Before my A/Ns, this chapter was 500 words.
And once you are done reading it, you will know why.
I do not own big time rush.
I stood next to the hospital bed, my stomach churning. The doctors were due to turn off Kendall's life support.
I sat next to him on the bed, and he didn't change. I squeezed his hand, nothing.
I dropped my head on his chest and sobbed. I wasn't the only one. Carlos was crying quietly on James shoulder, who was consistently wiping his eyes. Logan patted y back, but his eyes were shining; watering. Jackie and Megan stood in the corner, facing the window. I think I heard Jackie crying.
The door opened, and a doctor stepped in.
"Okay," he said grimly. "We have authorized that Kat, James, Logan, and Carlos each get a minute alone with Kendall before we turn off his life support."
I stood outside, hugging Jackie, as Logan, James and Carlos rotated going in the room for a minute. When it was my turn, I closed the door behind me, and sat next to Kendall.
"Kendall," I said, wiping my eyes. "I know you can't hear me, or maybe you can, I don't know. But I need to say thank you. If it wasn't for you, I would still be alone and shy, I would still be in my room, I would still be unable to speak in public, I would still be crying every night in private. You changed my life so much; I'm forever in your debt. I wish you could be awake to hear me. I also need to say sorry, because if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't be here. You wouldn't be hurt, you wouldn't be in a coma, you wouldn't even be in this city. I'm so sorry, Kendall. I love you so much. I love you with my life, and I don't know what I'm going to do when you're gone. I don't know how I'm going to stop crying, I don't know how I'm going to go to school, or leave my house, or sleep at night. If there was something to... Stop them. To keep them from flipping the switch. From turning you off life support. Kendall... I-" I was cut off as the doctor tapped on the window and tapped his wrist. I was out of time. I gave him the 'one second' finger and turned back to Kendall. "Kendall, I'm never going to forget you." I said, and I leaned down and kissed his cold lips.
It felt like slow motion as Logan and James pulled me off of him and the doctor stepped towards the machine.
Suddenly lost, scared and angry, I screamed, "No! No, Kendall!" I rushed for the doctor, but Logan grabbed my arm, and James grabbed the other. They held me back as the doctor reached for the machine.
"Kat, stop." James said.
"Please, Kat." Logan said.
"No! Don't, please!" I begged ignoring them, tears pouring down my face. "Nooo!"
I couldn't breathe. The doctor's hand was reaching for a switch, a switch that said 'off.'
He flipped the switch, and the lines on the machine went flat.
Shortness! I'm so sorry, guys. I had to do it.
Don't worry, though. I know some of you are probably freaking out.
Don't be.
It's okay.
Keep Breathing.
It's okay.
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