This chapter is pretty long and some bits of it I'm not happy with but I decided to keep it this way and see what you think. Thank you for the reviews and alerts that this story has received, they truly touch my heart and I love every one. Anyway, I hope you enjoy and a Happy New Year to everyone!

"You know you want too" he smiled while Kate shook her head and slipped off the bed; holding her hands to her stomach as she groaned at a mixture of her husband's behaviour and the nausea she was feeling. "Come on Katie, you can't make me go on my own, I need you there" he begged, kneeling quickly in front of her before staring up at her and smiling before reaching across for the box that was resting on the end of the bed. It was the launch of his newest book and he had to attend the party that Gina that organised and he was desperate for her to come with him. "Please" he begged; her head shaking before she ran into their en-suite and slammed the door behind her.

"Look Rick, I understand that it's an important night for you but I don't feel well" she sighed as she slipped out of the bathroom a few moments later; her face rather flushed as she stared at her husband and crossed her arms across her chest. "Martha will be there tonight and so will Alexis and Ashley, you can tell me all about it when you come home" she whispered, kissing his cheek lightly before she slipped into bed and sighed; burying her head into the pillow as he watched her for a moment before nodding. It wasn't fair to make her come when she was feeling ill. She'd had bad days during her pregnancy with Oliver and he knew that she wanted to rest for the day and just relax; especially after the stress of the past week and the case she'd been involved in. The young boy who'd Kate had felt so bad about had in the end been stabbed by his mother who'd been high on both drugs alcohol and drugs at the time.

"I don't want to leave you when you're feeling like this" he sighed, sitting himself on the bed beside her before she looked up at him and smiled weakly. "I know how bad you feel sometimes; I've seen it and I don't want to have to leave you" he explained before she found his hand and held onto it tightly.

"I want you to go" she whispered, bringing his hand to her lips before she kissed it. "I want you to go and enjoy tonight; this is the book you're most excited about and I know you want to be at the launch! You've been excited about this for weeks" she explained before slowly standing and approaching his wardrobe. Opening it quickly, she smiled as she removed the suit he was wearing that evening and brought it to the bed. "Mr Castle, go and be the charming writer who I fell in love with tonight and then come home and hug me and tell me everything in that voice you read to me in" she smiled, kissing him gently before she re-entered the comfort of her bed; his eyes never moving off her.

"God I love you" he laughed before approaching the en-suite and turning once more to see her watching him with a small smile on her face. "God you're amazing" he admitted, leaning against the door frame as she rolled her eyes and relaxed back in the bed; her dark hair contrasting against the white pillow that it was flared out across.

"Go and change or you won't be going anywhere" she whispered, her eyes shutting as she heard him laugh gently at her comment.

"Maybe I don't want to go anywhere, maybe I want to spend the night with my wife" he suggested, his eyebrows rising as she opened her eyes and sat up; staring straight at him with the most serious expression on her face.

"Castle shower now" she announced simply, the seriousness in his voice making him nod before he quickly entered the bathroom and shut the door behind him; knowing in the end his wife was right like always.

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Watching as her husband dressed, Kate sighed as he turned and stared at her; waiting for her approval with his outfit. He was dressed classically; in a black tuxedo with a crisp white shirt and a black tie and when she stared at him she couldn't help but want him to take it off and join her in their bed for the rest of the evening. Nodding quickly, she slowly beckoned him over with her finger; not wanting to speak as exhaustion filled her body.

"You okay?" he asked, her head slowly nodding as he sat himself down on the edge of the bed and pressed a kiss to her forehead. "I'll miss you tonight detective" he admitted, her hand running to cup his cheek before she sighed and kissed him gently; not wanting to start something neither of them could finish. Straightening his tie, she smiled before she kissed his cheek and laced her fingers with his; their eyes locking for a moment before he turned his head to stare at the time. "I've got to go, I have to collect mother on the way".

"I know" she sighed, relaxing back in the bed as he shook his head and moved the blanket off her for a brief moment. "Rick I'm cold" she moaned, wanting to warmth of the blanket around her again. Laughing gently, he slowly moved her t-shirt up before he ran his fingers gently across the bare skin of her bump. "Rick" she whispered, feeling his lips on her skin causing her eyes to shut gently before her fingers ran through his hair. "You need to go".

