I warn you. This is a very emotional chapter so if you're not good with emotion then prepare yourself. You've been warned.
I laid on my bed for 2 days only getting up to use the bathroom, I cried on and off throughout the day. I would get so angry that I would get up and start ripping, and throwing everything in sight I was on one hell of an emotional roller coast you could say. Peeta would call out every half out and I would throw something at the door. I guess he just wanted to make sure I was alive, or whatever I really didn't even care.
It was about 8:30pm on the 2nd night that Finnick burst into my room literally, he kicked down the door.
"Hey there slice and dice!" He said all too cheerfully.
"Go away. Please." I said quietly diving under the covers
"Nope, I am here to rescue and then throw you into a pool and drown you." He said
"Finnick please, just go." I asked
"I can't I'm under orders from Lieutenant Colonel Haymitch Abernathy to make sure you are alive and to give you some awful news." Finnick said with all the cheerful shit draining from him.
I crawled out and looked at him.
"Who died?" I asked sarcastically
He just looked like he lost his best friend
"Oh, someone really did die." I said sadly
Finn just nodded.
"Well who was it? Marvel? Cato?" I asked
He shook his head no.
"Finn, who died." I asked.
He hung his head and I saw a tear trickle down his cheek.
"Second Lieutenant Finnick Odiar who died." I asked not really wanting to know.
There was a long pause, and finally he lifted his head. He had tears streaming down his face. I immediately knew why he looked like he had lost his best friend. It was because he did and so did I.
"Second Lieutenant Kaiden Gloss died when he was shot point blank in the heart and brain at the same time. He died a quick painless death, and he became a hero when he gave up his life to save First Lieutenant Annie Cresta. They were both on patrol when an unknown man came up and put a knife to First Lieutenant Cresta's throat. He immediately gave up his life for Cresta, he died a hero. Second Lieutenant Kaiden Gloss died on July 8th 2013 at 2:20am. That's the reason I was told by Haymitch, I was here not just to check and make sure you were alive. I had no idea that you were hurt." Finnick said formally as more and more tears streamed down his face.
As soon as he said July 8th I realized that July 10th was when Peeta and I were attack. I knew who killed Kaiden, it was the same man who had almost killed me, and he was a smart man. You always need a backup plan and that's exactly the reason he shot and killed Kaiden.
*Peeta's POV*
Finnick had come in and asked if he could see Kat. I told him she had been in her room for the past 2 days and refused to come out. He just asked where her room was and I pointed him to it and wished him luck at getting in. All he did was knock twice and then kicked the door down. I was shocked mostly but frustrated because I hadn't thought of that. I mean we're Marines for goodness sake, I was too nice of a person.
It had been only 15 minutes when I heard the most heart breaking sob I've ever heard come from Katniss.
"Wow, he's good. He can kick down her door and get her to tell him what is wrong in 15 minutes. Damn." I said to myself.
I sat there on the couch listening to her sobs turning into agonizing screams and each one broke a piece of my heart off. I eventually broke and got up to see if I could help, even though she probably doesn't want anything to do with me.
"Katniss? Finnick?" I called as I entered.
The sight I saw before me was not what I had expected. I thought Finnick was talking to her, and comforting her, but he wasn't he was on the ground silently crying. Then I looked over at the bed where Kat was sitting curled up into a ball against the headboard. Her body was shaking and each agonizingly pain filled sob/scream came out.
"PEETA!" She cried out not even moving.
Without thinking I went to her, she needed me and I already had failed her by not coming in sooner. I climbed up onto her bed and pulled her into my lap.
"Katniss, I'm so sorry I said those awful things to you, and even if that is the reason you're crying I'm still sorry." I told her
"Kaiden is dead." She said with every emotion in her voice that was opposite of happiness.
For the second time today I was shocked.
"What-how?" I asked
"The same man who came here to kill you, killed Kaiden for the same reason. Kaiden was his backup plan. He died 2 days before we were attacked. He was killed because of me Peeta! Someone died because of something that I did! He died because of me!" She cried getting louder as she went on.
"Oh Katniss. I'm so so so very sorry." I whispered.
She wrapped her arms around my waist and held on like she was holding onto to her life that I could see that was slowly slipping away. I held her tight too, she needed me and I was going to be there for her until she didn't need me anymore.
"Finnick? Would like to come up here and join us? I asked
He shook his head, but I was done taking no for an answer.
"Get your ass up here Finn," I demanded.
He just did as I asked and got up. He climbed up and rested his head on the shoulder that wasn't occupied by Katniss. Finnick may think he is a macho man but even he needs some comfort and so we all sat there. All 3 of us cried and we stayed like that for the rest of the night and a good part of the next day. Even though I hadn't really know the kid he was my brother, he was a Marine and I did feel as if I had lost a brother, because no one can just get up one day and say he or she is tough enough to be one of us. It takes something special that each Marine has and that's why there isn't that many of us.
It was about 3:00pm the next when everyone started coming back alive. I don't really remember what happened but Kat lifted her head from my shoulder and looked at Finnick and I for a second and took a deep breath.
"Kaiden wouldn't want us to grieve over him for so long. I know we all just lost a brother but he wouldn't want us to grieve over his sacrifice. He saved Annie's life and he would want us to thank him for saving her by living I think." She said in a hoarse voice
I looked at Finnick who nodded, and then I nodded myself. Katniss smiled a sad smile.
"I think it's going to be okay." She said
Finnick and stared at her in disbelief. Was this Katniss talking or was it someone else or was she emotionally delirious?
"Okay, what have you done with the real Katniss" Finnick asked
"Well I was thinking after I calmed down. I tried looking at from Kaiden's point of view, and I knew he would want us to sit here and watch the sunrise and set for days grieving for him. I know I wouldn't I would want everyone to live their lives, and be happy, because if they didn't then what would be the purpose of me dying? It wouldn't have a purpose, and I think that's how Kaiden would want it." She explained
"You know I really hate to admit it but you are right. He wouldn't want us to sit around moping and thinking we shouldn't have any fun because he's gone. He would want to watch us have fun so he could laugh his ass off at us and the ridiculous shit we do." Finnick said as his smile grew.
"Excatly." Katniss sighed
I just nodded and agreed with them. Finnick excused himself to go to the bathroom after a few minutes of letting everything sink in.
"Thank you, and I am sorry too. I overreacted and then took it out on you." Katniss said surprising me with her actually speaking.
"Again I am sorry too, I shouldn't have said all those mean things to you. I am glad that you care and love me enough to die for me, I would do the same thing for you if the opportunity can along." I told her
She nodded and hugged me.
"I love you Katniss and remember that always." I told her as I hugged her back
"I love you Peeta and I always will." She whispered.
And all I could do was smiled like a dumbass idiot.
Okay, so if anyone else got depressed or cried its okay I did too and now you all know why I put Finnick in and not Kaiden. The update after next I have decided to jump ahead again so be prepared for that, also please continue to review. You guys MAKE me WANT to continue the story, so please please review. Alright until next time, love you guys!
-Cass;-*