Morg: Heyo! I'm sorry guys but this story does have to end. I have had so much fun writing it, but I know that I can't keep it up forever. Not when things are going so great! I hope you enjoy the last few chapters!

~Psych 101~

Allen wasn't going to lie to himself and say that he wasn't nervous as he paced the front room of the house he'd grown up in with Miranda. They weren't far from campus, being that Miranda lived there all year round. Allen had opted to take a dorm so that he didn't have to make the drive, and so that he wouldn't have to bother Miranda for those rides. Allen might have been old enough but he didn't know how to drive. And buses weren't always the easiest things to take.

At the moment, he was nervous because Kanda was on his way over to spend a few days with him and Miranda. Allen wasn't nervous because of Kanda, but because of Miranda. The woman had been the one seeing all of the girls that Kanda had been with before Allen had taken over. Allen's guardian already had a firm image in her mind of the kind of person that Kanda was. Allen had no idea if that was good or bad.

Biting at his lips, Allen moved back to the windows to look out and see if Kanda was making his way up to the house yet or not. There was no one outside. Sighing, Allen slumped down onto the couch just before Miranda entered the room. "He's late."

Smiling, Miranda couldn't help but pat Allen's shoulder before moving past him. "You do realize that it is snowing, right? I mean, the weather out there isn't the best. If he's late then it is probably because something that happened that is out of his control."

Allen let out another sigh before lolling his head over so that he could see Miranda where she sat in a chair. It was the perfect view for her clock that she brought home over the breaks because why leave it behind? "You know, I would have thought that maybe you wouldn't like him."

Lifting one of her eyebrows, Miranda held back her smile. "Who says I do like him?"

Groaning, Allen shifted to face the older woman better. He opened his mouth to say something but stopped as there was a knock on the door.

Almost falling on the floor in an attempt to get up quickly to open the door-Allen ignored Miranda laughing at him-Allen tried and failed to keep a grin off his lips. He peeked out the small window first to make sure that it really was Kanda on the other side before pulling it open with a giant smile on his face. "Kanda!"

With his arms open, Kanda waited for Allen to surge to him for a hug and a quick kiss. He knew that kisses had to be kept chaste when Miranda was around. "Hey! I missed you."

Unable to help the grin on his face, Allen pulled Kanda into his house by his wrist. "Miranda, this is Kanda."

Still seated in her chair, Miranda slowly turned to look at the male beside her charge. For a moment, she just took the sight of them in. Kanda looked flushed and nervous to be standing there with her just staring at him. Allen was just starting to fidget as Miranda finally smiled. "Hello, Kanda. I've heard so much about you. I'm also looking forward to getting to know you better."

Groaning, Allen tugged Kanda towards the stairs that led up to his room. There was a spare where Kanda was going to be sleeping, but it was right next door to Allen's room, which he was glad for. Miranda was further down the hall and that was just perfect. "Come on, Kanda, I'll show you where you're going to be staying."

Taking the chance to nod at Miranda, Kanda allowed for Allen to drag him up a short flight of stairs to a hallway. "Hey, uh, Allen?"

Turning, Allen pulled Kanda into a much deeper kiss before hugging him again. With his face buried into Kanda's neck, Allen answered, "What?"

With his spirits rising, Kanda almost didn't want to ask his question. "What did…? What did she mean back there?"

Pulling back, Allen looked into Kanda's face before shrugging one shoulder. "Miranda was doing all the therapy before I took over. Then again, I have mentioned you to her, so who really knows."

Kanda wanted to melt straight through the floor and die. He'd made a terrible impression on Allen's beloved guardian without even meeting the woman. Great, just great.

Without the ability to melt away, Kanda settled for a groan. "Great."

Noticing the lack of enthusiasm in Kanda's word, Allen let out another grin. "Don't worry, I've been telling her about how good you are to me. I'm sure she doesn't think too badly of you."

"That doesn't really make me feel better."

Allen just laughed as he pulled Kanda to a bedroom door. "This is your room. Mine is that one. Miranda was not comfortable with the idea of us sharing and I wasn't going to argue since she'd already agreed to let you come over."

