Even the best fall down sometimes,
Even the stars refuse to shine,
Out of the back you fall in time,
I sometimes find you and I collide.
Sometimes, when he looks at Derek and knows how hard the other man has to work to trust him, Aaron wishes that he had told Derek about his own childhood on that day he discovered the other man's deep dark secret. He's left it too late now – he's convinced he has – because to tell Derek now would suggest that he hadn't trusted him before. He doesn't know how to tell the younger man that sometimes the mere thought of his childhood leaves him wanting to knock boxes off tables and shout too. Derek's always been so much better at showing emotion, at knowing when a heart on the sleeve moment is both necessary and even commendable. One day, Aaron hopes, he will find the words. He will tell Derek his secret. He owes the man that much at least.