Shit I'm sorry. Totally forgot its Monday today. If I didn't get a review I would have probably not updated again. So so sorry. While I'm apologizing anyway I'm also sorry for not posting last Monday. I wish I have a good excuse but I don't. I was just too lazy to do anything. Well more lost the will to do anything again then actual laziness. Anyway really sorry for everything but here you go now. Hope you like it.
Something woke me up.
Blinking repeatedly to wake up a little more I propped myself on my elbows and looked around. Feeling confused. Wait what woke me up?
"It's just the bell love." I heard Magnus's voice and my head snapped up to look at where he is. Our eyes meeting just as he got up from the armchair.
He gave me a smile but I was still too confused and sleepy to think straight. "What am I doing sleeping on a couch?" I asked looking around once more.
"You're tired darling. You didn't get much sleep last night because Jace woke you up so early. So you feel asleep" He said, walking towards the front door to answer it since the bell was still buzzing.
I blushed. "Sorry. You should have woken me up."
"I don't mind. You really did look tired. And besides you look adorable while you sleep." He looked at me over his shoulder with a sly smile making me blush even more which only made him chuckle.
I groaned and pulled the pillow so that it was covering my red face. He really needs to stop making me blush.
There was a sound of the door opening and the buzzing of the doorbell finally stopped.
"Darling it's for you." Magnus called back.
I sat up in shock. Wait what? Me? This isn't even my apartment.
My suddenly rapid heartbeat calmed down as I looked towards the door and my gaze landed on Izzy. Oh.
"Hey Izzy." I greeted her as I sat up a little bit normally, so I wasn't stretched on the couch anymore, and scratched the back of my neck not knowing what to do. "What are you doing here?"
"Well I had a feeling you wouldn't be in your apartment. And now I see I'm right." She smiled at me, walking inside as Magnus closed the door behind her.
"Love the apartment by the way." She turned to Magnus for a moment.
"Why thank you." He smiled back at her and I shifted awkwardly in my seat. "Is there a reason why you wanted to see me?"
"Actually there is." She said flopping herself down on the couch next to me as Magnus went back to the armchair. "I can't stay long but I just wanted to let you know that I just got a call from Jace. A very confused and worried Jace." She looked at me pointedly and my blood turned cold the second the words left her lips. My heart picking up the pace again.
Jace? What? No! He can't suspect anything can he? The mere thought made me start to panic.
"Hey hey breathe." She patted my back. "He doesn't know anything." I relaxed a bit at that but then froze up again at her next words. "Yet. But he's not stupid Alec. If you keep going like this he really will start suspecting something for real. Don't you think you should maybe tell him?"
I looked at her with wide shocked eyes. Is she crazy?
"Don't look like that. It's just a suggestion." Her eyes wondered towards Magnus for a second and I suddenly felt bad.
I'm not acting fair. Magnus is here and we're dating and he loves me but yet I'm acting like this. It can't feel good for him to be kept a secret like this.
Shit. I'm a really bad person; I thought, shirking into myself a bit.
Izzy of course noticed my sudden change.
"Look I know you don't want anyone to know about you but just…Just think about it ok?" She said softly with a soothing hand on my shoulder before standing up. "It won't change anything between you two. Trust me on this."
For a moment I wanted to. I wanted to believe in her words but then that moment passed and I was back to being scared and closeted again.
"Well anyway I have to go. I was supposed to already be at work. It was nice seeing you again Magnus." She sent another smile his way before walking towards the door. "I'll let myself out. Goodbye boys."
"Bye Isabelle." Magnus said with a smile but as I looked at him I saw that it wasn't genuine enough. It looked a little forced. Just enough for me to notice.
This made me feel guilty again and I bit my lip as I looked at him. Not knowing what to say.
"Magnus I'm sorry." I blurted out not able to stop myself. Not knowing what else to do.
He looked at me in confusion. "Sorry for what?"
"For making you keep us a secret. For being so scared to tell anyone. I know you don't like it and Im sorry." I said looking down at the floor.
I wish I was braver. I can't even come clean to my own brother. And it took him almost ending up in jail for me to tell Izzy. By The Angel I'm such a coward.
There was silence and then some rustling until I felt a warm hand cherish my cheek lightly, making me look up and come only inches away from those beautiful gold and green eyes. They looked considerably softer now. It only made me feel worse because he never seems to stay mad at me. Or even get mad at me. He should.
"It's ok darling. Don't worry. I can wait." He smiled. This time genuine. "Now come." He took my hands in his and pulled me to my feet. "Go change." He pulled me to his bedroom where there were more than just a few of my clothes in his closet.
I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. "Are we going somewhere?"
"Yes." He answered simply throwing some clothes my way. "You are too stressed out lately so were going out. I know just the way to make you relax."
"I don't-"
He cut me off. "And no you cannot get out of it." He said sternly. "So get dressed."
I looked down at the clothes not liking what I had in my hands but still did what I was told.
I mean how bad can it be?
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Am I forgiven? Hope so. Did you like it? The next one should be fun because well its Magnus after all. It was supposed to be in this one but I decided to torture you a bit instead.
Anyway sorry for the long wait again. Hope you don't hold it against me. So please…
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