"I had to say goodbye to my baby first" he smiled, kissing her gently as he ran a finger down her face. "And now that I've said goodbye to my wife, I can go" he laughed, her eyes rolling at him as he stood up and approached the door. "Call me" he begged, her head nodding gently before he turned to light off and the room fell into a darkness that she desperately needed.

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"So Kate's unable to join us tonight? I thought she might be joining us here because of a case or something" Martha asked as they stood in the busy room together; the redhead dressed in a green dress that the writer immediately identified as new and expensive. Something his mother was always proud to be seen in.

"She's not feeling one hundred per cent, she's had really bad morning sickness all day" he sighed after shaking hands with one of the men that he knew because of Gina. "I didn't want to leave her but you know Kate; life has to continue" he admitted, Martha nodding as she took a glass of champagne from a waiter and sighed. "She's had a tough week; there's been a really hard case involving a two year old boy that hit her badly. We ended up at Jim's for a while but he was excited to see her again; no matter the conditions" he explained to his mother, knowing that she knew something else was going on.

"Poor thing" the redhead sighed before Gina's voice began to echo throughout the room; the writer groaning at the familiar sound of his ex-wife. "Good luck darling, do us all proud" Martha smiled, kissing the writers cheek before she moved further into the crowd to get a good view.

"And now the man of the hour, Richard Castle" Gina smiled before moving away, the room filling with applause as the writer sighed and approached the stage when Gina had to been stood only moments ago. Clearing his throat, he slowly looked up at the crowd to find someone surprising looking back at him by the entrance. "Richard" the blonde hissed from behind him; forcing him to look away from the woman in the background to stare at the crowd of people in between them.

"Wow, what an amazing turnout" he smiled before staring the speech he'd prepared earlier on the book and how it had been his favourite to write. Falling silent for a moment, he watched as a couple of hands went into the hair; usually desperate reporters who needed to put something in with the publicity for the book within the newspapers. Choosing one man, he waited for the question to be asked.

"You dedicated the book not only to your wife Kate but also to Oliver. Who is this new addition to the dedication?" the man asked, forcing Rick to look up to find his eyes locking with the woman at the back of the hall.

"Earlier in the year, my wife and I lost our son Oliver. He was a stillborn and it was a shock to all of our family" he explained, not moving his eyes of the brunette who was biting into her lip at the back of the hall. "I'm sure you all noticed that my wife wasn't heavily pregnant and that we didn't have a baby with us when we went out and there's your answer" he explained as he looked down and stared at his wedding ring. "I wrote this book in dedication of our son to keep his memory living even though he never got a chance to make an impression on the world" he smiled, his eyes looking up again before he smiled weakly. "Kate, will you join me please?" he asked, the whole room turning in shock to see the brunette standing at the back of the room; a tear running down her cheek as she slowly moved forward through the crowd. He couldn't take his eyes off her. She walked calmly down the centre of the room, people slowly moving out of her way as she stared at him in confusion. She was dressed in a royal blue dress that flowed over her figure and unlike many of the clothes she'd been wearing recently; it didn't reveal the baby bump they both loved. Stepping up to join her husband, she smiled as his arms wrapped around her and he pressed a kiss to her forehead. "I'd like everyone here not to raise their glasses to my new book but rather to my wife, the wonderful Kate and also to our son Oliver" he sighed, the detective smiling weakly as she watched the crowd raise their champagne glasses before clapping to mark the end of their speech.

"Wonderful speech Richard, it was beautiful" Martha smiled before pressing a kiss to her sons cheek and moving to look at the detective beside him. "It's lovely to see you Kate, Richard told me you weren't coming" the redhead admitted, Kate shrugging as the older woman quickly hugged her close. "Smile, everyone in this room is thinking about your son" she whispered into Kate's ear before pressing a kiss to her cheek and moving away to leave the couple alone.

"You don't hate me for what I said? If I've made you upset or angry, I'm so sorry. I just didn't want to lie about him. People deserve to know and he doesn't deserve to be our secret; he's our son Kate no matter where he is" Rick admitted, shocking the detective by how much he was discussing Oliver. Slipping her arms around his neck, she slowly moved closer and pressed her lips to his before her forehead rested against his.

"It was a beautiful speech Rick, I'm glad I didn't miss it" she sighed, his arms wrapping around her as she sighed. "Rick is there any chance we can sneak out?" she asked, confusion covering his face as she bit into her lip and stared at him. "Just for an hour, I need to go somewhere and I don't want to go alone" the brunette explained as her husband took her hand and began to lead her towards the exit.