If sleeping in another room meant that Miranda might possibly like him a little bit more, Kanda would do it. It wasn't like he and Allen slept together a whole lot anyways. Only when neither of them had something going on the following morning and they had time to snuggle before getting up. "That's fine. A room right next to yours is far better than being in a whole different city."

Allen couldn't have agreed more. "I'm so glad that you're here. I mean, I'm never bored when it's just me and Miranda, but this is different and exciting for me!"

Dropping his bag onto his bed, Kanda looked around the room while nodding. "I'm very glad to be here with you, Allen."

Throwing his arms around Kanda's neck once more, Allen pulled the other male in for another kiss. "Put your things away and take a breather. That's the bathroom right there across the hall. We'll have to share it, but I'm sure it'll be fine. Come downstairs when you're ready. Miranda and I already made dinner. So when you're hungry then we'll eat."

Kanda watched Allen go while wondering how he'd managed to get so lucky. His plan had been such a stupid one that it should have never worked. And yet, he was at Allen's house for Christmas. There really was a God up there.

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Beaming at the male across from him while rubbing his foot against Kanda's leg, Allen turned to look back at Miranda. "So did you get all your grading down before Christmas this year?"

Rolling her eyes, Miranda took another bite of food before deciding on her answer. "Nope. I was pretty busy during the beginning of the semester and have felt like I've been trying to just catch up since then."

Kanda froze for a second. He was pretty sure without being absolutely sure that Miranda was referencing his dastardly deeds making an influx in the amount of students the resident psychologist on campus had to see. "Hopefully there isn't much left for you to do."

Smiling again, Miranda shook her head. "You know, I'm getting a lot more done now. Hopefully that doesn't change."

Allen just kept smiling. He wasn't entirely sure why Kanda looked a little pale, but he was so happy that his boyfriend was there that he didn't pay much attention to it. Maybe he was still just cold from his trip. "After dinner we were going to light a fire and sit in the living room for a while. How does that sound?"

Turning his attention on Allen, Kanda forced out a smile. He wasn't sure if he wanted to spend more time with Miranda just yet. The woman was definitely judging him. "I think that sounds great."

"Good," Miranda said as she stood. "Then I can finish some more of my grading while we chat."

Allen smiled and Kanda forced himself to swallow. He felt like he was facing an executioner.

XXX

"I'm telling you, Allen. I've never felt so afraid of someone in my entire life."

Laughing a bit, Allen snuggled further into Kanda's side on the couch. "You're afraid of Miranda?"

Kanda pressed himself closer to his boyfriend. "She's scary!"

Thankful that his guardian had finally decided to call it a night, Allen let out another soft laugh. "I promise you that she's not scary at all! I think she even likes you."

Kanda, on the other hand wasn't so sure. "So we have two days until Christmas. What are we doing tomorrow?"

Looking up into Kanda's eyes, Allen pointed without looking at their tree. "We didn't finish decorating so you're going to help me do that tomorrow."

Perfectly okay with that plan, Kanda grinned before leaning down to press a kiss to Allen's lips. "Then we should get to bed soon. It is getting late and we don't want to sleep too long tomorrow and miss most of the day."

Allen thought about pouting, but he was more than okay with going to bed so that he could wake up and do more things with Kanda the following day. "I'm sure you're tired from getting here. Give me another kiss and we'll go to bed."

One kiss might have before four or five, but Kanda was not going to complain.

XXX

Laughing, Allen hung another ornament on Kanda instead of the tree. He was having far too much fun, but seeing his boyfriend just smile and shake his head, Allen knew he wasn't going to stop any time soon. "I still say they look better on you!"

"I'm not a tree, though!"

Giggling some more, Allen wrapped his arms around Kanda from behind. "I'm really glad that you aren't."

Turning his head so that he could place a kiss on Allen's cheek, Kanda grinned. "Me too, so stop decorating me like one."

Allen giggled again and decided that the next few ornaments that he hung would go on the tree, but then he'd get Kanda again.

Noticing that Allen was trying to be sneaking, Kanda waited until the last second and then made his move. Pulling Allen into his arms, he laughed as they fell back onto the couch, missing a few empty boxes and some not so empty boxes. "You know, staying with you has been a lot of fun."

