door. I guess I wasn't doing a good job at hiding my thoughts because Edward was sending me harsh waves of anger and disappointment.

"Jasper can I talk to you alone for a minute?" His eyes were closed and his hands in fists.

"Actually I was going to help Bella with something." I looked over at Bella with pleading eyes.

"It's really vital to my learning that Jasper help me with this Edward." He frowned.

"Please Bella? I'm sure it won't take longer than three minutes." She bit her lip.

"Well than I guess it's fine."

"Thank you," he turned to me and waved forward.

Once we were far enough for anyone to hear us, Edward punched one of the lockers; leaving a permanent dent in the surface.

"Just what do you think you're doing Jasper? Are you out of your mind?"

"Actually I think for the first time in a long time I'm in a perfect state of mind." He scoffs.

"What about Alice? How could you do this to her?"

"This has nothing to do with Alice."

"How can it not? She your wife for Christ's sake, I think that means she has a lot to do with this."

"Alice and I are-"

"Don't you dare say broken up! I just had a class with her earlier and she was telling me about how she's going to talk to you today."

"She can talk all she wants; it won't change how I feel,"

"And just what do you feel Jasper?"

"We wouldn't be here if you didn't know that Edward,"

"You do not love her," I couldn't keep calm anymore.

"You don't know anything Edward!" I hissed.

"Really? So I don't know that you're planning on telling Bella that you love her even though you're a married man? How do you think Bella will react to that? That she'll want to have an affair with you? That she'll want to be your mistress?"

"It's not going to be like that!"

"Then how Jasper? Because I don't see it working out any other way! Bella has one thing and one thing only on her mind and it's finding her true love, not indulging in your sick fantasies."

"Like I said you don't know anything."

"I may not know everything about Bella but I do know that she has morals, she isn't going to automatically swoon when you tell her you love her. How do you know if something like this won't cause her to sleep? You're not the only person who cares about her."

"I…"I just couldn't find the words to speak. I couldn't fathom what life would be without her.

But it looks like you have your mind made up; I really hope you don't grow to regret it." He pushes himself off the lockers and walks back to the cafeteria.

Why does Edward always have to do this? Why does he always add clarity to things? I love Bella with all my heart and I can't just forget about those feelings. I know that if I don't act now, the only thing that I am going to regret is not telling her in the first place. But what if Bella does react the way Edward said she would? Am I really asking Bella to be my mistress? MARRIED, yes, as long as am married then that is exactly what I am asking Bella to be. How could I forget such a major detail? I don't want Bella for her body but for everything that she is. I love her because she understands me, she knows how I'm feeling even before I do and she only looks forward with me. Everything about Bella makes my dead heart come alive, could I really pass up this chance just because I'm married? Can I let Alice ruin the possibility of Bella and I having a future?

BPOV

I'm pretty sure that Jasper didn't want to go and talk with Edward but I shouldn't be holding him back from anything that involves his family. Well at least Edward is back but what is taking Jasper so long? I wonder what it was they were talking about exactly. Whatever it was, Edward is still upset by it. I'm not sure if I should comfort him or not. He hasn't really made any advances toward me but his bond with me is still there.

"Is everything okay Edward?" He snapped open his eyes and turned to me.

"Everything…is fine." His voice proved different.

"You know you can talk to me about anything right?' he smiled weakly and took my hands into his but I did not pull away; it was a friendly gesture.

"Bella what do you do when you know someone is about to make one of the biggest mistakes of their lives" I slowly pull my hands away but smile.

"Well sometimes you have to let them learn from their own mistakes, especially when they have already refused your advice."

"That sounds logical but what if this mistake will hurt more than just this person, what if there are already people involved?"

"Is it a life or death situation?" he sighs.

"Not but something like that," I narrowed my eyes.

"What's going on Edward?"

"Bella I want you to know that we all care about you deeply and we consider you a part of our family."

"Edward," I warned. "What is going on? Where is Jasper?"

"Just remember that okay?" He turned away just as Jasper came over to sit down.

"Okay you better start talking," He furrowed his brows.

"Are you okay?" he asked me.

"I think I should be asking you that question."

"I'm fine Bella,"

"I know when you are lying Jasper, please just be honest with me." I said in my native language.

"Edward is just being his usual self that's all,"

"Are you sure? Because he was talking to me about some life and death situation," he rolled his eyes.

"You should know by now that Edward likes to over exaggerate everything" True.

Jasper refused to talk about Edward any longer so we spend the rest of lunch in silence. I did not want think about what Edward meant but I could not help but to imagine just what he could be hinting at. And after all of my ideas, they always came down to me. Whatever Edward was telling me about, had something to do with me. And I just know that whatever it is….it isn't going to end well.

The rest of the day went as it usually did, Nash helped me with my English and I paid attention. By then the worries of the conversation at lunch were gone, I was too excited about meeting Nash afterschool. I haven't forgotten about Jasper but I'm sure that this thing with Nash will only take a few minutes.

"Are you ready to go?" He sounded excited.

"Um I have to go see my teacher about something, how about I meet you at the car when I'm done?"

"I can come with you," He offered.

"No it's fine Jasper, really. I'll meet you outside in a few."

"Alright," he smiled.

I felt a little guilty for lying but my excitement overshadowed it. Finally I would be able to take Jasper out of his misery; he would never have to see Nash and we could have classes together. Where is Nash anyway? He was supposed to be here already. I open my locker and double check that everything I need is in my bag. When I close my lockers I can't help but to step back a bit. Standing beside my locker is Nash, grinning.

"Aw I didn't mean to scare you Bells,"

"It's Bella,"

"Well I kind of like that nick name don't you?" He steps closer to me.

"Not really, look Nash can we just do what we talked about?"

"Oh yea your payment for the test," He smirks.

"Exactly, what sort of payment do you want?" He steps so close to me that his smell of his body becomes overwhelming.

"The only kind a girl can provide." His body is physically touching mine now.

"You," I hold on to his arms which have somehow snaked around my waist. "Are violating my personal space."

"Hmm about that payment," I try pushing him off but he doesn't budge.

Before I have a chance to react, Nash's lips on mine and I'm standing there frozen. I can't seem to think clearly, not because I'm so intoxicated by the kiss but because it's wrong. Everything about Nash's lips moving on mine is wrong. Finally I come to my senses long enough to push a leering Nash away. I bring my hands up to my mouth and wipe away trace of Nash off of them. I can only think of how much better this would've been if had been with Jasper.

"Just what do you think you were doing?" He leans onto the locker and crosses his hands across his chest.

"You know it probably would've been more enjoyable if you had kissed back." I scoffed.

"Kissed back? Why on Earth would I have done that?" He rolls his eyes.

"Because you want me," I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"Want you? Nash I would barely consider us friends to say that I want you would be ridiculous."

"Ouch that hurts,"

"Believe whatever you want Nash, it doesn't make a difference to me," I start to walk away but he grabs my elbow. I jerk back, pin his arms around his back and slam him into a nearby locker. "Touch me again and you will regret it. Do you understand me?" He whimpers but I only tighten my hold. "Do you understand me?"

"Yes…I do…just please…agh… let go of my arm.

I release him and continue to walk down the hall. I can't believe I kept Jasper waiting for this. I walk out into the parking lot only to see that Jasper's car is gone. Did he leave me? Dread washes over me; what if he is hurt somewhere?

JPOV

She lied to me….Bella lied to me to be with Nash……

Okay so what do you guys think? OMG Jasper saw the kiss, i wonder how he will react. Let me know in your reviews what you think is going on. Thanks again!