"Where are we going?" he asked, flagging down a cab as she stared at him. "Kate?" he asked gently, her head shaking as she quickly gave the directions as she entered the cab; quietly enough so the driver could hear her but her husband couldn't as he climbed into the vehicle. "Kate where are we going?" he begged, not letting go of her hand as she stared out of the window and watched the city go past.

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Stepping out of the cab, Rick quickly paid the driver before he looked around out the surroundings; shocked that Kate had brought him here. They'd both been here before but Kate had spent most of the day in tears and was mostly unaware of her surroundings. Watching as Kate took the first step, he smiled before taking her hand in his and squeezing it; the two of them slowly moving into the graveyard before moving in the direction of the small grave that was in the distance waiting for them. Neither of them had visited since the small funeral that had taken place soon after the incident and they both felt bad. Kate hadn't visited because she was scared and Rick hadn't visited because he didn't want to go without Kate. He wanted to take every step with her. Gasping as she approached it, she turned her head for a moment before she shut her eyes and waited for the tears to stop threatening her.

"We don't have to do this, we can come back again" he whispered to her, holding her in his arms as she shook her head. "Kate, maybe you're not ready".

"I want to do this Rick" she finally muttered before moving away and taking the last step towards her son. Kneeling down on the ground, Kate slowly brought her hand to the grave stone before her fingers traced the name carved into it. Oliver Richard Castle, her son. "Hey baby, it's your mom" she began, talking to him like she talked to her mother when she visited her every year. "I'm sorry I haven't come sooner but I had to make sure I was ready before I came; I didn't want you to see me as an emotional wreck" she explained, the writer watching in amazement as she continued to trace his name with her finger. "Daddy's here too, he's just waiting for me to finish before he starts talking because he doesn't stop" she laughed, trying not to cry. "I'll bring flowers next time but this was a spontaneous visit. Something your daddy said to some people made me want to come and see you properly" she admitted. "But I know boys don't like flowers and you were my baby boy Oliver; you'll always be my baby boy no matter where you are" she muttered; finally letting her tears run down her cheeks. "I gave birth to you; it was eight hours of agony but it was worth it because I held you in my arms even if you weren't breathing and I fell in love with you" she sighed, Rick kneeling beside her as she sighed. "I never saw your eyes baby but I bet they were like your daddy's; you looked so much like him and I would have wanted you to have his eyes because I fell in love with them first" she laughed; leaning back into her husband as they both sat on the grass, staring at their sons grave. "Your father is an amazing man, he's a writer and he follows me around pretending to be more interest in my job rather than me but everyone knows that's a lie" she smiled, Rick laughing at her comment before pressing a kiss to her cheek. "He's funny and he's loving and he's the best daddy in the world I promise baby" she smiled.

"You're mommy's pretty amazing too Oliver" Rick finally spoke, surprising the brunette for a moment. "She's strong but that doesn't stop her caring and loving everyone with all of her heart; she's the most beautiful woman you could ever see and she loves you with all her heart. We all love you Oliver" he admitted, watching as the brunette just stared at the stone. "Not just us but you're grandparents love you and well, you're sister Alexis always thinks about you and all your aunts and uncles care about you as well" he explained before pressing a kiss onto the back of Kate's head.

"We're having another baby Oliver but they're not going to replace you. You're our firstborn not matter what and no one can ever replace you" she sighed, her tears flowing down her cheeks as she bit into her lip and shut her eyes. "We love you so much Oliver and I'm sorry, I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to keep you alive" she sobbed, shocking the writer who pulled her onto his lap and held her close. "Oliver Richard Castle we're never going to forget you, I promise and we'll make more of an effort to visit. We shouldn't have left it as long as we did and that was my fault, I haven't been ready to face it because of what happened to my mom but that's a story for another time" she admitted, smiling weakly before she stared at her husband. "I'd like to go home if that's alright with you" she sighed.

"Of course" he smiled, kissing her forehead gently before they both stood up and stared at our son. "We'll come back soon son, we love you" he whispered, Kate nodding quickly before he began to lead her back towards the road in search for another cab. "Let's not bother going back, I feel like a night of cuddling my wife in bed without being disturbed" he admitted, the detective nodding before she kissed him properly.