"This is only your first day here! You might change your mind."

Shaking his head, Kanda pressed a few open mouth but chaste kisses onto Allen's face to make the other male squirm. "No, I don't think so. I don't think living with you would ever make me wish that I didn't."

Allen stilled in Kanda's arms for a moment to just look up into those eyes. "You like living with me?"

Swallowing, Kanda nodded. He'd been planning to wait until after Christmas to ask, but the moment seemed right. "Allen, when we start the next semester, do you want to share a dorm? You could switch with Lavi and he could have yours by himself if you want to take his room."

Searching Kanda's gaze to make certain that the other male wasn't kidding, Allen slowly licked his lips. "I'm not saying no. I want you to understand that right now. I'm not saying no, but I would like to think about it, okay?"

That response was better than Kanda could have hoped for. "Of course! I don't want to pressure you into anything. Not now and not ever. You don't have to decide until later and even if you decide you don't want to, then that's fine. It won't change our relationship."

Smiling again, Allen leaned in for more kisses. These weren't nearly as light as they should have been and it took Miranda coming into the room and clearing her throat to have the two males move away from each other and finish their task.

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"So what do you guys usually do on Christmas Eve?"

Allen shrugged his shoulders before turning to look back at Kanda. He was cooking a bit of food quick so that they could have dinner. Miranda was currently holed up in her office in an attempt to fly through the last little bit of grading that she had left to do. She wanted it all out of the way for the following day. "We usually drive around and look at Christmas lights but I don't think Miranda can spare the time this year."

"Well," Kanda said from his spot at the table. "I might not be able to drive, but we could bundle up and go walk around if you want to."

Grinning again, Allen couldn't believe how happy he was that Kanda was there. Of course, they'd done some of the cutsie dating stuff while still on campus, but Allen felt that Christmas was just perfect with Kanda there. "That's sounds really great."

Kanda returned the grin before digging into the food that Allen set before him. The food disappeared quickly, but then it always did when Allen was involved so Kanda didn't pay it any mind. Soon enough, they were putting on jackets, scarves, hats and gloves. Kanda would never tell him, but he thought Allen was the most adorable human in existence when he wasn't looking all poufy from all the layers. Seeing him like this just made Kanda want to squeal. He didn't though. Nope. He was manly and would hold it in until thinking about it alone in his room later.

Slipping his gloved hand into Kanda's Allen leaned close to the other male as they made their way outside. "I know the best way to go to see the houses that usually have the best lights. It is a bit of a walk, but I think it'll be worth it."

Getting to see the Christmas lights shining in Allen's eyes and kissing him in during a cold night was most definitely worth the walk.

XXX

They were cold. So cold that they were frozen all the way to their bones. At least, that's what Allen was planning on telling Miranda if his guardian happened to find them together in Kanda's bed. Allen was hoping that she wouldn't, but one could never be too sure whether or not Miranda was going to get up in the middle of the night to go check on her clock and then hear them talking and laughing and open the door. Allen hoped she was sleeping.

"Your feet are freezing! Get them off my leg!"

Giggling, Allen pressed his toes harder against Kanda's calf. It wasn't like the other male was really trying to get him to stop doing it anyways. "Make me!"

Kanda gave a light growl before rolling over so that Allen was trapped beneath him and pinned to the bed. "Try it now!"

Loving the fact that they were having a fake fight while whispering and laughing, Allen struggled a little before pretending to give up. "Fine, but you'll have to give me a kiss to make me stop."

Rolling his eyes, Kanda dipped his head down to kiss Allen. It was fast and light and not at all what the other male wanted. Kanda was very much aware of that. "There. So stop."

Shaking his head, Allen tried as hard as he could not to grin. "Nu uh! That doesn't count at all. I wouldn't even say that was a kiss."

"Then what would you call it?"

"A peck. Nothing more than a peck. I'm a bit disappointed actually."

Kanda chuckled before leaning down so that his mouth was closer to Allen's. His breath was skimming the other male's lips as he spoke. "So what would you count as a kiss?"

