The ending of my favorite scene :(

"Uh- she is fine sir," Cadet Blake says for his silent girl.

Something is going on.

Bellamy's eyes are open wider than usual,

his twitching is worse than ever,

and his hands clenched in fists, like someone just tazed him, he tells Commander Shumway, "I-uh-scanned her already."

Now I know something is not right.

Bellamy was not one to lie, especially to a high-ranking official.

"You don't have a scanner on you," Shumway notices.

What a moron. I roll my eyes.

Now he was in some deep shit, "ID please," the Commander asks Bellamy's girl again, and this time, with feeling.

"No please- she needs to leave," Bellamy looks like someone kicked his mother or someone was going to say Float her.

I knew, from the get-go, this was not going to end with anyone getting away.

I was ready to walk over there, but Slater held me back, "what are you doing?"

I look at Paul's dark eyes and know that I would cross a line with helping my lover, but I do want to come to Bellamy's aid, "he is going to get in trouble."

"So?"

I give Paul a pissed off look, "what the hell Paul? We have to help."

Bellamy keeps pleading, "please," he is getting louder, "as a fellow guardsman, just walk out of here and I will give you anything you want. Anything." Bellamy looked like he meant it. That scares me, really scares me. Now I know whatever he is trying to do will send him straight into deep space.

Slater sees this too, but it is his girlfriend that says, "Looks like you have some competition Nia," said Becca, who was less sleepy by the moment, "shutup Becca," said Slater for me.

I must have missed something because Octavia goes running, "stop her," and two guards get Octavia.

At first, I didn't know what to believe,

but I would soon realize, after news broke out, that Octavia; Blake's girlfriend, was in fact his little sister.

"Oh my god," I had been so wrong, but that did not make me feel any better.

No one had siblings on the Ark.

That made Octavia Blake's existence enough for her to become a Delinquent.

Thankfully, Blake didn't receive her fate.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He looks up at me, like he doesn't understand, "why didn't you tell me about Octavia? That you had a sister?"

"Why would you care," Bellamy fires right back, sitting on his bed, his eyes bloodshot red, and his knees jittering like an insane person.

"Because we don't lie to each other," I say when we are alone in his room now.

"I can't right now Nia-" he drops his head into his hands, pulling on his hair, I have to stop him from doing worse.

I feel like I am making it harder for him, seeing him like this, and for once I am trying not to be a complete bitch to him, "I am sorry Bellamy, this situation isn't fair," I say, because honestly that is the best I can do right now, "is there anything I can do for you?"

He doesn't answer me. I don't blame him.

They just took his sister, and than his mother shortly after.

They would Float his mother later on today, and that was reason enough for his sour attitude.

I was here to make sure he didn't do something he would regret. And so I had followed him, cleaned up a bit, fed him something that he refused to eat, and made sure he didn't do anything to warrant his arrest, get him Floated too, "we will find a way to get Octavia out of there," I say feeling hopeless, because I have no idea how, "I can pull some strings, get Major Walden to-"

He attacks, "Doesn't your boyfriend get you for this stuff?"

I blamed it on his depression, he just lost two of the closest people, I remind myself, so I humor him, "What boyfriend?"

He sighs, and puts his head in his hands, not ready, unmoving, a fucken zombie.

"What are you saying Bellamy?"

"That I don't want your pity Nia," he finally says it, and must have seen my worried face, "and you caring about me. You should go to Walden. Leave me alone."

"Bellamy," I tried to move his shaking hands from his face.

"Leave me alone!"

I had to take a step back, he looked ready to punch something, "So that's it, that's how this is going to go," I lean back against the metal front door, "everything that has happened won't change who you are. It won't change what we-"

"Change what we...what?" Bellamy says, "when we fucked," the word sounded wrong coming from him, "when I see you, I see a distraction."

Slater's warning about Bellamy Blake rings in my ear, "I should have protected my sister, I should have been with her instead of, of fucking around with you," he tells me standing and giving me his worst glare yet, "I regret ever meeting you."

The words hurt worse than I imagined.

I am already crying.

There is nothing left for me to give him now.

Fuck him.

I hope his face freezes in space.

"You don't have to tell me twice," I say and push the button of the front door, leaving Bellamy and stripping myself of any connection I once felt for him.

A month later he would become Janitor Blake.

He was never the same.