Allen felt the mood change instantly. One minute he was grinning and the next he was biting back a moan. "One with tongue."

Surging his head down, Kanda took a second to lick and suck at Allen's lips before gaining the access that the other male said was required. Their tongues tangled together and Kanda felt his hold on Allen slipping. Not that it mattered. All Allen did was wrap his arms around Kanda's shoulders and dig his fingers into his hair to pull him down harder.

Dropping his weight, Kanda bit back a moan as he felt the beginnings of an erection beneath Allen's thin boxers. He was suddenly very glad that all either of them were wearing was their t-shirts and boxers. "Allen."

Pulling back a bit, Allen panted as he stared up into Kanda's blown pupils. "What?"

"We should stop."

Smiling, Allen ran one of his hands down Kanda's chest to play with the skin on his stomach. He slipped his fingers beneath the loose fabric to have better access. "You say that a lot, but I don't think you ever really want to."

Groaning, Kanda shuddered beneath Allen's touch. "I never want to stop when it comes to you, but I also won't ever do something that you don't like."

Leaning up, Allen places a few not so chaste kisses to Kanda's lips. "I like this."

Moaning this time, Kanda clenched his fists into the bedding as Allen's hand suddenly trailed south and slipped beneath the band of his boxers. He wasn't touching Kanda's cock, but he was close and it was tantalizing. "Not… Not fair."

Laughing a bit breathlessly, Allen leaned up for another kiss. "Then make it fair."

Kanda did just that by moving backwards so that he could pull up Allen's shirt and lick and suck on all the skin that was exposed as he did so. Once he reached the other male's nipples, Kanda made sure to play with them for a bit before moving onto those delectable collarbones.

Writhing on the bed, Allen kept his fingers tangled into Kanda's hair. He was biting at his cheeks and lips in order not to make too much noise. No way did he want Miranda coming in that room now. "Kanda."

Hushing the other male with another kiss, Kanda let his hand slip into Allen's boxers. He didn't waste time with teasing like the other male had done to him. Instead, Kanda took Allen's dick in his hand and pumped. His boyfriend was already half hard and Kanda wanted him to come for him. "Such a pretty boyfriend I have."

Whimpering, Allen stuck some of his own fingers into his mouth in an attempt to keep quiet.

The sight of Allen fighting with his own pleasure made Kanda's dick twitch within his pants. "I want to try something new tonight, baby. Is that okay?"

"What do you want… ooh! Do?"

Smirking, Kanda moved forward to kiss the other male again. This time he dipped his tongue in and out of Allen's mouth without allowing for Allen to actually suck on it. "I want to that to your ass."

Allen froze.

For a moment, Kanda thought he'd pushed too far. "Allen?"

Suddenly, Allen was sitting up and pulling Kanda into his lap. "Are you sure?"

"I know I'm sure, but we don't have to. You can always say no to anything. I really don't mind."

"Kanda…" Allen trailed off as he looked away from the other male. He wasn't entirely sure how to say what he wanted to say so he said the truth. "I… I've been thinking about you doing that to me. I've been touching myself, too. Kanda, I… Please?"

Kanda thought he was going to come in his shorts. He was so turned on hearing that Allen touched himself while thinking about Kanda doing naughty things to him. "Turn around, Baby. Put that pretty ass in the air and bite on the pillow. I'll make you feel so good."

Moving quickly, Allen did exactly as Kanda told him to. He trusted his boyfriend completely. "I'm not… I don't want to have sex. Just your tongue and fingers, okay?"

Kanda hadn't been planning on anything more than that. So it was easy for him to lean down and kiss the backs of Allen's shoulders. He helped get the other male's shirt off of him before stripping out of his own. "Of course, Allen. Whatever you want is what we'll do."

Biting on the pillow as Kanda's hands skimmed down his back, Allen was thankful that he had the fabric in his mouth for when his boxers were suddenly pulled down and Kanda was mouthing at one of his ass cheeks. It shouldn't have been sexy. It shouldn't have felt so good, but it did and it was.

Listening to Allen moan when all he was doing was touching the other male was enough to have Kanda leaving wet spots in his boxers. He was going to come untouched at the rate that they were going. Slowly, he worked his way towards Allen's pink little whole. He made sure to run his finger across it so that Allen knew that he was gonna start touching him there before licking at the rim.

Holding Allen still so he wouldn't accidently buck him off, Kanda licked at his boyfriend's hole a few more times before starting to push his tongue in. Allen was so tight, and though the taste wasn't exactly clean, it wasn't terrible either. This was intimate and Kanda was never going to complain.

Allen did his absolute best to not moan as loudly as he wanted to. Kanda was doing amazing things with his tongue. It felt so good. And then he slipped a finger in and Allen was squirming all over again.

Waiting for the other male to get used to the intrusion, Kanda shifted his fingers around in an attempt to find that place inside of Allen that he knew would make the other male feel so good. Once he felt that Allen had loosened up a bit, Kanda began to pump his finger in and out without stopping with his tongue and sucking occasionally against Allen's plump ass cheeks.

With his vision white, Allen let out a half scream. He bite down hard on the pillow, but he could feel Kanda chuckle against his spit slick skin before that same place was touched. "Kanda!"

"Shhh, I was looking for that, baby. It will make you feel so good."

Allen did not doubt Kanda for a second. With some of his fingers hitting that spot within him every time Kanda thrust them in, and the other hand sneaking around to cup his balls and squeeze his cock, Allen couldn't even think. He was certain that Kanda was trying to kill him by using pleasure, but he wasn't about to ask him to stop.

Feeling Allen tighten beneath him, Kanda worked harder to make Allen come. Once he did, he made sure to press hard against Allen's prostate to make his orgasm last. He had Allen panting for several minutes before he finally started coming back into himself. "Allen?"

Groggy and ready to sleep, Allen let out a hum.

Laughing, Kanda moved so that he could clean Allen up with one of their shirts before tugging the other male's boxers back onto him. He cuddle Allen to his chest before kissing his head. "Merry Christmas."

Allen was already asleep, but he was smiling.

XXX

Laughing, Allen unwrapped a present from Miranda. It was a small watch and it looked perfect. "Thank you!"

Miranda nodded before moving to get up. "Boys, I'm gonna get something started for lunch. You finish exchanging your presents and then come and join me."

Kanda nodded while Allen put his watch on. With a grin, he moved closer to place a kiss to Allen's cheek. "I'm sorry that I couldn't get you anything expensive."

Smiling, Allen turned so that he could kiss Kanda on the lips. "Honestly, having you here is good enough for me."

For a moment, Kanda just sat there with his face very close to Allen's. Then he realized that he had a stupid grin on his face and he sat back while clearing his throat. "Here."

Taking the present that Kanda all but shoved at him, Allen decided not to tease his boyfriend for now. The other male already had red cheeks. Instead, he opened the paper to find a journal. "Kanda! This is perfect! I love it!"

Flushing even more, Kanda ducked his head before peeking up at Allen. "Really? I'm glad. I spent a while looking for something perfect for you. And I know you want to be a psychologist so I thought a notebook would be perfect. It's so you can take notes if you start doing more sessions."

Moving quickly, Allen pulled Kanda into a hug before smothering his face with kisses. "I love it so much!"

Kanda was so happy about how Allen liked his present that he barely paid attention to the jacket that he opened from Allen. It made him laugh since he knew that Allen had gotten it for him as a joke towards their first date. Kanda had been so cold that day but had pretended that he wasn't. Now he wouldn't have to pretend because it would make Allen happy to see him wearing the jacket. "I love this, too."

Allen smiled again before sharing a kiss with his boyfriend and getting up to go into the kitchen and show Miranda what he'd gotten. "Come on, Kanda! I bet you're hungry!"

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Kanda really didn't want to do what he was about to do. However, he knew that he should. If he and Allen were going to be living together then he wanted no secrets between them. Plus, if someone else found out what Kanda was about to explain and then Allen heard it from them rather than Kanda then it would be a much bigger mess.

Taking a deep breath, Kanda knocked on Allen's door. He only had a few hours before he had to leave to head back to his own home, but he was going to make them count. "Allen, I need to talk to you. Do you have a few minutes?"

Turning, Allen smiled at Kanda as he came into his bedroom. "I have more than a few minutes for you."

"God, I hope so."

Allen was a bit confused when Kanda made him sit on the bed. He was even more confused when Kanda looked extremely nervous. Then he started to understand. He understood a lot of things as Kanda explained. It was like pieces of a puzzle he didn't know existed were suddenly fit together. "Kanda?"

Kneeling before Allen with his eyes closed, Kanda dared to hope that Allen wouldn't be angry enough with him to break up with him. "I'm so sorry."

"You did it on purpose? You hurt all those girls in the hopes that it would catch my attention?"

Swallowing hard, Kanda looked down at the floor before nodding his head.

Pulling his hands free of the hold that Kanda had on them, Allen moved further back on his bed so he wasn't so close to the male on the floor. "I would like it if you left me alone for a little while."

Jerking back as if he'd been hit, Kanda nodded once more before getting up. "Allen, I do love you. I mean it. Before it was just a crush, an infatuation, but I love you so much now. Please remember that."

Allen didn't say anything as Kanda walked out of the door to his room.

XXX

Miranda was confused. Here she had Kanda moping in the living room while Allen was nowhere to be seen. The two had been constantly together since Kanda had arrived. "What did you do?"

Flinching, Kanda looked up at Allen's guardian. "I told him the truth about why I did what I did."

Nodding, Miranda patted the couch. "It was stupid of you."

"I know, if I could change it I would. I would go back into the past, at the beginning and start all over again with just approaching him directly."

Snorting, Miranda waved her hand through the air. "Not that, you shouldn't have told him. Allen would have been much happier not knowing. I mean, I wasn't going to tell him."

Kanda wasn't sure if he was more shocked about the fact that Miranda had figured him out of if it was because she thought him stupid for telling Allen the truth. "What?"

Laughing, Miranda nudged Kanda's shoulder with her elbow. "Like a true psychologist wouldn't be able to piece that together. All I had to do was walk down campus one time and notice you staring at him longingly with some new girl on your arm. I knew then that I was going to have to help you out, so I put Allen in the position that I put him in."

"You mean you were on my side the whole time?!"

Shrugging, Miranda turned to see the time on her clock. "Not entirely. I didn't really approve because you were being a huge jerk, but I also knew that there was no one else that would ever look at Allen that way. And he's so far into his own mind sometimes that he doesn't notice how others around him feel."

Dropping his head to look at his hands in his lap, Kanda gave a sniff. He really didn't want to cry but he felt like he might. "I don't know what to do now."

Smiling, Miranda leaned over to place a hand on Kanda's shoulder. "Go up there and say goodbye and then get your butt out of my house. I'll talk with Allen in a few days. Don't worry."

Kanda knew that he couldn't wait any longer anyhow. He had to go or he was going to miss his bus out of town. "Thanks."

"Don't mention it. I mean that."

Smiling just a bit, Kanda scrubbed at his face with his hands before clearing his throat and heading for the stairs. He stopped outside of Allen's door and knocked, but he didn't open it. "Allen? I have to leave now. I just wanted to say goodbye."

The door opened and Allen looked out. He'd been crying and his eyes were red and he knew it, but he wanted to see Kanda before he left. "I… You have to give me time. We're not breaking up. Not yet, anyways. But give me time, okay?"

Nodding, Kanda tried to smile and failed. He knew that Allen had every right to dump him. He wouldn't fight it either. "I just… Don't forget that I love you, okay? Call me when you need something."

Allen nodded but didn't otherwise move.

Kanda turned to leave but stopped when Allen called his name.

"Kanda, I don't want to live with you this next semester. Stay with Lavi and I'll keep my place."

The tears that Kanda had been trying to hold back fell freely. He didn't turn around. There was no way that he wanted Allen to see them. Instead he nodded and then moved back down the hallway to grab his bag and tug on his new jacket and then his coat before heading out into the cold. Miranda had been right. He should have never said anything.

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Morg: I'm sorry every! I'm so sorry that it could be happy forever! Two more chapters! Let's see if they make up!